I Became the Dark Wizard Who Rules Over the Heroines

91 – Compromise-6

Life disappears.

“Mom… Mom?”

Catherine as a child was looking at that terrifying scene.

I hear a scream. An animal was howling with a voice full of pain.

“Mmmm!!!”

The flesh is torn. The cow on the altar is struggling.

My tied legs are shaking. Blood is flowing on the stone altar.

“Try to look straight ahead, Erst Katharin.”

Katharine held her mother’s collar tightly with her small hands.

I was feeling it. The pain and suffering of that cow penetrated deep into the girl’s heart.

I can feel the weight of killing a life and how cruel and painful it is.

“I was wrong, I will never say I want to eat meat again. Please forgive me just once…”

I was just being greedy like a child. It was a time when Catherine’s patience had not yet grown.

Even though the meal was over, her stomach was not full. Because she was at the age of growing up.

Her mother and the castle maid had offered to prepare dessert for her, but Katharine made a fuss about her. She wanted to eat fresh meat, not beef jerky or cookies.

-Is that so. Now that I think about it, it’s time for Katarin to start to understand.

If she were a normal parent, she would have simply scolded her and told her ‘no’, but Katharine’s mother gave her a gentle smile and accepted her request.

-But, Katharine. There is no meat left right now, so I have to make new meat. Please see the process of making it with your own eyes.

Katharine thought it was no big deal until she heard it.

Until I saw the cow lying on the altar and struggling.

“Mother, that is, please…” ” “

“Are you sick, Katharine?”

Her mother called Katharine in her soft voice.

The fishy scent of blood lingered in Katharine’s nose. She was scared She was anxious.

She couldn’t stand it.

The pain and sin created by slaughter were becoming a sacrifice for black magic.

“I’m sorry…”

“Don’t feel sorry. It’s natural. People are usually like that. When a life dies, you can’t help but feel sad. You can’t help but sympathize with the pain and feel the sadness together.”

Those who knew her in her usual way could not help but feel a sense of discomfort in her.

She was Catherine’s mother. She was the daughter-in-law of the Erst family.

Although she was no match for the matriarch, she was also a powerful warlock.

He mercilessly slaughters his family’s enemies and carries out his decisions without hesitation, no matter how cruel and terrible they are.

But, she had feelings for her too. She also said to her daughter.

“So what should we do, Katharine? You don’t want to see this?”

“Yes, but…”

Catherine was a wise child.

She knew.

It was just a matter of running away. It was nothing more than a selfish act of letting something happen outside of one’s eyes that one did not want to see.

“Yes, even if you don’t see this, this is definitely going to happen.”

Katarin’s mother grabbed Katarin’s head as she struggled to turn her head. She was forced to watch the terrible moment of her death.

“Then shall we stop?”

“…Yes?”

“You are the one who will become the owner of this territory someday. You can even order all the residents to ‘don’t eat meat.’ If not right now, then someday.”

Catherine’s legitimacy was solid. As the decades pass, she will gain overwhelming status and power.

But again, Katharine shook her head.

“That’s something you shouldn’t do.”

“Yes, Katharine.”

Her mother held Katarin’s shoulder proudly.

“You will starve to death. This land is barren. It will be difficult to survive if you don’t eat animals, whether hunting or livestock. But is that all?”

Katharine could tell what her mother intended when she said these words.

“…I want to eat.”

Once is okay. In fact, now the desire to eat anything had disappeared.

But tomorrow and the next day too. Living without eating all of her meat forever was not something she wanted.

“Honest. Well done.”

Her life was cut short. The ancestral rite is over. Katharine’s mother sacrificed her evil deed for the ‘murder’ to Asmodeus through a simple spell.

The butcher dismembered the cow. Because of the postmortem convulsions, the lifeless piece of meat began to wriggle from time to time.

“There is no superiority or inferiority in life or pain. So what we commit is a terrible evil.”

If she truly loved all beings, there was no way she could harm another for her own pleasure. There was no way I could have succumbed to that flavorful moment created by fatty meat and taken my life.

“Katharine, always think of yourself first. Then, think of your family, your friends, your subordinates who believe in you, and the people who believe in you and follow you.”

“…Yes.”

“Sacrifice other things for them, for yourself. Every time, look at what Katharine did, without looking away like she does now.”

It hurt. I was sad. Nevertheless, Catherine could understand. She could accept it.

“In order to live, you have to eventually hurt someone. You might hurt a plant, not an animal.”

“…”

“The precious children that the wheat creates all year long must be crushed mercilessly with a mortar to remove their skins, and even if they have grown, their lives must be broken into pieces and ground into powder in order to obtain bread.”

Katharine felt she was loved. Her mother would have sacrificed countless others according to her own logic. For Catherine.

“There is no need to turn your eyes away from that death. There is no need to forget that you are doing evil things.”

Catherine accepted the rules of this world. She accepted what she had to do, what she had no choice but to do.

“No matter how many times you choose, choose again and again. Put yourself at the center of the world and distinguish between what you should give up and what you should not give up.”

Although she was only a young Katharine, there were still things she knew.

The territory of Erst was a barren land. I had to fight against an endless stream of monsters, listen to the kingdom’s unreasonable demands, and fight against the empire that continued to argue.

If you don’t fight with others, you can’t survive. Because I don’t have enough land to exist on my own.

Nevertheless, that life must be affirmed.

If you have to sacrifice others in order to survive or gain pleasure, then you have to do it.

“Yes, mother.”

Katharine laughed. Her mother also smiled along

After a while, the food came out.

“Uh, mother. Are you eating this… Without cooking it?”

“If you are going to eat freshly slaughtered meat, it would be a good experience to try it raw. The texture is so chewy and delicious.”

Raw meat that had just been slaughtered and was still writhing was thinly sliced and placed on an expensive tray.

“Now, try it.”

Katharine looked at a piece of her meat with a suspicious eye, and like her mother she had done, she dipped it in coarse salt and lightly put it in her mouth and swallowed it.

“…Is it delicious?”

“Is that so? Eating old meat can be dangerous, so you should only eat very fresh meat.”

Katharine smiled happily and ate all the meat on her plate.

And, time passed.

Catherine’s mother was short-lived. However, the things she left behind did not disappear.

The kingdom was horribly stingy in its support, but what it wanted was disgusting.

She tried to steal by-products and magic ingredients left over from hunting monsters at a low price. Although she was resentful, she had no choice but to admit it.

In a situation where there was a food shortage right now, I couldn’t refuse and say, ‘I can’t sell it at that price.’

The empire was extremely cunning and tried to take away the few ‘profitable villages’ among the Erst territories.

A region that produced special products and became the pillar of Erst, a region that could never be given up.

Of course, Erst was not an ‘innocent victim’ in the process either.

He used all kinds of conspiracies and assassinated important people to make the debt he owed to his superiors disappear. Those who were hostile to the Margrave Erst family were forced to kneel.

Although they moved according to the orders of the kingdom, there were many times when they attacked the empire first. Not only the soldiers who resisted, but also children and women were all brutally killed.

The fiefdoms under his command who tried to turn away from Erst were oppressed with fear and death. I never tried to give them away to others.

It was all a struggle. Everything was a fight.

It was like a choice that I had no choice but endless to make in order to survive.

The struggle to sacrifice the life and pain of others rather than those ‘your own to protect’ to the devil, and through that, gain great strength and live another day.

“…I can’t give up.”

Cooperation, symbiosis, living together. It was just a clumsy deception.

Katharine did not believe him. She tried to prove her life and existence through her victory, as she always did.

“Haaaaa!!!”

The black warlock gave more.