'Nothing Like Us' taekook

" Hyung, I'm so bored! Why can't I get up and walk?" Jungkook complained to his brother,pouting. For the past week, after his release from the hospital, he was restrained to bed, doing absolutely nothing except eating, resting and sleeping when he wasn't taking online classes. He got a leave of absence from work thanks to his boss's understanding and MinJoon of course.

The pain of his injuries was staggering during the first few days but with proper medication, patience and lots of rest his body began the healing process. The one thing his heart couldn't do. He was still thinking about Taehyung. He was still in love with him as much as he hated it. His heart was broken, shattered to pieces and his nights filled with dreams.

Taehyung's gentle voice, whispering sweet, loving words. His soft hand holding his, kissing it. Caressing his hair. His handsome face dipped in worry. Those dreams kept him awake and wondering why he still loved him and how he would let go. In front of his family he acted tough as if Taehyung never existed but it was hard. Hard to pretend. Hard to smile. Hard to keep going. But he had to do it the same way Taehyung had erased him from his life.

The man was back home, carrying on with his life. His crimes, his subs and his sessions. That was killing him.

Jimin was with him 24/7, watching him like a sleepless hawk, making sure he wouldn't be tempted to call the asshole who caused the accident. The older picked up the tray of food from his brother's lap, placed it on the desk and fetched him two pills and a glass of water.

" Drink and stop talking."

Jungkook blew a huff, grabbed the pills and gulped them with water." Here! All done! Can I get up now?"

" Still no."

" Why? A stroll in the garden. It's such a wonderful day! You can come too." Jungkook pouted again, fluttering his eyelashes,making Jimin roll his eyes.

" I'm not falling for that so keep your cuteness to yourself."

" Please…pretty please!"

" I already said no."

The younger huffed once again,crossing his arms on his chest agitated." Come on Jiminshi! My butt is numb from sitting and I want to stretch my legs. It's not like I'm gonna go jogging or anything!"

" The doctor gave us specific instructions for your recovery." Jimin reminded him strictly, folding some clothes he got out of the drier, putting them neatly in the set of drawers inside the closet " Until doctor Kang examines you and tells us you're fine, you're staying put! And don't argue with me!" he warned him and added." Just two more days and then go stoll all over Seoul."

" You're way overprotective, hyung! Worse than papa." Jungkook blew at him, still irked for nit letting him go out." Could I at least have my phone?"

" No. The computer will do it for now."

" What am I? A prisoner? Will you put me in isolation and keep me hidden for the rest of my life?"

" We're doing what's best for you so put a zip on it and rest."

" I've been resting so much that I'm tired from the rest!" he nagged, kicking the covers with his feet. He was in pain for days at the hospital and afterwards but he was feeling better now and ready to roll if it wasn't for Jimin's stubbornness getting in the way." If you're thinking I'm gonna call you know who, don't. He rejected me,walked out on me and doesn't give a shit if I'm dead or alive. I just want my phone back."

Jimin grabbed the tray in his hands and walked to the door when he flinched seeing his papa giving him a snort which he shrugged off." He's gonna rest."

Jin passed him by, loomed up to his son, fondling his shiny hair and kissing his forehead." Are you feeling better love? Had lunch?"

" Much better papa but Jimin doesn't let me go for a walk or give me my phone." he whined to his papa, hoping for a change of heart.

" I'll call Jackson and if he tells me it's ok then we can have a stroll together." Without turning around he addressed his other son." Give him the phone Jimin."

" But papa.."he protested strongly.

" You know how I feel about this and you keep ignoring me. Not anymore."

" Papa don't! We agreed."

Jin raised his hand, waiting till Jimin took the phone out of his back pocket and handed it over to him." Thank you. And I didn't agree to anything. It was you. Your idea, remember?"

Jungkook's gaze wandered from Jinlmin to Jin and vice versa, filled with confusion." What's going on? Why are you being weird? Whose idea was what?"Jungkook tucked a lock of hair behind his ear, his gaze trying to dig deeper and understand.

Jimin blew out his cheeks,his chest rose and fell in sharp breaths." Nothing happened. Nobody is weird." 

" Don't lie to me Jimin. There's obviously something buging you. Both of you! Come to think of it, the whole family acts funny." 

" Should I tell him Jimin or would you like to?" Jin asked, slowly shifting position and now facing his son. Jimin stayed quiet as he had sworn he wouldn't say a word." I guess it's on me." Taking chuff breaths and holding Jungkook's hand he started talking.

" We weren't the ones who found you and took you to hospital or stayed with you the whole night taking care of you. It was Taehyung. We came the next day. I know he is the reason you're unhappy. There's history between the two of you and from what I understand it's an unfinished one. Jimin suggested we keep it under wraps to protect you. I believe you are entitled to know."

Jimin had his head hang low, fidgeting and chewing on his bottom lip. He was expecting a huge, no gigantic snubbing from his brother for keeping the truth from him.

" Jimin was right." Jungkook tossed his head to the left, leaning against the headboard." You were both right. I needed to know but it doesn't make any difference. He left, didn't he? He took care of me like everyone else would do in his place and then he.."His eyes resembled a dark blue,stormy ocean as he shrieked." ran..he ran as far away as he could. That tells me a lot. He doesn't love me and never will. He made that perfectly clear.Thank you for trying to protect me but I'm a big boy and I can and will do what's best for me."

Jimin raised his head, still doubtful." So you're not mad at me for hiding it."

" Nope." 

" Are you sure? You're not gonna start cursing later.."

Jungkook gave his silly, overprotective brother a huge smile." Yeah, I'm positive!"

"I was thinking of sparing you the pain. No matter how much it hurts now, someday you'll look back and realise your struggles changed your life for the best. The right person will come. But it's not him, Kook."

" You don't have to convince me hyung. I know. This information won't change what I think." Jungkook noted calmly.

Jin watched his son behave as if nothing had happened. Hiding his feelings,not letting his sorrow get the best of him. He felt proud but also worried." Baby, it's ok to cry. It's natural to want to grieve losing your first love. It's part of the healing process and you know I'm here if you'd like to talk."

" There's nothing to talk about papa. The sooner I put this madness behind me, the better. I fell in love with a man who gets blisters at the thought of love and hates gay people." He wiggled his shoulders,feeling them heavy.

" Have you thought about why he slept with you? I mean if he hates people like us why do it? Why not take revenge in a different way?"

" Papa!" Jimin shouted." The guy is a jerk. He gets off on hurting people and getting what he wants at all costs. He's got no logic!"

" Perhaps..but his eyes tell a different story. He's hurting and pretending to be tough. I bet he really wants to be loved but he sacks at asking." Jin stated, holding Jungkook's hand and feeling it tremble.

" I offered him love. My love and he rejected it and me." Jungkook responded as the conversation with his papa was making him uncomfortable.

" Papa, don't put ideas into his head! The guy is sick and totally incapable of loving. Jungkook needs to forget him and move on."

" He loves his brother so he can feel love." Jin contradicted him strictly.

" But only his brother!" Jimin blurred out without noticing the hurtful expression on Jungkook's face. He grabbed the tray and moved towards the door." We will not discuss that asshole again. It's bad for Jungkook." He stormed out and Jin could hear him cursing all the way downstairs. 

Maybe his son had a point." Get some rest. I'll call the doctor and see what he has to say." He kissed his son's cheeks and walked out. 

Jungkook laid in bed, covered himself with the quilt and stared at the ceiling. Again! It had become a habit. He understood their concern about him but this was a battle he had to give alone. Nobody could help him. Nobody could offer him solace. His heart was bleeding and would continue till the day he could find his way out of this labyrinth.

The day he'd forget Kim Taehyung.

______

A few months later, life became normal again. Jungkook was as fit as a fiddle, back to university,to work,his activities,his daily routine. Taehyung was still there, tormenting his days and nights and unfortunately it seemed impossible to get over his love for him.

His family did their best to help him and his friends were there,giving him courage even without knowing the whole story. He didn't hear from him again and Hyunjin told him he had cut off all communication with his hyungs and him. Like he wanted his existence to disappear. That's how much Taehyung seemed to want to forget them. Apparently he had decided he didn't want to have anything to do with them.

That was the kick off in realising Taehyung and his love for him would remain a distant dream. Unfulfilled and impossible. So he kept living every day like it was his last. He had no choice but to compromise with reality despite hurting.

After his graduation,his parents threw a small party for him at their house. Nothing fancy, just a few friends, MinJoon and Hyunjin, Hobi and Bogum and some of his colleagues from work. Jungkook tried to talk them out of it but once his papa sets his mind on something it's hard to stop him. He put on a big smile and went with the flow!

People were drinking champagne, chatting, dancing and laughing and he had to admit it was fun. It distracted him and the booze was exactly what he needed.

Throughout the night he felt someone's gaze pinned on him but shrugged it off and continued interacting with the guests until he heard a soft voice.

" You must be Jungkook."

The younger turned around only to see a beautiful young man,in his thirties, smiling at him. His short, black hair neatly combed, his dark, brown eyes staring at him fondly and his smile warm and cozy.

" You got me!" he said, slightly dizzy from the extensive amount of booze running through his veins.

" You probably don't remember me.. I'm SeenHe. I'm working with your dad and Yoongi."

" Sorry I don't remember you! Have we met before?"

" Once. You visited your dad at the department and he introduced us. It was a long time ago." The glass in his hands was trembling matching his voice.

" It's nice meeting you.. again." He offered his hand and the man took it, holding it more than he should.

" The pleasure is all mine!" His lips touched Jungkook's flesh and it felt nice. Ordinary.

Jungkook withdrew his hand, his gaze wandering around and the dizziness in his head was getting stronger,timidly smiling.

"Congratulations for your graduation. Your dad told me you are a top scorer."

" He's exaggerated as usual but I love what I do. It's what I've always wanted."

"I understand you already work at a gallery."

Jungkook nodded." It's a fascinating experience and I'm grateful I got the chance to work with the best."

"I've visited the gallery once but I might have missed you."

" That's because I spent most of my time in the office, organising work." Jungkook felt the man's gaze scanning him and felt like a fish out of water.

SeenHe coughed." I guess between university and work you don't have time for a social life."

Jungkook quaffed his champagne and bit his lips. He didn't want to give a straight answer." I manage."

The man laughed and his upper body leaned forward." Well I'm certain you have a unique way of coping with everything. It runs in your family."

" How is my dad treating you? Is he strict?" He was hoping for a turn in the conversation. He didn't feel like sharing personal information with anyone.

SeenHe laughed to the music and sunshine." He's the perfect boss. I've worked with plenty of officers in various departments and your dad is the best of the best."

Jungkook chuckled and took another sip of his cold champagne, knitting his eyebrows." You can admit he's strict and a perfectionist. I won't tell."

The man shook his head, hissing." Promise?" He got a nod from Jungkook." He can drive a person crazy at times and whines a lot. But he's highly respected by everyone in the force."

The younger boasted with pride and beamed smiling." He is dedicated to the job."

" You've got a beautiful smile Jungkook. You should smile more often."

Jungkook had no idea his cheeks were flashing and he tossed his head to the right, fiddling with the glass." Thank you.. you're very kind." The younger's mind went straight to Taehyung and the night they first met. The compliments he gave him,the deep, hoarse tone of his voice and the shaking he caused in his body, the sparkles between them..he shook the thoughts away, concentrating on the man across him.

" I'm speaking the truth." SeenHe noticed his empty glass." Could I get you another drink?" 

" Yes,why not?" He needed the drinks to keep his mind fuzzy and whizzy. SeenHe returned with drinks,gave Jungkook one,raised his glass and made a toast.

" Congratulations again on your graduation. I wish you every success on your new beginning and hopefully we'll meet again..soon."

Jungkook gulped, feeling a slight burning in his throat and cheeks. SeenHe was hitting on him. Discreetly but obviously flirting and he didn't know how to respond. He seemed nice and polite and he was also good-looking but he didn't match Taehyung 's handsomeness or the intensity of his stomach flattering when the man was flirting with him.

He involuntarily sighed,gorging his champagne and the alcohol hit straight to his head as it began spinning." Perhaps we will." He raised his glass too and clinked to his. They chatted for a long time, laughed and danced as Jungkook liked the lightness of their conversation. SeenHe was fun to be around, smart and talkative.

There was no sparkle and surges of excitement or chemistry,merely softness of feelings.Perhaps this was what he needed right now after experiencing an intense rollercoaster of emotions, in and out of a hopeless sort of relationship.

______

" I don't like this baby." Hobi whispered to his boyfriend's ear.

"I've been watching that man all night. He hasn't taken his eyes off of Jungkook." Bogum agreed in the same tone.

" With Tae gone and Jungkook hurting for him, it's a matter of time before someone takes advantage of his vulnerability."

Bogum stirred in his seat." I'm thinking the same. And I can't find Tae anywhere. He refuses to answer the fucken phone and now it's switched off."

" I tried calling him too." Hobi sighed." I wanted to call him at the casino but I got scared he might snub. You know how he doesn't want anyone to know about us or his brother."

"There's nothing more to do. He decided to disappear and leave everything behind.. including Jungkook." Bogum concluded sadly." Maybe you misunderstood."

" What?"

" His feelings for Jungkook. If he was in love he wouldn't run away."

Hobi seemed sceptical and rubbed the bridge of his nose." I know I'm right! He has feelings for him. I'm certain!" He growled quietly." Oh I could kill him!"

"Get in line! There are plenty of people who want the exact same thing."He unsuccessfully joked." I can count six here!" 

_____

" Is that what you had in mind when you invited him to our party?"Jin's voice screeched in doubt as he crossed his arms on his chest. He had been observing Jungkook and SeenHe for quite some time now and he had already reached his conclusions. Jungkook needed a strong, willful man in his life, not a wimp like him! 

" I don't have the foggiest idea what you're talking about." Namjoon feigned he didn't understand.

" Don't give me that bullshit Kim Namjoon! You arranged this. He didn't crash our party. And it was a bad idea." He gave him a death glare,full of meaning.

" I take it you disapprove." Namjoon presumed, avoiding to look at his husband directly.

" What gave me away? " he asked sarcastically, blowing a huff." He's clearly a wimp! And don't forget our son is in love with a dynamic man. His first, intense love. His first lover..a passionate lover..That's hard to beat baby." 

Namjoon shook his head, carefully observing his skillful detective hitting on his son and sighed. SeenHe was remarkable and efficient at his job but he didn't see how he could control impulsive Jungkook!

" I'm trying love! I don't know what else to do. For the past six months I've watched our boy grieve and cry for a lost love. A jackass who couldn't appreciate him. A moron who hurt him and there wasn't a damn thing I could do to help him. I thought what's the harm in meeting SeenHe? He's harmless."

" You should definitely stop thinking and taking initiatives. Jungkook needs to work on his feelings for Taehyung. Accept his rejection.To find the strength to decide what he wants and needs to do. Not being pushed into another relationship with a wimp!"

" I suppose in a sense you're right. " Namjoon admitted.

" And let me tell you.. Taehyung is definitely in love with Jungkook.I saw it in his eyes. And I'm never wrong."

Namjoon gazed at his husband with a dumb look in his eyes." Then why did he leave him? When you love somebody you don't run away!"

" I can't answer that for him. Some people need time to admit their feelings and embrace a new unfamiliar reality." He stooped over and rested his head on Namjoon's shoulder." You can't heal a broken heart by forcing it to beat for someone else. You blew it baby!"

Namjoon had no idea how accurate Jin would be. He would once again be right in his predictions and Namjoon's involvement would involuntarily cause more problems than he initially intended to solve.

______

It's been two months since the night of the party and SeenHe's presence in their house and Jungkook's life became almost daily. Unexpectedly stopping by to deliver documents from work, staying for lunch and dinner, for movie nights, escorting and picking up Jungkook from work, bringing him snacks and candies and then then one day he appeared in their doorstep with a huge bouquet of red roses they all got the hint.

He was about to ask Jungkook for a date. And after a month of constant, endless pursuit Jungkook finally agreed. The family faced the news with numbness and scepticism and the only one who seemed fine with it was Jimin. Jin was throwing tantrums on Namjoon,who was huffing and puffing and Yoongi kept a neutral approach.

Until one night when Yoongi came home very late from work and passing by Jungkook's room he heard him crying. He lifted his hand to knock on the door but regretted it and made it into a tight fist, leaning against the wall. Jungkook's cries broke his heart. He hadn't gotten over Taehyung and he was pushed into dating a man he obviously didn't want.

Yes, he wasn't exactly fond of Taehyung and Jimin had told him everything that had happened between him and Kook but forcing him to move on and get over his love for Kim while in fact he wasn't ready,seemed unforgivable and hectic.

He loosened his tie, unbuttoned his shirt and took out his uniform jacket as the crying from Kook continued. He rubbed his forehead in frustration and sighed heavily, storming inside his bedroom. Jimin was sitting in bed reading a book and smiled when he saw his husband.

" Welcome home. Tough night?"

Yoongi hummed and stripping off,he went to the bathroom. Staying with Jimin would make him burst and he needed time to calm down.

The younger was waiting for him when he got out and by the look on his face he wouldn't let this go. 

" What's troubling you? Did something happen to work?"

" Work is fine. I can't say the same for our house." he blurred out, putting on a pair of black pyjamas.

" I don't get you, baby."

" Of course you don't! You're ecstatic with what's happening. It's your wish come true." 

Jimin jumped out of bed and moved closer to Yoongi, touching his shoulder." Would you mind explaining why you're so worked up?" 

" Just answer me one question. Was it your idea to push Kook into SeenHe's arms? Did you have anything to do with it?" 

Jimin knitted his brows." No..no..It was dad's idea. I didn't know. He invited him to the party. I was as startled as you when I saw him."

"I find that hard if not impossible to believe."

" I admit I wanted Kook to move on and forget Taehyung but.." 

Yoongi cut him off by raising his right hand. His dark,raving eyes betrayed his anger and disappointment." You were the only person with the fixation of making Taehyung a distant memory. You insisted on Kook finding another man. You would do anything to get what you wanted. Even at the expense of hurting your own brother. Because he's hurting.. for months now I've watched him suffer in silence,crying alone in his room, pretending to be fine when he's a wreck!" He ruffled his wet hair,taking a few steps back." We should be helping him Jimin, not adding more pain to him! Who the fuck told you to play matchmaker? I can't take this anymore!" 

Jimin's head was hung low, chewing on his lips and feeling guilty. He didn't mean for this to happen. He wanted his brother to be happy, not more miserable than before." Please believe me! I had nothing to do with it! Dad invited him because he knew SeenHe had a crush on Kook and he thought it would bring a smile on his face..you know feel wanted and desired."

" I don't give a fuck if SeenHe has a crush on him! He's nobody to me and you! Kook is my brother!" he pointed out in rage, the veins in his neck popping out ." Don't get me wrong Taehyung is my least favourite person and I'm not taking sides or defending him but I know it takes time to forget your first love. And Jin's right! That wimp can't make Kook forget Taehyung…not in a trillion years!"

" I thought you liked him.."

" He's excellent at his job. Hard working, efficient and dedicated but that doesn't mean he's good for Kook. Being a brilliant officer is different from being a suitable boyfriend." 

Jimin whizzed, closing his eyes and opening them again." I just want him to start living and find happiness."

" Well you got your wish! He's dating someone who's got your approval." He clapped his hands." Bravo! Job well done!"

The younger's lips joined and formed a thin line." Baby.." His constant,cute pouting didn't mellow Yoongi's heart. Neither did his failed attempt to hug his husband.

" I'm too upset to hug or cuddle with you."

" To my defence I don't get good vibes from SeenHe.. I know I acted on impulse and I might have been a bit pushy but.."

" No shit! I thought you'd be on your feet, jumping from joy! He's your favourite! You were the only one who got along with him just fine!" he mocked him, Jungkook's cries echoed in his head.

" I wouldn't go that far..he seemed nice and polite but getting to know him better my papa's got a point." Jimin scratched the back of his neck." He's a bit of a wuss. A pushover. He can't make up his mind about anything, he can't take any initiative and the way he sometimes stares at Kook.." he shivered." gives me the creeps! You can tell a lot about a person from the way they act when they think nobody watches them."

Yoongi passed him by, laid in bed and switched off the lights." You'd better find a way out of this because you and Nam blew it..again." He shut his eyes and dozed off.

Jimin couldn't sleep that night. His thoughts and guilt kept him awake, wondering how he could change the situation but he feared he played against all odds. Jungkook has been dating SeenHe for a month now and he knew that sooner or later the man would ask him to be his boyfriend.

And as much as he hated Taehyung he definitely didn't want his brother to have an affair out of the burden of rejection. It wouldn't work and it would make two people miserable. Jimin didn't care about SeenHe but he cared about Kook.

So how was he going to change his brother's mind if in fact he was considering having a relationship with him?

_______

Jungkook and SeenHe stepped out of the cinema, walking towards the parking lot. It was regular for them to meet almost every second day. Tonight SeenHe had picked him up after work and took him to the movies. The man was well informed of Jungkook's likes and dislikes and made sure to suggest the things the younger wanted.

Being an excellent officer had its benefits. For months he was gathering and fishing out information from his boss and Jimin.

" I know a cute place where we can have dinner." the man suggested and even though Jungkook was tired the thought of going home was unappealing."Do you feel like eating?"

" I'd love that." he agreed." What do you have in mind?"

SeenHe took the keys out of his pocket and opened the car and Jungkook's door." A small restaurant with the best Korean food. I know the owner."

Jungkook got inside the car and nodded." It sounds great. I never say no to Korean food!" But the man already knew it! 

The roads were almost empty at this hour and getting to their destination was pretty easy. The man parked his car across the restaurant, helping Jungkook get out. He was a perfect gentleman! They entered and were welcomed by a polite old man who warmly greeted SeenHe. 

" Welcome! Welcome both! It's been a long time!" the older man said,smiling,shaking SeenHe's hand and patting his back.

" Been very busy. Hardly had time to eat but tonight I thought about coming and trying good food.This is Jungkook" he introduced the younger who bowed out of respect." And this is Lee Han, the owner."

" Nice meeting you." Jungkook bowed again.

" Me too. SeenHe's friends are my friends." the man stated."Let me get you a table..at the back or front to admire the view?" 

SeenHe glanced at the younger and guessed his answer. " Front. We don't want to miss the view."

They sat at their dining table, next to a huge bow window, displaying a stunning view of the east side of Han river. Jungkook's mind travelled back the nights he and Taehyung spent strolling along the river hand in hand.. kissing and talking. Well Jungkook was, Taehyung kept humming. But he remembered feeling so happy a man like him loved him. What a fool!

After ordering traditional Korean dinner and soju,they ate and chatted about nothing in particular,just casual talk. The man was exceptional at taking Jungkook's mind off of what was troubling him. At some point,SeenHe reached out and cupped the younger 's hand.

" I enjoy our little conversations and the time we spent together, Kookie." The younger flinched and gulped at the sudden touch. It felt warm but also awkward.

' Kookie..' Taehyung used to call him that. The nickname he had picked for him the first time they met. He shook the crazy thoughts out and concentrated on the man holding his hand.

" You're a good man, hyung." he admitted to the truth. Perhaps too damn good for him.

" From your tone I presume you haven't met a lot of good men." 

" I had my share of bad decisions."

" Do you regret them?" 

" Not really. I just wish I was more careful."

" Someone hurt you deeply." SeenHe noted, still holding his hand, his fingers brushing vhis knuckles.

Jungkook's eyes saddened,staring at nothing." Haven't we all been hurt by wrong decisions? I'm not the only one."

The man nodded." It doesn't matter how many mistakes we've made but what we learnt from them so as not to repeat them." He had assumed Jungkook had a failed relationship that made him more cautious and reluctant to open up, putting a temporary stop to what he had in mind. Taking things slowly and methodically seemed the best approach. 

Gaining his trust and showing him he didn't resemble his previous affairs was a bet he had made with himself. Having valuable allies like Namjoon and Jimin was an asset. He had his doubts about Jin and Yoongi. They seemed hesitant and withdrawn.

" Anyway, I was thinking of going on a small trip to Japan. Would you consider coming with me?"

Jungkook's heart stopped beating and his gaze pondered on the starry, night sky outside the window. " I can't leave work. We're very busy with the new exhibition and I hardly think my boss will be pleased if I bail on him now." He removed his hand from the man's grip, picking up his glass and drinking the rest of his soju.

" Sorry to hear that.Some other time perhaps." 

Jungkook nodded without confirming because he was unprepared to travel to a different country with him." Maybe."

They finished their dinner, the man paid the bill, said goodbye to the owner and left. Inside the car SeenHe turned on the radio and soft music filled the car." Could I at least persuade you to take a stroll with me? Along the river?" he suggested hoping he'd agree and they'd spent more time together.

The younger 's face froze. Numbness spread in his features recalling past moments between him and Taehyung doing exactly that. He hated thinking about him. He hated not being able to enjoy simple, ordinary things with a kind person like SeenHe. He detested that despite Taehyung 's awful treatment he kept thinking about him.

" I'm sorry it's been a long day and I'm kind of tired. I'd like to go home if you don't mind."

" Not at all..I understand. We'll have plenty of time to do everything." He started the car and twenty minutes later he left him at home. As they were saying goodnight,SeenHe leaned forward, his lips touching Jungkook's cheek to a tender kiss. He was caught off guard and barely had time to react.

" Goodnight Kookie.. sweet dreams."

Jungkook ran. He got out of the car,all flashed and straight inside safely with his heart pounding. Things were moving too fast and he wasn't sure it was what he wanted. His family and friends were pressuring him to move on, forget and let go of the past and Taehyung and he was caught in between, unsure of what he really wanted and needed.

Baffled and confused with a heavy heart, he went up the stairs to his bedroom, shutting and locking the door. He lazily threw his clothes on the floor and had a quick shower, putting on only a pair of grey shorts and went to bed. 

He huffed thinking he would spend another sleepless night, memories flooding his mind and the need of his body for Taehyung's touch becoming unbearable, like the thought of him fucking women because old habits die hard.

During the day, buried in work to occupy his mind,taking on more assignments than he could handle,he was fine. The nights were an endless,living nightmare. Being exhausted and frustrated by his thoughts and insomnia,he had even considered taking sleeping pills to help him relax but dismissed the idea. He didn't need to add another problem in his life.

He refused to cry and grieve. He refused to let that bastard control his life the same way he controlled his body. He was in pain from his need for Taehyung. His body needed pain to cope with the pain of not being touched for months and months. It drove him crazy!

He could sleep with SeenHe. It would be so easy to blow off some steam and the man clearly wanted him. But it felt like.. like cheating..In his blurry mind it seemed like he was being unfaithful to a man who had no morality and no restrictions on fucking everything that walked and talked.

He grunted through his clenched teeth and his jaw contorted. " I hate you Kim Taehyung! I fucken hate you for messing up my life! I want you out of my head! Out of my thoughts! I hate that I still think about you!" He punched the pillow and unwillingly let his tears run down his cheeks, squeezing the pillow in his arms, hurdled like a baby in the wound.

Yoongi had heard him coming and marched to his door, ready to have the conversation he postponed for weeks. His heart throbbed at Kook's crying again! The situation was getting out of hand! As days, months passed, it became worse. He had to do something.He didn't have the slightest idea of how to handle it and that alone was enough to make him furious!

SeenHe's insistence in pursuing Kook, Jungkook's baffling behaviour, Jimin's refusal to talk to his brother out of genuine fear of being scolded for interfering into his personal life had him on edge. And there was of course Namjoon. He had given up in trying to put some sense into him. Jin was practically the only logical person in this house! Jin! Who would have thought?

Unable to sleep, he went downstairs and poured himself a generous portion of whiskey. It stung his throat when gorging it all down and did something he hadn't done for years. Smoked!