I Won’t Accept Your Regrets

The ladies, who were looking at Carlisle, completely left the flower garden, and Carlisle opened his mouth.

“You can talk more to your ladies. I'm fine…"

As soon as he arrived, Carlisle looked embarrassed and it felt like he was upset about the failure of the tea party.

"No, it’s okay. I was about to stop the tea party. The Crown Prince arrived just in time.”

"Helen said that it hasn't been long since the tea party started… so fast?"

"Hmm… Today wasn't such a fun teatime."

"What?"

Carlisle, who didn’t understand her words, widened his eyes and bowed his head. The boy's beauty hidden in his mature appearance was revealed. Ellie smiled with her eyes and patted Carlisle's head at the cute appearance she hadn't seen in a long time.

“Oh, mother…”

Of course, Carlisle didn't like that. Carlisle, who started taking swordsmanship classes, was embarrassed to be patted on the head or hugged like a child these days.

A good knight never shows a weak appearance. After reading many books related to knights, he felt that he was hooked on some part of the knight. But sometimes he miss being a child.

Carlisle was growing faster than Ellie thought.

Carlisle, who looked around and avoided her hand, coughed in vain.

Ellie lowered her hand against a laugh and tried to press her lips together. But then she leaned her forehead against the dizziness that echoed through her head.

"Your Majesty?”

"Mother?"

Surprised, Helen and Carlisle called out to Ellie.

After shaking her head a few times, she slowly raised the head.

"…I'm fine. It's just that I felt dizzy for a moment."

"Are you sure you're okay? Your face doesn't look good," Carlisle wrinkled his eyebrows with concern.

“His Highness is right. Your Majesty, you don't look very well. Go back to your room and I'll call a doctor right away."

“No, I'm just a little tired. I'll be fine if I walk a little."

The moment of dizziness disappeared and Ellie took Carlisle’s hand, who was worried.

"Prince, let's take a walk together."

"Yes, mother."

Ellie, who was walking, holding Carlisle's hand, stopped feeling a little tired.

‘Now that I think about it, I've been feeling heavy for days. Should I take a break?'

Ellie thought, walking through the flower garden with Carlisle.

At the same time, Raymond, who inadvertently fell asleep in the office, opened his eyes.

"How long did I fall asleep?"

"About 30 minutes…" The butler, who was next to him, answered slowly.

"I can't believe I fell asleep in the office…"

It was the first time it had happened… Falling asleep while working in the office.

He has never overslept, even when working all night. Because his physical strength was superior to that of most knights. He has never made such a mistake before.

Just looking at butler’s surprised face, he could see how embarrassing that situation was.

‘Am I getting old?'

Raymond, who was thinking of staying behind because he was speechless when he heard the articles rolling all the time, breathed slowly.

“Your Majesty, if you are tired, I will ask the doctor to give you medicine to recover from tiredness.”

"No, I'm not tired."

“Are you really sure…?”

The butler seemed concerned. That's understandable. Because he's never seen him suddenly fall asleep in over 20 years. He is worried that Raymond might have something wrong with his body.

However, Raymond was neither tired nor ill. Rather, he felt strangely light and strangely good.

‘Is it because of my dream?'

Raymond leaned back in a chair and briefly recalled the dream he had earlier. A big old tree standing in a wide meadow, Raymond was leaning against the tree and enjoying the cool wind. As soon as he smiled thinking that it would be nice to visit this place again with Ellie, a cat cried somewhere.

It was a sound that was heard over his head. He lifted his head. At that moment, a white cat jumped out of the tree into his arms. Sparkling jewel eyes and shiny white fur. It was such a beautiful cat. To the point of being delighted even though Raymond didn't really like animals.

Raymond held a small cat in his arms.

Meow~

As if responding to his smile, the cat raised its head and Raymond woke up the moment he was met with those jewel-like eyes.

"…It was a strange but pleasant dream."

"What?"

Hearing butler’s small question, Raymond responded.

"No, it's nothing. Anyway, I'm fine, so don't worry. More than that, call the prime minister. We have something to discuss about the drought problem in the western region.”

"Yes, I understand."

Butler tilted his head as he looked at Raymond's complexion. After the butler left, Raymond looked down at the paper again.

It was important that small lands be exempted from paying tribute due to the severe drought in the western region, but it was rarely enforced.

‘Because the white cat from the dream kept fluttering in front of me.'

"Hmm…"

‘What did it mean?'

Raymond tried to concentrate on the documents, shaking off his inadequate thoughts.

* * *

“Did a cat snuggle in your arms?”

“Yes, it was a white cat, and it was so pretty. I felt that it looked like you.”

As usual, Ellie, who was lying on the bed with her head resting on Raymond's shoulder, raised her head.

He told her that he had a strange dream this day when he unexpectedly fell asleep, he said that he had a strange dream. A dream of a white cat in his arms.

She thought that even a person who didn't even like animals would have all kinds of dreams, but Ellie's purple eyes also grew slightly in front of her dark eyes, blurry as if he was thinking about the cat.

Raymond seemed to take this dream very seriously.

‘I didn't think it was a big deal, but was it a really special dream?'

Ellie looked down at him. Then she took his hand and thought.

‘A white cat is in his arms… Hmm! …It's like a conception dream'

When she settled in the Lund Kingdom, the wives who stayed with Ellie when she was pregnant would ask her what her dream of conception was, telling that they themselves had a dream of conception. Most of the sunlight is on your arms. Either a big horse ran over you or you were holding a very big fruit.

Usually there were many dreams of holding something in your arms.

Ellie hadn’t had a conception dream when he had Carlisle. However, she remembered it because she heard a lot about dreams of conception.

‘Did Raymond have a conception dream?'

Ellie narrowed her forehead slightly. Because there was no reason for him to have a conception dream.

There is no way for her to get pregnant. Ellie, who was laughing to herself at the ridiculous thought, remembered what someone said.

“My husband had a conception dream in my place. He dreamed that he gave me two large grapes and I had twins.”

Ellie's face hardened.

Raymond had a conception dream… No way!

"No, it can’t be."

Ellie shook her head promptly. Four days ago, although it was a small amount, she had her period.

In the period of her menstruation, although she stopped seeing blood for a day or two. Her menstrual period was shorter than other women's, but the cycle was quite accurate…

‘If you are pregnant, you can’t have your period!'

Accepting the situation, Ellie somehow calmed down. These days, as Carlisle is growing up, she often thought of a second child. Her heart wanted him, not because of the Empress's responsibility to give birth to another Prince.

‘I wish there were another charming and pretty boy like Carlisle.'

Ellie just gave up without showing it because she knew it was hard to have a child, but she really wanted a pretty girl in her heart. She gave up and lived quietly, but she had expectations because of Raymond's dream of conception for a while.

Seeing that Ellie felt depressed, Raymond, who saw her face getting darker, narrowed his forehead.

"Ellie, what's wrong with you?"

"Well, no. Just because… The dream you had was like a conception dream, so I thought for a moment about what it would have been like if we had a second child.”

Raymond's eyes quivered at her unexpected words.

“…We have Carlisle.”

“Have you ever wanted to have a second child? …For example, a pretty daughter like that cat that looks like me…”

"I'm happy enough with just you and Carlisle," Raymond kissed Ellie's forehead and smiled.

His smile seemed to contain no lies, but he couldn't hide the regret that passed through his eyes for a very short time. Raymond was pouring a lot of love into Carlisle, unlike what once distressed her. Sometimes nobles called him a spoiled son.

Maybe if he had a pretty daughter, he would have pampered her more than Carlisle, but he wouldn't have spoiled her enough. It's just that she couldn't say it. Just in case she gets hurt.

Maybe she gave up harder than she should have.