chapter 8
8 – These funds are now mine (3)
Unlike his father, who only looked at his mother, his mother committed an affair.
Who is at fault?
To put it bluntly, the mother who committed the affair is ultimately at fault.
No matter how much my father provided the cause.
“Mother. I understand that you have hardly spent any time with your father recently.”
“Ah, that’s not something a child should say…!”
“Yes, but it got to the point where the child had to intervene.”
This is definitely something that should be shared between adults.
“I just didn’t know anything and didn’t do anything…”
But if I don’t do something right now, the situation will get worse.
“That’s why I regret it.”
In a bad way for me and Princess Naria.
“If I had persuaded my father somehow, my mother would not have given in to the temptation of the moment.”
“This…!”
Wow.
“Ah, ah…! That, Gray…!”
“It’s okay, Mother.”
Although it hurts a bit, it is much less painful than when I was tortured in the future.
“You said you should get hit, so it’s natural that you got hit.”
“…….”
“But I still have to say something. Because I am your child.”
I took a light sip of tea and quenched my thirst.
“Is your mother satisfied with your married life with your father?”
“It’s natural. I married him because I love him, and I love him.”
“Yes, you love me. That’s why I rejected the proposal of the current King of Saint George, who was the Crown Prince. Before I was born.”
“…….”
If I were to summarize my mother’s youth in one line, I would say she was ‘the heroine of an imperial-style romance novel.’
In a love triangle, the female lead gets a happy ending by choosing the iron-blooded margrave who is cold to others, but warm to her.
But that’s a story from the late teens and early twenties, a time when love was at its peak.
“My mother is 31 years old now. I remember my father was probably around 35? 6?”
“Five.”
“Oh, I see. Sorry. I was a little confused about this.”
Perhaps because of regression, the number sense is a bit vague.
“Anyway, my mother married my father because she loved him, but I don’t know what it will be like now.”
At this point, when I had three children and was approaching my mid-30s, there was a feeling of disparity between my father and mother.
“According to my analysis…My father and mother kissed only once in the two months before the incident occurred.”
“!!”
“Kissing. The act of sharing love. The act of confirming one another’s love. That’s what I learned from the book, right?”
Of course, I know everything.
But as long as the mother wants him to be ‘not like my son, but still her child’, she needs to accommodate that.
“…What do you think a kiss is?”
“Of course, it’s something that happens between a man and a woman in love. Between lovers.”
“…….”
“I know it all. If a man and a woman kiss and sleep in the same bed at night, a child will be born.”
Mother’s eyebrows lower slightly.
It is clear that he feels slightly relieved and relaxed.
I guess you still think of me as a child.
“So, did you kiss the King too?”
“……!!”
But, that doesn’t mean your affair goes away, does it?
“No matter how much my father didn’t kiss me often, he crossed the line by kissing another man.”
“Ugh….”
“Have you ever had honest counseling with your father? If so, he would have been willing to kiss your mother seven times a day.”
My father is that kind of person.
A person crazy in love.
“But the way I see it, my mother didn’t do that.”
“…….”
“Of course, there is no way my mother would have given her body to the King on her own. The King must have been drunk and forcibly hugged her, and then took her to her room separately to talk.”
“Huh. Wait a minute.”
My mother interrupted me.
“How do you know the existence of that room?”
“…Huh.”
Royal family, third bedroom.
This is a room for the first queen, and at the same time, the current queen Carmen does not use this room.
“That room had been empty ever since the king got married.”
“…….”
“Even Queen Carmen knows. Who that room is for.”
A woman’s pride.
I don’t want to be someone’s replacement, or I go into a room prepared for someone.
For that reason, Queen Carmen is also a proud woman.
“The king must have taken her mother there, and she must have kissed him there, perhaps by force. While drunk.”
“…….”
“Maybe my mother gave her body in the end.”
“…….”
Mother did not even offer any counterargument.
Probably because I have emotional issues that are difficult to tell to others, especially my son.
“Shall I tell you?”
“…Okay. I think it would be difficult to treat him like a child anymore.”
Mother slightly corrected her posture.
“I will treat you like an adult from now on and talk to you. Is that okay?”
“Rather, this is what I hoped for.”
“…Then, guess what I’m feeling right now.”
“You must have thought that your love had cooled off, so you were swayed by the king who still had a passionate love for you.”
“…….”
Mother was silent.
“Isn’t that why you didn’t resist? Isn’t that why you hid the truth?”
Because that was the correct answer.
“He must have been like that from the moment he was invited to the royal capital. Memories of the past and fond memories of the king must have made my mother’s heart pound. That’s why I allowed it. Lips.”
“…….”
“Things happened, and when the king came to his senses, he must have regretted what happened. No matter how incompetent the king is and all, he must have known that he ‘committed it.'”
She must have known that she would be in big trouble if this situation became known.
So, you probably didn’t tell Queen Carmen either.
If Queen Carmen had known, she would probably have had the Queen stay here and somehow persuade her to divorce.
To divorce both of them and remarry her father.
“I just hugged her from behind. I touched her body. It could have ended as something I made a mistake because I was drunk… But my mother probably didn’t know that my father would be so angry.”
“……Okay.”
Mother sighed deeply.
She said, “She dreamed of treason, thought of handing over the country to the empire, and planned to assassinate the king in that way.”
“Yes. Even killing all the servants.”
In one word, to use a somewhat vulgar expression, I would have thought, ‘I’m screwed.’
“In that sense, you must have been embarrassed by what I knew, but on the other hand, you must have been relieved that I was on your mother’s side.”
“……Can you keep the secret until the end?”
“It’s a secret. Wouldn’t that depend on what your mother says?”
There is no perfect secret.
Before returning, just like my father heard my mother’s denial at the execution site.
‘The emperor probably heard it while he was killing the king.’
I think the emperor is also a truly amazing human being.
He hid that secret for years and then told it before killing his father.
“I will help my father, but I do not want war.”
“…….”
“I will move as cunningly as a bat in the middle, trying to suppress and persuade my father as much as possible in my own way. So that he can be satisfied through methods other than war.”
“Are you saying that’s revolt?”
“That’s all I can think of right now.”
If I were to say to my father, ‘Let’s just end it by dethroning him,’ it wouldn’t work.
“Mother.”
I don’t know if it will be possible in the future, but the person I’m talking about right now is not my father.
“Still, it’s your first love, so you want to save it? From your father.”
“…….”
Mother nodded her head slightly.
“That answer is enough. Now, please write a letter.”
I pointed to the ink and feather pens on the table.
“Write the letter and put your seal in the envelope.”
“Are you delivering it yourself?”
“Yes. I will personally deliver the plan and the letter. I will go to the royal capital.”
“No matter how much you are the eldest son of the count, there is no such thing as a situation where you would treat yourself alone…”
“I will make it. That.”
“…Really.”
Mother trembled her hands.
“He’s my son, but I think he’s too smart.”
“I think he needs a son like this right now, so he has no choice but to do this.”
“…If.”
My mother asked me, taking out a small piece of stationery from a drawer.
“If this hadn’t happened, would you have continued to be the same as before?”
“Well, at least I think I continued to be the ‘gentle and good son’ my mother wanted.”
“……I see.”
Mother silently held her feather pen.
“Wait a minute. Still, I’m a little embarrassed, so I’d like to write it alone…”
“No.”
“What?”
“I need to take a look before sealing it.”
“…What?”
“Isn’t it difficult to write ‘the son knows’? I am my mother’s son, but I am also the son of the Margrave of Gibraltar.”
Although I want to go to the royal capital.
“I don’t want to be killed by the king. To keep the secret, the king could kill me.”
“…….”
My mother’s eyebrows, which had been raised, lowered slightly.
“It’s so disgusting, but you don’t want your own son to be murdered by a mistress, right? Then, it’s your father.”
Snap.
“Either way, if the truth spreads, everyone will die.”
“…….”
“Mother?”
“…The word mother sounds so heavy.”
My mother clasped her shaking hands and dabbed her ink into her quill pen.
“Okay, I’ll write it down.”
30 Minutes later.
“…Is this okay?”
I received a letter.
There was no major problem with the content.
“Thank you, mother.”
My red face soon subsided, and after checking the contents of the letter-
“When you leave later, please write another one.”
“…Oh?!”
Burned in a candle.
“Why are you surprised? Did you know I was going to take it with me? Right now?”
“Ah, well, I see. Well, I’m not going to the royal capital right away.”
“Yes. I will tell you separately later. Please call me then and write it down.”
“…You’re seeing it.”
“Of course.”
We will check the contents one more time.
“…Okay.”
As my mother watched the paper burning to ashes, she let out a deep sigh of relief.
“You’ve grown up a lot. Really, I thought you were just a child.”
“…….”
“If you go to the royal capital, be careful of Queen Carmen. She… Seems to dislike me quite a bit.”
Of course.
He took away her first love.
‘Perhaps, from the kingdom’s point of view, it would have been true happiness to have the opposite conclusion?’
Sometimes, I feel like that.
‘No. Then Princess Naria was never born.’
Hmm.
The answer would be to just let the past history go by and change it from now on.
“Mother, I have one favor to ask.”
“What is it?”
“Starting today, you will share the same room and same bed as your father.”
“…….”
Mother’s expression hardened.
“Do you not like it?”
“No, the Count… Wouldn’t he like it?”
Count.
Even after becoming a countess, her mother still sometimes calls her father the count.
It’s like a nickname of its own.
“In fact, you will like it. You never know. This may be an opportunity for our briefly distant relationship to become closer again.”
“…….”
“I will go and tell my father separately. She said that my mother wants a kiss from an adult.”
“Oh, no, that!”
My mother was shocked and shouted.
“…I’ll tell you, so you go and sleep now. It’s very late.”
“…Well, it’s already been so long.”
8 P.M.
It is time for her younger siblings, Noir and Lethar, to get ready for bed.
“Well, I’m really sorry. I think I hurt you a lot.”
“Are you hurt?”
“Yes. And you might get hurt again later.”
“It’s okay.”
If you go crazy in love, it can happen.
“By the way, Mom, can I ask you something personally?”
“…What is it?”
“Why are you estranged from your father?”
“…….”
For the first time, my mother frowned and showed her irritation.
“I know that my mother is not the kind of person who would do something like that impulsively.”
“Impulse….”
“Is there something accumulated?”
“Stacked up? … Huh. Yes, it piled up. Maybe what was built up exploded.”
The mother looked out her window and closed her eyes.
“You will understand when you grow up. Why I acted that way back then. It was careless, but I couldn’t stand it.”
“When I become an adult.”
“Yes, I did cheat, but…”
Click here.
“Three years.”
“…Yes?”
“For three years, I haven’t been able to kiss properly.”
“……Yes?”
For a moment, a chill ran down my spine.
“Well, what?”
“There are simple kisses and there are adult kisses.”
My mother opened her eyes with a slightly cute look and raised her body.
“I’ll let you know when you become an adult.”
“…….”
It was truly an adult-like excuse.
‘Anyway, you had an affair.’
Even if you make excuses like that, it doesn’t change the fact that you committed an affair.
‘Adults are such selfish beings.’
My mother did not say sorry to her father until the end.
I thought you might be able to say that one word, even in front of me.
Just.
It was a little bitter.
Just.
I just hope that I can at least say empty words in front of my father.
Whatever the reason, I’m sorry.
3 Days later.
“Shall we go?”
The plan was prepared, and the carriage heading to the royal capital was prepared.
“To collect the settlement money.”