I Was Reincarnated as a Villainous Noble Who Gets Killed Midway Through the Story but It Looks Like I’ll Be Executed as a Traitor if I Try to Do Good Deeds

22: Lina Noire Leprechaun’s Obsession

I was called the Shadow Princess, but only because I couldn’t use light magic. No matter how hard I tried to use magic or make people like me, I was ignored.

Those days continued, and I eventually lost sight of what made life enjoyable. Father said that someone who understood me would appear one day, but I thought that was just a foolish joke. It was an unrealistic promise, and I couldn’t hear it as anything but empty words.

“I wish I was never born…”

One day, those words slipped out of my mouth. They were words from my heart. I was tired of being treated like I didn’t exist, ignored by everyone.

If someone said that Father was on my side, I would kill them. People who only offered empty comfort and didn’t take any action were fake. I wouldn’t forgive anyone who said they loved me.

Luckily, I had a power that surpassed others. I might lose to my sister, but I was far above most people. Yet, a group of idiots called me useless. That was what humans were like to me.

“They praise Wiseman Filis, who can use five attributes, and call me the Shadow Princess. Foolish people… but I can’t even revenge myself against them…”

If Filis was great because she could use five attributes, then I should be too. I couldn’t expect anything from people who didn’t understand that logic. Even if they liked me, I would think of them as trash.

But someone brought a small change to my life. That person was Rex-san. When we first met, he said that my talent was genuine. I thought that was just a convenient phrase.

But at least his words about having expectations for me were true. He believed in Felicia-san, who only had one attribute, and thought she could break through my magic.

In other words, Rex-san’s true intention was that having a certain attribute didn’t decide everything. That alone made me feel a little better. There were people who thought I had real talent, even if I didn’t have light magic.

That wasn’t all. I released a powerful magic towards Rex-san, one that would have hurt me too if it had a backlash. Yet, he protected me from harm with his body. That made me incredibly happy, and I’m sure Rex-san didn’t understand how much.

“Rex-san helped me. That must have been his body reacting instinctively. Even so, that made me happy.”

That proved that his intention to help me was genuine. Until now, everyone had treated me like I was nothing, but Rex-san truly wanted to help me. That gave me hope, a feeling I didn’t want anyone else to know.

I would keep my memories with Rex-san to myself. I didn’t want to share the joy and emotions I felt when he helped me with anyone else. Those who did nothing for me during my difficult days didn’t deserve to know.

Rex-san said that if my sister and I didn’t get along, it would be a hassle for him. That’s why he came to me. He wanted to deepen our relationship.

“I sense that Rex-san isn’t being honest. But that attitude isn’t bad either. I can tell that he likes me.”

I felt like there was a kind heart in his eyes. He was a person who cared about others while saying bad things about himself. I understood that.

“And there’s an example of a magic that combines three attributes and surpasses light magic. If that’s possible, then…”

That hope was like a light to me. I thought that I could eventually surpass everyone and become a great benchmark.

But Rex-san blew away my thoughts. He used a magic that combined light, darkness, and the remaining five attributes, and made my sister and me use it.

The Rainbow Blessing. It was an unbelievable magic. When I received its power, I felt like I could destroy the world. Everyone else in the room must have felt the same. The power that surged through my body was terrifying, and I thought it would be a trump card.

So, the path to being recognized by surpassing my sister was destroyed. Rex-san had shown me that path.

“Rex-san is a great fool. He showed me hope and then told me to give it up. But I know he’s thinking of me. So, I’ll forgive him.”

Felicia-san said that Rex-san was just trying to sweet-talk me. I couldn’t believe it, of course. But if he was serious about trying to win me over, that would be a different story. Not that I have romantic feelings for Rex-san or anything. It’s just that, compared to those other useless people, he’s in a different league. I believed in him that much.

“By the way, can you really combine the seven attributes… That’s quite interesting.”

I knew how hard it was to master the five attributes. I had studied light magic in detail, so I knew how powerful Rex-san’s abilities were. Normally, different magical powers would repel each other. Even for a magician with multiple attributes, it’s not easy to control them.

At the same time, light magic can prevent interference from the five attributes. As long as the magic doesn’t run out, it can deflect other spells. Yet, Rex-san had succeeded in combining light magic with the other five attributes. It was an incredible feat. No matter how skilled dark magic is at infiltrating others, it’s not something that can be easily achieved.

Well, that’s why the Rainbow Blessing (Reinforce Breath) had such an amazing effect.

“Indeed, working together would make us stronger. That’s a fact. But…”

As for me, I wanted to surpass my sister. I wanted to go beyond light magic. That desire had been smoldering inside me.

But I ended up making amends with my sister. Rex-san caught the assassin who was targeting me. My sister’s anger towards that man was definitely real, so I believed that she genuinely cared about me.

“Rex-san saved me from the assassin. There’s a possibility it was all an act, but even so, he’s someone who’s trying to win me over.”

I didn’t care about the truth anymore. Rex-san needed me, and my sister wanted me to live. That alone gave me hope.

“Hey, Rex-san. Please desire me more. More than my sister, more than anyone else. If you do, I think I can learn to like myself.”

Rex-san’s talent surpassed even my sister’s. Being needed by someone like that was incredibly exciting. If it came true, it would be happiness itself.

“But I’m sure Rex-san won’t do as I please. Being toyed with like that isn’t so bad, either. I’m a bit messed up, I think.”

He was the first person to treat me with importance. So, please don’t betray me. If that happened, I wouldn’t know what would become of me.