ALL NOVEL Chapter 36: You owe me your lips
"Kang Si An, I am tired of wandering. I might be your temporary punishment and mistake, but you are the final ending of my endless wandering. I don't know how to change that."
I regret saying it instantly. I can't see his eyes behind the dark sunglasses or read his expression. When I met him for the first time in the future, he told me that I couldn't change the future. I still have that dagger in my dorm room. I am afraid that his words are becoming true. My future self was in love with him and she was carrying his child. They were planning to get married. Then, am I also going to fall for him?
He looks ahead. "Are you roaming if you know that I am your final ending?"
I am just a chess piece of time. Why do people like me exist? Why do people like you exist? What would I not pay for being a human and be free of whatever is happening? It would have been better if I had not known that you would kill me. That way, I wouldn't see the death coming in each second of my life. Probably, I wouldn't have mind falling in love with you. That way, I would have accepted death as my future self did.
The thing is the future is already changing. The clock is ticking. I am someone who wanders in time. These days, I always end up at a place where you are.
Whether it's your previous reincarnation or you, I don't want to give up my heart.
"Kyuri, you and I... " He hesitates to say the word. "If you want, we can date for real."
The temptation is great. Who would say no to someone like him? He is handsome and eye-catching. I like listening to his voice even when he and I are arguing. When I met him again in the future, I know how he was relieved at the same time that I was alive. I know how he tried to hold me to keep me in his arms. Was it that time? I must have been touched by his feelings.
"No, I like Li Jun." I lean on the window. Well, Li Jun and I are already married.
"What did you say?" He stops the car. "You just told me that I am your destination."
"I like wandering to Li Jun," I mutter under my breath.
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He gapes at her, unable to understand her words for a minute. She likes wandering to Li Jun. What does that even mean? If he is her destination, then why is she wandering to another guy?
"You are admitting that you are playing with both of us?" Kang Si An clasps on her jaw and forces her to look at him. "You will play with that man and try to seduce me as well?"
She raises her brow. "When did I try to seduce you? I don't recall anything like that."
"Do you have short term memory?" He grits his teeth. "You came to my apartment every night. You teased and tried to sleep with me on the same bed. You tried to kiss me multiple times."
"I don't take responsibility for my future self." She puffs her cheeks and glares at me. "Besides, you kissed me too. You even bit my lips and sucked blood like a vampire. You are into kinky stuff, aren't you?"
Kang Si An closes his mouth. Yes, he acted weirdly back then. He regrets it deeply. Why did he do that? He just couldn't resist. He has been acting weird ever since he met her. He wants to know where the hell these feelings are coming from. Why her? He has tons of women who are a lot better than her. Then, why is it this girl who just rejected him now?
"If you talk about that again, I will kiss you again." He threatens her.
"You just want excuses to kiss me." She narrows her eyes. "Say, do you like me or something?"
"Of course, not." He turns away from her. He won't like her. What does he know about her anyway? She is a weird person. Her family is also weird. She also admitted that she likes someone else.
"What is there to like about you? You kissed me without my permission. So, I kissed you. You owe me your lips."
She crosses her arms and looks away. "Using my tactic back on my self, you hold grudges."
"If I had held grudges, we wouldn't be sitting in the same car." He restarts the car. "By the way, kissing is meaningless. Don't think much about it."
It's just a fake contract. A real relationship between them is impossible.
"Kang Si An, I know that you like me." He sees her smirking in the mirror. "You also like kissing me. Don't struggle with your feelings too much. Be happy that I rejected you. In future, if you suddenly feel like murdering me with an old rusty dagger, you only have to remember that an ordinary girl like me rejected the nation's king of heart."
He pushes the break for the second time. This girl! She doesn't know any tact at all.
"I don't like you." He points at her and yells, "I will never like you. If you say one more word again, I will throw you out of the car and run over you."
She chuckles. "The more you say that you don't like me, the more I hear you say that you like me a lot. You still want to kiss me, right? Are you jealous of Li Jun?"
"Get out of the car." Kang Si An growls. But, she makes no move. Her eyes shine when she laughs. He is tempted again to kiss her until she is breathless. If he does that, she will think that he likes her. He doesn't like her smugness. Saying that she wants to wander to Li Jun and rejecting him when he generously told her that they could date, she has some guts. Furious, he drags her out of the car. She smiles at him. It only adds to the fire. He drives away, leaving her on the highway.
"I won't turn around." He accelerates the car.
"I won't turn around," He mumbles to himself and looks at the side mirror. Her figure is still visible. She puts her hands in her pockets and walks to the side of the road.
"I won't turn around," He mutters as he turns around the car and reaches the spot where he left her. The girl is no longer on the road.