chapter 33
5. Obsession
To be honest, I had nowhere to go.
I couldn’t go back to college, and I couldn’t lock myself in a PC room I didn’t go to.
More than anything, I felt like running away.
The thought of not acknowledging reality and running away.
After that, there was a different reality.
Students must do their part as students. It reminded me of a cliché I heard in high school.
It seemed that there was a study cafe near here.
It was an unmanned, 24-hour study cafe, but I quit it before because it was possible to study for a fee.
I cut off 24 hours at a time and used it in pieces during the exam period and forgot it, so it seemed like there would be a few hours left.
No, it didn’t matter if there was no time left.
Because it was a matter of putting time into it.
It wasn’t long before the test was over. Kyung-hee will take care of it, so I thought it would be good to stay up all night studying.
So I went to the study cafe, paid at the kiosk, and chose a seat.
And I started studying. All I had in my bag was a practice book and books for my major, but that was enough.
Coincidentally, the subject was also brain-intensive engineering.
The test range was already memorized. Because that’s where I learned.
After studying for several hours, I remembered one fact.
“It’s raining.”
I looked at my phone and it was 3:00 in the morning.
I had to go to sleep, so I needed to go back to my room.
It was raining hard, so I thought I should buy an umbrella or something.
But it seemed like it would be okay even if it rained.
I’ve read it somewhere People who use umbrellas are people who have nothing to wash off their minds.
So, I wanted to wash my mind while getting in the rain.
But the other things didn’t have to get wet, so I packed slowly.
I put my wallet and cell phone in the bag and zipped it tightly.
And he put the cloak he was wearing on top of it.
At this level, I thought the contents would not get wet, so I walked to the officetel.
The rain came down hard, and it didn’t wash my mind.
It was natural. Because it was just a literary expression.
But it did make my head cold.
Kyunghee was in a serious condition.
Because I couldn’t get farther away and couldn’t get closer.
Rather, it was so severe that I thought it was okay to hide it until now.
The reason why he hurt himself was spectacle.
If you stab my acquaintances, you stab me because I feel sad.
He didn’t seem to think at all that it was a criminal act.
“…………………..ha.”
A long sigh came out from the depths of his lungs.
If we didn’t know each other, we could have ignored it.
Hit someone who didn’t have it. It’s a match that didn’t exist. I could have asked that.
However, to bury it like that, Kyung-hee dug several oysters in my heart.
in Gameland. in a comic book room. either at a restaurant.
At that time, Kyung-hee used to say that she was really happy to be with me.
I was not determined enough to ignore those memories and treat a person named Kyung-hee as something that never happened.
“……It’s annoying.”
And Kyunghee knew me too well.
On the way to the officetel, Kyunghee was standing.
I had an umbrella in my hand, but I didn’t use it.
It is a kind of protest. I’m going to do this until your heart is free.
I did that knowing that doing so would make my heart soft.
While thinking about it, I tried to ignore it and go into the officetel, but at some point I was getting an umbrella from Kyunghee.
As I slowly opened the umbrella, Kyunghee got out of the umbrella.
As if my side wasn’t allowed.
“…………………………..”
“You catch a cold in the rain, Siwoo.”
“you.”
“I’m fine. I have a lot of heat in my body.”
“How many hours have you waited?”
“From 11:54. That’s when it started raining heavily.”
“……………………………”
Kyunghee smiled brightly.
Her lips and cheeks were already stained blue.
I tried to scold him once, asking if he had decided to catch pneumonia, but he ended up saying it.
I went into the building, repeating that I didn’t have to worry about Kyung-hee anymore.
The two agents just stood there watching the two of us enter.
Looking at it now, I could see that I had been tricked again.
“The government’s arrest is also a lie?”
“That’s right. The government asked me to. Cooperate.”
“The request must have become a request soon?”
“Yes. I needed to set up a stage. So, I set up a stage and invited the actors.”
“Then why are they here?”
“Why do you think there is?”
Kyunghee’s red eyes shone.
I thought you were playing psychological warfare again.
So I realized that I would not get caught in your intentions and kept my mouth shut.
In the first place, I was half-buried in the burrow Kyung-hee had dug, and I was floundering.
Kyeong-hee smiled and said, probably realizing that I had realized that fact.
“Siwoo. Were you thinking of running away? Were you thinking of turning away?”
“…….I don’t know.”
“I know. I know everything. But, Siwoo. I love you, but how are you planning to run away?”
“……………………………”
“Can I find another love? No. You’re not the kind of person to make a new relationship out of my memories.”
“…………………………..”
“No matter what you do or who you meet, it will remain deep in your heart.”
“……You’ll find out about that later.”
“You seem very angry. You can release it on me. I’m your slave, punching bag, and ona hole. Use it however you like.”
I didn’t answer.
Then he laughed. It was because I thought of a good method.
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Just as I can’t shake off Kyunghee, Kyunghee can’t shake off me either.
Realizing that simple reason really made me laugh.
“Siwoo. Why are you laughing?”
“Because I’m curious about your reaction.”
“What reaction?”
“Haven’t I told you on the net before that I hate people who outright lie to me and hide the truth?”
“…………ah?”
“Until you really spit it all out, I’m going to treat you as someone who doesn’t exist.”
“Lies. Heart, bar… beating… pupils…?”
Kyunghee’s ears perked up in an instant.
I guess it was because I realized that I wasn’t just saying it, I was saying it with sincerity.
Kyung-hee would come up with another way, but for now, it seemed like I had won with this one.
So, ignoring Kyung-hee, I put my bag down and went into the bathroom.
After coming out of the shower, Kyung-hee was staring blankly into space.
A meaningless moan flowed from his mouth incessantly.
It was obvious that he was worried.
If you lie to me, you will continue to be ignored.
But if you tell the truth, you will be abandoned.
It was close to an out-of-the-box option that neither I nor I could choose.
It seemed like he was just thinking about it for a while.
Due to Kyunghee’s personality, I wouldn’t carelessly spill water.
It was obvious that I would roll my head while watching the situation for a while. If you can escape the shock I said.
I went into the room without giving Kyeong-hee a glance.
Then I locked the door and put on my earphones.
Kyunghee won’t open the door and come in.
Because it crosses the line.
I used the affection that still remained in me as a hostage to maintain my obsession, but it seemed that I would not do anything to get rid of that affection.
Of course, it didn’t matter if I opened the door and came in.
Because then I felt like I was really going to lose my temper.
If it was to the point of hurting myself because I hated it, the possibility of direct harm to me was extremely small.
Rather, I felt like I was going to punish myself for thinking that I was going to hurt me.
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Just in case, I put the earphones in one ear.
In case something happened, it was to respond immediately.
Fortunately, what I was worried about did not happen.
There was only the sound of someone scratching and knocking on the door.
The sound continued until I fell asleep.
In the morning, the alarm went off.
After washing and eating, it was time to go to school.
When I opened the door and went out, a sudden wind blew.
It seemed that Kyunghee had ventilated it.
The reason was immediately clear. Kyung-hee was sitting on the red-stained toilet paper.
Nearby lay a brown-spotted cutter knife and scissors.
“Sorry, do it. Siwoo… toilet paper. I’ll buy it right away.”
I ignored Kyunghee.
“Do you mind the smell?
I thought it would be nice to eat lightly this morning.
Let’s bake eggs and bacon and spread jam on bread.
And I thought it would be okay to drink coffee.
Koreans say rice is more important than bread, but it is still a balanced meal if you eat bread often.
“…………Ugh.”
Kyunghee sobbed.
It was as if he had been unable to control his emotions all night and had hurt himself.
I don’t have the confidence to break open the door and threaten me directly.
However, I cannot make all my acquaintances disappear so that they only look at me.
It seemed like there was no choice but to do that to Kyung Hee-gi, who was paying attention to me for being obsessive.
For a while, I washed the egg with water, thinking that there would never be a day when the smell of blood would stop in my room.
Kyung-hee’s sobs were soon drowned out by the sound of baking bacon.