I Am A Masochist

Chapter 23. Welcome (3)

Translator: Aura

Contrary to what everyone believed, Lexion was depressed today.

Unfortunately, yesterday the commitment to which he had put a whole year of hard work was broken.

For now, it would be kept secret for the honor of both families, but it would soon spread like wildfire through high society.

Of course, the cause of his depression was not love.

─ Once you get married, you can live as you please.

His agreement with Duke Armada had failed.

‘It was a golden opportunity to be free…’

All his life, Lexion had wanted his father to be someone else.

It was well known that the relationship between him and his family was not ideal.

Lexion found the strict upbringing imposed by Duke Armada useless, so he was an obvious danger. As he grew older, his family home became too oppressive a prison. He only felt alive when he acted on his own desires.

At this point, one might think that the duke was trying to control his grown son, which would be excessive, but there was no one in the empire who shared that opinion.

The only thing the duke kept Lexion from was f*cking like a lunatic every day.

‘The sky will not fall for a little s*x.’

That was Lexion’s proud thought.

‘S*x is good, and drunk even better.’

It was an act that made him feel alive.

After a few shakes of his hips he quickly forgot how boring everyday life was.

He sl*pt with any woman he fancied, no matter if she was noble or not. The pleasure was the same. He saw love and romance as a waste of time.

Lexion knew he had a loose wire. However, he didn’t see it as bad.

He found it difficult to bear a monotonous life like everyone else.

Only putting his life in danger or the intense pleasure of s*x made him feel truly alive.

He used to participate in a clandestine bare-chested arena.

If he wasn’t careful, he might end up with a broken neck or die unexpectedly, but every time death passed by him, he paradoxically felt more alive.

‘Those were good old days.’

Lexion clicked his tongue regretfully.

When he became an adult and became the Commander of the Imperial Knights, his face became well-known and he could no longer participate in the arena.

The reason he accepted the position of commander, even though he hated being tied to anything, was simple. His father told him that if he accepted, he would allow him to leave the house and live on his own.

It was a shame to lose the arena, but it was acceptable if it meant he wouldn’t have to always meet the stubborn duke.

“Isn’t it safer to sleep with women than to fight for your life in a clandestine arena?”

Lexion didn’t think his life of debauchery was wrong.

If Duke Armada had heard him, he would have told him off.

‘Well, that’s what I think.’

It might seem absurd to a normal person. However, Lexion believed that he controlled the limits perfectly.

Although he frequently sl*pt with women, he had never had any problems.

He had a rule not to have s*x with the same woman twice.

If he clung to them and tried to look for them two or three times, he would be under their domination.

He also had a safe contraceptive. Lexion fiddled with the contraceptive ring he had never taken off since he came of age.

Duke Armada was truly a father trying to guide his son so that he could somehow live a normal life like everyone else.

— It doesn’t matter which woman it is.

When his old father said that, he wondered at first if he had finally gone senile.

—  ‘Why does he suddenly ask me to marry a woman if he knows that I don’t have s*x with the same woman twice?’

— It’s nonsense. Didn’t you want the woman at my side to meet all your standards?

— I’m fed up! I don’t care who it is, just get married! It doesn’t matter if you later become a gambler or a drunkard!

─ I hope you don’t regret it later.

─ Don’t worry, I won’t meddle in your life anymore after that. Do you agree?

In the end, Lexion agreed to the deal.

He was as fed up as Duke Armada.

To be sure, he had a notary put it in writing.

─ As long as you get married, I won’t interfere in your life, Lexion Armada.