I Became a Foreigner Loved by Transcendentalists

29 – Episode 29. Why are you with a woman other than me…?

Desire.

It is the basic instinct possessed by all living things, and the one most suppressed by rational beings….

In some sense, this is the concept that is considered the most hindrance to life.

-Tiriring!

But the clown denies that claim.

You have a goal because you have a desire, and you give value to effort because you can release it.

What value is there in the life of someone who only restrains such desires?

“Now that I think about it, you still haven’t paid me back the money you took last time, right?”

“But you also messed up the woman I liked in front of you…… !”

“aaah!! Everyone get out! Why do I have to live like this!? “This is all because of you!”

“That’s what I’m saying! Why should I rot in this gutter with beggars like you!?”

Even if there are problems, you don’t have to think about them for just this moment.

At this moment, when the desire they had built up was boiling over in the dirty alley, the clown continued to play as if fueling the heat.

In that way, their reason is erased.

Throw away all your worries, worries, and conscience.

“aaah! Kill it! “You bastards!!”

The sound of flesh being torn, even the heartbreak of losing humanity.

A powerful and addictive performance that erases everything.

“Ahahahaha~!”

The moment when desire sprouts where reason has been eaten away, and the red flower that blooms from it blooms on stage.

The cheerful smile that had been hidden all along began to stand out on the lips of the clown who was dancing above it.

“The lowly clown sings~”

Smile brighter than ever.

Illuminating this crazy festival like a light, drawing the joy that is brighter than the moonlight.

“He sings about his life~♬”

Through this gradually heightened spirit, he plucks the strings, recalling his old memories.

“A beggar born in chaos grabs hold of an outstretched hand in search of salvation. Watching and remembering the journey of a street bully becoming a hero intoxicated with victory, and eventually becoming a king…….”

A recollection of a long life, a fairy tale written about a hero, a biography of a hero written from someone else’s point of view…….

It doesn’t matter what you call it.

Even giving a name is a luxury when it comes to a song meant to liven up a banquet.

“Nevertheless, I was worried that it would fade away with time, so I changed it to a fun song, and eventually it stayed in this world longer than memories and was passed down from mouth to mouth.”

Even those who don’t know this song feel the excitement and convey the sound to each other…….

Even if there is no awareness, I hope to leave that great name in this world.

“King, I am a clown for you~ At this moment when I say this song, I too am remembering the glorious days I had with you… ….”

-Tiriring, tiring~♬

“… So even at this moment, I hope. “I hope that the emptiness you feel created by the accumulation of those memories will be filled and a smile will be drawn on your face once again.”

As the lyrics come to a close, the hand that plucks the strings gradually loses its strength.

The silence that followed was so quiet that it contrasted with the commotion that had occurred before.

Just one person.

Among the pieces of meat that are still spewing blood that has not yet dried, except for one man who is the only one who has come to his senses and is terrified.

“Ah, ah… ….”

Is that fear directed at you?

Or later, about what he did at this scene?

“… “You’re shaking.”

Either way, it is unnecessary here.

Thinking like that, the clown immediately placed his thin fingers on the strings of the lute in his hand.

“What are you worried about when you should be enjoying yourself?”

“Ha, don’t do it… ….”

“Let’s liberate it.”

-Tiring~

“Please…” ….”

“Let’s resolve it.”

-Tiriring~♬

“Ah, ah!!!!”

“You can’t turn back, and if you don’t even have the courage to face it, running away can also be the right answer…… “

A sweet whisper that goes well with the performance.

The man felt his mind being buried there, and soon only one thought remained.

“Ugh, hahahaha!”

Yes, this is a dream.

If it is not a dream, just bury it.

If you do that, everything will be solved.

-Wow!

The moment the weapon held in my hand finally dug into my neck, taking away my last remaining line of life and death.

At the end, when the convulsions of the collapsed body had subsided, the corners of the mouth of the woman who had accepted the blood into her body gradually began to rise.

“…… hehehehe.”

As if to replace the applause from the audience that should have come after the performance.

“Ahahahahaha, hahahaha~”

She strained her neck and burst out laughing at the top of her lungs, spreading her arms wide and staring into the faces of the corpses lying around.

Rapid worms who died with their reason buried.

But what is depicted on that face is absolute exhilaration.

Even though they died after being faithful to their desires without caring about anything, there was definitely joy in their final moments that even they had forgotten.

“That’s right~ There’s no need to suppress it, right? No matter what that life is like, the end will be fun and exciting~♬”

Even though I fell into this gutter, at the last moment when I had to look back on my life, I forgot all my worries and worries and ended the journey…….

If the purpose of life is to pursue happiness, how can you be faithful to your desires and consider the end you face so sinful?

“I can’t believe you enjoyed that moment of liberation to the point of being completely crushed.”

A bright smile was once again drawn on the bard’s lips as he looked back at the miserable traces left at the end.

Darker, brighter.

“This is really, really~”

I, who sympathized with their final moments, also whispered that my feelings were at their peak.

“… “It’s boring.”

The feeling of exaltation that surged with pleasure was insignificant, but the heart fell helplessly and fell into a deep abyss.

It’s as if the heat of the body that reached its climax subsides in an instant.

What came at the end of liberation, as always, was an empty heart.

-Tiring.

Yes, a desire that only lasts once is such a trivial thing.

No matter how passionate people are, masturbation is something that can only be done once in a lifetime.

If it leaves nothing behind, what is the point of doing it?

-Tiriring~!!

So she goes on a trip.

Finding new audiences every moment…….

I hope that the intense pleasure that can only be awakened at the end of life continues endlessly on my journey.

-Tiding, jijijik!

If even that ends up being a useless memory, at least those stories will be woven together like rags…….

I hope that one day it will be a story that will make the lord he serves happy.

-Jijijik, jijijik!!!

Repeat it, repeat it.

Endlessly repeating that boring time without knowing when it will end.

-Taang!!

The moment when the string of her lute was roughly cut by a gesture of her hand, exhausted from the time of patience.

She immediately threw it on the floor and her gaze gradually looked towards the sky.

I started to turn towards the moonlight shining on the dark red flower fields that filled this street.

“…… “Why is this?”

The bright amber eyes gradually begin to shine more vividly as they capture the shining light.

In this empty journey that has lasted for eons, it seems like I have found a way out for the first time.

“I just met you by chance, but from the moment I saw your presence in my eyes, I can’t forget you.”

This is the first time in my journey where I have repeatedly encountered people whose desires have burned out and died out due to a one-time relationship……

Because I felt that the person who was supposed to leave as if letting go remained clearly in my mind.

“Hyosung, can you teach me? “A way to fill this endless hunger I feel.”

Yes, if immersion truly exists because it continues endlessly, then that man might be the person he was looking for.

A life that is faithful to your desires is something that cannot be lived without feeling satisfied and suffering from thirst if you continue without ending it.

“I hope so. “Now I’m tired of laughing without thinking.”

So, I hope that there exists somewhere in this world a well that can continuously satisfy that thirst.

There was such sincerity in the whispers just now.

****

And.

The interior of a tent located in a remote part of the city.

– Jijijik.

Before ending the day there, Airi, who had been fortune-telling her fate just in case, frowned at the sight that appeared in her crystal ball.

‘What is this?’

The predetermined future changes at some point…..

This is not the first time this has happened.

Because of the whims of the dragon living in this city, a future has unfolded where this empire will be devastated.

But what happened now was such a sight that it would be difficult to say that the future has changed.

-Chijijik, Chiik.

What you see is a messy scene that looks like paints mixed together, and the only sound you hear is a loud noise.

That was a phenomenon he had never seen before during his fortune telling.

No, it is a phenomenon so heterogeneous that I am certain that other fortune-tellers have never encountered such a phenomenon.

‘Could it be that our ancestors were unable to predict the future?’

Yes, the power he possesses would certainly be called omniscience, but even that is not reflected immediately.

If a variable arises, such as a sudden whim of a transcendental person, the observed future must be modified accordingly.

The fact that such a future is disrupted for so long may be because something more than just one transcendental being whimsical is going on.

The most likely possibilities that can be thought of right now are not one, but two, or more…

‘The whims caused by the vengeful transcendent collided.’

When such extreme thoughts start to suffocate, the crystal ball becomes clear again.

The crackling noise disappeared, and he was soon able to see that the sight he had seen before had been restored.

“Ah, I’m back.”

Yes, this is the image of my future that I have confirmed so far.

There is also a bed with lights and lace that creates a mysterious atmosphere.

And you yourself, wearing only your underwear, hugged by a man and panting…….

“Aang~&”

…… But why?

Even after seeing that her safe future has been restored, does Lee Da-ji feel complicated feelings?

“Ugh, ugh. Why isn’t this changing…… !”

I checked with him several times since I first met him, but my future relationship with him remained the same.

It was something I couldn’t even imagine as someone who had always practiced astrology and lived a frugal life…….

Of course, if you keep this future in mind and be wary of him, you can easily avoid a future in which you are reduced to such a lowly situation.

If that doesn’t work, you can seek advice directly from the God of Destruction to find out exactly how to change the future.

It takes a lot of power to change the future as you want, but it will also be necessary for your own purpose.

‘But the reason it is not easy to change hastily is because there is a high possibility that my future self will not forget that purpose.’

If he had not forgotten his mission, it would mean that he was born with the destiny of a hero who would save this world.

But looking into the process in detail is not an easy task for me right now.

From the future shown in the crystal ball, it is not something that will happen immediately, but something that is planned to happen in the distant future, and the further away the future is from the present, the more difficult it is to confirm the process.

‘Yes, it will become clear as time goes by. Why am I getting involved with him…….’

If you have forgotten your mission, the problem is to just come to your senses and get as far away from where he is as possible.

However, if he, who is insignificant now, is destined to save the world in the future, he must prepare his heart even if he foresees a future in which he will become such a vulgar person.

‘I am connected to that person…’ ….’

Woo Hyo-seong.

From the first time we met, this person came to mind again and again and caught my attention.

And the person who did not deny the words of the fortune teller, but listened to what he said and even expressed his gratitude.

‘It’s not that I don’t like poetry, but…. We still don’t really know each other….’

Is it because I have seen her body with him over and over again?

As she was thinking of his face, Airi felt her face turn red without knowing why.

‘Well, it’s a bit…. If you’re going to build a relationship, it’s better to be simple and gentle…….’

Because he had always focused only on his practice and mission, he couldn’t help but worry about things that he had neglected, but when he felt that the time had come, he couldn’t help but worry about various things.

And that’s why curiosity grows more and more.

What happens after this is that she will end up courting a man she has never met before.

-hehehehe, hehehe~

The voice used to just tremble with s*xual excitement, but now it has begun to show exaggerated coquetry…….

‘Huh? For a moment…. ‘This isn’t my voice?’

It’s clearly the same future as before, but why did I suddenly hear a voice I’d never heard before?

The gaze gradually turns forward, feeling a sense of doubt.

In that crystal ball, I was still panting and engrossed in my actions with him.

And there is also a white woman who is coquettish, watching this from next to her.

-Hyosung~ I can’t stand it anymore~ Please do it quickly for me too~~♡

“…Eh?”

What on earth.

This unidentifiable white woman is crawling on all fours beneath him, panting for her breath with her tongue sticking out.

“… Why did we add one more person?”

And why?

If he doesn’t do anything like this, he will become a man who is destined to end up with him.

“Why is Hyosung with another woman instead of me…… ?”

Why do I feel jealous of Mi-rae, who is now hanging out with another woman?