ALL NOVEL chapter 40
40 – When my eyes turn red (6)
As I stood up, Irene looked at me with a worried expression.
Unknowingly, laughter leaked out. Eyeballs illuminated by the moonlight are bright red,
Thinking that he looked like he was about to cry at any moment, he smiled slightly while holding his sword against the ground.
“Did you cry?”
“…I didn’t cry.”
And why am I rubbing my eyes? Anyway, my vision was still blurry.
If I stay like this, I will pass out again. He blinked his eyes wide for a moment, then sighed and exhaled.
I had no strength in my body. It’s probably because he drew mana to the limit. If I had fought the trolls longer, I would have been the loser.
A fishy taste lingered in my mouth.
As I spit out the blood that surged up in my throat, Irene looked at me with a hard expression.
“If it is an internal injury, get treatment quickly-“
“It’s okay. It’s just that I overworked myself a little and twisted my intestines.”
To be honest, I didn’t expect you to say such a thing so calmly. But it really felt like that.
The extent to which the internal organs are twisted, isn’t it a wound that will heal in a few hours? All of the troll’s attacks were dodged.
His face was slightly grazed and the ax bounced, and he suffered internal injuries, but it could be said that he was much less injured than expected.
Irene waved her hand and said it was okay, but Irene’s expression did not ease easily.
I was glad for her heart, so I smiled and looked at Irene.
I couldn’t have imagined something like this when we first met, but isn’t it quite surprising to see him pretending to be so worried about it?
The masked expression was nowhere to be found.
What shimmered in those blue eyes was warm concern, so I casually shrugged her shoulders once.
“…Really fine.”
“I wasn’t worried.”
“I know. I just said it once.”
As I smiled while saying that, Irene glared at me with her sudden frown.
It would be nice to be honest, but it seems to me that everyone was worried about me.
Maybe I was ashamed to admit it.
As I stared at Irene like that, she soon turned her gaze and opened her mouth again.
“I’m going to investigate Roman this time. Was there anything strange about Sir Adele? Of course… It doesn’t seem to have much to do with him lying down like that.”
“…Well, I didn’t feel anything special because it was all that I got hit and flew away at first. By the way, are the original Roman family eyes purple?”
Hearing the name Adele made me feel drained of energy.
I didn’t even want to bring him in in the first place, but after saying that he would come and fight, he left from the start.
Fortunately, I won, but it might have been a little easier without him.
The only thing I felt uneasy about was his purple eyes.
The color of the eyes of the troll is also purple.
Since it returned to its original color when it was decapitated later, it was probably dyed purple during the black magic.
Adele’s eyes were also purple, so I couldn’t help but be suspicious.
After listening to her words, Irene pondered for a while, then she nodded her head and opened her mouth.
“Maybe it was originally purple. By the way…if Sir Adele fell out first, then that troll must have been entirely yours.”
“It happened that way.”
She stared at Irene blankly staring at her troll for a moment, then she trembled at the sound of her voice coming from behind her.
That exaggerated laugh must have been Sir Chris.
Turning my head, I saw Sir Chris as expected. Sir Chris, who approached me while tapping my shoulder, smiled and glanced at Irene and me.
“You get along pretty well. Just, is it okay to hold on like that? I don’t know if anyone sees me as a lover.”
“…Did you see that?”
“Of course, I was the only one who saw it. Everyone else is preoccupied with taking care of Sir Adele. Actually, I knew from afar that you were just asleep, but the lady was so serious that I couldn’t say anything.”
“Sir Chris.”
Irene cast a cold gaze.
The voice that came out of his mouth was so cold that Sir Chris laughed awkwardly and scratched his head at it.
“Um…What. Wouldn’t that be a good thing in its own way if it was good? It was the first time I had ever seen a young lady worry so much about someone. Having a good relationship with the escort knight is never a bad thing.”
“Be quiet. Because your head is ringing.”
“…I understand.”
Irene let out a sigh for a moment, then looked at me with a frown on her face.
It looks like he has something to say, but maybe he can’t because Sir Chris is by his side.
Somehow, it seemed that the tips of his ears looked red. I wonder if it was embarrassing to be caught hugging earlier.
When I smiled while making eye contact, Irene replied coldly.
“What are you laughing at?”
“…No, just. I am out of strength.”
Irene, who glanced at me for a moment, moved her steps like that, and I narrowed her eyes at Sir Chris.
“What if you tell me straight away that you saw it? You are a very shy person.”
“Well…I just said that it looked nice.”
“It’s not that it looks good, isn’t it that you just wanted to make fun of it?”
“That’s half right.”
It’s so absurd that it only makes me laugh.
I opened my mouth a little, and Sir Chris frowned at him, then smiled wryly.
“Anyway, just run after him quickly. I have to go and soothe the pout.”
“…That’s how it should be.”
After she said that, her face seemed to heat up for some reason.
She was pretending to be okay, but in fact she was quite embarrassed about Irene hugging her.
How many people wouldn’t be taken aback when he suddenly hugged someone like that?
She could still believe that this place was not a forest but a garden full of roses.
The warm body temperature that touched her body, the eyes that always waved as she looked at me.
And the faint beating of her heart made her chest tickle.
I inhaled and exhaled deeply for a while, but my beating heart did not calm down easily, so I smiled bitterly.
How would you react if you put people in trouble like this? I missed it this time, but next time…
Maybe it would be a bit difficult to just skip it. He stumbles and takes another step.
The steps toward Irene were not as heavy as before. Maybe it’s because of my mood.
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“The night forest is dangerous. Going alone like that makes me anxious.”
“…Then you should have followed sooner.”
Her strange grunting looked very cute, so I slightly looked away from Irene while touching the corner of her mouth with her hand.
“Did you leave Lopena at the Duke’s residence? Because she hasn’t been seen since before.”
“I stopped coming with you. If there are trolls, it will be difficult to protect Lopena.”
For some reason, Lopena’s face seemed to be clearly visible. She
She was an immature guy for her age, so she might cry when she sees me.
She didn’t cry even Irene, but she was almost on the verge of crying.
Obviously, it was a little surprising that she cared so much about me.
Of course, if there’s one thing that bothers me, it’s that when Irene looks at me, she’s always looking at someone else.
Maybe I’ve been through something similar to this before.
Her However, since I couldn’t ask her directly, I ate her lips and just kept her mouth shut and started moving her steps again.
Obviously it was quite bright when I went up to the top,
Seeing how dark it was, I felt like I knew for the first time that time had passed.
If this is the case, you shouldn’t lie on the floor and hold on for a while.
The stars in the sky were no different from usual, so it felt like my fight with the troll was just a fantasy.
The story I heard from Janzir. Is it also an illusion that there is something about my lineage and mana?
I tried to raise the mana just in case, but now the mana that was barely left in her was only reacting and did not appear outside her body.
Her body stumbles and she collapses on the floor.
Irene looked at me and opened her lips slightly, surprised by the sound as I suddenly sat down.
“Evan?”
“I got caught on a rock. It’s nothing… Ugh.”
I just said it was nothing and tried to stand up naturally, but I felt a tingling sensation in my breastbone.
Did you just brush your teeth while fighting the troll?
As I frowned at her pain, Irene, who had come in front of me, hurriedly opened her mouth.
“If you are injured, you should have told the wizards earlier and received treatment. Why the hell are you so stubborn…!”
“You said you weren’t worried, so why are you crying so hard?”
When I answered her pouting her lips, Irene’s expression hardened coldly.
Did I look too pouty? However, I felt that way. If that’s the case, I’d rather be honest with you.
Maybe it’s just greed. That she was worried about me, she laughs bitterly at this longing to hear a word like that.
By the time the pain in her chest had disappeared, I looked at Irene and then slowly looked away.
The stars pass through the sky. When the shadows in the dazzling moonlight separated us. Irene pursed her lips.
“…I was worried.”
Turning her head at her words, Irene turned her head away to look at her and shut her mouth.
However, she glanced at me again and opened her mouth again as she gently closed her eyes.
“I did a lot, I was worried.”
“……”
“I even put a handkerchief on her so she wouldn’t get hurt, how could she not be worried?”
I was at a loss as to how to express the emotions I was feeling right now.
I could hear the occasional beating of my heart in my ears, and soon heat rose from her reddened face.
Even though she only said that she was worried. Her voice tickled her chest and seemed to reach her heart.
Didn’t you know that saying you weren’t worried was a lie?
Didn’t she know that because she was shy, she just pretended she wasn’t? However.
When she heard those words, her expression collapsed little by little.
A hot breath leaked out between the slightly parted lips, and it soon scattered and disappeared in the cold wind of winter.
The shadow lifts. The light coming through the trees illuminated Irene, making her blue eyes seem to shine even more in the dark.
Eyes reach. I breathed in those blue eyes that pierced her chest and seemed to reveal all of her inner thoughts.
“…Lady.”
I wanted to say something. My mouth was itching to spit out anything right away.
The words that came out of my mouth were such meaningless murmurs. I felt my eyes shake.
The emotion that ran through her body was obvious bewilderment, and she just stared at Irene with her eyes wide open.
However, Irene stood up from her seat without saying anything.
She seemed to have said all she had to say when she turned her back without hesitation and looked up at her sky in silence.
I just stood up quietly and walked over to her side.
She thought something she didn’t need to say.
She stood like this beside her, who stood still, and she stared blankly into the empty space before pulling out her handkerchief from her bosom.
The color of her handkerchief has not changed at all. Although her face and body were covered in blood and already hardened,
As much as her handkerchief was as pure white as when she first received it, she ate it and laughed.
I couldn’t keep my word not to get hurt, but did I keep this promise?
“I will return it.”
At that, Irene, who looked at my hand holding her handkerchief, stared blankly at me.
Asking what she is giving now, she slowly opened her mouth at the look in her eyes asking for an explanation.
“Didn’t I tell you not to dirty it? I put it in her arms and fought.”
“…In the meantime, were you paying attention to this?”
“Because that’s what the lady said. Isn’t that what she usually always carries with her?”
“There are a lot of handkerchiefs. Not that important in the first place-“
“It was precious to me.”
As I said that, I smiled lightly.
She said that everything she said now was sincere, and she just stayed still, making eye contact with her quietly.
It was precious to me. It was the first time that someone worried about me and gave me such a sign.
It was the first time that someone cared about me.
“It was the first time. That someone cares about me.”
Innate talent was not always a good thing.
If you look at the sheet music, you can accurately grasp all the notes,
It was never a good thing to hear new notes in my ears when I looked at the notes.
My memory, not Evan Fried. Having a natural talent was something Evan and I had in common.
However, if there is a difference, wouldn’t it be that my talent has strangled my life and eventually destroyed it?
He has talent. Since I always excelled at people, no one worried about me.
When I made a mistake, the only thing that came back was a cold gaze, and those who were clapping started raising their fingers and pointing at me.
Why do you think I won’t make a mistake? Why do you think I won’t break down?
I was a human, not a machine. Things always went wrong in unexpected ways.
I am also a human being, how can I do everything perfectly without making a single mistake?
Now he holds a sword, not a piano, and although he is full of talent, he could die at any time.
No matter how much a Master is, if an arrow is stuck in the heart, it’s the same as dying, so even if I’m a Master, can I always win against all my enemies?
What was always in my heart was anxiety.
If I make a mistake and collapse someday, if I don’t prevent the tragedy that will happen to Irene.
Sometimes I swing my sword at dawn, not because I’m diligent, but because I just couldn’t sleep.
Shaking. When the hand holding the sword trembled, he clenched his teeth and swung the sword more vigorously.
Does she know the meaning of her worries to me like that?
Perhaps to the extent that it cannot be exchanged for anything else.
To the extent that she agonizes over giving up her mind to go back to her original world with just that one word.
The most precious thing to me was that one word.
I was worried about not getting hurt.
The boy who tried hard to hear every single word he said was still here,
Looking at Irene like that, he smiled again. Irene’s eyes shook as she looked at me.
Perhaps slightly startled, her eyes, slightly wider than before, turned to me.
“…You don’t have to give it back.”
Her answer was quite unexpected, so I stared at her in bewilderment.
What do you mean by not having to give it back? After saying that, Irene moved her steps towards her.
As I stared at her while standing still, Irene, who turned her back for a moment, quietly opened her mouth.
“I have it. It can get dirty, so she just always carries it in her arms.”
“But-“
“… I think she’s always worried. Just like this time, she won’t fight recklessly alone again. Don’t startle people.”
“……”
“Come back with a little normal…smile.”
The dark eyes shook.
Hiding the corners of her quivering mouth, she turned her head again, but I was still chasing the blue light in front of her eyes.
Soon there is silence. A rhyme that can only be felt in a quiet forest surrounds you,
The forest dyed with white starlight and black darkness looked like a piano.
The sound of a grasshopper buzzing. The occasional sound of running water.
Irene’s breathing, heard even in the white noise, mixes with the wind and flows as one rhyme.
And laughed.
The music she hated so much, this melody created by nature, now sounds more beautiful than any other sound.
“I will definitely do that.”
Normally.
He smiled like that.