chapter 7
7 – Haerin Kang (7)
Haerin Kang (7)
[… Kang Hae-rin often dreamed about them. Father and stepmother remarried. And a new brother he didn’t want. She had to run as far away from the traumas of her past as she could to keep them from breaking her down. There was no guilt. If you think of the gloomy days when you had to deny your existence many times because of them. In the end, at some point, the string of rationality was cut off, and eventually, with her own hands, she cut the chain of fate that was boring and tough. Curiously, when the chain was broken, red blood flowed on the floor.]
“……”
vision was black.
‘Did he pass out?’
‘Again like a fool…’
When I opened my eyes, I saw Kang Haerin’s face.
She raised her eyebrows in concern, but at the same time looked very satisfied.
‘The one who takes care of Dong-min Lee.’
getting drunk on it
It is as if he is more immersed in himself while ‘playing’ a hospital play with his younger brother.
“Are you awake, honey?”
Kang Hae-rin put a wet towel on my forehead and smiled casually at my expression.
“You didn’t know?”
“what?”
“I entered. your school.”
A sudden flow of conversation.
As if reading my thoughts, this is the answer to a question I had about what happened at the bar.
“……..”
Not surprising.
With Kang Hae-rin’s brilliant mind, wealth, and other connections, it certainly wouldn’t have been difficult.
The years of hard work I’ve struggled with to escape the damn house is simple to her.
Not even going to school properly.
Kang Hae-rin often moved schools.
Regardless of the department, his grades were always average enough to be inconspicuous, and when he quit, he was almost a ghost story that destroyed his academic record every time he quit.
‘I sure made an episode like that.’
A motive everyone remembers but not in the records.
If she had studied seriously, the top of the department would have been ridiculous, but she had no regrets about the scholarship, and she was only engrossed in erasing her ‘traces’.
“How did you get here?”
I recalled the previous situation.
Don’t get confused.
While I was on the phone with ‘Park Se-young’, I had a sudden panic attack and turned off the phone, not with Kang Hae-rin pretending to be Park Se-young.
“I was worried.”
Haerin Kang gently held my hand and said.
“They didn’t answer my calls.”
Kang Haerin’s hand was warm.
It was strange that he was so warm that it was uncomfortable to say that he had given up his heart as a human being.
“……”
My phone was marked as out of office.
‘is it.’
I was pretending to be Park Se-young on the phone, so you can’t come to me just because I suddenly lost the call.
To make a justification for a visit, take a missed call and explain, ‘I came because I was worried’.
“…it must be a panic.”
I said.
Now, I have stopped taking my panic disorder medication, but I still have a sudden blackout when I am under a lot of stress.
However, these symptoms only lasted about a year.
“Did you have a hard time?”
Kang Hae-rin asked softly.
‘This is because you surprised me.’
For a while, I felt angry.
“… no. It must be stressful.”
“Take it easy. our darling.”
Haerin Kang stroked her cheek and kissed her.
‘… It’s pretty, it’s pretty.’
I couldn’t stop thinking about it even as I watched her hair tucked behind her ears with the demonic hand that had strangled so many without hesitation.
A perfect smile is drawn as if practiced.
Maybe she knows too.
That I’m weak against stress
Of course, I can’t tell her that I noticed her ‘acting’ and fainted under pressure.
I have to pretend I don’t know about her until the end.
“… It’s been hard since I’ve been out for a long time.”
“Those friends.”
Kang Hae-rin speaks scarily before I finish my words.
“Do you know that I am your girlfriend?”
“……”
Her eyes were quiet as she waited for an answer.
Under the artificial light of fluorescent lights, her hair looked as if it had been dyed.
The slightly red pupils are fixed on me.
“Of course.”
I said with a smile.
“Why would I hide something like that?”
“……”
We have already talked about it over the phone.
Even though I heard the answer, Kang Hae-rin confirmed to me as the second, not Park Se-young, but as Kang Hae-rin.
Are you saying I’m your girlfriend?
‘As expected, he was paying attention.’
I felt a strange feeling.
Whoops.
A vibrating sound broke the awkward silence for a moment.
It was Kang Haerin’s, not mine.
“sorry.”
While apologizing for not being very sorry, Kang Hae-rin checked the message and frowned.
“what’s the matter?”
“I got a call from friends I saw earlier.”
“Did you get in?”
“See you next time.”
“I see. But what’s wrong with your expression?”
“I won’t see you anymore.”
“why? You looked happy.”
“Did you see that?”
Haerin Kang gazed at my lips.
She is holding me in my arms.
“I just need you.”
“… me too.”
“When I am with you, my mind is at ease.”
“……”
I couldn’t help but laugh at her cute confession.
Regardless of whether those words are true, I know how cruel her ‘unstable’ heart is.
Her hair smelled good.
As she brushed it down, it matched with her hot body temperature, making it seem like she was holding a large dog.
It looks like a cat or a snake.
Who would believe her if I told her that she is a monster, despite her courteous and social appearance at first glance.
She whines only for her boyfriend, but hides a cruel heart that says that she will abandon herself only when she is abandoned, and she is afraid of it.
Only I could know.
This woman is a murderer and a girl at the same time.
When I think of her, I feel betrayed.
The depressing feeling of seeing my legacy from the difficult past and the guilt that I had to create something like that.
However, knowing her secret truth, her pain, her pain, and her disillusionment, paradoxically, I couldn’t hate her more than anyone else.
A beautiful and fearsome animal, she is.
The insidiousness of trying to test my boyfriend by calling him in another woman’s voice is terrifying, but trying to find out my feelings even by doing that is pitiful.
“self?”
Kang Hae-rin raised her head in my arms.
“Suddenly, my heart beats fast.”
“… okay?”
She smiled and walked away from me.
“Are you thinking the same as me?”
“… uh?”
Kang Hae-rin smiled mischievously, put her hand on her cheek, and looked at her with eyes that were now red.
Jjook.
overlapping lips.
It is a very light and charming kiss.
This would be a kiss rather than a kiss.
“I can’t stand it anymore. what to do?”
Haerin Kang smiled awkwardly and said.
That face slowly came to me.
I closed my eyes.
Tongues intertwined and exchanged saliva.
The scent of grapes wafted from the place she touched and left.
When I slowly opened my eyes, I saw Kang Hae-rin closing her eyelids tightly and concentrating on the kiss.
“……”
And finally, our lips parted, and the sticky saliva between her and me reflected in the fluorescent light.
Her face flushed a bit.
“…not going well.”
Haerin Kang muttered.
The kiss just looked dissatisfied.
I was dizzyingly good, but it seems that I do not meet certain standards she thinks.
“I’ve been imagining a lot… but I guess that’s not enough. Kissing is also about using the body, so it should be possible to practice like jumping on a vault or practicing tennis, but he keeps rejecting it…”
Kang Haerin muttered something.
I burst into laughter at the dumbfounded appearance she had shown so far, Kang Hae-rin, who can do everything.
It’s like a little cute and pretty Chinta.
It’s ridiculous that I call her Chinta.
Unlike me, she was always at the top of her group, looking down on the other person.
“… I was good. Harin.”
“… Shall we try again?”
Kang Hae-rin said as if she had no regrets.
In this moment, I was sure.
There was strength in the assumption that the relationship between her and I hadn’t progressed as deeply as we thought.
Just because I’m hesitating so much about kissing.
If so, ‘I can’t stand it’ is…
Whoops.
This time my phone vibrated.
“hmm? take it.”
When I didn’t answer the phone, Kang Hae-rin tilted her head.
“……”
[Lee Dong-min. Did you get in?]
it was my sister
“… Yes, then. It’s already evening. Are you calling now?”
I whispered as I glanced at Kang Hae-rin, who was sitting on the bed in a W shape and staring at me.
[Isn’t something wrong?]
my sister said
“… why is there such a thing?”
[Previously, I was also in a drowsy dream, so I was distracted, but your expression kept flickering. Dongmin, you know that when you have worries, you can tell from the expression on your face, right? It feels like a kid with an immaculate face suddenly becomes dull.]
“what…”
[Who are you with?]
I stumbled upon it.
[Why do you whisper like that?]
My sister was also sharp.
To be honest, I am a person who is very interested in what I do, so I am amazed at seeing lies.
In fact, she was also a person like my mother.
“……..”
I glanced at Haerin Kang.
It’s not another woman, but I’m talking to my older sister, but I’m very concerned if she’s watching from the side.
But if Haerin Kang and I hadn’t slept yet, her obsession with me wouldn’t be so severe.
Because that’s the turning point.
“Oh, I’m with a friend.”
“……”
Haerin Kang smiled with her mouth pulled back, but strangely, the same shy feeling as before had disappeared a little.
Not angry, but oddly expressionless.
‘Yeah, this isn’t good enough.’
[See, you’re obvious. Dongmin, at least you can’t lie to me. Because I know everything.]
The words of an older sister who pretends to be a little proud.
I said tearfully.
“… Oh, actually I’m with my girlfriend. My girlfriend is also a friend, but I’m afraid I’ll misunderstand you. I must be clear.”
[………]
“hello?”
There was a moment of silence over the phone.
Then, a burst of laughter ensued.
[… Ahahahaha. After becoming a college student, Lee Dong-min became more generous. hahahahaha… that’s funny I’ll hold my sister’s belly button.]
My sister laughed for a long time.
“… I’m sorry, but I’ll call you later.”
I was a little annoyed that I couldn’t calm down after laughing for so long, so I hung up the phone.
“Who are you?”
Haerin Kang’s question.
“… sister.”
I really didn’t want to say it.
I pretended not to know in the morning because I didn’t want to get my sister involved with Kang Hae-rin, who is an unpredictable being.
However, if I lie here, as my sister said, it is rather dangerous if it is obvious that I am lying.
I decided to admit it because she was just an older sister anyway.
“Me again.”
Haerin Kang smiled brightly.
“Why are you so nervous? self. Did you really think that I would be jealous of even my older sister?”
She said with a subtle mix of flattery and respect.
“Then am I more sad? We agreed to respect each other’s privacy. Yes? It’s okay if I have a female friend. As long as you keep the line.”
… it’s not.
I tried it on the phone earlier.
“I will go now.”
Haerin Kang got up from the bed.
“I bought grapes and peaches because I thought I was lacking in vitamins. study while eating Understand?”
side.
She kissed my forehead.
“I want to do more, but I think my condition is not good, so I endure it while stabbing my thighs. know?”
Kang Hae-rin was so natural, so he went back to the ‘original’ Kang Hae-rin, who was not natural.
He is a cool, proactive and skilled horse.
“…….”
Why didn’t I know yet?
Thinking that Haerin Kang and I haven’t had a relationship yet, all of those actions feel ridiculous.
full of bluff
‘It’s the first time for me too.’
Since she learns everything quickly, the only reason she can accept that as bravado is the timing right now.
I felt a slight chill as I recalled her ‘quick learning rate’ described in the study.
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Tadat, Tadat.
[…”Failed again.” A voice broke from Kang Hae-rin’s mouth. “But I’m shy.”]
[… “You have to be careful at first. don’t take me lightly Isn’t the union of men and women important? I value it, so I do it when I am ready.” Haerin Kang talked to herself as if to soothe herself. What scent will Lee Dong-min remember her lips with today? It must be the scent of grapes?]
[… It was also directed that he ate grapes on purpose when he showed signs of waking up. When she goes back, Lee Dong-min will chew on her lips again while eating the grapes she bought. Lips as soft as grapes.]
[… I was scared. The self who longs for him even more.]