Marry First, Love Next- Falling in love with you

“Let’s go.” Yu Jingxuan took a step first.

But Miao Xingyao couldn’t move her legs, she wanted to follow, but found that she couldn’t see Yu Jingxuan’s figure.

Thinking that from now on, someone else is standing beside Yu Jingxuan, thinking that he will hold that person’s hand, thinking that Yu Jingxuan will kiss that person, thinking… Miao Xingyao’s tears are like a dam bursting, why? Can’t stop.

“What’s wrong with you?” Yu Jingxuan saw that Miao Xingyao was slow to follow, and started to walk back, only to find that Miao Xingyao was crying.

“It’s okay, let’s go.” Miao Xingyao desperately wiped away her tears, ignoring her reddened skin, and forced a smile.

“You’re not all right.” Yu Jingxuan grabbed Miao Xingyao’s arm.

“I’m fine.” Miao Xingyao said again.

“Follow me.” Yu Jingxuan pulled Miao Xingyao away from here.

Yu Jingxuan found a restaurant with private rooms and asked Miao Xingyao to sit down first.

“I’m really fine.” Miao Xingyao said to Yu Jingxuan.

“It’s okay then why are you crying?” Yu Jingxuan asked rhetorically.

“Just… I want to cry.” Miao Xingyao couldn’t find an excuse.

Yu Jingxuan said helplessly: “Do you think I will believe it?”

“Yes.” Miao Xingyao looked at Yu Jingxuan.

Yu Jingxuan sighed and said, “You don’t really want a divorce, do you?”

After a long time, Miao Xingyao nodded and said, “Yes.”

“Then why do you insist on getting a divorce?” Yu Jingxuan was puzzled.

Miao Xingyao said: “Because of incompatible personalities.”

“Do you think I’m a fool? Would I believe this reason?” Yu Jingxuan was a little angry, Miao Xingyao was always like this and didn’t want to say anything.

“Senior, you should be with Sister Ning.” Miao Xingyao lowered her head and clenched her fists, “She is the one you should be with, she loves you, she is for you…”

“Have you met Ruoxin?” Yu Jingxuan frowned, interrupting Miao Xingyao’s nonsense.

“Yes.” Miao Xingyao admitted, and after arranging her emotions, she had just lost control.

“What did she say?” Yu Jingxuan asked.

Miao Xingyao looked at Yu Jingxuan and said blankly, “It doesn’t matter what Sister Ning said.”

“It doesn’t matter why you want a divorce?” Yu Jingxuan asked.

“You need her.” Miao Xingyao said calmly.

Yu Jingxuan said, “What I need is you.”

“Senior, I want to ask you a few questions.” Miao Xingyao smiled.

“You ask.”

Miao Xingyao asked, “Don’t you regret it?”

“Regret? Regret what?” Yu Jingxuan asked suspiciously.

“I regret getting married in a hurry.” Miao Xingyao held back her tears.

“I don’t regret it.” Yu Jingxuan said firmly, he didn’t hesitate.

Miao Xingyao smiled and continued: “I regret that I didn’t understand Ning Xuejie’s intentions, I regret not waiting for her, I regret that the marriage partner…not her.”

“I…” Yu Jingxuan hesitated, his eyes flickering.

“Senior, the two of you should be together.” Miao Xingyao already knew Yu Jingxuan’s answer, but she couldn’t hold on anymore, her eyes were wet again.

“I’m not suitable for her.” Yu Jingxuan said coldly.

“But if you love each other, you should be with the person you love, not the right person.” Miao Xingyao paused and continued, “Moreover, we are not suitable either. You like light food, I like spicy food, you I like to watch literary films, and I like to watch cartoons, you like her, and I like…you.” Miao Xingyao didn’t want to say it, but she couldn’t help but said it, she never confessed to Yu Jingxuan, just Just once, she wanted Yu Jingxuan to know.

“Why do you want to divorce if you like it?” Yu Jingxuan was puzzled, Miao Xingyao was already crying, but her eyes revealed a firmness she had never seen before.

“I think I don’t just like you anymore.” Miao Xingyao wiped her tears and said, “I may have fallen in love with you.”

Yu Jingxuan said: “I don’t understand, since this is…”

“Senior, you really don’t understand. It is selfish to like someone and want to occupy all of him, but loving someone is different, as long as he is happy. I can’t occupy you to hinder your happiness, this is me The only thing I can do for you.” Miao Xingyao finally couldn’t control it and burst into tears.

Yu Jingxuan hugged Miao Xingyao distressedly and said, “But you are not me, how do you know what kind of happiness I want?”

“Senior, Senior Sister Ning, she, she really loves you and suits you…cough cough cough” Miao Xingyao cried until she was about to die, and coughed violently.

Yu Jingxuan helped Miao Xingyao to calm down and said, “But she is not you.”

“But I’m not her either.” Miao Xingyao smiled bitterly, “I can never replace her, senior is senior, I am me, you can’t think that you can take her place by finding someone. Now she is back, This position is hers.”

“But I don’t want this.” Yu Jingxuan said firmly.

“Senior, we’ve talked for so long, and you’ve never denied it. You still love her.” Miao Xingyao looked at Yu Jingxuan, tears running down the corners of her mouth, very salty and bitter.

“I…” Yu Jingxuan didn’t know the answer, he only knew that he didn’t want to divorce Miao Xingyao.

“That night, you were very drunk. You hugged me and kept saying ‘I’m sorry, I’m already married’.” Miao Xingyao smiled, she knew she was ugly now, and she didn’t want their separation. I don’t want to deceive myself, but it’s because you still have someone in your heart, you don’t want to let her down and hurt me, you don’t know what to do What kind of choice, so I decided that I will let you go first.”

“I don’t agree, this is just your guess, it’s your wish, I won’t get a divorce.” Yu Jingxuan said. It turned out to be the case, he had no memory of what happened that night, no wonder Miao Xingyao was like this. If Miao Xingyao guessed it early in the morning, then his avoidance during that time must have broken her heart, but she never asked anything, was it because she trusted herself? Or she didn’t have confidence in herself, so she pretended to be nothing.

“If we can’t get divorced today, let’s talk next time.” Miao Xingyao stood up and walked outside, she didn’t want to stay in the same space with Yu Jingxuan.

“Xingyao.” Yu Jingxuan wanted to hold Miao Xingyao, but he still let go.

In the end, Miao Xingyao said with a self-deprecating timidity, “I can’t be as brave as Senior Sister, maybe I’m not qualified to stand on the arena from the very beginning.”

She didn’t dare to love, and she didn’t dare to say it. She only dared to envy those who bravely pursued love. She could only stand in the corner and look at the figure of the person in front of her, but she didn’t dare to chase.