I Became the Burden of a Conscienceless Party

30 – The Five Desires (1)

Five desires and seven emotions (1)

That day must have been a snowy day. Well, maybe not.

The moment my journey began.

About 7 years? Or maybe it was more than that.

It started with the rattling sound of the wagon. The body was tied up and the head was boiling hot.

I felt dim and dizzy before my eyes.

And in that moment.

It was a time when I was struggling with a fever from my changing self.

“How do I do this?”

A voice heard for the first time.

And someone’s pretending to be embarrassed.

“What, why did you bring that?”

“Isn’t it a little too much to throw away?”

“It’s not like that. Take it and throw it away!”

With that roar, my body was thrown onto the cold stone floor.

It hurt so much.

I wanted to get up, but I couldn’t, and I wanted to scream for help, but my voice wouldn’t come out.

My mind and memory were hazy.

So only the last words I heard remained in my head.

“If you take it anyway, it will only be ‘Jimg’.”

I made that my name.

***

In order to reach Nirvana, one must renounce suffering. Freed from the five desires and seven passions, without being captured by greed, anger, and arrogance.

Yes, it is only when one is freed from all restraints that one can enter Nirvana.

There was such a moment.

The path of the journey used to come to mind.

The road already passed. But on the way back.

The thing I decided to put down.

What I was going to pick up.

I am such a complete self.

I wanted to understand people from the same point of view as people.

“Haa… ….”

I look up at the snowy sky.

Maybe it snowed like this then?

“I was wondering if I would be able to see your face if I joined the military.”

A person who has gone beyond penance. The one who remembers all the journeys. The blue blood and blue flames carved into his soul and body.

Yes, that flame that burns like a torch but is sticky like hellfire was one day.

Things that were discarded but picked up and completed.

Me before that split.

Even now, the forcibly drawn lines are about to disappear.

“Demon King, it’s hard to see your face.”

But still.

You must still be pure. You have to stay stupid.

To avoid suspicion. Not to be aware of.

I have to push everything I’ve done over the line and act like nothing happened.

I have to hide my true feelings while keeping myself divided.

The gaze of a sage who reached nirvana and attained enlightenment, and the gaze of a wise man who was stained with the three poisons and the five desires.

I embrace all of that and share the line with my original self who walked the middle way and hide one side.

Yes, like a stubborn child, soaked in the five desires and seven emotions.

Yes, unless you understand and accept the three poisons.

“Shall we observe the situation a little longer?”

Because it’s probably hard for you ‘those’ eyes to fool.

***

Lilith was feeling impatient. It was also because Jim had completely cut off news of her after entering the Holy See of the Celestial Church.

‘Rice, will everything be okay?’

Feels like looking at a madman who went into a volcano.

Lilith shuddered when she saw Jim say such a thing calmly.

Of course, Jim had already accepted despair and death and eventually became detached from death and had only contacted him in a state where he had let go of his longing for life.

Lilith doesn’t know Jim’s abilities.

I don’t even know what a weak mental state he actually is.

Still, she was overestimating Jim, and even so, she couldn’t help but worry about entering the Celestial Church on her own feet.

Common sense for a demon.

The reason why Jim was able to put down his obsession with life early on.

“Yes, I have no choice but to believe it now. Still… ….”

Regular contact has also been cut off, and there is no response to emergency communications either.

That doesn’t mean I can’t stay still. Although Lilith was a parachutist, it was because she was a demon who worked hard and produced results.

Yes, I can’t be bluffing anymore. How to move yourself to get what you want.

‘I’m going to find the 5th Corps.’

The troop to which Jim belonged.

Since it was the 5th corps that gave the mission to infiltrate the warriors’ party, you have no choice but to meet the corps commander, Five, to find out more about the situation at that time.

Fortunately, the Commander of Five Corps, who used to be extremely busy, is now in a relatively leisurely situation.

“Nice to meet you, Vice Admiral Five.”

“…… I wasn’t going to say this, but isn’t it too much?”

Yes.

Five is recuperating from the battle with Agni, the Ancient Red Dragon, on the Eastern Front.

Unlike Eleven, who was forced to recuperate for disobeying orders, Lilith couldn’t be happy with her because she was on sick leave due to her battle with Agni.

Isn’t that a situation where a co-worker came to me with a different attitude while I was resting?

Furthermore, it was difficult to meet because he was said to be someone who had purged one of his comrades.

“Well, don’t hate it so much. I just came here with a question about the operational situation within the 5th Corps.”

In effect, it means that the Operational Staff Department will appreciate the internal affairs of the 5th Corps.

Five felt a chill run down Lilith’s cold face.

‘Is this really the devil’s lineage? If I do this wrong, I might be purged like Eleven…….’

Cruel Empress.

In the blink of an eye, Lilith’s evaluation had reached the point of piercing the sky.

“Good. I’ll answer you honestly. I don’t know what Lilith wants to hear…….”

“A party of warriors.”

“Yes?”

“There is something I would like to ask about the ‘Hero Party Infiltration Operation’ that Vice Admiral Five planned and implemented.”

“Wait a minute.”

“Of course, as an outsider, you may not like explaining the details to me, but… ….”

“No! It’s not like that…….”

Five frowned.

She is in a situation she did not expect.

Yes, she…….

“I’ve never done such an operation before, have I?”

Because I’ve never set up a strategy like that before.

“… ….”

“…… ?”

“… ….”

“Hey…… ?”

“…… Okay.”

Lilith nodded her head as if she realized something, and then she slammed the door of her hospital room and left.

Fivero, who did not know her situation, was at a loss.

“Isn’t that kid growing up and not knowing how to close the door and leave?”

It’s surprisingly easy to do something because it’s the devil’s lineage.

She follows the demon lord according to the rules of her power, but she doesn’t particularly respect the demon lord.

That’s because the naming sense has gone bad.

Five still couldn’t adapt to the insulting name given to him by the demon king.

“Ha, what can I do? The monster that single-handedly defeated Leviathan.”

The demon king has a reason to be the demon king.

Five sighed and closed the door, recalling the image of Lilith as she left with a frown on her face.

Anyway, something is happening within the Demon King’s army.

“I’ll have to check it out a bit.”

Five, commander of the 5th corps, muttered privately, as if he were going to be bored.

***

Lilith moved straight toward the camp where the 5th Legion was located.

There was no hesitation in her steps once she started to have confidence.

Her heart, which had been somewhat intimidated or cautious in front of her corps commander, had long since disappeared, and as if to dispel this suspicion, she started searching through the 5th corps’ operational files without hesitation.

Originally, even work within the corps is shared with the General Staff, but even trivial operations are rarely reported one by one.

Because of the indifference unique to the demons.

Will the beings who don’t even name properly run the Legion properly?

It is only imaginary that the army can maintain its shape like this.

“…… Found.”

[Hero Party Infiltration Plan]

Summary: A plan to infiltrate a party with the main prospects of each group and gather information.

In order to gather information about the Celestial Church, the Mage Tower, and the Eye of Truth through relatively inexperienced prospects, they decided to infiltrate humans who betrayed humanity or demons close to humans.

Operation personnel: Lieutenant, Jim, belonging to the 3rd Battalion, 12th Regiment, 5th Corps.

Feature: Mixed race demon

‘Lt. Jim was mixed race? No, he sent such a legendary being into this kind of operation?’

Mixed race demons cannot exist theoretically. That’s why the demons also treat the existence of mixed blood as a legend or rumor.

Then what is written here?

Did I write down the rumors?

‘No, that can’t be the case. Even if he wasn’t of mixed blood, he would have had characteristics that could be claimed as such.’

Lilith hadn’t known that Jim was of mixed race.

Mixed races are literally nonsense or nonsense. It was a strange thing to even think about it.

Then why was Jim, who is in such an important position, hired for something like a hero’s party infiltration operation?

Probably because of the indifference of demons who are not interested in others.

“Operation Initiator, Extra Lieutenant Colonel. Thinking about it again, that’s a pretty big name. Who the hell put it on?”

There is a high probability that the corps commander is Five.

Especially, he grumbled as if he didn’t like the name ‘Five’ given by the demon king, so there’s a high probability that it’s a way to vent his anger.

You must have been the name given to me after pretending to be an extra.

Of course, it doesn’t matter now.

‘Where is the progress of the operation… ….’

Lilith found the operation report. According to the outline of the operation, there should be a report on the information that Jim coaxed the warrior party members to provide.

“Recipient, Extra Lieutenant Colonel… ….”

The name written on the report I found was the name of the lieutenant colonel I saw earlier.

Lilith frowned.

‘The extra lieutenant colonel is dead.’

In other words, it is impossible to obtain more information than this.

After being put into an operation to save Jim, he was annihilated along with the operation team.

It was also an opportunity for the notoriety of the warrior party to soar to the extent that it went up to the meeting of the Demon King’s Army because of the fact that it had lost such a vain talent.

“Strange.”

Reports dealt with in the Demon King’s Army remain within the time frame of the report. It was to prevent the manipulation of demons who often do nonsense.

Right away, Five also did a lot of things because of his fiery personality, so he didn’t have much to do.

“The time lapse is too consistent. Moreover, at this time…….”

When Five, the commander of the 5th corps, was put on the front line and was fighting Agni.

It coincides with the time when the operation team led by the extra lieutenant colonel is established and the plan to rescue Jim begins.

Did Five, who was fighting a dragon on the battlefield, agree to such a plan?

You had time for that?

‘Lieutenant General Five said he didn’t carry out a plan to infiltrate the warrior party. Then this…….’

The extra lieutenant colonel’s dogma?

Lilith’s gaze, which had been reading reports on the operation all along, moved.

The 3rd Battalion is being reorganized following the death of the battalion commander and extra lieutenant colonel.

The rosters belonging there.

Weapon Keeper: Knife

Cooking Bottle: Rice

Communicator: Cole

Human Resources Clerk: Hi

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Supply and Operations Manager: Jim

“…… Found.”

Lilith was able to find Jim’s name after looking through the directory.

It took a while because there were so many names that were roughly written in foreign letters, and Jim was one of them.

“Hmm.”

Lilith confirmed Jim’s position and gave him a soft smile.

It was an alluring smile that she unconsciously bewitched many of her soldiers.

Yes, things are going well.

Everything was as she expected.

“As expected, the main point of the plan to infiltrate the hero’s party is… ….”

None other than Jim himself, head of operations.

And the extra lieutenant colonel is highly likely to have been his collaborator.

He’s an internal collaborator.

Then what is it for? And why would you want to get out now?

And pretending all of that was an order from Commander Five?

Lilith’s eyes narrow as she puts the puzzle together in her head.

“Whoops, as expected.”

Lillis inferred the big picture that Jim probably drew.

“Lieutenant Jim must have been beaten by the Demon King’s illegitimate son.”

Abstract.