Chapter 53: C53
Min Joo's pov:
I created so much yet i feel lost, with so much power what am i supposed to do with it? Why me?
not just lost but empty, these replicas of legends about angels or whatnot that i created have something that i don't have, and that's empathy. from my study through the thousands of years about my soul's structure i finally found the problem, my soul took the color of divinity 'god' deeper inside it is a white spot that keeps getting swallowed by my divine self thus making me feel empty as if i lost something.
I received some memories I lost in the past, I don't know but they simply just returned. In them I saw my human life although miserable it was still emotional to a degree and at a point in life I encountered a black spot in my memories and after that it was my version without empathy.
I decided that further studies are required so I created some human trials and added a little bit of divinity to them, each has their own authority. I watched them grow and recorded their empathy's birth and response, and eventually released them upon a random planet.
Afterwards I began to try to assimilate those emotions into my soul once again.
But this only came back in failure, not only did it not work but those emotions were devoured by my divinity like a sponge.
Seeing this, I did not give up and during deep research not only have I cracked new secrets about the soul but finally produced what I wanted.
But...this thing that i created i called it 'The Spark', it had side effects.
A divine being as powerful as me in this universe cannot feel emotions, it is a completely cold being. this is a rule set the universe it self, so you see once i implement the spark into my soul i would be exiled into the overvoid where countless other universes exist protected by an extraordinary shield that i'm sure will be hard to break but still worth a try, i honestly i'm envious of beings i myself created.
They can feel so much in life and I want that.
I stepped down from my throne and cut a crack in space going through it, stepping into the vacuum of space. I held the spark, such a beautiful thing will set me free and so I assimilated it into my divine soul, I felt it.. being accepted but as soon as that came I felt a force crushing me and dragging me away causing me a powerful divine being to pass out!!