I Was Reincarnated as a Villainous Noble Who Gets Killed Midway Through the Story but It Looks Like I’ll Be Executed as a Traitor if I Try to Do Good Deeds

97 Lu’s Beacon

I was expected to be at the top as a member of the White family, a duke’s daughter. However, after the talents of those born as princesses became clear, people started to distance themselves from me.

At the time, I didn’t understand the reason. I realized it when my father lamented about my talent. It was probably just a careless comment. Why did people like Mira-sama and Rina-sama have to be born in the same generation as me? I wouldn’t be able to win against them.

“I’m a Tetramaga. Unlike Mira-sama and Rina-sama, I wasn’t chosen.”

I understood my father’s words accurately, but I still continued to make an effort. If I could surpass the princesses, my father would surely be happy.

But the result didn’t come. It was harder to surpass my father, my guardian, and the princesses.

“I just can’t win. I’ve been working much harder than them, but…”

No matter when I saw her, Miya-sama was laughing with someone. Lina-sama, on the other hand, was bored. Yet, the gap between us only grew wider. It was frustrating to the point where I almost forgot how I felt.

I had been training from morning till night, honing my mind, body, and magic. But despite that, I lost in terms of output, operation, and application. It wasn’t just once or twice that I got fed up with reality.

“It’s cruel, isn’t it? The talent one is born with. But don’t give up.”

I couldn’t even make them struggle once. That remained as a thorn in my heart. Moreover, from a certain day on, both of them started to rapidly grow. Around the same time, I was invited to a tea party.

Perhaps Miya-sama and Lina-sama had something going on. If I could find out what it was, I might be able to become stronger. So, I tried to flatter them and get them to spill the beans.

In the midst of that, a certain existence was mentioned. A suspicious figure known as the Dark Mage. In the end, I chose to be introduced to them by the two.

I desperately wanted to become stronger. I wanted my father to acknowledge me. Or perhaps, I wanted someone to love me. Or maybe, I wanted to be expected of.

In any case, the person I ended up meeting was far beyond my imagination. I believed I could gain something. But I ended up with a crushing sense of defeat.

“Rex Daria Black… The gap is too huge. Even Miya-sama and Lina-sama seem small in comparison.”

I couldn’t even feel the difference. It was a novel experience. I couldn’t even imagine myself winning, let alone someone else. If he was a mage, what was I? A child playing with toys?

Thinking about it made me want to cry. I felt frustrated many times. But I didn’t want to cry.

However, I didn’t want to run away either. If I did, my entire life would become meaningless. It was like an ant challenging a dragon, but I knew it was futile.

“Still, I’ll win. As a human who has surpassed the attribute wall, I know it.”

Ordinary four-attribute (Tetramaga) users would be defeated by a single-attribute (Monodeka) user like me. I aimed for a realm that was beyond the limits of attributes. If I could surpass those limits, I could defeat Miya-sama and Lina-sama.

“Felicia Lavin Violet and Camilla Aster Black are also related to Rex-san. Being chosen by blood isn’t enough to surpass one’s innate attributes…?”

Or perhaps Miya-sama and Lina-sama were influenced by Rex-san in some way. If he were near me, things might have been different. Such thoughts made me dislike myself.

“No, I’m a duke’s daughter. I have a clear bloodline. Excuses are not acceptable.”

From then on, I worked hard to catch up to Rex-san, observing and challenging him to battles.

But winning was still far away. I might not be able to win even if I had three lives. It was as if I was being told to give up. Or perhaps, I was just recognizing reality.

In any case, my full power couldn’t reach Rex-san’s bottom.

“It’s frustrating… I’ve definitely surpassed the wall. But I still can’t reach Rex-san. I’ll lose, won’t I?”

After that, I piled on even more effort, but I was cornered. My body was heavy, my magic was exhausted, and Rex-san was even more amazed.

In my calm moments, I knew I was being foolish. But I continued training, and somewhere along the line, I reached my limit.

Pain ran through my entire body, and I couldn’t stop sweating. Even breathing was painful. In that state, Rex-san reached out to me, and I almost took his hand. I tried to refuse, but I ended up following his words. He healed me, and I realized how dangerous my situation was.

If I had been careless, I might have become unable to fight again. I had to thank Rex-san. But I also had another thought.

“I’ll move forward, even if I have to borrow Rex-san’s power. I know that. The gap is desperate, but…”

He could make even more effort if he wanted to. After all, he could heal a broken body. With overwhelming talent, if I lost even with effort, I wouldn’t be able to step into his shadow.

“Still, I want to be Rex-san’s enemy. I don’t want to be forgotten like a passerby.”

If he saw me as a mere stone by the roadside, I would be finished. Living would have no meaning. But now, I was expected to grow. At least, Rex-san believed I could become stronger.

“I’ll carve my name into Rex-san. I’ll make even more effort. That’s right, Luise Bestra White. Stopping is not worthy of my name.”

I’ll continue fighting to defeat Rex-san. The wall isn’t something that can be surpassed just once. If I can reach him, I won’t give up.

It’s just that, deep down, I’m afraid of being abandoned by him. My family didn’t expect anything from me. Miya-sama and Lina-sama only saw me as a friend. Only Rex-san believed I could become stronger.

“Hehe, I’ll push my body to the limit and get treated by Rex-san. That’s fine too. Even if I’m too reckless, it’s okay.”

No matter how much I break my body, Rex-san will heal me, right? As long as that’s the case, I can surpass any limit.

A fire has definitely been lit in my heart. It’s hotter than before, and it’s a clear flame. As long as it exists, no difficulty is unbearable.

Hey, Rex-san. Am I shining somewhere in your heart?