A War Hero With No Regrets

40 – Old Friends (1)

It was a frustrating daily life.

Every night, I fall asleep exhausted from crying, and wake up in the morning with a bed full of tear stains.

After that, I remained blank for a while, and only then did I start getting ready for work when Julia Anke came to pick me up.

The human heart was like wooden chopsticks.

It breaks just by lightly snapping your fingers.

In the meantime, there was a lot of food, so when I tried to pull myself together and took out a new pair of chopsticks, they quickly broke again.

A life where you check your will every morning and your will is broken every night.

Even though I lived my life pretending it was no big deal on the outside, on the inside I was rotting and falling apart.

Although he tried to hide the pain in his own way, it was not to the extent that the people around him could not notice.

Especially if it is someone who especially cared for her.

It was thanks to Julia Anke that Leah Gilliard decided to meet people from the Graveyard.

Originally, I wasn’t planning on going.

They are close people, and I always have grateful memories, but they were a trigger that made me vividly remember my memories with Luther’s Ethan.

If you go and burst into tears, there is no turning back.

She remembers when she first got her memories back.

It was a terrible memory.

It was even more so because Luthers Ethan, who had been by her side, sharing the pain and hugging her, was not there.

I looked at the scene he was seeing.

I got a glimpse into the world after death, which I would never have been able to see before.

It was so cruel and miserable that it made me vomit, and just thinking about it felt like my brain was being forcibly massaged.

Luther Ethan had done this 40 times.

Even though I could have shaken off everything and run away.

Or even if you become dull, don’t give your heart to anyone and make them a victim of war.

No one could have criticized it.

However, Lutus persevered in his duties.

To accept everyone’s criticism and insults in silence and give them the gift of peace.

There is a difference as big as heaven and earth between simply knowing death and fully feeling the emotions caused by that death.

For Leah, who opened Pandora’s box that her lover had kept hidden until the end, it was also something she had to deal with completely.

-I don’t want to go….

-No, Leah. Come see her. This is an order. Do you know what your condition is like now? The life has disappeared from my eyes.

-It’s just because I’m tired….

-Is it normal for a tired person to not be able to sleep and cry all night? You are very broken. I don’t know what happened that day when you received strange text messages and letters… Still can’t do it. Come back. Come back and let her cool off.

But Julia Anke forced her outside of her.

It was because it looked dangerous.

It looked like he was going to leave at any moment.

Every morning, when Julia headed to Leah’s lodgings, she was afraid that she would find her ankle floating in front of the front door.

However, she happened to hear that members of the Graveyard were gathering in the capital.

As Leaini expressed special affection to the people of the former fortress, including Argen Orca, wouldn’t it be possible to heal your tired mind and body a little if you go there?

That was the schedule that was decided.

Of course, contrary to what Julia thought, Leah Gilead does not die.

It hurt so much that I wanted to die, and although I actually had that thought a few times, suicide could not be an atonement.

Luther Ethan did not leave because he disliked them.

Rather, they left because they loved themselves.

He thought that his presence was becoming a charm for lovers.

He must have been exhausted at the same time.

How many deaths did she face during her forty regressions?

Each time, Luthus would have held on to his own body and sobbed, and in the next episode, he would have vowed never to do this again.

While starting a whopping 40 new lives.

Leah realized.

The fact that it was Leah herself who became Luther’s bewitchment.

Even if your lover dies, you can just move on.

The world was wide and there were many people.

At Luther’s level, she will be able to meet a woman who is much prettier, younger, and more capable than herself.

Rather than throwing away all glory and disappearing like he does now, he could have enjoyed that glory as a worthy war hero.

With the Lutheran Ethan that Leah Gilead knows, humanity could have won victory even without the people of the Graveyard.

Definitely!

But Lutus chose regression every time.

He is the one who said that as long as he survives, he can move on to the next level.

If Leah and other women were killed, he would have taken his own life without a moment of hesitation.

All of them were saved.

This is Luthus Ethan, who finally twisted the fixed future with the result of ‘death’.

A person who was destined to die ended up surviving, so what can we say if this is not salvation?

In order to atone, he had to be alive.

You have to live and suffer.

They just shed bitter tears as they quietly look at their ex-lover, who is happily living in a place they cannot see.

“Yes, that’s right.”

So we have to move forward.

The fact that Luther is not by my side is scary.

The expression he made every time he saw him was sad.

Even though every time he takes a breath, pain ache in his chest.

We must move forward.

That is returning the love that Luthus has given us so far.

It can be said to be a sincere gratitude toward the lover who finally achieved the salvation of mankind.

Leah Gilliard stood in front of the mirror and reviewed her outfit.

***

Leah Gilliard put her body on her train heading to the capital Hohenvaren.

This was also because the hosts of this meeting, Charlotte Evergreen and Drake Brown, worked in the capital.

Of course, Argen Orca was currently wandering around the Southern Military District.

However, since the location of the inspection office itself is under the Supreme Command, she will be able to attend without difficulty.

[This train is a direct, direct train from Branberg to Hohenvaren. The time taken to arrive is 5 hours.]

[The train is leaving.]

Rattle, rattle.

The train that departed from Branberg Station passed through the bare plains of winter and quickly passed through several cities.

Leah Gilead just watched the scenery outside the window.

In the past, I would have made a lot of fuss and taken pictures.

You may have had a chat with the person sitting next to you.

But I didn’t feel like it right now.

Her fingers twitched as she had nowhere to go.

A crazy, longing voice rang in my ears.

-When everything is over, let’s take a trip to the capital.

-Really?! I’ve never been there before! Definitely go!!

Luther’s Ethan patted his head, looking at him with happy eyes as he was running around like a monk.

-I’m sure you’ll like it. You like looking at the scenery, right?

-Well, wherever I go is fine as long as I can be with Luthers. Instead, it’s a promise. Don’t take your Arhen sister with you. Are we going alone? Please! Absolutely!

We had promised to travel to the capital together, but now she was alone.

Realizing that fact, Leah Gilliard simply bit her lip.

There was definitely someone who held her hand warmly.

There must have been someone to look forward to on her broad shoulders, someone to have a casual conversation with and laugh with.

[Our train will soon arrive in the capital, Hohenvaren. I’ll say it again. We will soon arrive at Hohenvaren, the heart of the empire.]

[Passengers, after the train comes to a complete stop….]

Leia turned her head and looked at the road leading to Hohen Varen.

The panoramic view of the city vaguely visible over the horizon was, as the saying goes, very beautiful.

A city that has barely been affected by the aftermath of war and retains all of the glorious history of the empire.

But apart from being pretty, there was no emotion whatsoever.

She wonders what use all this scenery is without him by her side.

Kuuu.

As the train entered the tunnel, the blue sky soon turned pitch black.

Tears that had formed in the corner of her eyes, reflected beyond the window, were falling down her cheeks.

***

“Hey, Leah. “It’s this way.”

Downtown of the capital, Hohenvaren.

Leah Gilliard turned to face the bear-like man waving his hand at her.

Drake Brown.

She wasn’t in a very good mood until she arrived at the capital, but Leah burst out laughing at the familiar sight.

“Drake!”

How long has it been since I smiled?

Tadada, she ran quickly and hugged Drake with all her strength.

“Oh my, why are you so excited? “If you’re going to be this excited, please contact me in advance.”

“I’ve been busy recently. Oh right, are you feeling okay? I saw the news article. “Brooklyn disaster.”

Even after a month, she was talking about it on all kinds of communication media, so there was no way that even Leah, who had turned off her mind from the world, would not know about it.

“Yes, I was there. Fortunately, both Mr. President and I were safe. Oh, by the way, Leah, you know that? I saw someone there….”

Drake, who was smiling and continuing his conversation, suddenly stopped.

“Oh, no. Let’s go in first. “Because the weather is cold.”

“… ? All right.”

Drake wiped his forehead with his hand and led Leah inside the restaurant.

And there.

“Leah, it’s been a while. How have you been doing?”

Argen Orca was looking at her with her grinning smile.