I Was Sick of Loving You

93 – (Side story) The story of a young dark elf

When I was a little kid, even my memory was hazy, red flames engulfed the forest.

Beyond the flames came monsters. The brothers and sisters were killed one by one by grotesque monsters and monsters made of bones. Among them were mom and dad.

I couldn’t believe the sight. no, denied It was unclean and unclean, but I could clearly feel the thick smell of blood and the blood of the brothers and sisters who soaked me. In such a gruesome reality, his legs gave way and he could not escape and waited for the approaching death.

So, the wizard who refused to die. Richie came to me. My bony fingers, stained with the blood of my brothers and sisters, pierced my heart. An excruciating pain ran through my whole body. As he felt the pain, Rich muttered something incomprehensible.

After the murmur continued for a long time, a gust of wind blew. The wind that blew to pieces the monsters and the lich, turning them into a handful of fragments. The lich disappeared, but the pain didn’t go away and the world spun.

A man approached me in tears in a world of ping. The black-haired, blue-eyed man wept. And he said:

“I’m sorry. I should have come a little sooner.”

I couldn’t understand why a human male I had never seen would apologize. I couldn’t understand why she was crying. I could only understand that I was not an enemy,

It was not pleasant. I’d rather die. I didn’t want to be saved. I didn’t want to live alone. I didn’t want to live in a world where everything was destroyed. I wanted to die along with my dad, mom and siblings.

That was my idea as a child. I lost consciousness thinking so.

When I opened my eyes again, I opened my eyes in the first place I saw. The slightly worn wooden ceiling caught my eye and smelled of food. After feeling them, what came next was pain. It was lighter than when I passed out, but I felt a heavy pain that I couldn’t handle.

The next thing I felt was the smell of blood, which I definitely shouldn’t have felt. The smell of blood spilled by the brothers and sisters was very clear. It was more painful than the pain in the body. Tears leaked from the pain in my heart and body.

As I was shedding tears, the man I had seen before passing out approached me.

“Hey, are you feeling okay?”

I couldn’t answer the man’s question. I couldn’t answer because I was in so much pain, and resentful of the man who saved me. I was only drowning in pain.

As I was drowning in pain, the man wiped my tears away. The man who wiped my tears shed tears with a sad face.

“I’m sorry. Sorry for being so late.”

the man said so I couldn’t understand such a man. I hated that man. It was just because I needed someone to resent when I was young. So I said something I shouldn’t have said to a man.

“Why, why did you save me? Just let it die.”

I said something I shouldn’t have done. Still, the man was not angry.

“I’m sorry.”

I just kept muttering the words. I didn’t try to understand such a man. No, I didn’t even try. I was just resentful and busy denying reality. After saying such resentful words, I passed out again.

The next time I woke up, I saw the night sky. the moon looked down at me The moon, which was always beautiful, was not beautiful.

that was sad No, it was terrible. I just wish I never woke up. Thinking of that, I closed my eyes again.

I closed my eyes, but I didn’t fall asleep or pass out. I just felt the screams and the smell of blood that I could still clearly feel, and I was drowning in pain.

As I immersed myself in it for a while, I felt someone holding my neck. At that feeling, I wished that he would bend his neck like this. But that wish did not come true.

A rough hand opened my mouth. After that, something like a thin soup that was slightly sweet and warm came into my mouth. A hand pulled my chin, causing the soup to go down.

That series of processes were repeated dozens of times, and something like a soft cloth wiped my mouth. Then he carefully put me down. The hand that put me down caressed my hair. Then I heard the man’s voice.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry for living my own way. Still, I want you to live.”

I really don’t know this man. I resent the man, but I know it’s out of line. It’s something that makes men angry. Even so, this man is rather apologizing to me. And I want to live.

I can’t understand a man like that. I heard from my brothers and sisters that humans are full of greed. This man is so different from what I’ve heard. so i can’t understand

I was curious about the man I couldn’t understand, but even that small curiosity was withered by the screams that echoed clearly inside my head.

Feeling that withered curiosity, I fell asleep.

When I opened my eyes this time, I was carried by that man.

“Are you awake?”

I didn’t answer that. I can’t remember why. It just was. I didn’t answer, but the man continued talking alone.

“Yes, you don’t have to answer. But listen to me.”

I didn’t answer that either.

“I’m thinking of taking you to Vaishal, Kaian-sama’s sacred ground.”

It wasn’t until Kaian-sama’s name and the name of the Holy Land flowed out of the man’s mouth that I could understand this man very little. Since he is also serving Kaian-sama, he must be doing this to me.

Thinking so, I plucked out my withered curiosity.

“It will take a while, but it will be the best place for you. So please be patient.”

He said so, but his heart was not moved. There are many other brothers and sisters in the Holy Land, but there are no brothers and sisters who have always been together. no dad and no mom So it can’t be the best place. That’s why my heart doesn’t agree.

Rather, I want to follow my brothers and sisters. But I didn’t say it because I thought that this man wouldn’t let it happen.

I thought so and stayed silent. Still, the man had several stories. Stories about the Holy Land, stories about Kaian-sama, and other miscellaneous stories. Even a handful of such stories could not stay in my mind and disappeared.

The man continued talking without even knowing it. The man chattered and I listened, and the days went by, and I still couldn’t understand the man.

When the man found what appeared to be vagrants, he gave them food.

When he found an injured person, he did not leave it alone and treated it with care.

Whenever I saw smoke rising, I always ran there. I didn’t care if a monster had appeared there or if it was just smoke from a campfire, and I ran. If the monster appeared, he killed the monster and saved the people. Those who were helped by the man tried to reciprocate, but the man always refused.

I can’t understand a man like that. He’s so different from the people I know. Of all the beings I knew, there was no one like him.

All I can understand about the man is that he is happy doing those things.

he’s a weird guy I thought so, but for some reason, my heart tickled when I saw the man happy and the people he helped give thanks.

The tickle did not go away and stayed in my mind. The longer it stayed in his mind, the more the screams and the smell of blood gradually faded.

While that made me a little happy, I felt sorry for my brothers and sisters.

After such conflicting feelings, I spoke to him for the first time.

“excuse me.”

Then the man’s eyes widened. And then he smiled.

“Why?”

“That… Thank you for saving me. And sorry.”

I conveyed my late thanks and apology to the man. Then the man stroked my hair.

“Don’t take my thanks well. But I won’t accept your apology.”

I was taken aback by the man’s words. Not receiving an apology means that I will treat you as an enemy forever, but since the man did not accept it, I am an enemy to die to this man.

When I was feeling embarrassed by that thought, the man blew it away and gave me another one.

“You didn’t do anything to make me apologize.”

“Yes? I…”

When I tried to repeat what I had told him in the past, the words didn’t come out. It came out so easily back then, but now it doesn’t come out.

The man opened his mouth when he was unable to continue his speech due to such a strange phenomenon.

“I know what you’ve been through, but I’m not a narrow-minded person to keep that to heart. So there is no need to apologize.”

“still…”

The man smiled again and opened his mouth.

“If you still want to apologize, could you give me your name?”

“I’m Rachel.”

“That’s a pretty name.”

The man said that and stroked my hair. The touch felt warm, unlike before.

“I heard Rachel’s name, so I should give you my name too. The uncle’s name is Daniel. I don’t have a last name, so feel free to call me.”

“Yes, Uncle Daniel.”

It was the first time I called it, but for some reason the name felt so warm. Feeling such warmth, I continued my journey with the man who would become my master and father of my heart.