chapter 30
30 – If you lose hope
It’s been less than a year since I fell in love with you, how can I fall for you so deeply.
Do you know that it’s all your fault?
Usually, when people are pushed unilaterally, they tend to rebel against it.
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Rather, I think that this kind of attitude is arrogant, or that they are not considerate and can declare a breakup.
But, but, but!
You gave me everything, a person who is so understanding that I cannot emphasize enough.
A person who thinks of me more even after I set myself on fire as if I am the top priority.
Where would I dare to meet someone like you? Can anyone expect a big heart like yours?
Seriously, who can accept all my insistence without a single complaint?
If I tie you to our house and lock you in to look at me, even if you make me look at you until no one knows but me,
Will you ever get angry? will you hate me? won’t you love me
The expectations placed on you are too high. I love you so much that I want to own you forever.
Forever, forever, if I had the power to conquer dungeons, my heart is so raging that I’d want you to be my forever companion.
Every time you captivate me with that cute face, every time I see you pretending to be unable to win love,
No matter how much I force myself to do it late at night, in the morning, even at the moment of eating, I can’t help but wonder how you can be so cute…
What are your feelings for me?
do you love me Are you relying on me? Was your heart sincere that day?
It would be great if I could read your mind, but if I could know everything about you, that would be my happiness.
Then I would be a little more relieved and approach you more actively.
Aren’t you feeling too burdened with my love? That day, the very day you clung to me, you needed me.
Because you needed me, because you showed me your loneliness and desperation, I wanted to approach you a little more actively.
So will you love me will you like it?
You said you were lonely, you said you needed me. But why… can I see you keep pushing me away from me?
Shouldn’t that be? You said I was good.
Am I a burden? It’s love that wants to get all of you.
Still, if that bothers you…
What should I do?
No, I already have an answer, but I’m not sure why I’m worried.
Until you love me, I just won’t let you go
That’s the least I can do, isn’t it?
***
Yeah, well, I admit it could have been burdensome, I admit it.
I admit that every time you said that to me, I was just trying to get a little closer to you by ‘pushing’ a little more.
I love you, no matter how many times I say it, I never get tired of it…
Why does my tongue tingle every time I say I love you and my eyes go numb?
I am delighted because you truly accept the meaning of the words I am saying.
But even without you, why am I happy just thinking of you?
Isn’t that also what happens because I love you?
Yes, I’m telling you that I love you over and over again, right?
These are words I wouldn’t say if everyone believed in you, depended on you, and didn’t care about you.
Because I have expectations for you and love for you.
But you can’t do that.
You can’t crush the love I give you… like that.
You know very well that putting this damn b*tch in front of me and asking for forgiveness is really nonsense,
You know very well that I don’t want this to the point where my head is stuck to the ground, but why? why?
Did you dare to pervade this house with the smell of a female that wasn’t mine?
If you have a mouth, you better explain.
please explain.
No, no… It’s an excuse in the first place, something like that. I don’t know if there’s any reason why I would listen.
No matter what you say, it’s unforgivable to have that coveted female cat in your house.
Do you know that I’m very angry right now?
I’m not mad at you, surprisingly.
I’m even more angry because I think I’m so stupid for creating this situation.
I’m not angry with you at all, don’t look so frightened.
You’re talking about something important, but if you show it like that, the emotions you’ve been suppressing will explode?
Besides… Ha, really. Now there are outsiders, so I can’t do anything carelessly.
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Really, it turned out the way you meant it.
So, you robbed the deposit and brought that woman now?
The only thing that money can bring you… A woman like that?
I honestly can’t believe it. I don’t want to believe that your eyes are just that.
Alas, that’s right. He wasn’t brought here instead of me in the first place, so of course I know it’s inevitable…
I’m so angry that you brought a woman in in the first place, just the two of us, without consulting me.
I know very well that you are the owner, so I will not protest against you…
That woman might have a pretty tough life from now on.
Seeing what you’re doing… Well, I don’t want to look like a demon to you either.
How can you show the scary side and the bad side to the person you love?
Because that shouldn’t be the case, yes.
But I think we’re going to have a really deep conversation for a while.
Because I want to know where the button went wrong in the first place.
***
I thought you would understand me a little better.
That’s right, we’re partners, right?
Yeah, don’t be so sad.
You have already taken all my virginity and affection, but don’t say things that are not responsible.
Ah, ah… I’m sorry, I shouldn’t be like this.
Yeah, you shouldn’t be saying things like this.
I did it because I loved you in the first place, and it happened because I asked for it.
Melted by your addictive touch and affection, I wanted more of it.
You know, have you ever heard of drugs?
Manufactured leaves that sometimes fall from hallucinogenic plant monsters fall, and they seem to make you feel pretty good when you smoke them.
Of course, it’s so addictive that everyone who smokes it ends up hanging in the dungeon.
Leaving behind life and everything, find that leaf and go deeper… deeper…
I’m not interested in that, but I’m very interested in you.
yes, you mean
To you, my drug and now the reason for my life.
I like and love you that much, but if I let go of my expectations like this…
I, it hurts a lot here, you know?
It hurts even more to think that this happened because I didn’t understand you properly.
didn’t you say Still don’t understand me?
I don’t blame you, I just blame myself for my lack of action and expression.
If I had done that female would be this –
Are you a female? want to charm you?
Who do you think is the one who can smell your scent, feel your warmth, and receive your gaze in the first place?
I-I think this can be demanded.
Even though I am below you, I am the one who tried to tell you what you did not know, to heal your wounds, to give you joy and pleasure, and to help you with everything.
I don’t want to deny that to anyone.
Although our beginnings were terribly messed up, oh… no way, such…
No, no… this kind of…
Please, if you still have it in your heart, please forgive me –
Ah, ah… All, I’m glad… I’m glad… You didn’t hate me…
…
I’m sorry, I went the other way for a while.
So, what I want to say is… I am the one who will be by your side.
Now and in the future, the seat next to you, the one who will be held in your arms is me.
therefore,
I don’t know what to do with other females, even on the day of incubation?
…Sometimes it pops out like this, it’s not easy no matter how many times I tell myself that I need to fix it.
I’m sorry.
Please, I sincerely ask that there is no crack in our relationship because of this.
Come on, come on. Please, I won’t be too harsh.
I just want to confirm love.
…
Chew, huh, if you don’t leave a clear mark…
…
It’s done now. I’d be happy with that first, but…
I beg you. Please trust me a little more and rely on me. No one knows what compromise is.
Then, since we have to welcome a new family member… Yes, I guess.
Shall we go?
my lovely master