ALL NOVEL chapter 13
13. Until I Turn Philance Yellow 2
My daily life ended during the rainy season of my sixth year of elementary school. I was thinking that summer vacation was about a month and a half away when suddenly the surroundings became distorted.
Perhaps it was usually something that happened while sleeping at night, but that day, my big brother was unusually irritated, so I couldn’t fall asleep because of the pain in my stomach. I was thinking that I had to go to school tomorrow and that I had to go to sleep soon, but then the house suddenly became strange.
I don’t know what was strange, but I could hear strange voices coming from somewhere, and the colors in the room had disappeared as if it were a black and white television.
“A, a thief?”
Just because the house was strange, I mistakenly thought it was a thief, and I became scared to stay in my futon, so I hid in the closet of my room. I don’t know if this was a safe thing to do if there really was a thief, but I think I just wanted to hide because I was so confused.
“……..”
About thirty minutes after I hid, I felt the world distort again. I had been curled up in the closet the whole time, my eyes closed and my hands covering my ears, so I had no idea what had happened, but I thought it was Safe to come out, so I did.
“B, big brother…”
Of course, it was still late at night, so I knew I would get scolded if I woke him up at this hour.
If there really was a thief, something might have been stolen, and I was scared and anxious and just wanted to talk to someone.
“Are you awake? I’m sorry, it’s me, Himawari.”
I knocked on the door of the next room and called out from outside. But there was no answer.
“Excuse me, I’m coming in.”
I don’t know how much trouble I’ll get in for entering the room without permission, but the fear of my brother mixed with the fear of the thief allowed me to do something I would never normally do. For the first time, I enter my brother’s room of my own volition and approach him as he sleeps in bed.
“W-what the hell!?”
My brother’s head, which should have been peeking out from the covers, was completely gone.
As if it had been cleanly severed from the neck up, the top of his head was missing like a broken mannequin.
“Eek!”
I involuntarily cry out and take a step back, when something heavy with the texture of animal fur bumps against my feet.
“…”
I look down to see my brother lying there pathetically, his large eyes clouded over and his tongue lolling out.
“aaah!”
I must have fainted on the spot from the shock.
The next time I opened my eyes, I was in a large hospital a short distance from home.
It was three days after that night that I heard that my family, other than me, had died. My father and mother, too, had apparently been killed by someone, just like my brother.
I had been suddenly cast out of the prison that was my family and left all alone. I was such a crybaby and so useless, yet I couldn’t shed a tear when I heard the news.
Because I had realized something.
“I see, the real big brother is somewhere else!”
My beloved big brother. My wonderful family. They must have been fakes, because my big brother lied and said he loved me while bullying me, my father turned a blind eye to the inconvenient truth, and my mother knew but pretended not to see. They couldn’t have been my real family, they must have been bad guys trying to trick me. That’s why they must have gotten what they deserved and died.
After that, I was invited by a suspicious woman with purplish hair who showed up while I was hospitalized, and I became the hero of justice, Philance Yellow. I didn’t particularly want to be a champion of justice, but I was interested in joining after hearing that the monster called Shadow was the one who killed my fake family that night, and that Philance Red was the one who defeated Shadow.
Besides, becoming a hero would make it easier to find clues to my real big brother, and maybe he would come to see me after seeing me in action.
I want to see my big brother. When I wished it strongly, my hero suit glowed and produced a spear with a giant electric drill attached to it. My immense power allowed me to save many people, pulverize a giant fallen rock in an instant, and effortlessly make my way through the rubble of a cave-in. Many people praised and cheered me on.
I, who had been a failure, had become a hero to everyone.
“From today on, I’ll be Philance Blue. My name is Asagi Sora.”
About a year after I became Philance Yellow, Sora-nii appeared before me.
“Um… How about we go get a parfait or something?”
No way, I can’t believe it. My real big brother has come to see me!
“Are you serious?”
It’s like a dream, my real big brother was here after all. A kind and wonderful big brother who really loves me!
“I’m not very strong yet, but I feel like I can get stronger and stronger!”
I can feel the power of love inside me raging. I want to protect Sora-nii who is standing right before my eyes, I love him, I want to be loved! I’m so happy, I can be with my big brother again ! I’m so glad I became a hero!
“From now on, please continue to be my big brother.”
And please love me lots, Sora-nii.
I’ll do whatever my big brother tells me to do. I waited because he told me to wait, but for some reason he seems to be keeping his distance from me. Even when I got in the way of his promise to Nadeshiko, he told me not to worry about it. After that, we went to get parfaits as promised, and he even drove me to Shiyundo, where the base is located.
“Big brother, you’re so kind…”
Sora-nii is really kind, but for some reason he doesn’t give me any orders. I don’t intend to disobey my big brother’s orders, I can do whatever he says, whether it’s what to eat, what to wear, or even the order in which I wash my body, so that my big brother will never leave my side again. He’ll be my kind big brother, just for me, forever.
But I don’t know what to do if I’m not given orders.
“I’m hungry…”
It’s been several days since I went to get parfaits with my big brother, but he still hasn’t come to see me. I can’t go see him on my own or contact him, because if I do, he’ll hate me My head is no good, I mustn’t think for myself and act, my big brother is always right, so I have to wait patiently for his orders.
“Himawari? It’s me, are you alive and well?”
“Yes! I’m fine, Doctor!”
Last time my big brother told me not to worry Dr. Gentana, so this time I’ll answer properly. I’m a good boy who follows instructions.
“I’ve been good, yet…”
Why won’t he come see me?
“…I see”
Big brother still doesn’t love me. I love him so much, but he doesn’t love me yet. It all makes sense if I think about it that way.
“What? It’s easy…”
That’s great. Then all I have to do is get big brother to love me like normal.
“I’m sorry for taking so long to realize. I’m sorry I couldn’t move until you told me. There was only one thing I could do”
I took the leather belt out of the dresser, gently looped it around my neck, and left the room.