I Have An Unrequited Love For A Murderer

 Translated by: 𝐸𝓇𝒾 

The semester started, but my daily routine remained the same. When Ki Junghoo went to school, I would sit in my room and stare outside to pass the time.

After spending months by his side and becoming his perfect accomplice, I was given some freedom. I was given my cell phone and no handcuffs. But I wasn’t allowed to go outside.

Thanks to this, I developed a hobby at home. I ordered packages two or three times a week. Ki Junghoo, who brought the parcel boxes piled up at the front door, asked me.

“What kind of bullshit are you doing again today?”

“It’s almost winter, so I wanted to give you a scarf as a present…”

There was no point in saying that it was a gift since everything was purchased with his card. Ki Junghoo sitting next to me without saying anything was his way of allowing me, which I had learned through trial and error. So I worked even harder to knit the scarf.

Other than that, there was one thing that had changed between us a few days ago. I had become able to speak to Ki Junghoo more comfortably. I was two years older than him, and since he tended to push things to the limit during sex, I couldn’t hold back his disrespectful behavior. When he asked me how old I was, I just told him to speak comfortably. Of course, he didn’t treat me like an older brother. I was just grateful to be treated like a human being.

“I’ll be out for two days.”

The handcuffs in Ki Junghoo’s hand rattled as he shook them. He fiddled with the handcuffs and looked at me.

“Baek Yujin.”

“

…”

“You’re not going to run away, right?”

“Huh? No!”

“Then I won’t bother cuffing you.”

Ki Junghoo dropped the handcuffs and ran a hand through my hair. His fingers pressed into the scar on the back of my head, as if to remind me of that day.

“Good boy.”

And with that, he exerted force on his hand and lowered me. I naturally scooted down the sofa to kneel between his legs.

“Just suck it. It’s troublesome to wash it.”

I nodded and grabbed the buckle of his pants with my mouth, trying to pull them down.

“…..”

I failed. I had been practicing by watching all kinds of porn since last time, but it didn’t work. I eventually used my hands to pull his pants and underwear off, then took his penis into my mouth. I swallowed his down my throat until the scraggly pubic hair rubbed against the tip of my nose.

Every once in a while, Ki Junghoo would give me an unflattering compliment, telling me “Are all guys like you who like men suck cocks so well?”, but I had nothing to say in response. I had never liked men before I met him, so this was a first for me. Of course, there were times when I masturbated to gay porn, imagining myself with him.

It’s a secret, but I actually thought that if I had sex with him, I would be the recipient. I have never heard anyone say that I am small due to my height of 187cm, but I could only imagine it that way because Ki Junghoo was so big. We were about the same height, but he was definitely bigger than me in terms of frame.

The good news is that even though it’s been quite a while since I sucked him off all the way, Ki Junghoo never tried to do that to me again. If there was one thing I realized as I sucked him off, it was that Ki Junghoo’s penis was closer to that of an animal than a human. If I put that in, it would probably be the day Ki Junghoo would kill me the way he wanted to.

“What are you thinking so hard about?”

Ki Junghoo asked as he patted my cheeks after I finished swallowing his cum and stuck out my tongue for him to check, thinking of him killing me with his cock. I couldn’t say it, so I kept my mouth shut.

The first night after Ki Junghoo left, I received a video call from him. It was at the agreed-upon time, so I set my phone horizontally on the table and knitted.

– Are you still doing that?

As Ki Junghoo spoke, the loud noise of students could be heard in the background. It seemed that the reason for his two-day absence was an