How the Regressor Loves the Reincarnated

12. I will live for myself.

1.

Dalgrak-

“Haa…”

Adele, who casually threw away her training sword, took a deep breath in, then exhaled slowly. After she caught her breath, she did not forget to warm up her body with light stretches.

“Thank you as always, Loggia.”

“No, Miss Adele. It is something I must do.”

Her exclusive maid, Loggia, takes the towel from her and roughly wipes off her sweat. Adele throws herself into a chair prepared for her to rest.

If others saw it, it would not be strange even if they looked at it as an appearance that was not at all suitable for an aristocratic woman from a high-ranking family. But the only thing she sees in this place is Loggia, whom she completely trusts.

For Adele, whose time spent on the battlefield was not so short, she had no intentions of defending her dignity even out of sight. Keeping her dignity was, in the end, nothing more than a face-lift.

The time given to her was more than she thought. Her information was also overflowing. In the end, what had to be prepared for was the butterfly effect that would inevitably follow as Luke’s existence and Adele’s choice changed from her previous episodes.

“Come to think of it, are you doing well with what you’re doing these days?”

“Um…? What do you mean?”

“Of course, isn’t that the progress of your relationship with Prince Isvant?”

“…What do you mean, that? Luke and I don’t have the kind of relationship Loggia thinks at all.”

Concealing her embarrassment, Adele spoke calmly. But she had one minor problem. Her skin was so white that her redness could easily be seen, and her insides were so obvious that even if it wasn’t the loggia that had served her for a long time, it was as natural as her breathing. The fact that it did

“I see…”

Still, once she nodded her head, Loggia’s face had a smile on her face that would only come from seeing something cute about her.

“Ah, come to think of it, the lord of Draxis sent me a reply saying he would accept the invitation. However, since it is difficult to free time tomorrow morning, he asked if it would be okay to visit him in the afternoon.”

“Um… tell me that there won’t be any problems if I do that.”

“Then I will deal with it that way, lady.”

“Thank you for your hard work, Loggia.”

After saying that, Adele closed her eyes. To train her mind, as well as her body, it took a steady investment of time.

When her body is resting, she clears her mind. That series of actions was so familiar to her that it was like a habit for her.

“I personally think you two go well together, Lady Adele. Neither the head of the family nor the head of the small household will oppose it.”

“…Loggia!”

Adele widened her eyes, shocked by Loggia’s words that stopped her just as she was about to begin her meditation. Adele, who was glaring at the back of that fierce maid who was walking away without leaving anything to say, let out a deep sigh at her.

As if she couldn’t help it, a light smile bloomed on her lips as she let out a sigh.

Missing these trivial routines, she decided to save the world. She struggled to bring her smile back to those who had lost her smile someday.

But the reality is always harsh. It was close to impossible for Adele alone to prevent the coming of the god worshiped by the Zodiac. The world is returned to nothing at the fingertips of the imprisoned god. That was the last moment in the first play that Adele remembered.

After going through that, when I first returned to the past, it was as if I had the whole world. In fact, it was like the original world was returned, so it would not have been so strange to feel that way.

In the second round, Adele used everything available and confronted Zodiac head-on. The identities of the apostles, which I learned only after the moment right before the end came, and what I heard directly from the mouths of the culprits gave me great strength.

But once again lost. She couldn’t keep anything.

It’s all because of her lack.

Her failure in her 2nd play was because she did not respond properly to the variable of hell.

That’s why Adele didn’t like variables she couldn’t control. No, she was afraid.

At first, the appearance of a completely incomprehensible new variable called Luke Isvantra was not very welcome. Because I was impatient with the simple fact that such a variable existed, I couldn’t make the same cold-hearted judgment as usual.

In hindsight, it could be said that things went well, but it was clear that Adele’s actions were stupid and impetuous. If Luke were one of her rivals, he’d just give her a weakness she could use against her.

‘…But the results were good.’

At first glance, it was a comfortable conversation, but Adele thought that was enough. Clearly, by world standards, she was a superhuman.

But doesn’t that mean she’s perfect? Everyone makes mistakes.

In fact, if she had been before she met Luke, she would never have thought of such a thing even in her dreams. However, since her meeting with Luke, Adele’s attitude has changed considerably.

She admits that she has suffered her failures because of her shortcomings, but she should not put the blame on herself.

The influence Luke had on Adele was so great that she had known her for less than two weeks.

‘Adele, the fact that you had to be weighed down by the enormous responsibility of having to save this world is actually unfair. So please, don’t try to take responsibility even for that failure.’

‘But, if only I had been a little more careful.’

‘Write. This is it again All of a sudden, he picked up such a bad habit…’

‘Yes?’

‘I won’t go so far as to say that if Adele is a world that will perish because she made a few mistakes, it is better to just perish. But, did you ever think she was being too harsh on you?’

I tried. Too many to count. However, because she thought it was a weight she had to endure, she couldn’t stop whipping herself until the last moment and until now. For everyone, she had to be perfect.

‘…’

‘It was like 12 years in the 1st round and 6 years in the 2nd round, right? Adele was wasting her precious time. But she said that even that responsibility would be given to her by herself? There are limits to how good people are.’

‘These were the ones I was able to save. Those who could have lived peacefully had to suffer a terrible death because of my mistake. I still hear the pain-filled screams they uttered at the end of their lives. How could that be not my fault?!’

The more she speaks, the higher her voice becomes. Emotions surged to the point where he finally let out a sound as if he was screaming. But as Luke watched her act, he didn’t show any displeasure.

Adele couldn’t possibly forget the pitying eyes she saw at that moment. Maybe a lifetime.

‘Ha… Adele, I am a very down-to-earth person. I and the people around me are always my top priority. I’m not heartless enough to say it’s none of my business for the rest of us to do anything, but I have clear priorities in my heart anyway.’

‘…It’s selfish.’

‘I could see it that way.’

‘When I fall asleep, they appear in my dreams. They look so terrifying and whisper to me. Why couldn’t you save us, you’re just a petty failure after all. The result will be the same this time…’

‘I have to watch every night as my father and mother, and even Shien’s brother and Loggia pour out words of resentment towards me…’

Adele’s vision is blurred. She put her insides in her mouth that she couldn’t reveal to anyone, and even the sadness became a reminder. She sighed as she saw the moisture around her eyes, and Luke pulled out from the pocket of her jacket a handkerchief embroidered with red roses against a white background.

‘This time it will be different.’

‘That, how does Luke know that? I thought the same when I realized that I had returned to the past after failing to stop the Zodiac. But what do I look like now?’

‘It’s definitely unsightly.’

‘…!’

While Adele’s face stiffened in shock at Luke’s words, Luke reached out and cupped her cheeks. Adele’s thoughts stopped at the sensation of her soft touch, which gave off the feeling that she had grown up without a single callus.

‘So, are you going to give up like that?’

After saying that, Luke wiped the tears from her eyes with a handkerchief before opening her mouth again.

As soon as I realized that there was a variable called me, I rushed in without covering my face, what kind of ugliness is this. If that’s the case, why did you drag me into this?’

‘That, that’s…’

‘Where is the person who said so confidently that he could stop it this time? If you see yourself as a loser, you become a real loser before you know it. You really don’t want to be a loser, do you?

As Luke’s hand falls off his cheek, a regretful exclamation escapes from Adele’s lips.

Does he really know that his heart is beating even faster and more vigorously at the warm sensation he felt along with that softness? Looking at the way he folds the handkerchief tightly and returns it to its original place with an expression that hasn’t changed at all, it’s clear that he doesn’t know.

‘Have you ever met your parents after coming back to the past? Was there an older brother at that time?’

Adele covered her hot cheeks with her hand and replied with a bewildered expression.

‘…No.’

‘Then what do you think they will think when they see Adele now? As you may not know, the maid named Loggia must have noticed long ago that your condition was not normal. So please don’t say nonsense that they won’t notice you right now.’

‘Perhaps… He’s worried.’

‘I know you well. By the way, you know that and you don’t intend to keep making yourself miserable like that, do you? From my point of view, rather than the fact that you failed, it is a bigger sin to blame yourself for not being perfect and to cause worry to the people around you.’

‘Ah…’

The guilt she felt at that moment wasn’t because she couldn’t save the world.

‘…I’m sorry.’

‘No, but there’s no reason to say sorry to me…’

‘Hmph, I didn’t mean that to you.’

The moment Luke laughed at Adele sticking out her tongue while giving her childish expression, she realized that she had come to truly trust this man.

As Adele’s eyes close as she recalls her memories of that day, a small smile forms on her lips. Clearly, her behavior at the banquet hall where she and Luke met each other for the first time was foolish.

But she did not regret what she had done. Even if she was given the option of changing her behavior that day, she had no intention of changing it.

No, not at all. Just wanting to make a better impression on the first meeting?

After Adele got up from her chair after her break, she picked up her wooden sword that was lying on the floor of the gymnasium.

I have a desire. That’s why, in this episode, I reaffirm my determination to prevent the destruction of this world without fail.

‘Luke…’

After stopping destruction, I will live for myself.

So, I want you to stay by my side.