Chapter 269 Guilt
Chapter 269 Sin ≠ Wrong
His eyes were shining brightly, and Zaijian Liyi was subconsciously looking forward to it. Could this person in front of him, who seemed to know everything, bring something to the table? !
Lu Mingfei frowned slightly. Without knowing the whole situation, he naturally couldn't understand the sudden change in the eyes of the person in front of him, nor could he fully understand the complexity contained in that question.
Red Word cannot describe much information other than the crime. Everything can only be speculated by Lu Mingfei himself, so he naturally cannot understand the girl's specific life.
He only knows, only knows, and only pays attention to everything in his mind.
On the spring mud, the vehicle where a family of three went on an outing was playing melodious music, but it exploded the next second. There was not even a scream, only the flames were burning, and the black smoke was extremely pungent.
In Xia Chan, the brother and sister are fighting for watermelons in the courtyard, and the gunfire destroys the peace. The exploded head spread out a bloody mist that filled the sky, fishy and hot.
In autumn, the sisters stepping on the ginkgo smile like silver bells. The next second, the poisoned girl was still smiling, but her face was bruised and lifeless, like a horror doll.
In the winter snow, a family of four, sleeping together, had their heads cut off in their sleep. Indescribable clumps of blood flowed out, and the patter of blood was extremely harsh.
Dozens of different bloody images were still flashing in his mind, as if someone had forced all the horror movies in the world into his mind.
The force almost burst Lu Mingfei's brain, and it was still playing in an uncontrollable loop!
All kinds of negative emotions were swelling, like muddy water mixed with stench dripping into the clear lake, stirring up Lu Mingfei's inner lake that was trying his best to maintain calm.
The annoyance that was almost overflowing made my brain tingle, and the pores all over my body seemed to be sealed, becoming more and more clogged.
Facing this source of extra discomfort, Lu Mingfei naturally didn't look good.
There is nothing to say, he just wants to end it as soon as possible!
"I guess I'm asking you a question?"
Lu Mingfei frowned and emphasized again, his hands unconsciously exerted force, and the two circles of his wrist made a clicking sound.
The hairpin penetrated a little deeper like a threat, and more blood flowed out,
"Stop talking useless nonsense!"
"answer me!"
The questioning and scolding mercilessly froze the glimmer of hope in Zaijian Liyi's eyes into solid ice. When the wind blew, it shattered into black crumbs, pricking into his frozen heart, and a dark gray blood flow of disappointment flowed out.
The anger mixed in those unpleasant words caused the divinity she saw at that moment that could bring salvation to be shattered, and the god collapsed - a huge gap rose in her heart.
Faced with the disgust and malice that could not be hidden in those words, she couldn't help but tear the remaining "ninja" identity in her heart to pieces.
It shouldn't be like this, sin, name, age, birthday, a character who knows everything about her, shouldn't be like this.
He should be more decisive. After confessing his crimes, he would send her life to hell with a knife, and then attach a fire of karma that would never be extinguished!
Or to put it more grandly, pointing out the direction of salvation to the lost, even if the end of the road is death, even false compassion is enough.
He shouldn't be like this, powerfully and uselessly stabbing a wound that is innocuous and leaves only scars with worldly disgust and his own anger.
The inner hourglass was in danger, the outer wall was broken, and the sand inside completely flowed out. For the first time, Zao Jian Liyi smiled rebelliously in her heart, facing her invincible existence.
"In what capacity are you questioning me?" Zaijian Liyi actually asked, not caring whether the sharp weapon on his neck would penetrate deeply, "The deceased? Or the family members of the deceased?"
Seeing Lu Mingfei's slightly stagnant chest, she narrowed her eyes slightly.
"Not at all."
"So are you a law enforcement agency? Are you an omniscient and omnipotent god? Or are you a demon who sees injustice on the road?"
"Or,"
Zao Jian Li Yi murmured, her voice was a little soft,
"An unrelated passerby?"
When facing a sinner, emotions, responsibilities, judgments, and punishments, which identity card he draws is extremely important.
"What does it have to do with you?" The girl's vaguely thorny rhetorical question was uncomfortable. Lu Mingfei responded coldly, with a tone of disgust.
"Why should I answer you, an executioner who has at least seventy lives on his hands?"
The blade penetrated a little deeper again, and he pressed unhappily. He just wanted to get the answer immediately and end it all.
"Answer the question I just asked, I don't have much time to waste on you!"
So it’s a waste of time?
Her delicate body couldn't help but tremble.
She suddenly felt that she was cheaper than prostitutes. At least they would not be judged as a waste of time because of their beauty and flattery.
"I understand!" Seeing that Li Yi could not find the disappeared hostage "Lu Mingfei" anywhere, he suddenly sneered, "Are you here to rescue the two kidnapped children?"
"So you are a law enforcement agency?" She tilted her head and looked at the person in front of her, her eyes slightly lowered, and there was unspeakable complexity in her voice. "Then you should at least treat the prisoners preferentially, right?"
"Would you consider putting me down so we can have a nice chat?"
Lu Mingfei felt confused and couldn't help asking in a cold voice, "Are you sick?"
"Do you have any medicine?" The girl was not afraid at all and curled her lips sarcastically.
Lu Mingfei froze. He didn't expect that she would do this to him in this situation.
Angrily, he emphasized again, and turned his mask towards the struggling Night God. Lu Mingfei's tone was slightly cruel,
"Stop talking about what's there and what's not, and answer the question I just asked, or I will make you more miserable than death!"
"You also know his past?"
Seeing that Li Yi followed Lu Mingfei's movements and turned her neck quickly, she quickly guessed a lot.
"That's right! He doesn't kill people directly, but puts on a torturing posture. All his limbs are severed, and the knife seems to be coated with poison."
"I understand, are you punishing him for the crimes he committed before? You are not a serious law enforcement person, are you?"
A flash of understanding flashed in her eyes, and she stared at the sliver of rat eyes on the mask, the hope in her heart rekindled.
My mood changed again in an unknown way.
Zao Jian Liyi asked the question again very seriously, and there was no sign of being a "little cold girl".
"At what angle are you punishing him? Avenger?"
"Or are you standing on the high ground of morality and justice? Standing on the high court of judgment?"
"Or maybe," Hayami Riyi asked, "he's just a person venting his anger."
A series of questions took effect at this moment, and the blow to his heart completely interrupted Lu Mingfei's thoughts.
Because since he received the mission of "Crime and Punishment", this was also an issue he was thinking about, but he put it aside for the time being, until it was brought up again at this moment.
Yeah, where does he stand? What angle can you stand on?
There seems to be no angle. He just accidentally relied on the ability of the Red Word to know the sins of others, and then made the most instinctive reaction unconsciously.
But Lu Mingfei also knew that even if the law could not uphold justice, the hatred of evil that was close to lynching was essentially just to comfort and satisfy himself. Apart from that, it had no other substantive meaning.
This is also the reason why Lu Mingfei restrained himself from taking the last step of "kill!" no matter how angry he was - because he didn't think that was the answer.
On this topic of crime and punishment, hundreds of years ago and thousands of years later, everyone always had their own opinions. How difficult it was to take sides, and how could he find the optimal solution in a short time.
Confusion and irritability mixed together, which stiffened the words. Surrounded by unhappiness and anger, the ability to think was locked.
Unable to answer, Lu Mingfei couldn't help but fell into a daze for a moment, but he only heard the girl's words coming one after another like artillery.
"It seems you don't know it yourself? Forget it," she murmured as if she was asking a question to herself, looking at Yagami Shumu who was struggling,
"Now, can I ask you another question?"
Without waiting for Lu Mingfei's reaction, Zao Jian Li Yi was completely immersed in her own world.
"Tell me, if the criminal over there dies, do you think it was the knife that killed him, or you who set up the trap?"
"No! No! That's not what I want to ask. In your eyes, he might deserve to die. It's the kind of death that makes people happy."
The girl shook her head.
"Then let me put it another way. If an innocent person dies, will people blame the knife that stabbed him to death?"
Seeing Li Yi looking straight at Lu Mingfei, he tilted his head and asked,
"It's still the man with the knife."
Of course it's the man with the knife.
With the answer in his mind, Lu Mingfei remained silent. He vaguely guessed what the person in front of him wanted to say.
"I'm just a knife." Hayajian Liyi expressed the thoughts that he had been instilled in him since he was a child in a declarative tone, but there was an unobservable depression in his voice.
"If you ask why a knife cries, what answer can you get?"
"She doesn't even remember it herself!"
Ignoring Lu Mingfei's silence, the girl continued to speak.
Under the various stimulations quietly brought by Lu Mingfei, the "ninja" had completely degenerated long ago, so his words were inevitably filled with different emotions.
"Can we go back to the question just now? In your organization, or in your eyes, are all living beings equal?" Persistent doubts!
Lu Mingfei, who had limited information, could not understand. The words and deeds of the person in front of him from just now were really inexplicable!
For a moment he questioned him, for a moment he seemed to be defending himself, and for a moment he came here again.
What kind of stimulation caused her to turn upside down and become what she is now? It’s really confusing!
What on earth does she want to do? !
Claim innocence? Clear yourself?
"If they are equal, why did you only save the two people who were kidnapped today?" Zaijian Liyi asked in a deep voice.
"Other girls are happy to go to school and worry about whether they can complete their homework on time. I am undergoing ninja training and struggling about whether I can survive tomorrow.
"Where are you?"
"Other girls were shopping around, joking, trying on one beautiful dress after another, while I was ordered to kill, bleeding and breaking bones while running away.
"Where are you again?"
"You didn't show up when I was most desperate for hope. Could it be that you are standing here now and saying 'waste of time' to me?"
The gradually increasing resentment and the words that reflected the past allowed Lu Mingfei to continue the bloody scenes in his mind.
Unconsciously guessing, Lu Mingfei had some awareness - she really regarded him as a god or a demon to a certain extent, and had some inexplicable thoughts.
"If we are not equal, what qualifications do you have to ask me some incomprehensible questions here?! And what reason do I have to answer you!" The suddenly aggravated tone may hide unreasonable anger, the girl who calls herself "Knife" , sharp words!
"You are asking! You are angry! But why are you still suppressing your anger?"
Zao Jian Liyi stared straight at the sliver of rat eyes, his gaze seemed to penetrate the mask, and confronted Lu Mingfei face to face.
"If you think I'm guilty, just kill me? What else is there in ink?"
"Come on!" She leaned forward, the iron hairpin penetrated deeply, and blood flowed, "Kill me!"
"Do you think," Lu Mingfei pursed his lips slightly, "I don't dare?"
The words were full of murderous intent, but Leng Xi didn't score even half a point.
"What?" Zaijian Liyi smiled sadly. It was clear that her life was in the hands of others, but she was more like the one who had taken the initiative.
Lightly straighten your neck and let the hairpin continue to penetrate deeper.
His eyes were filled with an unspeakable brittleness, but the words coming out of his purple lips were not like that.
"Then you think,"
"Am I still afraid of death?"
How can a person who is not afraid of death really care whether his life is in the hands of others?
"I just don't understand."
She shook her head slightly, and the short hair on her shoulders swayed lightly, as if she was no different from the girl in class who shook her head silently when she couldn't answer the teacher's question.
"I don't understand why you showed up at this time and not earlier!"
"I don't understand!" She looked at Lu Mingfei without hesitation,
"What are you asking about a knife on the shelf? What are you venting about?"
A past that cannot be chosen, a life that has not been saved, all emotions sealed up and stuffed into a box that is on the verge of being broken. Is this such a person?
Lu Mingfei's eyes became enlightened, and he gradually became aware of the life of the person in front of him.
He understood those tears.
He gradually touched her emotions.
But
"If you kill someone, you kill someone."
A few minutes behind the iron hairpin in his hand, Lu Mingfei explained softly,
"Yakou is smarter than anyone else. You obviously have your own thoughts, but you insist on comparing yourself to a knife without thoughts?"
"Do you think that by blaming all the mistakes on others, you won't be guilty at all?"
"Or do you think that if you say that, I will let you go out of pity?"
"If you really failed because of this, because of this bluff, then you made the wrong calculation from the beginning." Lu Mingfei said coldly, "Don't worry, I had no intention of killing you from the beginning to the end."
"Killing you will only dirty my hands." He added silently, but little did he know that this sentence would completely crush his frozen heart into pieces.
The cold emphasis was on loading the gun, the malicious suspicion fired the firing pin, and the bullet of consequentialism hit the center of the eyebrow, but the blooming blood was so cold, stiffening the thin chest that was constantly rising and falling.
He is obsessed with the crime she committed and has no solution.
For a long time, silent,
Zao Jian Liyi suddenly lowered his head, and just watched the red flowing on the iron hairpin dyeing Lu Mingfei's leather gloves black, but it couldn't soak in the slightest warmth.
"I never said that I am innocent! I don't need your mercy at all!" Muhu seemed to be shaking the color of red wine, her voice was cold and filled with anger, "Even if you are really a god in the sky! You are from Demon of hell!"
"I have killed people! I have killed many, many people!"
She couldn't help but grit her teeth, and her chest resumed its rise and fall, which was even greater than before.
"But if I had a choice, do you think I would choose this kind of life?"
Who would be willing to be precarious than a beggar, cheaper and humbler than a prostitute? !
"I just want to live!"
Uncontrollably, Zaijian Liyi's vision gradually blurred, and a lifetime of unwillingness erupted in the next question,
"Tell me, what's wrong with wanting to live!"
If you don’t work hard to pass the training, nine out of ten, ninety-nine percent, or nine hundred and ninety-nine out of a thousand will be eliminated! That's her!
If she didn't get out of the island, she would be the one who was pierced through the chest by a bone blade, the one who was "killed" in the trap of catching wild beasts, and the one who was pushed into the deep sea like a piece of meat and garbage, she was the one!
If she didn't complete the task, she would be the one who was strangled, strangled, or had her head blown off by a bullet!
"You can all live in the light," Zao Jian Liyi's eyes were twinkling, and his words were like pearls.
"But don't think so,"
"The world is bright!"
The feeling of water is accompanied by unclear emotions in her heart. Zao Jian Liyi's eyes have accumulated the warm rain after many years. She doesn't know clearly. That kind of emotion is called grievance!
If there were any mistakes along the way, it would be her who would die!
"If you were me, you might not be able to stand here!"
"I, I." Uncontrollably, she suddenly choked up.
The clamped hands twisted and struggled, but she didn't want to break free. She just wanted to wipe away the dazzling water in her eyes. She was so worthless!
"It's very rare for me to stand here, okay?"
"It's not easy for me to live until now, okay?"
"What you said, what you just said! You said I was seventeen years old, didn't you? I am only seventeen years old!" Zao Jian Liyi growled at the confused Lu Mingfei, "In the beginning, I and I What’s the difference between the two kids kidnapped today?”
"I also want to be an ordinary girl! I want to go to school normally! Graduate normally! Make friends! Fall in love! Work! Get married!"
"I also want to be pampered by my father for no reason, and I want to be scolded by my mother with a smile!"
"I also want to be woken up by an older brother who might rub his head and say, 'Let me sleep a little longer.'"
"I also want to be disliked by some younger sisters who stay in bed and jump on me! I muttered, 'Sister is so lazy, get up quickly, get up quickly!'"
"If it hurts a little bit, I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid."
The voice is getting smaller and smaller, but the longing is getting louder and louder, the two are intertwined and choked,
Choking.
"I also want to go on spring outings with my parents, compete with my brother to eat watermelons to relieve the heat, step on the leaves on the ground with my sister, and watch the same snowfall with the whole family under the same quilt."
"Even if I die tomorrow, I still want to have a birthday."
"But can I? I can't!" Zao Jian Liyi looked at Lu Mingfei and shouted hoarsely,
"My name, my age, the crimes I committed, and even my birthday! You obviously know so much, why don't you know that I have no choice at all!"
"Anything you say about killing me will dirty your hands. Why does it seem like I was wrong!"
She has killed many people, she is a knife, and she is an executioner.
She is guilty! Damn it! Deserve to go to hell! Boil the pan!
She can admit the crime!
But did she really do something wrong?
Lu Mingfei can always be obsessed with seeing Li Yi's unsolved sin.
But even if God is really here, it cannot be said that she wants to live. Wrong!
She doesn’t recognize it!