chapter 117
117 – My wife is the devil (23)
#My wife is the devil (23)
I was vaguely realizing it myself.
No. Since I was averting my eyes, I guess I only realized it at a ‘dim’ level.
…… Did you want to ask me this?
Am I a woman worthy of love? Is my love, the devil’s love for the Heretic Questioner, really pure?
Did you want to ask me that?
…… Huh? Damn old god.
***
【Cecil Lionelta does not truly trust Julius Tapnel.】
It’s been a long time since we reunited.
The words that flowed from the mouth of a girl whom I managed to call my childhood friend.
A proposition from God.
A truth that even the devil’s mouth can clearly recite, making it impossible for any excuse to be put into words.
‘…… Julius.’
A man who always shows infinite love and trust towards himself, and is so brilliant that you feel embarrassed even daring to look up at him.
Thinking of Julius Tapnel, Cecil fell into a pitiful sorrow.
‘…… Sorry. You trust me so much. I love you They care for me.’
I don’t even trust you. Just trying to own it. Just trying to be foolish.
…… I’m really sorry.
Thinking about the secret that I have hidden deep in my heart that I will probably never tell him.
Forcibly swallowing a single word of apology that would never reach Julius.
Cecil captured the chill that flowed through her veins along with her blood, threatening to freeze her heart.
‘They say love comes from trust in one another. Then my love, these dark feelings for you…… Is it actually disqualification from love? ‘Can’t it be called pure love?’
…… It’s just absolutely terrible.
Is it just a possessive desire that is close to a curse?
And it has the appearance of Julius’s divine flame, slowly drawing its power from within its own heart.
The strong energy of the dark red flame was also captured neatly.
I want to forget the bitter taste of my own twisted love, which only becomes more bitter the more I think about it.
To suppress the evil desire for Julius that was boiling deep inside his heart.
He just kept his mouth shut. He continued his silent confession that he could not hear.
‘Julius. Me? Sometimes. Sometimes I think about this. My love Won’t this feeling for you become a dagger that pierces your heart? ‘I used to worry about that.’
I wish I knew it would be like this.
I should have listened carefully.
Someday, before Cecil did something called love. When I was attending the academy.
The teacher, whose name I don’t even remember, said this as he was busy writing on the blackboard.
‘All of you here, probably most of you, will get married. Kissing and kissing my stomach with the man I love. Holding his child. That’s how you go from being a shy girl to a manly woman.’
Wearing large glasses. The words of a young female teacher who seemed immature at first glance.
Now I know that those words are 100,000 times correct, but what did I think when I heard that?
If she thinks back to the moment when she became a demon that can freely manipulate even oblivion, she probably thought this with a blank expression on her face.
‘Ah, the flowers are pretty. Should we skip school and go see the flowers?’
Because she thought of herself as a person who was far from love, she thought such lewd things like having s*x with a man were dirty.
I rest my chin on the desk. I was absorbed in other thoughts, counting the number of flower petals fluttering against the background of a sunny spring day.
‘…… Looney. The most important thing in a relationship between a couple is trust in each other. A family without trust is bound to eventually collapse.’
That’s why Cecil eventually listened to the last words spoken by the young-looking female teacher with one ear and ignored them.
I even lost the lesson that was probably the most valuable lesson of the four years I spent at the academy, which was that trust is the most important thing in a ‘couple’ relationship.
‘…… Smells like another b*tch. In Julius’ court. ‘Smells like a b*tch other than me.’
Is it because she didn’t receive the most important lesson in her life, or is it because she was such a bad girl to begin with?
A woman named Cecil’s love for Julius took a turn for the worse.
A dark emotion steeped in the desire to possess the other person completely, ignoring the other person’s will and not being able to find even the slightest hint of trust in the other person.
That is the love that Cecil Lionelta did and still does today.
‘Cecil. I’m sorry. I should have been more careful. ‘I’m sorry for making you hurt.’
It was a love that should have collapsed long ago with a terrible ending.
There is no way that love in such a strange form can be properly conveyed to the other person.
Because there is no way you can make the other person happy.
‘…… ‘Then, are you going to sleep with me tonight?’
‘I’ll hold your hand too. If you’re anxious, I’ll sing you a lullaby too.’
‘…… Tooth. Julius knows my heart very well. It’s disgusting.’
But that’s why I like it.
And thank you.
I am a crazy woman.
For handling it so perfectly.
Thank you so much.
However, Julius was a man who shined brightly like the sun in the sky, and his broad mind and powerful arms completely controlled the woman named Cecil.
Unusual.
Cecile’s dark love, which was considered just unpleasant, was painted over with a beautiful love that seemed like something out of a fairy tale.
‘Ah, now I understand. ‘The reason I’m sad.’
Because of that, Cecil could feel at ease.
I was able to do my best.
No matter how much her feelings for Julius grow. Even though my desire to possess and monopolize him is sky-high.
Julius will control him.
Holding the leash of a crazy woman named Cecile.
If she goes astray, he will gladly strangle her as his wife. Because I’m going to pat her buttocks.
‘But not anymore. ‘I can’t do that anymore.’
But that is no longer possible.
‘…… I am now as strong as Julius.’
Even though a high-ranking devil would have been an absurd existence, he was now on the same level as Julius, who was able to subjugate and control a woman named Cecil.
Now, we can vaguely understand his intentions, because the destruction of the world done by Erman has made the power of the evil demon named Nirhil even stronger.
Julius’ act of destroying the throne lifted the curse placed on Cecil.
The power of the devil that has stepped on the throne has grown into a great evil that threatens even the life of the world’s strongest man.
Now, he is a noble heavenly god.
You will be able to easily handle even divine magic that can cover the eyes of God Rom.
‘But this is not enough. Arnhill In order to beat that vulgar b*tch. ‘This alone is not enough.’
And.
This was the Maginot Line.
This was the limit.
Julius is the last line that can handle Cecil’s love that has grown so much that it may be ruined by feelings such as possessiveness.
‘For the future with Julius. To achieve my happiness. We need one more step forward. If I just take one more step forward, I can beat that cocky b*tch who dares to treat me like a chess piece.’
However, in order to beat Arnhill.
In order to overcome the self-proclaimed darkness that dares to interfere with one’s love.
The final line must be crossed to preserve the feelings that lie in the precarious balance of Julius and Cecil’s love.
‘But then it breaks down. Julius will be broken.’
And Cecil feels extremely depressed and saddened by the current situation that has to be crossed and overcome.
‘I ended up being a really bad b*tch. ‘I will end up becoming a bad devil who doesn’t even care about being hated by Julius.’
After crossing the mountain called Arnhill.
Because he knew that something terrible would happen between him and Julius if the balance was broken.
Julius is determined to possess his man completely.
Because I know the madness that even I cannot control.
‘So I can’t cross this line. I would rather die again. ‘I will die with you.’
As a strange woman. I don’t want to be seen as a bad girl.
I don’t want to tarnish my beautiful memories with you. I don’t want to ruin the future I will build with you.
In the end, the devil named Cecil cannot cross the line.
I collapse in my seat.
I only want to prove my pure love for him, and I don’t want to taint it.
‘On a day like this, please don’t forgive me.’
She just silently repeats her confession that will never reach him.
***
“Oh, no! What are you going to do if you suddenly become so depressed?! Well, I just did it, you girl. “What can’t you say?”
And Enin was watching the entire situation from beginning to end as Cecil repeated her endless confession to Julius with her eyes and mouth tightly closed.
In one word.
It was truly absurd.
“…… Please don’t forgive me, Julius. What a mean b*tch. “I’d rather just throw it away.”
“Hey, this guy. Why are you suddenly saying such a thing? Well, don’t do that. Tears fall! And stop. Huh?”
I was just hinting at something I’ve been curious about for a long time.
Aren’t you suddenly pounding your chest and saying things you don’t even mean to say?
“…… No! Forget what I just said! I can’t live without Julius! Even wanting to die together is a lie! I changed my mind, all of that is cancelled! I haven’t even been on my honeymoon yet. “I can’t die again!”
“They told me to throw it away, and then I told them not to do it. They told me to die, and then I told them not to die. “Which side should I listen to?!”
Suddenly again, tears and snot were streaming down my face and I was pounding the floor like a child! Isn’t it going to hit you?
“…… Me indeed. Really.”
I’m not sure why you’re so upset, but there’s one thing I definitely learned from this conversation with this crazy devil.
‘Julius. ‘You really seem to be a match made in heaven.’
Otherwise.
There’s no way I could film a romance with this crazy b*tch.
How important a man named Julius Tapnel was to Cecil Lionelta.
How well did he manage to control this mentally unstable woman?
True. Once again, I felt a sense of respect.