I Give Up on Conquering the Heroines

Episode 59. Fragments of Memory (3)

-The Free City of Pettenburg must carry out the following.

1. All of Petersburg’s soldiers disarm and surrender.

2. The gates of Pettenburg are opened.

3. Julia Pettenburg is captured and handed over to the Crusaders.

A demand issued at the same time as the Crusade’s declaration of war.

Even when I read it again, it was a ridiculous phrase.

At the beginning of the war, unconditional surrender was demanded.

Of course, that didn’t happen.

Peterburg is certainly a small city, but it is not a city to be underestimated.

A city located deep in the mountains, lined with citadel-like concrete buildings.

Even if it is pounded by artillery bombardment and climbed up the mountain, Pettenburg will never fall.

It is self-sufficient and capable of self-producing all kinds of weapons and equipment, so it is truly an ironclad castle.

The Crusaders chose the wrong opponent.

“Eujin… I’ll never see you again…”

But apart from that.

My war is already over.

I made a mistake.

Arousing the frost lord’s suspicions.

The plan was to isolate Eugene by making the saintess jealous.

I was going to make Eugene completely alone and make him come to me in the end.

It was going well until the halfway point.

Until the saint went on a rampage and attacked with a crusader army.

Peterburg was immediately surrounded.

It got to a point where not a single ant could get out or come in.

Peterburg could theoretically last forever, but the same goes for the Crusaders.

If we leave the siege and remain silent, we will be trapped here forever.

“Where did this all get twisted…?”

I lost.

I lost the battle for Eugene due to the saint’s strong tactics.

Eujin is still the saint’s bodyguard.

If you join the crusade, you will join, but there is no way you will fight for Petersburg, which is on the defensive.

-There is someone who climbs the mountain! Shall we attack?

At that time, a radio signal was heard along with a ringing notification.

I wonder if you are even asking this.

Just as I was about to tell them not to report to me one by one, but to intercept them.

– He seems like an enemy, but he seems to be someone who met Yulia a while ago…

“Stop shooting! Stop shooting!”

The moment I saw the man’s face outside the window.

I quickly shouted into the radio.

I was so embarrassed that instead of my usual strong voice, a shaky voice came out.

“How…”

It was Eugene.

Eujin was climbing up the mountain and the castle wall, heading this way.

The moment I saw that, I lost my temper and ran away.

The time spent riding down the elevator has never felt this long.

I forgot about the carriage and ran on my feet.

Suddenly, the brilliant cityscape disappears.

When the scenery of the outer city center, which was in ruins due to the bombardment of the Crusaders, unfolded.

I saw Eugene there, breathing hard, probably from exhaustion.

My lovely Eugene.

Eujin, whom I thought I would never see, was there.

“Yu, Yu Yujin…!”

“My name is not Yuyu Yujin.”

“Huh…!”

I fell into the arms of Eugene, who smiled mischievously.

It is soaked with sweat, smelly and damp.

But I don’t hate it.

You came this far for me.

Turn your back on the church.

She betrayed her sainthood and came to me.

He chose me instead of the saint.

Tears flowed out of joy.

“Why…Why, why did you come…? Pettenburg is under siege. I can’t leave now.”

“I know. I came here because I knew.”

“Why…”

“I couldn’t leave you alone.”

Tears almost poured out again.

I felt like I had everything.

That was actually the case.

When everyone was afraid of me, thinking I was the cold ruler of Pettenburg or a cold witch.

Because Eugene is the only person who knows my true self and approaches me without hesitation.

Because Eugene is my world.

“Eujin. I was wrong all along… I’m sorry…”

“What am I sorry about?”

I’m sorry for everything.

In the end, Eugene loves me the most.

I did something stupid without even knowing it.

Isolated Eugene and tried to destroy him.

If you love someone, you shouldn’t do that.

My twisted desire almost ruined everything.

“I’m sorry for not coming sooner.”

“Eugene…!”

Eujin forgave me for that.

He affirmed me.

He came back to me.

“I won’t do that again… Oh, I won’t. I won’t doubt you… Ugh…”

I hugged Eugene and made a promise.

I will make sure Eugene doesn’t regret choosing me.

I will never try to put Eugene under my control again.

“I love you. I love you…”

Tap, tack, tack.

For fear of not being able to understand, I say the words I have been practicing without stuttering.

Yujin responded with a wordless smile and tilted his head.

I closed my eyes and slowly felt my lips touch them.

And then, at the ecstatic sensation that came over me, my eyes opened brightly.

I want to stay like this forever.

Even that thought occurred to me for a moment.

‘Huh?’

Time has stopped.

‘What is it?’

In frozen time.

My body doesn’t listen.

But in this strange situation, my mind is still awake.

“Ha. It’s so annoying.”

‘·······?!’

Eugene let out a sigh and parted his lips from hers.

He was no longer smiling.

He just glared at me with an annoyed look in his eyes and then turned around.

My heart seemed to harden from those eyes.

It felt like the world was falling apart.

“If it weren’t for you, I would have seen the ending this time. I’m so damned disturbed by the trophy heroine theme.”

Eujin walks away, muttering something unknown.

A strange light flickered in the sky, revealing letters and numbers.

A confusing conversation.

I understood.

This is not Eugene’s first life.

Second? Third?

I don’t know.

Maybe dozens or even hundreds of times.

Yujin is not looking at this world seriously.

This world is nothing but entertainment for Eugene.

I am no different from a collection to Eugene.

I have come to understand the cruel truth.

“See you in the next episode. You probably won’t remember anyway.”

‘······.’

Eujin turns around and looks at me with a pitiful expression for a moment.

The world becomes dark.

And I…

“Haaa! Ah, haaa. Hauuu…”

Today, I opened my eyes after suffering from a nightmare.

It’s the same dream.

I dream of that day every day.

The moment when hope turns into despair.

I am dreaming of a moment when a reality that is difficult to accept is thrust upon me.

It’s already been over a month since I regained my memories.

I still have the same dream.

“uuu…”

I swallowed the medicine while struggling to catch my breath.

I have a really bad headache these days.

To the extent that daily life is completely impossible without medication.

“Hurup.”

I leave the dark room, sipping the freshly brewed coffee.

A view of the dull city looking out the large floor-to-ceiling window.

No place was left in ruins due to the Crusaders’ bombardment.

It is such a lively city where the trains run smoothly.

“I still can’t get used to it.”

I returned to the past about a year ago.

With memories of the past.

If Eugene said it, I should have lost my original memories.

But for some reason, I have vivid memories of the previous episode.

At first, I thought that I had returned alone instead of Eugene.

But that wasn’t it.

Because Eugene was moving completely differently from the previous episode.

This time, he doesn’t show up at all.

You do not meet the saint in Hameln, nor do you face the frost lord in Falana.

Of course, I never came to Pettenburg.

I was able to immediately understand what he was thinking.

Eujin is fed up.

They got tired of us and decided to give up.

I knew well why I made that choice.

Because I gave Eugene the hardest time.

Because I tried to break him down with the excuse that I loved him.

Time has been rewound and we have returned to the past, but that fact does not change.

I know and Eugene knows.

It has already become something that never happened, but as long as we remember, it is not something that never happened.

-Espionage

Documents stamped with confidentiality stamped on the desk.

These are the things the secretary left behind.

Because I can’t talk to anyone other than Eugene.

-Two nationwide household surveys in Seongguk. Confirmed to be based on instructions from the Saint of Hamelin.

-The Falana monarch’s close associates were dispatched in large numbers to the southern continent. The mission details are unknown.

Eugene abandoned us.

But there are still people who cannot accept it.

Saint of Hamelin.

And the Frost Lord of Falana.

These two people seem to have returned with their memories like me, and are looking for Eugene very loudly.

“Fools…”

This is stupid.

Because Eugene doesn’t want to meet us.

They left because they hated us.

The more things happen, the more Eugene hides himself and runs away quietly.

Even if we find it miraculously, there will be no dramatic reunion.

Eujin will push us away as if to kill us.

He will get angry and tell you to stop chasing him.

And then they will go back, annoyed that they got it wrong this time too.

Just imagining it hurts.

Coupled with Eugene’s cold eyes from the future, his heart aches.

I’m still so sick and tired that I’m dying.

If I heard those words from Eugene’s mouth, I would probably break down.

I won’t be able to hold out any longer.

That’s why I can’t bring myself to visit Eugene.

Because everything ends the moment we meet.

This world will be abandoned by Eugene again.

“Stop showing off…”

To prevent Eugene from returning.

I don’t know how many sabotage attempts were made by those foolish humans and beastmen to prevent them from confronting Eugene.

Still, they never tire.

Not knowing how to give up, he continues to search for Eugene.

It seems like it will only stop when the news of Eugene’s death is heard.

No. Still, it might not stop…

“We have to find a way.”

It cannot continue like this.

Even if the search range of the two is wide, it is too wide.

The saint controls the entire south, and the frost lord controls the entire north.

No matter how Eugene is, it is inevitable that his tail will be stepped on at some point.

So, I will find Eugene first.

We must find and find out the conditions for Eugene’s regression.

And then it prevents regression.

“Actually, you don’t want to go back…”

That look in your eyes at that time.

I knew it when I saw the pitiful look in his eyes as he turned his back on me.

Eugene is not returning because he wants to.

Due to external pressure, she is inevitably repeating her regression.

You yourself probably want to stop the regression.

“I’ll stop it.”

In that case, it’s enough if I stop.

Do whatever it takes.

We will definitely stop Eugene’s regression.

Then Eugene will naturally come to me.

You will have no choice but to keep me in your heart.

There are many ways to solve the lifespan problem.

How to share your life.

Because I went to Elvengarde last time and learned it.

I left this place after vowing never to set foot there again, but I stopped by for Eugene.

“Elvengarde must be on fire by now.”

I tried to quietly leave.

But as I was about to leave, I suddenly became angry and couldn’t hold back, so I went to see Ifrit.

Then I told Ifrit about the dungeon beneath the World Tree.

As expected, Ifrit grew a spirit body and began to march towards the World Tree.

When his spirit body grew so large that it brightened up the night sky like day, he left Elven Gard.

Elvengarde would have been destroyed by now.

“Huh?”

But the moment I opened the newspaper.

The article that graced the front page was none other than the news of the suppression of the Great Fire of Elvengarde.

Ifrit was even pictured in the photos taken of the restoration work.

The accident circuit stopped for a moment.

Ifrit, who was anxious to burn down the World Tree, is involved in the fire restoration work?

A contradictory situation.

There is only one case in which this situation can occur.

Ifrit is suppressed by an incredibly strong man.

The dungeon beneath the World Tree has been invaded.

Otherwise, such a scene would not have occurred.

A strong enough to subdue Ifrit.

And a skilled person who conquers dangerous dungeons that even the elves have given up on.

The person who agrees with all of this is…

“Huh?”

There is only Eugene.

Eujin went to Elvengarde.

Just a few hours after I left…

“aaah!!!”

As soon as I realized that fact, my blood started to rush.