Chapter 49: forty nine
forty nine:
"They must have been whispering outside." Ji Leyu affirmed.
"Yes." Lin Fei replied calmly.
Do you still have the nerve to "hmm"? ! !
Ji Leyu was so angry that she pouted her little mouth, "Then you still won't let me listen."
He looked at the door not far away, and felt that it was a pity, it was only such a short distance, so close!
And this time they took the initiative to say it behind the door!
It's not that he took the initiative to listen!
Lin Fei looked at his pouting like a duckling, squeezed it amusedly, and touched his head before Ji Leyu widened his eyes and frowned, "Good boy~"
"Hmph!" Ji Leyu hummed dissatisfied.
Lin Fei skillfully hugged him into his arms, and continued to pet him, "Good boy~"
—Obviously, he is very good at coaxing Ji Leyu now.
Ji Leyu agreed to Ji Yuxiao's change of words, and for the next half a day, he yelled at each other one after another. The sweet Lin Luo's heart melted, and he even sandwiched several pieces of his favorite sweet and sour pork for dinner.
After he finished picking up the dishes, his eyes touched Lin Fei, and the joy in his heart subsided a little.
He suddenly and sensitively realized that Ji Leyu started to call him Dad now, he had always called Ji Yuxiao Dad, now with himself, the three of them became a family in the traditional sense.
As for Lin Fei, Lin Fei is just his nephew, a relative, not a family member.
Would he feel left out?
Will it be uncomfortable?
Do you feel like you are just a guest here temporarily?
The more Lin Luoqing thought about it, the more she felt that Ji Leyu probably shouldn't have changed his mind so quickly.
But Ji Leyu has changed his mind. If he continues to call him uncle like before, will Ji Leyu feel that he doesn't want to be his father?
Besides, this was Ji Yuxiao's wish. He asked Ji Leyu to change his words for his own sake. If he refuses at this time, it will inevitably disappoint his good intentions.
Thinking of this, Lin Luoqing silently picked up a few pieces of sweet and sour pork tenderloin and put them in Lin Fei's bowl.
Lin Fei had already learned not to say thank you to him for such small things. He ate quietly and behaved gracefully.
Lin Luoqing looked at him, another thought slowly came to mind.
Now that it is a foregone conclusion for Ji Leyu to change his words, and he can't make Ji Leyu call him uncle again, can he make Lin Fei change his words too?
He can also adopt Lin Fei like Ji Yuxiao, so that Lin Fei can also call him and Ji Yuxiao's father, and he will be the same as Ji Leyu.
They are a family of four in the true traditional sense.
After Lin Fei finished eating the sweet and sour pork in the bowl, he vaguely felt that Lin Luoqing seemed to be looking at him all the time, raised his head in doubt, and asked him, "What's wrong?"
"It's okay." Lin Luoqing laughed.
He planned to tell Lin Fei what he thought after a while when there were only the two of them.
I just don't know if Lin Fei is willing or not, he doesn't seem to have any intentions in this regard.
Lin Luoqing ate the shrimp in the bowl, feeling a little hesitant.
After eating, Lin Fei went back to his room and continued to read the story collection he hadn't finished.
Lin Luoqing sat in the bedroom and thought for a while, but still thought to ask Lin Fei, even if he was not allowed to change his mouth, he had to check his current mood and see his attitude towards Ji Leyu's change of mouth.
After thinking about it, he went to find him at nine o'clock when Lin was taking a bath, and carried him into the bathtub.
He carefully looked at Lin Fei's expression and figured out Lin Fei's emotions.
Lin Fei's mood was the same as usual, he couldn't see much joy, but he didn't feel any sadness either. It seemed that Ji Leyu changed his name to Lin Luoqing's father, and it didn't affect him at all.
Seeing him like this, Lin Luoqing didn't know how to say what he had thought up before.
He always remembered that afternoon, on the street after school, the young Lin Fei stood on tiptoe, touched his head, and coaxed him, "So don't be angry, be good."
His mind was too delicate and too precocious, Lin Luoqing worried that after he said it, if Lin Fei didn't want to, he would feel guilty.
"What’s wrong with you?"
Just as he was thinking, he suddenly heard Lin Fei's calm voice.
Lin Luoqing came back to her senses, wiped his arm with a towel, and said softly, "It's nothing."
Lin Fei obviously didn't believe what he said, but he didn't want to say it, and Lin Fei didn't ask any more questions, but just said in his calm tone, "I can take a bath by myself, if you have other things, go and do it. "
Lin Luoqing smiled, touched his head, and said to him, "No, I was just thinking about something."
He looked at Lin Fei's handsome face, pondered for a long time, and couldn't help asking him, "Xiaoyu called me daddy, will you be upset?"
Lin Fei shook his head, "You are married to Uncle Ji, he is Xiaoyu's father, and you are Xiaoyu's father yourself."
"That's it..." Lin Luoqing said softly.
He was a little nervous, his eyelashes drooped unnaturally, pretending to be casual, "Then do you want to call me daddy too?"
After Lin Luoqing finished speaking, her heart beat like a drum, and after a long while, she quietly raised her eyelids to look into Lin Fei's eyes.
Lin Fei's eyes were very clear, and his eyes were as calm as ever. He said, "You are my uncle."
"I know." Lin Luoqing explained to him, "but your uncle was just Xiaoyu's uncle, wasn't he? If I adopted you, you could call me daddy and your uncle daddy just like Xiaoyu , you are just like Xiaoyu."
Lin Fei looked at the joy flickering in his eyes, and pursed his lips, not knowing what to say.
"You don't want to?" Lin Luoqing asked him.
After he finished speaking, he was afraid that he would be unhappy because of this, so he quickly comforted him and said, "I just talk casually, and you don't have to worry about it. I just see that Xiaoyu calls me dad now, and I'm afraid you think I am closer to him, so I just asked you if you want to call me daddy, but in fact, I am very happy to call me whatever you call me, whether it is uncle or daddy, we are a family, whatever you call me is a family."
Lin Fei listened to his words, and noticed that the joy that had just flashed in his eyes seemed to have disappeared.
He stared into Lin Luoqing's eyes, quietly and seriously.
Lin Luoqing didn't understand why, and asked him, "What's wrong?"
You are unhappy, Lin Fei silently said in his heart, not as happy as before.
He blinked, and after a while, he seemed to have organized his words, looked into Lin Luoqing's eyes, and said to him, "I don't have a father."
Lin Luoqing didn't know whether he wanted to say that he didn't have a father now, or the fact that he didn't have a father, so he could only respond in a low voice, "Yes."
"I haven't had a father since I was a child." Lin Fei tried hard to explain to him, "I don't know what a father is."
He said, "It's not that I don't want you to be my dad, I just don't know what a dad is."
"I don't have a dad, I haven't had one since the beginning, so I don't know what a dad is."
He said repeatedly that he didn't have a father, and he didn't know what a father was. He felt that what he said was very clear, but he was afraid that he couldn't explain clearly, so he could only keep explaining to Lin Luoqing.
Lin Luoqing looked into his penetrating and slightly anxious eyes, and he felt that he seemed to understand what Lin Fei meant.
There has never been a father in his world, so he doesn't know what a father is like, so he can't make him a character that has never appeared in his world and has long been unnecessary.
He is like a person who has already chosen his labels and characters. Lin Luoxi has his mother on his body, his uncle on his body, Ji Yuxiao's on his uncle and uncle Ji, and Ji Leyu's on his younger brother. But there is no father, because there is no father in Lin Fei's world, so he does not have this label.
It's not that he doesn't want to call him dad, he just doesn't have the label, he doesn't have the concept, he doesn't know what a dad is, so he can't let him be his dad.
Lin Luoqing nodded, looked at him with a smile, and said, "I see, it's not that you don't like me, you just don't know what a father is, right?"
Lin Fei nodded quickly.
He looked at Lin Luoqing with a vague guilt in his eyes.
He was a little stubborn in his bones, he knew that if it was another child, he might be very happy and easy to call out daddy, just like Ji Leyu.
This is not a big deal, what's more, Lin Luoqing has been treating him very well recently.
But he couldn't do it.
He doesn't have a father, he doesn't know what a father should look like, he doesn't have this concept.
When he was too young, he didn't realize that he didn't have a father. When others asked him about his father, he realized that there was such a word as father in the world, so he asked Lin Luoxi, but Lin Luoxi told him that he was died, so the word daddy withdrew from his world again.
And now, Lin Luoqing made this word reappear in his world.
Lin Fei never imagined what his father was like, because he never needed a father.
Therefore, he had no way to stick such a strange, meaningless, vague and blank word on Lin Luoqing.
He is an uncle, he is very familiar with him, even if he didn't like it before, he is starting to like it a little bit now.
He is vivid, familiar, he knows what he looks like with his eyes closed.
How could he be a father?
Lin Fei couldn't convince himself to call him Lin Luoqing, a strange and meaningless name.
He has a mind of his own, even too much of his own.
He secretly raised his eyelids, and glanced at Lin Luoqing cautiously. Lin Luoqing's face was very peaceful, and he didn't seem to be angry because he didn't want to call him dad.
He even smiled a bit, pinched his face after he found himself peeking at him, "peek at me."
But Lin Fei felt very guilty.
He rarely feels guilty, or most of the time, he rarely has mood swings.
His desire for this world is very low, he doesn't care much about people and things, let alone guilt?
He didn't even bother to intervene in other people's affairs, so how could he feel guilty because of others.
But now, Lin Fei felt that he felt a little guilty.
Lin Luoqing has been paying for him recently, buying books for him, reading books with him, and even promised to help him build a study room.
He felt Lin Luoqing's liking, but he couldn't give him a corresponding response—Ji Leyu could call him daddy, but he didn't want to.
Lin Fei felt a little bored, and felt that he really wasn't that likable.
Just like now, Lin Luoqing is not as happy as before.
He looked at Lin Luoqing, thought and thought, and raised his hand, gently placed it on the top of Lin Luoqing's hair, and slowly stroked his hair.
"I'm sorry." Lin Fei's voice was low, like a child apologizing for making a mistake.
He said, "It's my fault, so don't be unhappy, okay? Be good."
Lin Luoqing really didn't expect him to apologize to him, so he quickly pulled his hand down and held it in his palm, "You didn't do anything wrong, why did you say sorry to me?"
He said, "I'm not unhappy, do I look unhappy?"
"I'm not happy just now." Lin Fei said seriously, "You were very happy when you asked me to call you Dad just now."
Lin Luoqing smiled, and he bowed his head and kissed Lin Fei, "I'm also very happy now."
"I'm glad you noticed my emotions."
He looked at Lin Fei and said softly, "Feifei, I already understand why you don't call me daddy, I can understand, so I won't be upset because of it. You didn't do anything wrong, so you don't need to apologize, if , I mean if, if you think I'm not as happy as before, then you can kiss me, you haven't kissed me yet, if you kiss me, I will be very happy."
Lin Fei was slightly surprised when he heard this.
He has never been a person who expresses his emotions, not to mention kissing others, even if Lin Luoqing kisses him, he likes it in his heart, but he is awkward on his face.
But now, Lin Luoqing asked him to kiss him.
Lin Fei felt a little overwhelmed.
Lin Luoqing looked at the embarrassment in his eyes, lowered her head and kissed him on the cheek again, he didn't leave quickly, but looked at him very closely.
He raised one hand, covered his eyes, and asked him, "Is this okay? I can't see it, so just pretend you didn't do anything."
Lin Fei pursed his lips unconsciously, a little shy and a little novel, wanting to try.
He looked at the person in front of him, and after a while, he finally kissed Lin Luoqing on the face awkwardly and generously.
Immediately afterwards, he quickly lowered his head and sat in the water, his ears were very red.
Lin Luoqing felt his soft touch and deliberately teased him, "Can I put my hand down now?"
Lin Fei nodded, then realized that he couldn't see it, and said in a low voice, "It's ok."