chapter 21
21 – Freshmen
I remember something that happened in elementary school.
Jin-a is not the same now, very … When she was mean and in bad shape.
It was when she got beaten up in front of her classmates, and I rescued her.
Why does it remind me of the situation when her fan, Kim Tae-yang, who beat up Jin-ah at that time, said to me, ‘Don’t be an orphan’?
The eyes of the entire class were all on me, so each of us whispered one word at a time. Is it just my misunderstanding that it overlaps with my appearance then?
Being exposed to the attention of other people- and it’s not a good thing for me that the gaze isn’t favorable.
Drreuk.
The sound of a chair being pushed back.
Short sport hair. Dark brown skin. A boy who seemed like he would like sports started talking to me.
What… Looking at the atmosphere, do you want to go play soccer together..? I don’t think such words will come out.
“Hey, get out of the way. Gwanak Mountain Noroo Jumping. Is that you?”
“Who are you?”
“You don’t know who I am. What do you think about this situation?”
“What do you think?”
“You shouldn’t be here. No, do you think it makes sense to take the test like that and come here?”
“I didn’t do it because I wanted to”
“Yes, your friend put you on his own. In this school”
I didn’t want to come here either. The place I should be is Meister High School.
What should I do when Lee Jin-ah puts me here on her own accord?
Sports head rolls up arms. Tanned skin. Thick blood vessels squirm.
“Hey, everyone here. Everyone- Do you know how much effort you put in to come to this school? Everyone studies until dawn, hold back what you want to play, and what you want to do.
I came all the way here by gritting my teeth and relying on evil. Because there are many things to be inherited in the future. Because there are things I have to carry.
And this school is responsible for many people coming. It’s not a place where you can just follow a friend like you.”
“Okay. Yes, I understand what you mean. I understand, but I didn’t want to come here either.
I was also dragged in for nothing. I applied for another high school, but suddenly I changed my application to apply for this school.
What can I do there? Uh..?”
“…There is someone who has been harmed because of you. Did you think about that..?”
“I didn’t do it because I wanted to. Tell Jin-ah Lee about that. Tell Jin-ah Lee, why ..? She can’t even make a sound when Jin-ah Lee is around. Why is she f*cking with me?
I haven’t done anything wrong to you…! This is real..! I am a victim too!
I feel so unfair that I am going crazy. What am i supposed to do…? Why do you get down on your knees saying you’re sorry? What the f*ck did i do wrong
Are you the only one angry? I am angry and I am also unfair. Why can’t she even shout at Lee Jin-ah, why is she only going to f*ck me?”
“…This bastard is real..!”
Strongs sprouted on the forehead of the sports hair. He grabs me by the collar with his strong arms and pulls me up.
This is the clothes Yujeong bought for me. The nape of her neck was already drooping. Arms, muscular like a tight bowstring, were preparing to punch me in the face.
– Dripping.
“Yoo Seon is very popular. I already talk to my friends. But Yoo Seon! I am your best friend, right?”
The atmosphere in the overheated classroom coolly subsides. Jinah Lee sits next to me. I can feel the sports head returning to reason quickly.
The grip on my collar loosened up.
“Yes.. Yes, hey Jinah, you are about this problem..”
“Didn’t you think of that?”
“Huh?”
“Whether your friend goes to school or not, what does that have to do with me? If it’s unfair, you should have studied better. What’s your friend’s name, do you stick it in like Yoo Seon?”
“…You said that now”
“I don’t talk to you. I’ll only talk to Yoo Seon”
“Is it okay if it’s a future group?”
“…”
“If it’s Mirae Group, is it okay to add anyone to the school and remove anyone from the list?”
“…”
“Answer when people ask!”
“Hey, do you want to search?”
“…”
“Just sit down. When you say nice things”
…Dr.
The chair was pushed back, and the sports head fell on the desk.
It was the first day of the semester, so I didn’t have any special classes. I just said hello to my class teacher, gathered in the auditorium, and listened to the principal.
-Ah… That’s… The daughter of the chairman…?
-Hey, I can hear everything.
-But who is the guy next to him…?
-Gwanak Mountain Deer Jumping
-Ah… That bastard..?
Lee Jin-ah is the representative of the students and is responsible for the school rules and regulations. And she declared things like that.
It’s just that, starting with what happened in the classroom, everything I’m seeing right now doesn’t feel real.
No matter what Lee Jin-ah was doing in the auditorium, it didn’t catch her eye.
She seems to be dreaming.
Maybe this is a dream…?
A relentless nightmare that never seems to end. Unbelievable dream.
When I open my eyes right now, it’s the day of the entrance ceremony to middle school, and Jin-ah still has messy hair. I feel like he will greet me with a messy outfit.
Since when did you become an even greater person among great people..? I’m still staying there
I will become a great person.
It hasn’t even been a week since I yelled at Yoo-jung.
I wanted to get out of here.
… Jina Lee was different from her middle school days. Raising her thorns like her hedgehog. She blocked all her criticism of me.
In a way, it is a sound that comes naturally as a human being. I don’t have good grades, how did you get into here? Also, about whether or not anyone is disadvantaged because of this.
Such criticism.
I should be honest, but Lee Jin-ah couldn’t accept that. She was just making a lot of enemies around her.
Obviously, the sports hair I talked about with Lee Jin-ah in the classroom earlier. I must have cursed myself with Lee Jin-ah dozens of times.
When I thought about that, I thought that even after I died, I wouldn’t be able to adapt to this school.
She says that if you catch a fish that lives in the 5th grade water and release it into the 1st grade water, the fish will not adapt to the quality of the water and die.
I could have lived well if I released it in moderately clean water, like level 4 or 3… The environment doesn’t suit me, and the people around me are hostile to me.
It is said that if a fish is released into an environment that is too different from the environment it has lived in, it will die from the stress, but it seems to be the same for humans and fish.
I don’t know what kind of face I’ll have to go to school for the next three years.
After all the events in the auditorium were over, the teacher said that uniforms would be handed out, so I went to get them.
“Yoo Seon-ah, did you get the school uniform…? If you haven’t, let’s go get it with me~”
“…”
I don’t know when, but Lee Jin-ah is clinging to me. Since when did we become so close… I felt Jin-ah naturally cross her arms.
Crazy b*tch.
For this moment, I couldn’t even feel the sweet scent of fruit coming from Jinah Lee’s body, her chattering voice, or the soft touch of my arm.
All the eyes around me are focused on me. Even teachers handing out school uniforms to other kids
-Let’s work hard~
-I said thank you for coming to our school, but when I saw Jin-ah and me. Just kept her mouth shut, and gave her a school uniform.
I don’t think Lee Jin-ah is as great a person as she thinks.
I didn’t think that she treated Jin-ah Lee so well that she was cheap.
…I’m an ordinary citizen, I’m an ignorant person, I’m an insignificant me. …Why me. Here… I was just doing what I was supposed to do as a human being…
“Yoo Seon-ah…! The boys’ dormitory is over there…! You look a little tired, do you want to go in and rest…? Huh..? … Then see you tomorrow…! I just have to wait in front of the dormitory tomorrow, right? …?!”
“…”
“…Answer me”
“Yes”
“Okay, then Yoo Seon-i suffered a lot today, and we’ll see you again tomorrow with a strong face..!”
Unbelievably large exterior for a school dormitory.
Holding the school uniform in his hand, he slowly went inside. People are moving to organize their luggage, probably because it is just a new semester.
One fortunate thing is that each of us brought so many things with us, that… I don’t care much when I’m walking around.
Actually, I’d be crazy if that happened, like in the classroom.
The air here is so foreign, and everything is awkward.
I carefully checked the dormitory where I would stay for three years.
That… Usually, the high school dormitories I know have a large room with a bunk bed, but this was an apartment type.
When you open the door, there is a living room, and there are visits here and there around the living room. When entering the room, there is a private room.
Cooking is not allowed. And there is a separate toilet and shower room.
There were bags piled up in front of the door, which must have been things people brought with them when they came here. I opened the dorm door with the smallest bag among them.
Fortunately, there was no one inside, and I… Ran into my room and hid.
I opened my door. Single size bed. And there is a desk, wardrobe, and drawers.
-Fluffy.
…I’m tired. Lying on the bed, I slowly closed my eyes.
I grabbed the well-folded blanket on the bed and wrapped it around my body like gimbap.
Fluffy
Lie your face on the pillow.
I didn’t do anything, but I felt my energy go up all over my body. My whole body feels like it’s floating. I am sleepy.
…Can I survive here for more than 1,000 days…?
When I think of the time I will spend, my breath stops.