Hogwarts, where the stars shine
Chapter 153, Despair and Powerlessness
In the dim underground room, Mesa and Adjani stood opposite each other. His "belittlement of himself" failed to make the other party let him go.
Adjani wasn't as excited as she was that night, she didn't make any extraordinary moves, she just sobbed softly, as if she had just experienced the greatest misfortune in the world.
"As you can see, I can't help you much." Mesa continued, "I have so many things to do every day that I really don't have time to play detective games."
Whether it was the two campus attacks or Adjani herself, they all exuded a dangerous atmosphere, and Mesa could not see any benefit.It was both dangerous and unprofitable, and Mesa wanted no part of it.
After rejecting Adjani, Mesa wanted to leave, but the other party stretched out his arm to stop him.
"I know I can't give you anything." Adjani lowered her head and said, "But at least please tell me what happened in the girls' bathroom that day. Please."
Adjani lowered her head, her long black hair scattered on both sides of her face, and her pale, paper-like skin, which made her look a bit scary, like a female ghost.
Fortunately, Mesa was brave, and fortunately Hogwarts was not a high school for girls, otherwise he would have recalled some unbearable experiences.
After a while, Mesa retreated to her original position, continuing to keep her distance from Adjani.The female ghost senior also lowered her arms and raised her head again with a grateful smile.
"Myrtle was in the girls' bathroom that day," Mesa said. "She heard everything." Myrtle didn't leave her cubicle from beginning to end, so Mesa used the word "hear." .
Adjani frowned, she didn't question Mesa's words, she was doubting herself.In Adjani's own impression, except for the girls' bathroom, everything had nothing to do with Myrtle.
"No man broke into the girls' bathroom at all. You were the only one alive from the beginning to the end." Mesa continued, "According to Myrtle, she only heard your voice, and you were the only one crying hysterically. Noisy."
The biggest difference between Adjani and Myrtle is here. Adjani has a perverted and obscene man in her memory, while Myrtle only has Adjani herself in her memory.
Compared to the girls' dormitory, the girls' bathroom is obviously easier to enter.As long as he could endure the burning sensation caused by the brass door handle, he could enter the girls' bathroom, so Mesa didn't have too much suspicion before.
If she hadn't gone to the girls' bathroom in person later and met Crying Myrtle, Mesa wouldn't have cast doubt on Adjani.
Between Adjani and Myrtle, Mesa believes in the latter more.
As if she had suffered a huge blow, Adjani staggered back a few steps. She hugged her head again, as if she wanted to force herself to recall the real memory.
But Adjani's actions were in vain, she could not recall anything.A strange man broke into the girls' bathroom and attacked her. This is the "real" memory in Adjani's mind.
"Why is this like this? Why?" Adjani asked herself in a low voice, "Why is this like this again?"
"You said 'that happened again'?" Mesa asked. "When was the last time this happened? During the OWLs. exam?"
In the exam that was crucial for wizards last summer, Adjani threw the assassin out uncharacteristically because she was stabbed by the assassin.This is what Veranika told Mesa.
Adjani became even more haggard in an instant, as if she hadn't closed her eyes for several nights.
She said: "If you are asking about the fact that I threw the thorn to death... I actually have no memory at all. I don't remember being stabbed by the thorn, and I don't remember how I treated it. Lina asked I, I could only make up an excuse to fool her and tell her that I made a mistake."
At this moment, Wendina Adjani looked so weak and helpless, it was hard for Mesa to imagine that she would kill a thorn.Most importantly, her memory is missing again.
Adjani continued: "This is not the first time, similar situations have happened before."
She was talking to herself, as if she had seen through Mesa's Occlumency and knew what Mesa was thinking.But Mesa did not feel the feeling of being "read" by others, nor could he be read in his heart.
Occlumency is a remote magic used to seal one's own thoughts to prevent others from prying with Legilimency.Using Occlumency prevents a Legilimency master from prying into or being affected by his or her thoughts and feelings.
Although Mesa is not a master of Occlumency, his thoughts are not something Adjani can pry into. All the other party can see is the perfect illusion created by him.
Adjani continued, "If you hadn't found out, I probably wouldn't have told anyone for the rest of my life. Including my best friend, Lena Veronica."
"This situation... splitting... memory loss, when did it probably start?"
Adjani shook her head in despair and said: "I don't know, maybe it happened before I came to Hogwarts. I didn't realize it myself. It's like throwing the assassin to death, just like the girls' bathroom, if there wasn't someone Ask me, I can’t remember these two things myself.”
He was unaware of the things he had done, and when others mentioned them, what he recalled was a false memory.Indina Adjani's life is a bit pitiful!
Mesa raised her head and looked at the floating candle. Being alone with Adjani tonight confirmed the previous speculation - Undina Adjani is likely to suffer from dissociative identity disorder, which is also known as multiple personality.
Dissociative identity disorder is characterized by the disintegration of identity, the emergence of two or more independent personality states, and an obvious interruption of the sense of self and subjectivity.
Generally speaking, each identity is not aware of the existence of other identities.Changes in personality status can also cause severe amnesia, which cannot be explained by simple forgetfulness.
Undina Adjani's situation fits the description of multiple personalities.I just don’t know how many personalities she has and what is the cause of her split personality.
"Have your parents never mentioned it to you?" Mesa asked, "As relatives who live together day and night, they should have discovered something."
Adjani's smile was bitter, and she said: "No, the only person they care about is themselves. Even if I die one day, they probably won't shed a single tear."
Are you in the rebellious stage of youth, or is it true that your father doesn’t love you and your mother doesn’t love you?If Adjani's family is really what she said, then her illness is likely to be caused by a bad family environment.
"Uh... I'm sorry for bringing up your sadness." Mesa said. He didn't know about Adjani's family situation before, not even Veranika.
Adjani didn't speak. She lowered her head again, looking very painful.
Mesa tightened his grip on the wand again. He was worried that Adjani would suddenly switch personalities and attack him.
You know, for people with dissociative identity disorder, the transition from one identity to another is often a matter of seconds.Gentle and generous one second, he may be crazy and unable to control himself the next second.
The worrying situation did not appear. Although Adjani's face looked extremely painful, there was no personality change.There was a big difference between that unspeakable madness and her current state.
"Can you help me?" Adjani begged again, "The only person I can trust and pray to is you."
The rejection was on his lips, but Mesa didn't say it directly.Even if the two campus attacks were really carried out by Adjani, perhaps St. Mungo's Hospital for Magical Maladies and Maladies is more suitable for her than the wizarding prison Azkaban.
"I can't help you, Undine," Mesa said. "Or I don't know how. I'm sorry."
Watching Wendina Adjani's leaving figure, Mesa fell into a long silence. He could feel the despair emanating from her, but he really couldn't do anything.
This feeling of powerlessness from the bottom of my heart made Mesa very uncomfortable.
Adjani wasn't as excited as she was that night, she didn't make any extraordinary moves, she just sobbed softly, as if she had just experienced the greatest misfortune in the world.
"As you can see, I can't help you much." Mesa continued, "I have so many things to do every day that I really don't have time to play detective games."
Whether it was the two campus attacks or Adjani herself, they all exuded a dangerous atmosphere, and Mesa could not see any benefit.It was both dangerous and unprofitable, and Mesa wanted no part of it.
After rejecting Adjani, Mesa wanted to leave, but the other party stretched out his arm to stop him.
"I know I can't give you anything." Adjani lowered her head and said, "But at least please tell me what happened in the girls' bathroom that day. Please."
Adjani lowered her head, her long black hair scattered on both sides of her face, and her pale, paper-like skin, which made her look a bit scary, like a female ghost.
Fortunately, Mesa was brave, and fortunately Hogwarts was not a high school for girls, otherwise he would have recalled some unbearable experiences.
After a while, Mesa retreated to her original position, continuing to keep her distance from Adjani.The female ghost senior also lowered her arms and raised her head again with a grateful smile.
"Myrtle was in the girls' bathroom that day," Mesa said. "She heard everything." Myrtle didn't leave her cubicle from beginning to end, so Mesa used the word "hear." .
Adjani frowned, she didn't question Mesa's words, she was doubting herself.In Adjani's own impression, except for the girls' bathroom, everything had nothing to do with Myrtle.
"No man broke into the girls' bathroom at all. You were the only one alive from the beginning to the end." Mesa continued, "According to Myrtle, she only heard your voice, and you were the only one crying hysterically. Noisy."
The biggest difference between Adjani and Myrtle is here. Adjani has a perverted and obscene man in her memory, while Myrtle only has Adjani herself in her memory.
Compared to the girls' dormitory, the girls' bathroom is obviously easier to enter.As long as he could endure the burning sensation caused by the brass door handle, he could enter the girls' bathroom, so Mesa didn't have too much suspicion before.
If she hadn't gone to the girls' bathroom in person later and met Crying Myrtle, Mesa wouldn't have cast doubt on Adjani.
Between Adjani and Myrtle, Mesa believes in the latter more.
As if she had suffered a huge blow, Adjani staggered back a few steps. She hugged her head again, as if she wanted to force herself to recall the real memory.
But Adjani's actions were in vain, she could not recall anything.A strange man broke into the girls' bathroom and attacked her. This is the "real" memory in Adjani's mind.
"Why is this like this? Why?" Adjani asked herself in a low voice, "Why is this like this again?"
"You said 'that happened again'?" Mesa asked. "When was the last time this happened? During the OWLs. exam?"
In the exam that was crucial for wizards last summer, Adjani threw the assassin out uncharacteristically because she was stabbed by the assassin.This is what Veranika told Mesa.
Adjani became even more haggard in an instant, as if she hadn't closed her eyes for several nights.
She said: "If you are asking about the fact that I threw the thorn to death... I actually have no memory at all. I don't remember being stabbed by the thorn, and I don't remember how I treated it. Lina asked I, I could only make up an excuse to fool her and tell her that I made a mistake."
At this moment, Wendina Adjani looked so weak and helpless, it was hard for Mesa to imagine that she would kill a thorn.Most importantly, her memory is missing again.
Adjani continued: "This is not the first time, similar situations have happened before."
She was talking to herself, as if she had seen through Mesa's Occlumency and knew what Mesa was thinking.But Mesa did not feel the feeling of being "read" by others, nor could he be read in his heart.
Occlumency is a remote magic used to seal one's own thoughts to prevent others from prying with Legilimency.Using Occlumency prevents a Legilimency master from prying into or being affected by his or her thoughts and feelings.
Although Mesa is not a master of Occlumency, his thoughts are not something Adjani can pry into. All the other party can see is the perfect illusion created by him.
Adjani continued, "If you hadn't found out, I probably wouldn't have told anyone for the rest of my life. Including my best friend, Lena Veronica."
"This situation... splitting... memory loss, when did it probably start?"
Adjani shook her head in despair and said: "I don't know, maybe it happened before I came to Hogwarts. I didn't realize it myself. It's like throwing the assassin to death, just like the girls' bathroom, if there wasn't someone Ask me, I can’t remember these two things myself.”
He was unaware of the things he had done, and when others mentioned them, what he recalled was a false memory.Indina Adjani's life is a bit pitiful!
Mesa raised her head and looked at the floating candle. Being alone with Adjani tonight confirmed the previous speculation - Undina Adjani is likely to suffer from dissociative identity disorder, which is also known as multiple personality.
Dissociative identity disorder is characterized by the disintegration of identity, the emergence of two or more independent personality states, and an obvious interruption of the sense of self and subjectivity.
Generally speaking, each identity is not aware of the existence of other identities.Changes in personality status can also cause severe amnesia, which cannot be explained by simple forgetfulness.
Undina Adjani's situation fits the description of multiple personalities.I just don’t know how many personalities she has and what is the cause of her split personality.
"Have your parents never mentioned it to you?" Mesa asked, "As relatives who live together day and night, they should have discovered something."
Adjani's smile was bitter, and she said: "No, the only person they care about is themselves. Even if I die one day, they probably won't shed a single tear."
Are you in the rebellious stage of youth, or is it true that your father doesn’t love you and your mother doesn’t love you?If Adjani's family is really what she said, then her illness is likely to be caused by a bad family environment.
"Uh... I'm sorry for bringing up your sadness." Mesa said. He didn't know about Adjani's family situation before, not even Veranika.
Adjani didn't speak. She lowered her head again, looking very painful.
Mesa tightened his grip on the wand again. He was worried that Adjani would suddenly switch personalities and attack him.
You know, for people with dissociative identity disorder, the transition from one identity to another is often a matter of seconds.Gentle and generous one second, he may be crazy and unable to control himself the next second.
The worrying situation did not appear. Although Adjani's face looked extremely painful, there was no personality change.There was a big difference between that unspeakable madness and her current state.
"Can you help me?" Adjani begged again, "The only person I can trust and pray to is you."
The rejection was on his lips, but Mesa didn't say it directly.Even if the two campus attacks were really carried out by Adjani, perhaps St. Mungo's Hospital for Magical Maladies and Maladies is more suitable for her than the wizarding prison Azkaban.
"I can't help you, Undine," Mesa said. "Or I don't know how. I'm sorry."
Watching Wendina Adjani's leaving figure, Mesa fell into a long silence. He could feel the despair emanating from her, but he really couldn't do anything.
This feeling of powerlessness from the bottom of my heart made Mesa very uncomfortable.
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