chapter 3
#3
“Please date me.”
The opponent appeared unexpectedly.
She was a beauty and a girl with dark hair like ebony up to her waist, and who could not stop admiring and admiring it.
At the same time, he identified himself as the Academy’s librarian.
Of course, he is not an adjunct professor as a librarian, but a member of the library management department.
Was there such a woman in the library department?
I do not know.
I don’t think I even felt the need to remember the face of the librarian who loaned me out. When I was looking for a book, I found it on my own with the computer system provided in the library… …
But she seemed to know me well.
A librarian would have only seen me in the library. Strangely enough, he knew me so well.
“… … ”
Corner staircase in the back yard of the main building.
To the extent that every day, I suddenly come to the secret place where I hide and eat and confess.
… … How did know? Are you a stalker?
That thought stopped for a while. This is because, as a man, he faced the irresistible charm head-on.
It was dazzlingly beautiful, as if the magic of attracting the attention of the people around her was present throughout her body. Among the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen, it’s hard to differentiate between them.
Ah, the number one priority is, of course, childhood friends.
However, the decisive reason why it is difficult to distinguish between superiority and inferiority is that this person’s atmosphere was completely opposite to that of his childhood friend.
Well-maintained, well-maintained, dark purple hair. The impression is calm and intelligent.
But at the same time, it also seemed to be somehow blind. It’s probably because of the dull expression on the face that doesn’t know the truth.
Her skin, pale enough to feel as if she had lived without any sunlight, seemed to reveal her auspicious nobility in harmony with her mysterious purple eyes.
The academy uniform wrapped around the line of her slender body that drew a flexible curve, but the only bare skin on her two legs stretched out and showed off her smooth figure.
The fairy-like girl in such a fairy tale had suddenly confessed to me, who was nothing more than a goblin.
The luckiest moment in my life was so close to a miracle that I could be proudly chosen as the number one moment.
Because I.
“… … ”
To be honest… I had no idea.
Of course it would be a penalty.
I guess it’s just a joke because I look easy.
You must have been threatened by someone.
Whatever the assumption, it must have been that the fact that she had confessed to me was given compulsion.
“… … ?”
When I didn’t respond, she tilted her head very slightly. As a result, the ends of her hair were frizzy.
I chewed the mumbled bacon and swallowed it back down my throat.
“Let’s count it as a confession, and go back to our friends. What if you are around here… I’m sorry for not showing the expected reaction. He’s not a funny person.”
“… … ”
After saying that, he turned off his mind.
I was a little surprised, but when I found the opposite s*x, I calmed down. If you lose interest in me soon, I’ll come back to you. He kept his head down and continued to eat.
after a while.
A faint voice was heard from the front.
“… … It’s not like a penalty.”
“… … ”
When I didn’t answer, she continued muttering.
“It’s true that you like it.”
… sound that makes sense.
“It was quite courageous.”
It takes courage to put up with shame to carry out a penalty in front of your friends.
“… Even if you explain it in such a complicated way, you won’t believe it.”
Isn’t it natural?
There’s no way a woman would like me.
Assumptions plus assumptions, if real, I knew my subject best. It was good to call him a master of self-objectification.
At this time, I was accustomed to failing no matter what I did, so I was engrossed in the negative thoughts that it would not work out if I tried something new anyway.
It wasn’t just concentrated in one place, it was spread all over the consciousness.
The same was true of love.
I don’t know what she expected of me, but I couldn’t give her the satisfaction she had expected of an imaginary character.
“If you know now… … ”
“Then, I’ll come back tomorrow.”
“… yes?”
She squatted down, brushed her knees, got up, left those words, and disappeared from my view. It was a sudden appearance, as if it had come suddenly.
“… … her.”
what is he
It felt like I was possessed by a god.
After I drank a glass of water after finishing my meal, the memory of the strange girl I had just met was wiped out of my mind.
The rest of the lunch break is spent in the library as usual.
There are no books to return or borrow, and I have read almost all of the history books I have read.
Today I was about to finish reading the rest of the pages.
By the way.
“… … ”
Inside the Academy Library, the few students’ eyes were focused on one place.
Pretending to be reading or choosing a book, he was glancing around the edge of the library.
There was a girl with purple hair, with a book open on the desk, with her chin crossed and staring at something.
The boys were spying on a beautiful girl with an irresistible charm without paying attention, even from afar.
Then, after observing for a while, he suddenly finds out that the girl’s gaze at the desk is fixed in one place.
His gaze, which was drooping and drooping, was immovably fixed without moving for even a moment from before.
The eyes of people who were spying on the girl naturally follow her and look somewhere.
“… … ”
So, everyone in the library was looking at me.
“… … Hmmm.”
help me.
I can’t concentrate.
There are only ten pages left and I can’t even read it.
I don’t know why you’re doing this to me.
The woman who had confessed to me like a joke earlier had been looking at me since I entered the library.
Except when borrowing books.
Gye eh eh eh.
all the way.
That’s why I wondered if there was even a light beam coming out of my eyes.
… … Have you ever been looking at me with those intense eyes? Whenever I’m reading a book in the library?
That doesn’t seem to be the case.
If it were, I would have noticed earlier.
This oppressive atmosphere right now… … Due to my nature, I can’t stand it. It is quite burdensome to see the gazes that are set on me one by one through a certain route.
As the rice ripens, the head gradually lowers.
Then, there was a momentum to put Corrado on the paper.
Am I getting revenge for failing to properly carry out the punishment because of my blunt reaction?
Is it because the playful pranks failed?
not.
That’s not revenge or anything… It was pure malice.
In the end, I read only five more pages for a little over an hour and left the library ignoring her who looked at me until the end after closing the book.
next day.
Lunch hour.
“Please date me.”
“… … .”
really came
come and confess
No, it’s a threat.
If you don’t date me, I can feel the strong will from your eyes that I will continue to torment you like this.
It was definitely a huge psychological blow for me. If you get that much attention, your nerves will be overloaded and they will burst.
Why the hell are you doing this to me, damn it?
“Lunch time, outside time, and after school hours until closing. I am in charge of managing the library every day like this. But I see it every day. So I watched it every day.”
“… … ”
“It seems like we will continue to see each other in the future, wouldn’t it be better if we dated?”
I don’t think it would be very good.
If that’s the case, wouldn’t that mean I’ll look at you more than I do now? Maybe we can look at each other from a closer distance. No, it may not end with what you see.
Then I can’t afford to sit in that library anymore… …
At first I didn’t even know who she was.
Only through the color of the name tag on the uniform, I can only confirm that I am a new freshman.
The fact that the name engraved in white letters on the nameplate was quite unusual was not very important information.
“There, that… junior.”
Finally, with a sigh, he opened his mouth.
“yes. Ezio-senpai.”
“What exactly do you mean by dating?”
A bit of a disgraceful thought though.
he looks kinda weird
So, I asked him if he wanted to know exactly what it means to be dating a man and a woman, and what it feels like to be in love.
Unexpectedly, a normal response was returned.
“Well, aren’t we supposed to be lovers who like each other?”
“… It’s not wrong though. Are you asking me to date you because you like me?”
“yes? If not, why are you confessing?”
It looked like he was asking something strange. Although there was little change in expression, the forehead was only slightly narrowed.
“… … ”
like me… la.
That’s really strange.
To say that a junior freshman who is pretty and young enough to catch the attention of many male students likes a solitary little senior who only turns around in class.
This is almost a miracle.
I want to persuade God to take care of the probability.
I didn’t even need to ask her why she likes me, so I said without looking at her.
“To be honest, I’m sorry.”
“… … why?”
It was a bit late for the question to come back.
“I’m so grateful and happy to be overdone, but I… … I don’t know. I don’t want to date anyone, and just because I’m living like this doesn’t make me feel lonely. I am fully satisfied with my life now, and above all… … I can’t afford it.”
I must go higher.
Training should not be stopped even for a moment.
At the academy, I do my best to attend classes, study thoroughly through preparation and review, go to the library in my spare time, and go home when the door closes, do strength and physical exercises until I collapse, then go to sleep. When I wake up, I do light morning exercise and go to the academy.
It is unacceptable for me to have gaps in such a hectic life. It would be correct to say that you can’t really stand it.
When there is a gap, it rises and dies.
A feeling of shame, filled with regret, does not leave my head all day.
In order not to repeat such a mistake again, I decided not to make any more gaps in my life.
“So I can’t date you. Sorry.”
“… … ”
She said nothing.
You still can’t believe it, but if your love for me was sincere, then I must have hurt her. I’m sorry.
However, as the emotions deepened here, the memories of that day kept overlapping, so I had no choice but to shake off the guilt.
What kind of expression does she have now, who has been rejected for confession? From a while ago, I had only seen her white legs.
“Ezio-senpai.”
A voice came from above my head.
I answered.
“yes.”
“I… You don’t like it, do you?”
There’s no reason to hate it.
“yes.”
“He doesn’t even like me.”
Whether you like it or not, it would be closer to the former, but as someone once said, it would be a very different feeling. I thought he was a cute and pretty junior.
“right.”
She voices my affirmation.
“Then, can you make me like you?”
“… … yes?”
does that happen?
At a loss for words, I suddenly lifted my head.
There were no drops of water on the tip of the slender lower lashes, nor did I smile as hard as I did in the past.
With her pink lips closed, she had a determined face.
“senior.”
“… … uh.”
Pressed down by some unknown spirit, I crouched and answered.
“Confession, please pretend it didn’t happen.”
“… … What?”
What else is he talking about?
With a pleading tone, she begged me.
“Only one blow. Yeah? No more, no less, just once. Let’s pretend I’ve never been kicked by a senior today.”
“No, how can I pretend that what has already happened… … ”
“I can do it if only seniors allow it.”
is it? And it was an expression so appealing that I could not even understand it.
At this point, I wonder why this is happening.
“… … So what are you trying to do? As I said before, I can’t afford to sleep with anyone no matter what you do… … ”
My words were cut off and a firm voice came in.
“How do people make a living? Sometimes you need a break too. It’s okay to worry that there will be gaps. I’ll fill it up. You don’t have to think about anything else.”
“… … ”
“More than anything else, I have known my seniors before, and it’s sad that he didn’t know me. This… It’s unfair. We made eye contact a few times, but I can’t remember a single one… … ”
I wondered if it was a bad thing to that extent, but I said it with a bit of embarrassment.
“… kinda sorry I didn’t have time to worry about anything else.”
She shook her head nervously.
“I know. So, even from now on, seniors will make me conscious. If I’m not in the library, it’ll make me worry all day about what’s going on with me.”
“… … ”
“After that, I will confess to you again.”
what do you mean
It was incomprehensible and desperate.
You try to force a relationship you don’t want to build.
They try to make their presence known to me by digging into even the narrowest gaps.
Even though I know it’s harmful to the other person.
“Senior… … I hope you will accept me then. Then we can be real lovers who like each other. There is no need for either side to be insecure, so it is a strong bond.”
In the end, you have the belief that you will achieve what you want.
“certainly… I think you and I will be happy. So, please pretend that nothing happened today, senpai.”
I made the opposite choice from my past, who gave up prematurely.
“… … ”
There is no coercion or such coercion.
I confessed at will, withdrew my confession at will, and now I declared that I would interfere directly with my life.
Everyone thinks what they like. In his confident tone, he seemed convinced that I would surely accept him.
There’s no way it’s going to be her selfish will.
What she suggested was not what I needed.
But why am I
“… … work hard Probably not.”
“… … !”
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Did he naturally lower his gaze and hide his weak palpitations, revealing an uncertain objection?
“… … Thank you, senpai.”
She smiled happily as if that was enough.
Unable to make eye contact, only babbling bacon murmured, waiting for her to leave.
after a while.
“… … !”
“It looks delicious, please give me one.”
Rather than leaving, he slipped through this narrow gap and clasped his shoulders and dabbled right next to him.
It’s the first time I’ve ever smelled a fragrant flower scent. A cool, sweet, grassy scent wafted through me.
I became stiff and couldn’t get it out again.
“… … eat yours Haven’t you eaten?”
“Because I am on a diet.”
“But why are you trying to eat mine?”
“I think a little bit will be fine.”
“… … no. It’s one person.”
“People who are seniors should be shy.”
“What?”
“Don’t do that, just give me one. ah.”
Close your eyes and stand still with your mouth open like a baby bird.
First of all, it was ridiculous, and the act of picking up a piece of food and putting it in someone else’s mouth was utterly embarrassing, so I continued to eat with a fork without saying a word.” … yum.”
With her eyes wide open, she moved her head and quickly grabbed the bacon rolls from my hand.
As she was about to put it in her mouth, her soft hair tickled the back of her nose.
“Um, it’s delicious.”
She said with a fox-like smile when I was frozen like a stone statue.
“I think it’s better to take it away and eat it yourself than to just take it and eat it.”
“… … ”
after a while.
When I closed the lunch box and tried to get up, she said it was a mistake and dragged the edge of my uniform until I sat down next to her again.
This is the starting point with my ex-girlfriend.
At this time, I did not firmly reject her… … I still regret it.