chapter 13
<Episode 13> Nursing
Sometimes there is something that bothers you and you don’t know where it is.
That’s exactly my situation right now.
Dinner after class was over and I returned home.
Today’s menu was fried rice. Si-eun’s cooking skills were still outstanding. I prefer meat over vegetables, but with this kind of fried rice, I can eat several bowls of it.
But today, I felt strangely different.
As always, I force my eyes to open, listen to lectures as usual (although I didn’t actually listen), come home as usual, and eat the rice that Si-eun made as usual.
What is the essence of this unknown cause of discomfort?
After looking around for the wrong picture, I found the reason.
“Do you have no appetite?”
Si-eun’s shoulders trembled, perhaps because of the sudden words.
Si-eun then raised her head and asked.
“What are you talking about all of a sudden?”
“Um, I just feel like I can’t eat well.”
He stuttered in reply and looked at Si-eun’s bowl. There was still more than half of the fried rice left.
Si-eun’s appetite is not formidable. Time to start washing dishes after inhaling without leaving a single grain of rice. However, for some reason, the rate of decrease in rice was remarkably slow today.
Not only that.
“If it were normal, you would be happy with your eyes glowing and shouting ‘Um, delicious~’, but that’s not the case.”
“When did I do that?”
“Always and… … .”
It’s been a long time since we’ve lived together, but there’s no point in getting rid of them.
Anyway, I guess I didn’t have any appetite today. Si-eun lowered her gaze as she rushed to answer with a blink of her eyes.
“Nothing.”
Saying that, he puts down the spoon.
“Just today… … I think it’s because it doesn’t fit. Yes, this is because it has no taste.”
“No taste?”
“okay. So don’t worry about it.”
I was worried about myself, but the reaction was cold. Si-eun is not a kind person by nature. I know that, but I’m not the kind of person who can give such a sharp answer.
I tried to send my gaze out with a protesting heart, but somehow Si-eun’s eyes seemed a little bloodshot.
Looking back, both cheeks were slightly red, and it seemed that there was no strength in his body.
“Where are you sick?”
“Didn’t I tell you not to care?”
“How can you not care if the person you live with is sick?”
“I’ll take care of the pain, so leave it alone.”
“You look sick.”
Si-eun closed her mouth with a shriek sound. Shaking his head was a gesture as if he was blaming himself.
To fall into such a simple trap. It looks like it really hurts. It’s okay to be honest when it hurts, but why are you pretending to be strong?
He got up from his seat and stood next to Si-eun.
“Where does it hurt?”
“… … because it’s okay.”
Si-eun responded as if tossing it without looking at me.
However, the answer was lacking. Was it because I was afraid that I would get caught on the reason that I had set up a blade for a while, saying not to worry about it?
“Because I’m not sick enough to need help. There is no need to worry.”
Soon, Si-eun stood up, turning her head, as if she didn’t want to even listen to me.
“I will be in. When you’re done eating, it’s next to the sink… … .”
After saying that, Si-eun staggered.
Fluttering black hair and leaning body. As soon as he saw it, he reflexively stretched out his arms and grabbed Si-eun’s body. Fortunately, Si-eun was barely able to sustain it before it collapsed.
As a result, it was like grabbing the shoulder of Si-eun who had fallen towards my chest. It became a bit unfamiliar, but it wasn’t the most important thing.
It was because Si-eun’s body temperature felt hot on the palm of her hand.
“huh.”
Fortunately, as if he had lost consciousness, Si-eun shrugged and took my hand away.
“Don’t touch other people’s bodies. Are you a pervert?”
“Don’t try to go over like that. You’re hot.”
“done. I’m okay.”
“Aren’t good people not going to fall?”
“that… … .”
can’t follow It’s true that I almost collapsed in an instant, so I have nothing to say.
He slipped through the gap and said.
“Come on, go and rest.”
Then Si-eun sighed and said, “Okay.” and followed bluntly. But even that sigh felt a little hot to me.
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“therefore?”
“what?”
“Why did you follow me to my room?”
Si-eun, who was sitting on the bed, asked with a puzzled tone.
It looked a bit dangerous before, but it didn’t seem to interfere with walking. There was no need to support me, so I just followed Si-eun.
“Is it dangerous to fall again?”
“It’s just that I lost my strength for a while.”
“What if I lose my strength and fall down again?”
At my point, Si-eun muttered as if she had something to say, but soon fell asleep in bed.
Black hair lying cluttered on the pillow. Red cheeks and slightly loose eyes. Unlike the usual Si-eun, it gives off a soft feeling.
“Come on, now that I’m lying down, I won’t fall down even if I feel exhausted. No need to worry.”
Having said that, Si-eun picked up the electronic thermometer placed by her bedside. Did you bring your thermometer when you came here after organizing all your things? Maybe it’s the frequent fever.
Si-eun put the thermometer in her mouth and waited for a while, then heard a beep and took it out.
“How many degrees?”
“38.4 degrees.”
“Isn’t that too high? Is it okay if I don’t go to the hospital?”
She asked worriedly, but Si-eun shook her head while lying down.
“I usually sleep one night and wake up fine. So far it has been Besides, if I went to the hospital, I would only get antipyretics anyway, but it’s a useless waste of money.”
Still, it’s hard to even move when you have a fever. I think it would be better to get some antipyretics.
But if you don’t want to go, there’s nothing you can do. I am not the protector, nor can I put it in a basket and carry it with me.
Si-eun turned to face the wall, trying to watch silently.
“I’ll lay down for a moment, then get up and clean the dishes. Just go.”
“Well.”
Instead of answering, he uttered a voice like that.
It’s not a very good feeling to do my own thing while someone else is lying in bed because it’s sick.
Besides, I’m in a situation where I have Si-eun do the work, so I’m not responsible for anything.
I silenced the sound of footsteps and came out of Si-eun’s room.
I headed to the shower room. When I opened the shower drawer, there were a few towels that Si-eun had folded neatly. Pick one of them, wet it with water, and squeeze it out.
Then, we head back to Si-eun’s room.
“Why are you here again?”
Si-eun said as she turned around to hear the door open and close.
“Do you have any hobbies of watching men sleep?”
“no.”
It’s an absurd suspicion. I don’t have such a hobby, and if I had, I would have been able to see it before I got sick.
He carefully placed a towel on Si-eun’s head, who was talking freely.
Si-eun trembled as if surprised. Soon after, he seemed to grasp the identity of the object with his hands, and then turned his head toward me.
“What is this?”
“Wet towel. It would be better if you did that when it was open.”
“Of course I know… … .”
There is no backstory
I know what you want to ask, but I have no intention of answering. Instead, I decided to talk about my work as a housekeeper.
“Rest until you get better. The company also has sick leave. Say it like that It’s a bowl, so you can clean it up later. Tomorrow, I will make you kill me in the main porridge, so eat that.”
“… … .”
“Because you did all the laundry and cleaning anyway. There doesn’t seem to be anything that needs to be done tomorrow. While I am sick, I am resting in my room.”
“Wait a minute.”
“why?”
Si-eun cut her back out of nowhere and asked a quiet question.
“Why do you care so much about me?”
stares at me with strange eyes It was an eye to try, whether it was an explanation or an explanation. I didn’t run away from it either. So, for a while, my eyes wandered.
uhm.
In the end, I have to get this story out.
“that… … .”
He closed his eyes and opened his mouth.
“It’s like seeing my childhood.”
Si-eun tilted her head at the end of her field of vision.
“When you were young?”
“okay. It’s like looking back at my old self. Our house, we didn’t live very well before.”
Si-eun had a suspicious face. That’s right. It’s hard to even imagine when you look at me now.
It’s not a great story. It’s not even fun. But there is no other way to explain my mind. All I can do is explain my past.
“It was when I was younger.”
After taking that luck, I think back to the past.
“Because Mom and Dad both work late into the night. I was the only one who ate at home alone, or boiled and ate cup noodles.”
“yes… … .”
“It’s also about playing. The kids all play games on the computer, but I was the only one imagining it while drawing the game screen in my notebook. My computer was so bad.”
The reason I’m holding on to the computer all day now is probably due to the rewarding mentality at this time.
“I didn’t even get a present on my birthday, let alone a party. Even on Christmas Day, Santa never came.”
If you think about it, your parents must have been heartbroken. It’s unfortunate. It was such a difficult time.
Take a deep breath and then say what you want to say.
“But rather than that, it was the saddest when I was sick and there was no one around.”
If I had to pick one of the loneliest moments in my memory, that would be it.
It was very painful because I had a fever and a nauseous stomach, but there was no one to take care of me. No, no one even knew about it before. Because I pretended to be okay so that I wouldn’t worry if my parents returned.
Perhaps Si-eun also went through a similar growth process.
Si-eun took care of herself and grew up to be the envy of everyone. I followed the crooked rail little by little, and eventually became an assassin who could count friends with one hand.
The result was very different, but what you’ve felt so far will definitely be similar.
We talked for a long time that didn’t matter. He waved his hand and said, “Anyway.” and arranged
“So it’s a little bit of a concern.”
Would you understand me now?
After finishing the story, he stared at Si-eun. Si-eun turned her big eyes towards me.
“It’s surprising.”
“okay?”
“yes. Especially the fact that he was spending money so much while living such a life.”
“… … It is not.”
I got stabbed so badly that it hurts.
“Well, I kind of get it. Why do you care about me?”
“It’s nice to know.”
“Still, I don’t have to worry too much about why I’m sick. It’s really not a big deal.”
Seeing what he said like this even though he said it all, it doesn’t seem like a big deal. If you’re lucky, you’re lucky.
“So why are you sick?”
Si-eun smiled a little when she sent her worried eyes.
“I have a day like this once every few months since I was a kid. From what I heard at the hospital, it’s a constitution to catch a bad cold. However, if you get a good night’s sleep, you’ll be fine in about two days, so it’s not a serious illness.”
“Ah, well, if it’s a cold… … .”
A cold is common for everyone. Rather, I may have trembled with some fuss. I even felt a little embarrassed.
As she was about to scratch her head, Si-eun squeezed the towel and closed her eyes.
“Anyway, thank you.”
“Wetting the towel isn’t difficult, huh?”
“Not that.”
“… … Did you say you’d give me a porridge?”
“Maybe that?”
Si-eun chuckled and laughed.
“Thank you for taking care of me in many ways.”
“What did you say before?”
As if feeling a little sorry for this, Si-eun exclaimed, “Ummm~”.
“I haven’t been able to take care of my body. It’s a nuisance if you make me worry.”
“It’s not a nuisance.”
“Besides, it can be moved.”
“It is, well, it is.”
“Nevertheless, it was the first time someone took care of me when I was sick like this… … .”
Si-eun’s voice slowly faded out.
“I am very happy… … .”
After these words, Si-eun’s lips did not move.
He looked like he was falling asleep when he saw the sound of his breathing.
I’m very happy.
Did he finally reveal his true feelings? Thinking like that makes me laugh. If you’re happy, you can honestly say that you’re happy.
“I just told you not to worry about it.”
After muttering this so as not to be heard by the sleeping Si-eun, I quietly left the room.