Chapter 82
82 – Wings (13)
The usual cold expression has disappeared and he has such a sorrowful expression that no one would be able to avoid being shaken.
At first glance, it seems like there is some more relationship between the two that I don’t know about.
In Eugenia’s heart as she watched the scene, a slight jealousy and anger bloomed without her knowledge.
While Eugenia was barely able to calm herself down, the music finally ended and the dance ended.
Now it was time for Edwin to return to himself, but Iris kept holding on to him, blocking his path.
Eugenia’s anger spread out of control, and when she came to her senses, she found herself caught between Edwin and Iris.
And seeing Iris’s embarrassed face was refreshing in its own way.
Only then did Edwin leave, taking Eugenia with him, and he took out his anger on Edwin under the pretense of being drunk.
It’s a shame that Edwin accepted it silently, if he had made a mistake…
“…I’m crazy…I’m really crazy…”
Eugenia looked into space and muttered with a lost expression on her face.
Once the memories began to well up, they continued to pour in before she could prepare her mind.
After that, when she came to her senses, there was a woman in front of her who seemed to have a bad personality glaring at her.
The daughter of Acelus who clearly hangs out with Eugene.
Claudia threatened her to apologize profusely, and when she refused, she suddenly approached her and tried to slap her.
And it was Edwin who saved him again.
Edwin thoroughly took her side and protected her from that woman.
Yes. Unlike my childhood ‘friend’ who didn’t even look at me and only took her side.
“Eugene…”
When I thought of him, I felt that my heart, which had been pounding while thinking of Edwin, suddenly became cold.
He was definitely my best and indispensable friend, but these days, I feel more and more skeptical about that kind of relationship.
He only said he was a close friend, but he continued to put himself on the back burner.
The adults in the village half-jokingly suggested that they get married later, but if they heard that now, their blood would probably run cold in an instant.
Eugenia turned her head and looked at the profile of Edwin’s face.
Now, when I see him, I naturally smile.
If you think about it, it’s just amazing.
He is Edwin, who has nothing in common with him, so how did he become so close?
Even at first, he was a student with a reputation for being a bully who bullied others.
It’s been a long time since I realized that the rumors about him are different from reality, but now I often think that it wouldn’t matter if he was really a villain.
He treats himself so devotedly, so what does it matter?
On the other hand, it is a bit disappointing.
There is no proper way to repay Edwin and his devotion.
What if, just in case, if he wants to…
“Really… Why are you doing this today…”
Eugenia shook her head as her delusions appeared in her own head at that moment.
The current situation, that she is in his space, wearing his clothes, and leaning side by side with him, continues to cloud my thoughts.
But this is something I have been thinking about these days.
Meeting alone in the middle of the night, sitting next to each other, talking, stroking and dancing together are really just friends… ?
We even spent one night in the same space like this.
No matter how much I thought about it, I couldn’t say yes with confidence.
If it’s because he’s a man, he’s never felt similar emotions towards other people.
Of course, unlike himself, he seemed to really consider Edwin a friend.
It was like that just yesterday.
‘First, let’s go to the dormitory today, then… ‘
‘… Why is it possible for a child named Ellie and not me? ? I want to go too… I want to go now… ‘
Just before getting into the carriage. He complained absurdly to Edwin, and Edwin was unable to overcome him in the end.
As soon as he entered his mansion, he took off his stuffy dress, and in an instant, he was wearing only one layer of thin clothing underneath.
And then he collapsed on Edwin’s bed and fell into a state of despair, and Edwin covered him with a blanket and smiled bitterly.
When Eugenia finally remembered her last memory of yesterday, she could not raise her face.
“What should I do… This is just a promiscuous woman… Why on earth did you confuse alcohol with water…”
Even if you blame the alcohol, it has already happened.
But even though she was embarrassed, she also felt a little upset.
He shows such defenselessness, does it make sense to continue with that attitude?
No matter how much you think of yourself as a friend…
“Stop…Let’s really stop now…”
Eugenia closed her eyes and opened them once, strengthening her resolve.
Right now, we have to make Edwin comfortable first.
I feel bad for leaving him in this uncomfortable position all night.
Eugenia looked around.
The bed wasn’t that far from the door, so even if she was herself, she would be able to move that distance.
Eugenia put her own arm under Edwin’s shoulder, and attempted to get up from her seat as she was.
But the next moment, naturally, Eugenia’s legs lost strength, and the two fell to the floor.
“Ha…Hauhuh…”
Eugenia was literally crushed under Edwin. Edwin still didn’t wake up, perhaps because he had absorbed her shock, but this time it actually became a problem.
Edwin was completely wrapped on top of Eugenia, who had fallen to the floor.
His heartbeat, his breathing, his warm body temperature, all of it is vividly transmitted through just one layer of cloth.
Too provocative touches interfere with Eugenia’s thinking and deny her the choice she should make.
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I should push him away and get out of the current situation, but for some reason I don’t have the will to do so at all.
“…”
Eugenia was lost in her thoughts for a moment.
And it wasn’t long before she was able to come to a conclusion.
Eugenia finally realizes.
The essence of this chewy yet refreshing peppermint candy flavor that I want to experience again and again.
After reaching her conclusion, she looks at Edwin in her arms.
And mutter in a low voice.
“…I don’t know anymore…”
Eugenia’s hands carefully ran through Edwin’s hair. Then, she gave strength to his hand and brought him closer to her.
So that you can feel those sensations more fully.
***
Yesterday, something quite big happened. The meeting with Claudia was like that, but Eugenia’s final sudden behavior was even more embarrassing.
I suddenly want to come to my house. Even though she said her refusal several times, Eugenia, who had not sobered up from her drinking, could not listen to her.
And as Eugenia’s expression grew colder, I eventually raised my white flag.
The cold wind and chills I felt at first glance must have been no illusion.
Fortunately, Eugenia fell asleep right away as soon as we got home, and I continued to watch over her, enduring her fatigue in case something happened to her. And it was only when dawn broke that she finally fell asleep.
I had obviously slept leaning against the door, but when I woke up, I could see the ceiling. It was even covered with a blanket.
She thought Eugenia might have helped her and tried to say thank you, but she had already returned to the dormitory.
I left a simple note saying thank you and sorry, and asking to come to the place I always saw because I had something to say.
So, even though today is not the day to meet Eugenia, I am going to the place at the time we always meet.
I didn’t say it out loud, but Eugenia was probably quite embarrassed as well. Her drunken state was truly a series of eccentricities.
“…Are you here?”
“Hello.”
Eugenia came first and sat on a tree stump in the forest. Even though she said hello, she turned her body to the other side and didn’t show her face.
As I sat down lightly on the seat next to her, there was a momentary flinching movement from Eugenia’s direction.
Eugenia turned her head slightly, looked at me, and opened her mouth.
“I…I’m sorry…I borrowed some of your clothes earlier…I don’t have anything worth wearing…I’ll wash them later and return them to you…”
“Is that what you were wearing? For some reason, the shirt I left next to the bed wasn’t there…”
“Huh…”
A faint moan escapes from Eugenia’s mouth.
“It’s okay. Just give it back slowly. It’s not like that’s the only shirt you have anyway.”
“Ugh…”
Eugenia nodded weakly and answered. And she continued her conversation today on her own initiative.
“… Eugene came and went earlier… She said she had been too neglectful… Yesterday, she came with her…”
“What? Really?”
“Yes… He said he was sorry… So I apologized too… I didn’t do anything very well anyway…”
“Good. So are you reconciled?”
“First of all, that’s true, but… I’m not sure… I have no choice… We’re all the same students at the academy, but when we go outside, it’s a world of difference…”
Eugenia hesitated, as if she wasn’t sure, but as she listened to her words, she felt like her blockage was loosening up a bit. It would be great if her cleavage could be sutured here without it getting deeper.
“And I’m sorry… You went through a hard time because of me yesterday…? I’m so embarrassed… Ugh…”
“It’s okay. That’s possible. I guess I need to be a little more careful about drinking, but…”
“Hey… I’ll be really careful next time…”
Eugenia heard my joking words and let out a weak laugh. She still didn’t show her face.
After a moment of silence, Eugenia asked a question this time.
“Hey, Edwin. Can I ask you one thing…?”
“What is it?”
“…Why doesn’t Edwin call my name…?”
Eugenia’s unexpected words left her speechless for a moment. Have I never called Eugenia by name? Now that I think about it, it really seems like that.
… Now that I think about it, when I called Eugene, I almost always referred to him as him or that guy. Did you feel a similar sense of rejection and unconsciously avoid it?
When I see things like this, I feel like I am in a very difficult situation.
“I…I’m sorry. I don’t know what to say.”
“Is it because my name is similar to Eugene…?”
“…I guess it happened without me knowing…”
But contrary to my expectations, Eugenia did not show any signs of being hurt or sad. She let out a sigh of relief, as if she was actually glad she did.
“…Then it’s okay. I was wondering if there was another reason…”
“…I’m really sorry…I didn’t do that on purpose…”
“I know…And it’s okay so you don’t have to apologize…hehehe…”
Eugenia fell silent again, but I have nothing to say first. After a while, Eugenia, who had not shown her face the whole time, suddenly turned her body completely towards me.
Her light green eyes shine softly in the moonlight.
“Hey, Edwin. Can you do me a favor…? It’s not that difficult…”
“What is it?”
“…It’s a custom in our village, and best friends give each other special names by which they call each other. I like your name, but you find it difficult to call me…So…So…”
Eugenia trailed off, twisting her own hair. But once again, she continues her words as if she had made a firm resolution.
“…So, I was wondering if you would give me a name. Then you would be able to call me comfortably…How about…?”
“…Can I do something like that?”
“Of course you can do it. No, it’s definitely better if you do it.”
This is Eugenia’s decisive attitude that she rarely shows.
I thought there were all kinds of customs, but in the countryside, each village has its own rules, so it’s natural.
Honestly, I have no reason to refuse. That means they think of you as a friend. And if you refuse this time, it could really hurt you…
“…Well, are there any rules or anything like that?”
“Not at all. Whatever name you want, any name is fine.”
In the forest in the middle of the night, I began to worry deeply. Eugenia stayed by my side and waited for me in silence.
And after a while, a name came into my head.
“Then what about Selene…?”
“Selenium?”
“In ancient language, it means the moon itself, or the moon goddess… We met every night. The moonlight shines well even in the vacant lot here. I think it suits us well… Are you okay?”
“Selenium…Selenium. I like it…”
The girl with light green hair repeated the name I came up with over and over again. Even a slight heat and excitement can be felt in the girl’s voice.
Not long after, she looked at me again and made a request.
“Hey, Edwin… Can you call me by my name just once…? By the name you gave me…”
“…Selenium?”
The girl nodded her head as if satisfied. Her face is full of smiles.
Not the usual bright and clear smile, but a smile that conveys deeper and deeper emotions.
“…Yes.”
The girl named the moon looks at me with eyes whose depth is unknown.