chapter 8
‘anger?’
No, it is a more complex emotion than simply expressing anger. heartbreak. love and hate regret. It is not that the light and lively atmosphere unique to the puppy waltz has disappeared. However, there was also a sense of weight and tension that made him clenched his fists somewhere along with him.
“…”
“…”
It wasn’t just Baum. Chris and all the audience, even Luther, felt something from Rowoon’s performance. I can’t name it exactly, but it’s definitely something that touches their souls.
‘······what? Ron that bastard, what the hell did he do…’
Luther swallowed. I don’t like Rowoon, but I have to admit it. Now, Rowoon’s performance was qualitatively different from what he usually performed. It wasn’t the kind of performance that always looked like a dead corpse.
live. sound. performer. this time now
Do you want to show off a good performance? right. However, what Rowoon really wanted to do now was a performance that contained even a little more of Chopin’s voice. He wanted to tell them what he felt and saw.
‘Have you ever played with this kind of heart?’
Rowoon finally realized that he had been playing while concentrating on himself, rather than on the composer. When I played Beethoven, Beethoven was not there, and it was the same when I played Haydn, Mozart, and Brahms.
‘I’m sorry.’
If only he had had a little more time, if he could have put a little more of Chopin’s sound into his little bowl, if only he had.
grit it It’s not regret that I have to put in the sound.
Put Chopin.
The woman who said goodbye to me recalls the puppy she loved, and remembering the innocence of a blunt man who said that those days were happy times honestly.
Drawing an image of an ugly man who tried to express his sincerity, which he could not bear to say in front of him, even on notes,
Plays maybe not the best.
Probably the only one to finish the performance.
“…”
As if being held by someone, the hand that had been facing the sky was slowly pulled down by gravity. The crowd is silent. Was the performance okay? Did they get what he wanted to say? Could Chopin’s life and Rowoon’s earnestness have been melted into the performance?
Still, Rowoon doesn’t know the answer.
However, it seems that the sound of their applause, which returned as the afterglow of the performance faded, sounded more powerful than usual. It seems like it contains something similar to the heart.
He smiled for a moment.
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[ ······I was blessed by Chopin. ]
[The specialized ability, ‘Mirage Rubato (bottom)’ has been unlocked. ]
[If you want to grow your specialized skills, get recognition from the adults of music! ]
< Not the best, but probably the only one (3) > End
< California Conservatory? (1) >
“I think it was a good performance. It was a doggie waltz I had never heard before.”
“To be honest, I felt sad somewhere while listening to it, especially the trill part. I don’t know why that part, but it sounded a bit like crying. It was a puppy waltz I had never heard before.”
“Overall, the forte of the left hand was very intense. Honestly, if this was a competition and I was a judge, I think I could have given it a little less score in that part. But personally, it was good. It was fresh.”
“I felt that I had prepared a lot. I think it was the best performance you’ve ever shown.”
“You worked hard, Ron.”
“great job.”
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[The specialized ability, ‘Mirage Rubato (bottom)’ has been unlocked. ]
After the studio class, Walkman said so. Rubato. A performance technique in which the player pushes and pulls the beat at will. It was also Chopin’s greatest feature and technique that was considered his strength.
‘His playing is not driven by the beat. The beat is only drawn by his playing.’ It was Chopin who received such praise. It honestly didn’t surprise me that his blessing was for Rubato.
What was really surprising was the change that the blessing brought about.
‘······How should I express it?’
Sitting in front of the piano, Rowoon played the doggie waltz, which had become his number 18 before he knew it. And as soon as I started playing, I could understand the power of this blessing.
The beat came into his hand.
If in the past he was a pianist who struggled with the beat, now it felt like he was soothing the beat. He no longer felt like the beat was about to jump out of his hands. No matter how hard he tried, the confidence that in the end the beat would be controlled in his hands embraced him. I feel like I borrowed a little bit of Chopin’s sense.
But the mood didn’t just end there.
[ The playing score is 57 points. ]
Considering that his highest score so far was 55, it was a pretty significant improvement. of course······.
[This is a message from the composer. “Don’t think you’ve gone one step further. It’s not even half a step.” ]
‘okay. You’re not going to admit it so easily.’
Chopin’s cold demeanor did not change.
Of course, just as the favorable reviews of friends do not alleviate Chopin’s harsh criticism, his harsh criticism did not invalidate the growth he had achieved. Especially considering that those who gave him good marks shook their heads at him just a few months ago.
One said:
“Looks like you finally found your color. theory.”
Color.
Considering that the biggest difference between pros and amateurs is whether or not there is a color of one’s own in the performance, it may be that Rowoon’s performance gave off the scent of a professional.
Thanks to that, Rowoon was in perfect condition right now. Neither overly excited nor intimidated, her body boiling with an enterprising desire to move forward.
“What the hell did you eat?”
And for Chris, Rowoon was strange in many ways. It was like that too. Chris had no doubt that Rowoon would one day rise to the top, but even so, he had no idea that the change would happen in an instant like this.
Rowoon asked shamelessly.
“Didn’t you eat breakfast together? Coffee with scrambled eggs.”
“No, that’s not what I was talking about. Yesterday’s puppy waltz, honestly, I didn’t expect it to be that good. What’s the secret?”
“I told you. After seeing Willy, I think something will come to me.”
“So, after seeing the puppy, did you realize the truth of the puppy waltz?”
“Inspiration always comes from the most unexpected places.”
“If what you say is true, reality really is no better than a B-movie.”
Chris shook his head and smiled.
“But, well, it’s worth it to finish with Becky.”
“······what? through? You said it would be okay?”
“Sometimes even this perfect man is wrong.”
Chris smiled mischievously as if nothing had happened. Rowoon couldn’t find the words to answer for a moment, so he only opened his mouth. But in the end, the words he could bring out were decided.
“sorry. . . . and thank you.”
“do not do that. You don’t have to. It wasn’t meant to be from the beginning.”
“I was so excited at the time. I was a bit impatient.”
“Well, thanks to you, it seems like you took a step forward?”
“Not one step, but half of half… no, no. okay. moved on.”
“Look, man. Will you stop whining, everything is meaningless?”
Rowoon didn’t answer right away and looked at Chris. As if he didn’t care about his falling out with Becky, he was genuinely delighted with his progress.
Rowoon thought.
He said that the reason he’s still playing the piano is because of Chris, not Walkman.
“okay. It makes no sense.”
So he said so. Chris smiled with satisfaction, and Rowoon made a promise while watching Chris. No more hesitation or hesitation. I will go ahead and live up to his expectations. Whether it’s Carnegie Hall or wherever, everything should be filled with his voice.
Because he was in the midst of such a heart, the words that Baum called him that day had no choice but to stimulate Rowoon in many ways.
“theory. How about applying to the California Conservatory?”
“…the California Conservatory of Music?”
It was an unexpected offer.
California Conservatory. Not only does it represent the western United States, but it is a school that is never left out when it comes to America’s prestigious music schools.
However, until now, Baum had never recommended the California Conservatory to him. There was nothing to ask why. It was not a school that Rowoon could aim for. Anyone could see that. It is a school that only those who are called geniuses not only in the United States but all over the world enter.
Of course, you can ask if you can do it at the level of support. However, the entrance exam songs that need to be prepared are usually different for each school, and as such, music college entrance exam students needed to do ‘selection and concentration’ properly more than anyone else.
There shouldn’t be any misfortune of missing out on a school that you can’t even go to, aiming for a school that won’t work.
······ Nevertheless, Baum now recommends the California Conservatory to Rowoon.
It means that he thinks he can pass if he is Rowoon now.
“The California Institute of Music is one of the best schools in the world, not just in the West and the United States. At this point, it is safe to say that there is no better school than any other similar school.”
“It goes without saying that the California Institute of Music is a good school. But is it possible with my specs? I know it is a place where even those who have won prizes in major competitions fall…”
“The fact that the contest doesn’t guarantee passing doesn’t mean that it doesn’t guarantee failing either. The California Conservatory’s application deadline is December 1st. That’s roughly 4 months left. It’s not a long time, but it’s not that short either.”
“Four months…”
“sorry.”
“yes?”
At Baum’s sudden apology, Rowoon put on an expression that he didn’t understand. Baum even said.
“I should have trusted you sooner.”
The explanation didn’t have to be longer. Through Baum’s words, Rowoon realized that he must have never felt comfortable recommending the California Institute of Music.