chapter 7
“right.”
She seemed perplexed by the unexpected development.
“Why are you doing that?”
“I want to make a deal with my father.”
“deal?”
“You need persimmons to make dried persimmons. When it comes to Daebonggam in our neighborhood, you cannot miss the ‘Jeonggilsan Orchard’.”
“It was because of the feeling.”
She seemed to be contemplating something.
I decided not to bring up another story. The matter of her marriage and the fact that she decided not to see her if she couldn’t keep her promise.
Even if I said it, it seemed like it would only upset my heart.
“But how do you sell it?”
“What?”
“These fruits. Where are you going to sell it?”
“online.”
“online? Is that possible?”
Her curious reaction was understandable.
It was still in the early 2000s. Buying and selling things online was not the responsibility of the individual.
There was also a time when I thought that creating a website was a huge task.
She had a face that she didn’t know at all.
“I thought you said that if the fruit doesn’t sell, you won’t sell the persimmons?”
“right. I promised so.”
“Don’t make that deal.”
She looked straight into my eyes and said.
“I can fix it.”
“Are you going to solve it?”
“My father did it all because of me. I don’t like it yeah The sparks splattered on you.”
“Is it because of you?”
I listened quietly to her. It was like a confessor. It was verbose, but to sum it up, it was a simple matter.
Her father, like any parent, wanted her to live happily in a stable job. The problem was her. She aspired to become a novelist. I went to graduate school to write. However, she gave up writing after graduating from graduate school.
After that, everything went into a mess.
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My parents told me to get married as soon as possible, and they were constantly arranging matchmaking. I’ve been told that if you’re going to live happily ever after, you should also get rid of the jeonseok in Seoul.
After listening to the story, it made sense that she wanted a house.
As I listened to her, I found out why she later failed to get married. She was just like me. He married a man whom he had no affection for.
She said with a grassy face.
“I came down to my hometown to clear up my messy mind. I don’t know if I’m lucky or unlucky, but I got to meet you again.”
“It’s lucky.”
She tried to smile, but there was sadness in her face.
“I will tell my father.”
“What?”
“Don’t make such a deal, ask for a sense. With that alone, you will definitely be able to succeed. I will be able to pay off my debts.”
“I’m heartbroken. I’m going to fall into per capita soon.”
“How can you talk like that?”
“How about my words? You don’t trust me like your father.”
She shook her head in embarrassment.
“I will not fail this time.”
At my words, she paused for a moment. I decided to go one step further.
“If this job is successful, let’s make dried persimmons with me.”
“Dried persimmon?”
I couldn’t do any farming alone. Besides, she was faster than she looked.
I also needed someone I could trust. It was something I was worried about when she came back to Sangju.
“He said he gave up writing. I don’t even know what I want to do. In that case, it’s best to use your body. If you look closely, you can see that he has quite a bit of dexterity. work with me I will take care of my father.”
“What will you do if you fail?”
She still had a worried face.
“What did you say to me when you went to Sangju together? You said you’d fail? Yushin Hwang said there was no reason to accept me. I remember?”
She nodded.
“I will not fail this time. And, as you are well aware, damaged fruits are also the eternal trouble of Jeong Gil-san Farm. If you solve it now, your father will like it. And I didn’t mean to do it for free. They agreed to receive 20% of their profits.”
Her expression, which had been anxious, had softened a little at that time. I seem to be starting to see faith in my face.
“Are you really confident?”
“Believe me.”
It wasn’t just a word. I had 15 years of experience as an advertising planner.
There was an advertisement project that was commissioned by an agricultural cooperative. Coincidentally, what the advertiser wanted to sell was the damaged fruit.
Even if it wasn’t the original price, I wanted to sell it properly.
At that time, I discovered the contradiction in the distribution structure of agricultural products and found a niche market. I got to know people who want to buy fruit at a cheap price regardless of the scratches.
Fruit sold wholesale was sold at a high price with a wholesaler’s margin attached. Fruit prices fluctuated in the hands of middlemen.
If you sell online, you don’t have to go through a middleman. All I had to do was tell the people who wanted it.
If you apply marketing technology to it, sales are easy.
The problem was the site where people could check and buy things. When I was an advertising planner, I outsourced it, but now I need someone to build the site.
It was also the reason I went to Seoul.
“I’m going to Seoul for a few days.”
“Seoul?”
“I have someone to meet.”
“who?”
“You will see it soon.”
I saw her off and returned home.
* * *
As soon as we had breakfast, we prepared to go to Seoul. I got into my father’s car and headed to the terminal.
Dad asked with a worried expression.
“I should have persuaded you.”
“it’s okay. father. Everything will be fine.”
I thought that making a deal with Kahee’s father went really well. It was a good opportunity to try and sell agricultural products.
I thought that I would be able to give my parents a certain trust.
I got on the express bus to Seoul.
A lot of developers I’ve been through came to mind. At that time, few people were able to build a site on their own.
Even outsourced developers were rare. There was only one person I knew who could do it.
He was a close friend in high school. He was also a promising programmer until he had an unfortunate accident.
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Now it was time to meet him.
programmer
Baek Min-seok, he was my best friend in high school.
At that time, we were obsessed with games. However, the way I enjoyed it was a little different. If I were a player, he acted like a critic.
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Minseok liked to analyze games and design them himself. He studied how to move to attack the next stage.
Every time he talked about his exquisite attack method, I burst into cheers.
“Baek Min-seok, you are a game genius.”
Grasshoppers were also in season. I quit the game before the entrance exam. I didn’t even have the skills to become a pro gamer. However, Minseok was persistently holding onto the game.
I thought he was doing it because he liked the game. He said that he wanted to choose computer science as his major, so I didn’t think it was strange.
After graduating from college, I didn’t see him very often. Out of sight, out of mind. Due to his busy college life, he was less and less meeting with him.
“Minseok, how are you?”
“How long has it been since Kim Deok-myung?”
I met him again after getting a job at an advertising agency. There was a lot of work that required outsourcing services.
Advertisers tried to lower unit prices, and outsourcing companies had strong resistance. When I was struggling with a difficult task, I remembered him.
“You said that you won an award in computer programming in college, and would you like to make a website too?”
“Well, it depends on the specifications.”
He has been working as a freelancer since his undergraduate days. It was possible to build any site by myself. He said he used the money he earned to pay for tuition.
He said that it is more convenient to be a freelancer than to get a job. I also felt comfortable dealing with him who works as a freelancer. After that, we worked together a few times.
Like old friends, our hands and feet fit together quite well.
I think I worked with Minseok for about a year. And suddenly the news broke. It was only after I went to his house that I found out that the unfortunate had happened.
I had to hear from the hostess’s mouth that he was not of this world. It was only after his death that he found out that he was suffering from depression.
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Minseok had been suffering from a mental illness for a long time.
* * *
I got off at Sillim Station and bought ramen and soju.
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Min-seok lived in the highest place in Sillim-dong. There were no town buses. I had to go up a mountain.
There was Minseok in the rooftop room of a three-story brick house. As soon as he climbed the iron stairs that looked like they were about to collapse, he came to the space where he lived.
It was a place that touched the sky. I opened the door and entered the room. A foul smell stung his nostrils.
“What? This is rotten. Hey, Baek Min-seok. Get up now.”
It was like a homeless house. There was a foul odor all over the house. I have clothes in the house and I took the duvet to the laundry hanger outside. It looked like it had not been washed or cleaned in a long time.
He also lived as a game junkie at this time. On the outside it looked like there was nothing wrong, but on the inside, it was already burning.
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Minseok was wriggling on the floor.
“Do you know what time it is? Wash up and relax.”
He threw a towel at him and said. While he was washing, he boiled ramen. It was instant ramen noodles. Eating ramen on the roof with him remained a vague memory.
“What’s up? Without contact.”
“I want to see you.”
When I saw him, I wondered what would have happened if I had known a little earlier. Suddenly, I remembered my past.
When I became a member of society, it was difficult for me too. I couldn’t afford to take care of anyone. Even if I had known Minseok’s condition, it wouldn’t have been easy.
“First, let’s eat and talk.”
There was a small bench outside the house. Minseok got dressed and went outside. I gave him freshly boiled ramen.
It was difficult to get home, but the scenery was amazing. Seoul was under my feet. We ate ramen without a word.
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Minseok’s mourning was not a word. I thought I’d talk to you after I ate something. After emptying the pot, he opened his mouth first.
“The sun will rise in the west.”
“What do you mean?”
“You said you didn’t want to come back to my house because it was hard. A long time ago.”
“Has it been that long?”
“It’s probably been a million years.”
“sorry.”
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My heart ached. What he said was true. Throughout my college life, I was busy. I never opened my eyes to preparing for the competition and building up specs. I thought that I had to do that to survive the competition.
I poured soju into a glass. Minseok took a drink and looked at me with suspicious eyes.
“Do you have anything to say to me?”
“It’s a ghost.”
Soju ran down my throat. I was drunk today. He looked into my eyes and drank a drink.
“There are times when Kim Deok-myeong is agitated.”
“Come back home with me.”
“hometown?”
After all, his hometown was Seoul. However, he spent most of his childhood in Hadong.
After her parents divorced, she spent her school days at her mother’s house. He often said that his hometown was Hadong.
“What are you going to do when you go down to the corner?”
he asked, taking a drink.
“Let’s farm with me in the countryside.”
“farming?”
It was a bewildering tone, but his eyes were strangely shining.
“To try to make dried persimmons with Hadong’s famous Daebong persimmon.”
“Persimmon?”
I explained to him what happened before and after. He also spoke without exception of the fact that he received the technology from Hwang Yu-shin, a master of dried persimmons.
“You know what to do. What am I going to do?”
“You have nothing else to do.”
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Minseok’s expression was serious. I calmly talked about the plan to create a site.
His expression changed when he said that it was a site to sell not only dried persimmons but also various agricultural products.
He nodded his head halfway through and showed a positive reaction.
“The plan is great. Do you have a question?”
“Say it? whatever.”
“Why are you talking to me like that? Why are you doing this with me?”
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Minseok looked straight into my eyes and asked. He even asked for water. No matter how close we were in high school, we didn’t see each other often in college because we were busy.
It seemed strange that he suddenly appeared and said that we should work together.
“I’ll be honest.”
I clapped a glass and had a drink.
“As I lived my life, there was nothing like my hometown friends. I need someone capable and reliable right now.”
“What if my hometown friend refuses?”
I didn’t think he would make any resistance.
“I want to become a rich farmer. I will make you rich too.”
“Rich Farmer!”
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Minseok laughed out loud at that. It wasn’t a laugh. It was a happy face.
“And one more thing.”
“what?”
“I know you have no intention of getting a job. That’s why I’ve been working as a freelancer until now. With me, I can give you freedom.”
“freedom?”
“Freedom from the city and freedom from money.”
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Minseok listened to my words and poured a glass full of alcohol.
I found a blog post he wrote like a diary after he died. The writings that had not been erased were left like a suicide note.
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Minseok repeatedly wrote that he wanted to get out of the city. But he had no hometown and no one to welcome him.
The family where he spent his childhood was no longer inhabited. It is because the grandmother who raised him has arranged everything after the death of him.
Besides, he was in a difficult financial situation. He said he earned his tuition on his own, but he still had student loans left.
He paid off his loan and took his life.
“You can work anywhere as long as you have a laptop. I will be responsible for everything related to farming. You only run the site.”
“Only the site?”
“You just have to take over the site. And getting out of town will help you too. Because Seoul is not for you.”
It was getting dark in the evening.
He looked at the city lights and said.
“I can’t design.”
“don’t worry. I will take over that part.”
When I was an agency, when a designer made a punk, I used to replace it. In fact, when I was working with him, I designed all the resources myself.
“Think lightly. He said that he would go back to his hometown and rest in the fresh air.”
“I like that.”
“Then you agreed.”
“I haven’t accepted it yet.”
“You can go and come back if you don’t like it.”
“Then give it a try.”
“great. Then go down tomorrow.”
“So fast?”
“You should also remove the horns in a short time.”
We drank our last glass happily and lay down on the bench. Minseok was tired, so he fell asleep quickly. I was crazy. He pulled out a blanket and covered him with it.
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Minseok’s face was glowing red in the light of the street lamp.
After reading the text that was left like a suicide note, it was understandable that he had made an extreme choice. The end result was suicide due to depression, but behind the scenes there was an unspeakable loneliness.