I Was Confessed to by the Golden Sun

17 – 17. Unable to Hide Affections

In the bright morning of the dorm’s eNT*Rance ceremony.

Despite having just woken up, I giggled to myself thinking about yesterday’s events.

“hehehe… hehehehe…”

Jack doesn’t dislike me.

No, precisely, he still dislikes me, but his feelings are slowly shifting towards me.

And after saying that if he doesn’t stop clinging to me with a mischievous expression, he’ll become obsessed with me…

“Isn’t that a kind of reward?”

Interfering in human relationships and imposing his feelings, strangely, my heart raced.

I tend to dislike clingy people, but the thought of him being like that was rather attractive.

Is this what people mean when they talk about seeing the ‘bad boy’ image?

‘He usually treats me gently, but showing sudden assertiveness makes him seem even more charming…’

He used to be someone gentle, although pushy when he wants to get close at night.

In the end, his words were so thrilling that I couldn’t resist and fell for it completely.

‘That perplexed expression at that time…’

He said he’d pounce on me if I kept sticking around as if to devour me.

And yet, looking down at Jack lying dazed in the grass after being pushed over by my force, as I stayed atop him.”

It was enough to make me feel a sense of conquest beyond imagination and excitement that no man had ever given me.

“His talent for captivating people is no joke…”

No, what I felt at that time was perhaps closer to uneasiness than excitement.

I even considered attacking him right away a few times.

“Should I have kissed him at least?”

As I reminisced about the time when I could have easily stolen a kiss, I quietly lowered my head.

Perhaps, if I couldn’t resist and had kissed him back then, he might have completely scorned me and pushed me away.

He still dislikes me, and a woman like me kissing him won’t make him like it.

The extent of physical contact he can accept while still feeling excited might be limited to a hug.

“So, I should take it slow.”

Make him like me a little more and create a strange atmosphere.

Not like yesterday when I tackled him in the tall grass, but where he willingly approaches me and kisses me on his own.

“…But can I really do that?”

I’m worried that I might get too excited and go after him recklessly.

Jack’s blushing face and his excitement, enough to create a stimulating effect.

“No, that’s unlikely.”

No matter how much Jack desires it, it doesn’t make sense that I can’t coNT*Rol such a desire, right?

At least, if he doesn’t insult me like he did yesterday, saying “beast” while clinging to me, I should be able to endure it.

Come to think of it, I don’t know how I managed to bear hearing such fox-like words yesterday.

I think I was just so satisfied with hugging the extremely embarrassed Jack.

“But why is he so weak in physical contact despite swinging his tail like that?”

His vulnerable appearance right after a sensual touch so suggestive that it made me think he might be doing it on purpose.

I unbuttoned a few buttons on his chest, and I couldn’t help but remember how he couldn’t keep his composure and kept shifting his gaze all over the place.

He was really cute back then, and the fact that I stuck even closer because of his interesting response can’t be denied.

I used to think of him as a monster, but looking back, he wasn’t that different.

“Jack doesn’t seem to consciously manipulate people…”

From my observations and several trials,

It seemed like he wasn’t intentionally trying to shake a woman’s heart with his actions.

“So, does he really have no resistance to physical contact?”

“Is it a man who gradually teases someone and becomes sweet, but his face turns red when their skin touches?”

This is quite…

“…Chup.”

In an instant, a silvery thread extended from the slightly parted lips.

As I thought about how he might react to physical contact if we ever date, it happened without any deliberate intention.

“It seems I’ve fallen for him.”

People who have never been in love tend to be shy when they suddenly start liking someone.

“…I can’t hide it.”

I wondered if I was a special case or if I had been suffering for a long time without realizing it.

The emotions that erupted immediately were too intense to coNT*Rol.

I wanted to hear his voice, hold his hand, embrace him, and even intoxicate myself with him.

“Am I a pervert?”

I tried to coNT*Rol my slightly suggestive thoughts and calm my emotions.

But even though I tried to calm them to that extent, they didn’t subside, and they had little impact.

“Thinking like this makes me want to see him even more.”

Suddenly, I wanted to see him again.

It was already morning, and he had said he would bring his friend in the morning.

If I waited at the front gate, I might be able to see him a little earlier.

With an excited heart, I put on the academy uniform.

***

Time had passed, and the morning of the eNT*Rance ceremony had arrived.

“Haah…”

Even though I was busy checking my plans, there was still time left.

But in my mind, the events of yesterday, which I had tried not to dwell on, kept coming back.

*Crunch!*

I chewed the candy in my mouth to try to suppress those thoughts.

But the lemon scent that emanated from the crushed candy only stimulated my memories further.

Dressed provocatively and pretending to express affection seriously…

Darn it, let’s stop this. He’s not even sincere.

“What’s on your mind?”

Gracen, who had been following me closely, asked me without hesitation. Instead of answering, I let out a laugh.

I wondered if Gracen noticed that my expression wasn’t great. After all, he’s not the type to talk much unless someone else initiates the conversation.

“It’s nothing important.”

With that, I ended the conversation, and it wasn’t long before we reached the eNT*Rance to the academy. Since we had chosen accommodation close by, bringing Gracen in the morning posed no problem.

“Jack! Good morning!”

Yes, even if that troublemaker, Gyeom Taeyang, wasn’t waiting at the academy’s eNT*Rance.

I could have gone through our plans peacefully and calmly without any issues.

“Don’t stick to me.”

I felt my face heat up for no reason as soon as I faced Lucia.

We had been so close yesterday, but does this person not feel anything special about it?

“Come on, just allow me a bit!”

No, keep sticking around, and I might end up in trouble.

All the accidents I’ve had with Gyeom Taeyang have happened in this extreme close proximity.

So, it’s better not to get any closer here.

“Hmm.”

In an instant, I averted my gaze after seeing Lucia’s outfit.

The buttons on the academy uniform weren’t fastened in the same place where she had undone them yesterday.

She did it on purpose, right?

“Hmm?”

Lucia, who soon noticed the direction of my gaze, smiled provocatively and gently pressed her chest against my arm.

“Yesterday, you called me a beast, and now you’re the real beast?”

Then, she laughed a few more times, as if mocking, and added, poking my chest with a laugh.

“Checking out my chest right after we meet in the morning, you’re insatiable.”

“That’s harassment, Lucia.”

Then, she chuckled and playfully tugged at my tie.

By now, I was pretty sure that lemons and neckties serve as her primary weapons.

It feels like somewhat embarrassing incidents happen every time she does this.

“So, did it make you feel good?”

“What nonsense are you talking about?”

As I tried to avert my gaze as far away as possible, Lucia grabbed my face and said.

“You too, because I’m doing this, as a man, are you shaken? Are you shaken?”

Honestly, I am shaken, no, I am extremely shaken.

No matter how the other party is Kim Taeyang, who is handsome, who wouldn’t be shaken when a pretty girl is coming onto you.

But everything she does is just…

“I’m telling you again, I’m sincere now.”

“…My close friend is behind us, aren’t you embarrassed?”

Then Lucia lightly glanced behind and made a “shh” sound with her index finger on her lips.

And Grayson nodded quietly as if he knew it when he saw that.

Why are you nodding?

“At first, I did confess to make fun of Heidi.”

CoNT*Rary to the answer, she said with a slightly serious expression as I approached a few steps closer.

“Now, I really want to date you.”

As if pretending to be sincere, she waited for my answer with a stern expression.

Facing her trembling eyes, I felt a sense of trembling as well.

“Ah…”

I tried to convince her that I wasn’t serious, but she believes that she is.

Even though I’m sure that even that statement is not sincere, I’m annoyed by my ongoing conflict.

Lucia, who was staring at me with a bewildered heart, soon smiled and said.

“Now, you don’t refuse easily, do you? Have you developed some feelings for me?”

And then, she seemed to hesitate a little, held my left hand, and touched her cheek with the back of her hand.

“I’ll keep waiting for you, so you can answer later.”

Lucia’s appearance reminded me of a rabbit nibbling on grass for some reason.

Before I knew it, I was gently stroking her cheek.

“Hmm.”

And Lucia, matching the speed of my hand, slowly rubbed her cheek with the back of her hand.

I hate that I have no self-coNT*Rol.