Chapter 15
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The snow is not heavy, yet after walking for a while, there was still a white layer on her hair and shoulders.
After turning to an intersection, Guan Zhiyi raised her eyes to see the entrance of Qi Chengyan's house appearing in front of her. She shook her body, frowned and turned around.
But she only took a few steps, before she turned back again.
How about if she just meet and say "Happy New Year" to him?
She struggled dizzily for a while, before finally deciding to send a message to Qi Chengyan. She keep deleting and writing the massage for a few times before she sent it at the end: [I have something for you, brother, come to the door for a moment]
After sending it, she couldn't stand up any longer and leaned against the wall.
The message said that she wanted to give something to him, but in fact it was just an excuse.
Guan Zhiyi stretched out her hand in her pocket and pulled it out. What should I give to him...
In the next second, she grabbed a few candies, which she had just casually picked up on the coffee table during the party.
A few minutes later, there was a sound of the door opening.
"Xiao Wu?" Qi Chengyan's voice came over.
Guan Zhiyi's heart jumped, her eyes lit up, and she hurriedly came out from behind the wall, "Here!"
Standing at the door, Qi Chengyan was stunned when he saw the faint pile of snowflakes on her shoulders and hair, "Did you not bring any umbrella?"
"I forgot."
Qi Chengyan twisted his eyebrows, stepped forward and grabbed her wrist to take her into the house.
However, Guan Zhiyi stood still, refusing to move: "I won't enter the house, I'm just passing by. And by the way, I'll give you ...... some candy."
With that she took out a few milk candies from her pocket and put them in Qi Chengyan's hand.
Qi Chengyan lowered his eyes, stared at his hand, and laughed: "Just to pass a few candies? Isn't it too cold to come out like this?"
"It's not cold, I was going to buy something and say Happy New Year to you on the way." Guan Zhiyi took a step back, "Then I'm leaving now."
Guan Zhiyi waved at him, her body swayed. Qi Chengyan noticed that something was wrong and looked carefully at her, "Did you drink alcohol?"
Guan Zhiyi nodded honestly, "I drank a lot of it."
"Should I praise you for it?"
"What's the big deal if I drank it at home, also it's the red wine that my dad treasures the most. If you don't drink it, it will be a loss!"
Qi Chengyan was unable to refute her remark, he seized her up, disapprovingly said: "Since you have drunk so much don't go out to buy things."
"I want to take a walk to cool down the alcohol."
"Then where are you going to buy it?"
Guan Zhiyi pointed to the back, "It's the convenience store in the park."
"There are still people in the store today?"
"Yes, they are on duty and there are people every year. Brother! You haven't been back for too long so you don't know it!" Guan Zhiyi's face was full of smiles, but in her heart she forced herself to move her eyes away from his face, "Well ...... I'm done talking, then I'll go first."
"You wait." Qi Chengyan called to her.
"Hm?"
Qi Chengyan didn't say anything, just turned straight back inside, and after a while, he took an umbrella out, "Let's go."
"Huh?"
"I'll go to the convenience store with you." Qi Chengyan opened the umbrella beside her and casually knocked her head, "You already look like this yet you still dare to go shopping, are you not afraid of falling."
The day was cold, and so was his voice. But why did she feel that the whole world is warm…
"Then...... grandpa and the others are still at home, is it okay for you to leave like this?"
"It's okay, they're almost done."
"Oh."
"What are you going to buy?"
Guan Zhiyi didn't know what to buy at all, so she thought about it, and had to make up some nonsense: "I want to eat ice cream!"
"What?"
"I can't stop it! I just want to eat it all of a sudden, let's go, let's go to buy it!" Guan Zhiyi grabbed his sleeve and pulled him out, not giving him any room to refuse.
The convenience store was not far, the two of them walked for about ten minutes and arrived. After entering the store, the warm air from the heater came to her face. Guan Zhiyi, who was blown by it, became a little dizzy.
This is the right time to eat an ice cream to sober up!
So she took three ice creams at once and handed one of them to Qi Chengyan.
Qi Chengyan did not answer, but commanded her like she was a child, "I don't want to eat, and you can only eat one. Put these two back."
Guan Zhiyi was not happy: "But I want to eat two flavors."
"Put it back." Qi Chengyan repeated.
"Or should I only take two bites then throw it away?"
Qi Chengyan looked at her faintly, it didn't mean anything, but the sense of dignity pressed calmly over her. After being stared at for a few seconds, Guan Zhiyi silently went back to return the two.
When she came back, the ice cream had already been taken to the cashier by Qi Chengyan to pay. Because it's inconvenient for her to show her face, Guan Zhiyi didn't go over. After Qi Chengyan went out, she followed behind him.
The way back is the same, it's not long or short, and you can get there in a few minutes. In the past, she always wanted to get home quickly at such times because it was too cold outside.
But now, she wished the road would be as long as possible.
Guan Zhiyi was eating her ice cream while thinking about how to delay time... After a while, she suddenly stopped: "Brother, look over there!"
Qi Chengyan also followed and stopped in his tracks, looking in the direction she was pointing.
The direction she pointed to was the center of the lake, where snowflakes were falling. The lake pavilion was colored with the same color, the landscape is like a painting, It was a familiar yet unfamiliar picture for him.
"Our park has changed when you went abroad, the only thing that hasn't changed is that the scenery you can see from standing here in winter is still the best, do you remember?"
"Remember, but something has changed."
"I come to see the snow on New Year's eve every year. Sometimes alone, sometimes with my sister. But when I was a child, I always came with you brother, and, um....it seems that I insisted you to take me out to play. "
Chi Chengyan remembered those memories from the past, his eyes turned soft: "Your brother said that it's too cold and don't want to go out, so you come to annoy me instead."
"Yeah, because I know that you are definitely willing to accompany me."
Qi Chengyan smiled: "You know how to pick soft persimmons**, huh?"
(** it's the weak who get picked on; bullies pick soft targets)
"I dare not say that you are a soft persimmon**!"
(**Pushover)
Qi Chengyan tried to knock her head again, but Guan Zhiyi was quick this time, she dodged it immediately. He glanced at her, "All right, let's go back."
"Wait, wait, I'll finish the ice cream first."
Guan Zhiyi slowly ate the last crispy skin. After eating, she ran to the trash can to throw it away, and walked slowly on her way back.
Qi Chengyan kept an eye on her, because the ground was slippery and also because she was a bit drunk. The little girl walked wobbly, she looked very funny.
There was a smile in his eyes, but fearing that she might fall, he reached out to give her a hand when she approached: "Eating ice cream can make you so happy, still the same as when you were a child."
"It's not the same!" She doesn't know whether her thoughts were too heavy in the last few days, but Guan Zhiyi somehow doesn't want to hear these kinds of words. In her own heart, she hoped that she was different from when she was a child.
Qi Chengyan lowered his eyes and looked at the person in front of him, puzzled by her sudden denial. He was about to say something, when he saw the little girl in front of him let go of his hand, opened her arms and tilted her head to look at him: "It's really different, I've grown up, not a little girl, I'm a woman!"
After participating in the variety show, she was much thinner than when he saw her for the first time after coming back. Although her face was still round, she was delicate and lovely.
At this moment, she looked up at him. Under the snow, the wine in the air has not been dispersed, her original white skin slightly flushed red, and the bright eyes under her eyebrows flickered, so delicate and dazzling.
She is indeed a woman, not a little girl anymore.
Qi Chengyan's eyes slightly converged, he turned his eyes away: "Well, I know, Xiao Wu has grown up."
"Do you really know or not?" Guan Zhiyi said through the strength of alcohol, feeling a little superior, "Why do I feel that you don't think I am an adult at all? Just like my dad and my brother, always think that I am still young…"
She drank too much and was looking for trouble, but he was still patient to her, "Of course you are an adult, but in the eyes of your brother and father, you are still a child."
What he said was warm and kind.
But it's not what she wanted to hear.
Guan Zhiyi pursed her lips, her eyes were a little red, "Why are you treating me so well now…"
A word that came suddenly.
Qi Chengyan paused, not knowing whether to laugh or cry: "I used to be bad to you before?"
"It's alright, but ...... it's not that good either." Guan Zhiyi whispered, "If it was very good, you wouldn't have left without telling me, and you also wouldn't have stayed away for so long ......"
In the end, she still said this matter.
She knew that in his heart, she was just a little sister, so he didn't need to explain to her about going abroad, nor did he need to come back for her. And now after returning because of work, he still treated her like a sister, and he treated her very well as usual.
But he didn't know. After he left, she was sad, angry, and missed him very much. Then after she finally forgot about him and started taking care of herself to do what she wanted to do, he came back ......and still treated her the same as before, so it made her life turn into a chaos all of a sudden.
Qi Chengyan didn't know what Guan Zhiyi was thinking. He looked at her red eyes, only knowing that he had made the little girl sad.
But at that time it really happened so suddenly, he didn't even have the time to react before being sent out of the country. And a lot of things happened after that, so he simply could not take the time to come back, and of course his certain relatives in the country also used all sorts of ways to prevent him from coming back.
"It was my fault for not telling you when I left, but later I asked Yuan Bai to let you pick up the phone yet you didn't answer. I sent you a few gifts and you didn’t seem to like it either. Then when you were in high school and college, you went to live in school."
When Qi Chengyan thought of the scene when 'Guan Yuanbai asked him not to send anything because Guan Zhiyi didn't even look at it', he was helpless and amused, "Xiao Wu, you ignored me so much at that time, why are you blaming everything to me now."
She ignored him at first, of course, because she was too angry with him. Later when she wanted to reason with him, he was already very busy.
She thought at the time that he didn't care about her that much and would never come back.
Therefore, she did not contact him again.
"That's your fault..." she murmured.
Qi Chengyan was helpless. He was really busy at the beginning, and then he gradually didn't have time to think about others, but he didn't expect this little girl to firmly hold a grudge.
"Yes, it's my fault." Qi Chengyan patted her head, "Little drunkard..."
"Humph."
"Stop whining and go home."
"You haven't said why you are so good to me!"
Qi Chengyan looked at the way she insisted on asking for an answer, opened his mouth, but found that he really couldn't say any reason.
It seemed to be a habit, he used to think this was the sister of his good friend, that he watched growing up, so he naturally treated her well. And now? He felt that she was close to him and was different from others, so he treated her well.
It's completely habitual.
"Probably, because I think you are silly."
Guan Zhiyi's eyes widened.
Qi Chengyan laughed a little: "Don't say these silly things, you really talk a lot when you're drunk."
"......"
"Let's go, I'll take you home."
Qi Chengyan went forward, Guan Zhiyi was still feeling unreasonably angry, but she could only follow his steps.
The snow was slippery. She was absent-minded, and walked without paying attention. So she accidentally stepped on a small ice surface. She ended up stumbling, her whole body leaning backward. But fortunately, Qi Chengyan was close and quick to catch her.
After holding her steady, Qi Chengyan said with a frown, "Look at the road."
"Oh."
Qi Chengyan shook his head, "Hold my hand."
A hand stretched in front of her, Guan Zhiyi lowered her eyes and glanced, her heart tightened, and she didn't know which tendon twitched again this time, she suddenly took his hand in hers.
Her palm is facing his palm, holding him firmly.
Qi Chengyan was startled.
He originally only meant to let her hold his arm, he didn't expect her to hold his hand directly.
A very small hand, with delicate skin under the fingers, soft and cool ......
"Let's go!" Guan Zhiyi did not wait for his reaction, pulling him and dragging him forward, "Hold me tight, do not let me fall ah!"
For a few seconds, Guan Zhiyi almost dragged him forward, Qi Chengyan's eyes flashed by surprise, and at that moment he felt that it was a little inappropriate.
It's probably because she has indeed grown up, and it's a little weird to hold her the same way as he did when she was a child.
But looking at Guan Zhiyi's side face flushed with the smell of alcohol, he felt like he was thinking too much...This kid should be just as unsuspecting towards him as before.
Qi Chengyan pursed his lips, pulled her towards the umbrella, then withdrew his hand from her palm, and instead put his arm around her shoulder to prevent her from slipping again.
Guan Zhiyi paused slightly, her palm suddenly felt empty.
Soon, Qi Chengyan sent her to the door of her house.
"Rest early, don't run out on such a cold day." Qi Chengyan said behind her.
Guan Zhiyi did not turn around, she raised her hand and waved, indicating that she knew.
Then, she heard the sound of him leaving, his shoes stepped on the ground, a very subtle sound of him stepping on snow.
Guan Zhiyi stood in the same place for a while, before eventually turning back.
Qi Chengyan's back was already far away, and he would be out of sight when he turned the corner. She stared at him, her nose was sore and she wanted to cry, but she quickly held that feeling back.
The only reason you have any feelings for him now is because of your illusion of dependence.
He already has someone he likes, so in the future... don't be so willful anymore.