Red Mansion

While waiting for the valet parking attendant, Chungrim rewrapped the scarf around Sung-kyung. The car wasn’t cold, but Sung-kyung liked the firm touch of his hands, so he stayed still.On the way back in the car, instead of heading straight home, Chungrim deliberately took a quiet, peaceful drive route. He enjoyed watching Sung-kyung’s profile as he gazed out at the quickly passing scenery.“Let’s stop by the convenience store for a moment.”Chungrim parked the car in a quiet spot, pointing to a convenience store in the distance, and Sung-kyung unbuckled his seatbelt.As soon as they crossed the intersection and reached the convenience store, Chungrim plopped down on a plastic chair. While Sung-kyung hesitated about whether to sit down as well, Chungrim took out his wallet.“Your ID.”Sung-kyung remembered Chungrim had put it in his coat pocket when they left. He quickly retrieved the ID from his pocket.“Here you go.”Chungrim placed his card on top of Sung-kyung’s ID in his palm, then leaned back against the chair.“Get me any cigarettes. You can use this card to buy yourself some snacks too.”It felt like Chungrim was implying he wouldn’t be accompanying him. He never let Sung-kyung do anything alone, so why was he asking this now? Sung-kyung, puzzled but clutching the card tightly, went inside.“Welcome.”Since it was a weekday afternoon in a secluded area, the convenience store was empty except for a bored-looking clerk. Sung-kyung bowed slightly in response.“Buy whatever you want.”Today, Chungrim had said that a lot. Was this another attempt to persuade him? If Sung-kyung wanted, Chungrim might even buy the whole store.As he passed neatly organized shelves, he thought of Red Mansion’s store number 3. There was no microwave, no vests with the store name, and it wasn’t this clean, but it oddly reminded him of it. Holding the ID and card tightly, his fingers started to ache a bit.After wandering around the store, he settled on a strawberry milk. Chungrim liked strawberry flavor, so Sung-kyung thought he’d try to acquire a taste for it too. At the counter, he also chose the cigarettes Chungrim usually smoked. Knowing what Chungrim smoked, he didn’t need to pick just any brand.“May I see your ID?”“What?”“Your ID, please.”The clerk waved the pack of cigarettes slightly. So, they always checked IDs for cigarette purchases outside. At Red Mansion’s store number 3, they didn’t bother with such things; they’d just hand over whatever you paid for.“Oh.”Muttering dumbly, he quickly handed over the ID and card. The clerk alternated between looking at the ID photo and at Sung-kyung a few times. Nervousness crept in, and Sung-kyung bit his lip under his scarf.“Here you go.”Receiving the returned ID felt strange. Maybe because he hadn’t lived with such formality at Red Mansion. It felt like being acknowledged as a person, not just a crumpled piece of trash in a bin.He pulled his scarf up to cover his blushing cheeks. While the clerk scanned the items, he glanced outside. Chungrim was watching him with his chin propped up.“……”Seeing him smile made Sung-kyung’s mouth dry up. Was this all a ploy to send him on an errand?“It’s 5,600 won. Straws are over there.”“Just a moment.”Hurriedly, Sung-kyung grabbed a few items he had noticed earlier and returned the cigarettes.“Please add these. And remove the cigarettes.”“Oh, okay.”After a few more beeps from the scanner, he paid with Chungrim’s card. He put the small box in his pocket and carried the snacks out.“I bought this instead of the cigarettes.”What Sung-kyung offered was an ice cream Chungrim often bought at the store. Even though it was cold, Chungrim always enjoyed this in winter. It suited him better than having a cigarette in his mouth.Chungrim tore open the ice cream wrapper without a word.“I thought this would be better than the cigarettes.”Mumbling as he tried to open the milk, Sung-kyung’s hands slipped. His hands didn’t cooperate well, and he couldn’t apply enough force. Chungrim, watching, bit the ice cream and reached out to help. He effortlessly opened the milk and handed it back.“You’re quite the adult, Kim Sung-kyung. Doing errands as you please.”Every time Chungrim laughed, a faint mist escaped his lips. His red lips curved up nicely.“Should I send you on another cigarette errand tomorrow? You look like a kid, so they might check your ID again.”Using the ID he had only ever looked at made him happy, but the fact that Chungrim had given him this feeling was even more satisfying. The small box in his pocket seemed to nudge his thigh.“Yes, I’ll do it.”Nodding, Sung-kyung sipped the sweet milk and stole glances at Chungrim. Just like he used to at the store counter. Red lips opened, white breath escaped, and the bright red ice cream went into his mouth. Every time Chungrim bit into the ice cream with a crunch, his red tongue flicked out. Sung-kyung bit his lower lip, which still had some sweetness on it, and licked it.“……”Chungrim leaned back fully in the chair, holding the ice cream stick. Twirling the stick, he licked the ice cream, all while Sung-kyung’s Adam’s apple visibly moved up and down. Seeing Sung-kyung staring unabashedly, Chungrim smirked inwardly.Even if he doesn’t remember, a pervert is a pervert. Deliberately, Chungrim slowly pulled the ice cream out and slid it back in, repeating the motion. He wrapped his tongue around the ice cream, mimicking fellatio, even tilting his head slightly. The area around them grew silent, the only sound being the slick noises. Sung-kyung’s eyes clung to his lips.Glancing down, Chungrim saw the bulge in Sung-kyung’s unzipped coat. Now you’re getting hard outside too, you crazy bastard. Chungrim, sitting with his legs crossed, extended his foot to nudge Sung-kyung’s knee. Sung-kyung flinched and licked his lips.“Your swallowing is loud.”“……”Instead of feeling embarrassed, Sung-kyung sucked on his lower lip at Chungrim’s words. Chungrim bit down on the half-eaten ice cream, breaking it into small pieces that slid down his throat. Despite the cold, sweet treat going down his throat, the heat inside him refused to subside.“Should I guess what you’re imagining right now?”“……”“You’re imagining me sucking you off, aren’t you?”“……No.”Sung-kyung pulled the hem of his jacket to cover his thighs. Even though he blocked Chungrim’s view, he couldn’t stop the heat pooling below. It wasn’t even as warm as it was in the department store, but Sung-kyung’s face felt hot, and he lowered his head.“What do you mean ‘no’?”Chungrim nudged the leg of Sung-kyung’s blue plastic chair with his shoe. Sung-kyung slowly raised his head. Chungrim, who had finished the ice cream, threw the stick and wrapper into the trash can. Then, uncrossing his legs, he pointed between his thighs with his fingers.“Come here.”“……Now?”“Yes. Do you not want to?”Even back in the shop, whenever Chungrim ordered him to suck him off, Sung-kyung never hesitated and would come sit in front of him. He even seemed to wait for it. After they started having sex, Chungrim hadn’t made such demands, so he was curious. Would Sung-kyung, now with no memory, still move without hesitation if he asked? Chungrim’s eyes lingered on Sung-kyung.“No.”The sound of the chair scraping the floor came first, followed by the response. Sung-kyung stood up and moved near Chungrim’s knee. This wasn’t the store where no one could see them, it wasn’t home, it was broad daylight in a place with cars and people passing by. Yet Sung-kyung was about to kneel in front of him, almost as if to submit. Chungrim stifled a laugh and pulled Sung-kyung into his arms. He stood Sung-kyung between his thighs and rubbed his cheek against Sung-kyung’s dry chest.“Ah. You crazy bastard.”His breath came out long. In an awkward posture, Sung-kyung lowered his head, unable to touch Chungrim’s head or place his hands on his shoulders, simply listening to Chungrim’s breathing.After a brief hesitation, Sung-kyung rummaged through his jacket pocket and pulled something out, holding it in front of Chungrim’s face.“I bought this with your money too.”Chungrim saw the small box and buried his face in Sung-kyung’s chest, laughing.“When you do things like this, I really……”He didn’t finish the sentence. He grabbed Sung-kyung’s buttocks hidden under the thick jacket. The sound of crinkling fabric and the soft sensation were all he felt. He craved Sung-kyung’s skin.Chungrim quickly stood up. He shoved everything on the table into the trash can, snatched the condom box from Sung-kyung, and stuffed it into his coat pocket.“Let’s go. I’ll suck you off.”He hurried towards the car parked at a distance. Fortunately, the car’s tint was dark, and there were few cars in the parking lot. He yanked open the back door and roughly swept the shopping bags onto the floor. With the shopping bags cleared, there was room for Sung-kyung to lie down.Stripping Sung-kyung of his jacket, Chungrim pushed him inside. The thick coat was good for keeping warm but too bulky. He threw it between the front seats and closed the door. Staring down at Sung-kyung, who was propped up on his elbows, Chungrim licked his lips.“I think I prefer this over cheap ice cream.”It was clear what he meant by that, given the hand that slipped inside Sung-kyung’s pants. He slowly rubbed Sung-kyung’s prominent member through his underwear. Sung-kyung frowned and let out a whimper. The rough hands pulling down his pants and underwear made him lean back, the back of his head hitting the cold window.Chungrim placed Sung-kyung’s dry legs over his shoulders and tilted his head between his thighs.“I’ll use the condom later.”Chungrim licked the inside of Sung-kyung’s thigh before letting out a laugh. His cold, red lips, still chilled from the ice cream, moved along Sung-kyung’s tender skin before reaching the glans. Sung-kyung’s knees trembled. He bit his lower lip and lowered his gaze.Chungrim’s eyes locked onto Sung-kyung’s erect member. He wrapped his lips around it, sucking hard, his tongue probing the tip. He felt Sung-kyung’s toes curl against his coat.“You taste like strawberries. Is the condom strawberry flavored too?”Chungrim murmured as he ran his tongue along the shaft. The white socks rubbed against his coat. Chungrim enjoyed the way Sung-kyung’s body reacted to his touch.After a few more teasing licks, Sung-kyung finally came. Chungrim opened his throat and took in all of Sung-kyung’s cum. He couldn’t waste a drop. His eyes locked onto Sung-kyung’s flushed throat.“Ah, ha.”Sung-kyung was flushed with excitement, his neck turning red. Maybe because of his pale skin, his flush was noticeable. Chungrim, still sucking on his cock as if it were ice cream, looked up. His lower body felt ready to burst. He spread Sung-kyung’s legs wider and reached for the buckle and zipper of his pants.He gripped his darkly flushed erection and stroked it frantically. Sung-kyung, blinking heavily, couldn’t come to his senses, so he grabbed his cheek to keep him looking his way and continued to masturbate. Smack, his hand collided with the pants that weren’t fully taken off.“All the marks here are gone.”Holding his cheek with one hand, he extended his index finger to rub it against his cheek. It was where he had bitten him earlier. Enough time had passed that the bite mark had already disappeared without a trace.“Do it again.”“Do it again?”“Yes…”Feeling disappointed that the mark had disappeared so quickly, Sung-kyung dragged out the end of his sentence. Chungrim’s excited gaze fiercely focused on Sung-kyung before he lowered his head. His lips, still covered in semen, touched Sung-kyung’s cheek.“You don’t want anything but keep asking for so much.”Expecting the pain, Sung-kyung tightly shut his eyes. However, only the obscene sound of Chungrim stroking his own cock could be heard, and there was no pain on his cheek. Only Chungrim’s rough breath got closer.“……”Chungrim didn’t do anything, but he didn’t remove his lips from Sung-kyung’s cheek. He didn’t lick it with his tongue like he often did. He simply focused on using his cock while keeping his lips pressed against Sung-kyung’s cheek.A pounding heartbeat could be felt from their chests. Sung-kyung slowly opened his eyes. His pupils, which had been staring at the black car body, glanced sideways. He saw the side profile of Chungrim, who was pressing his lips against his face with his eyes closed.Whenever the hand moving on his cock got rougher, Chungrim’s soft hair shook violently, and the groans escaping his clenched lips sent faint vibrations through Sung-kyung’s cheek. His handsome, furrowed brows and forehead, his large body nestled between Sung-kyung’s thin thighs—he was now purely aroused by his own presence.“……Hyung.”“Haha.”Without removing his lips, Chungrim laughed, making the hot breath ticklingly scatter across Sung-kyung’s cheek. Suddenly, Chungrim stood up and rubbed his cock against Sung-kyung’s inner thigh. Soon, semen spurted out, flowing down Sung-kyung’s thigh in a stream. The cloudy liquid wet and pooled around the inside of his crotch and buttocks. Chungrim smiled contentedly at the sight of the liquid flowing down the white skin.“Don’t wipe it off.”Chungrim rubbed the last drop against Sung-kyung’s white thigh. Sung-kyung responded with a nod. Chungrim, panting heavily and pulling up his trousers, couldn’t contain his excitement anymore.“It’s too cramped to do anything properly.”Chungrim’s eyes lingered over Sung-kyung’s exposed lower body. He removed his coat and draped it over Sung-kyung’s waist.“Don’t wear it; you’ll just have to take it off again anyway.”“Okay.”“I’ll give you a proper blowjob when we get home.”Chungrim got out of the back seat while chuckling and patting his cheek. As Sung-kyung listened to the hurried footsteps heading to the driver’s seat, he let out a hot breath. He lifted himself up on his elbows, feeling the sticky sensation under his buttocks.Chungrim got into the driver’s seat and started the engine. The car took off abruptly. Sung-kyung rubbed his thighs together and eventually slid his hand under the coat. He gripped his erection and began to stroke it. Thanks to Chungrim’s saliva and semen, his hand moved faster and faster.“Haah…”The moans coming from the back seat grew deeper. That crazy bastard might cause an accident. Chungrim tightened his grip on the steering wheel. The veins on the back of his hand stood out.“Hyung, hyuung…”His voice quivered like he was about to cry. Licking his dry lips, Chungrim anxiously tapped the steering wheel. The way home felt far too long. Clenching his teeth hard, Chungrim’s jaw muscles tightened. Listening to Kim Sung-kyung call his name while masturbating, unable to do anything about it, was driving him crazy. He wanted to grab his own bulging erection.“Kwon Chungrim…”“I’m gonna lose it, really.”Is he serious? Chungrim licked his lower lip and pressed hard on the accelerator. His chest rose and fell repeatedly with heavy breaths. Hoo. Even unbuttoning a few more buttons of his shirt didn’t ease the suffocation.The wheels screeched as they skidded across the parking lot. The car came to a rough stop in the farthest corner. Chungrim got out with a fierce expression. The first thing he did was scan the surroundings quickly. Because it was an ambiguous time of day, the parking lot was quiet. Chungrim threw open the back seat door. The fishy smell hit his nose, making him laugh.“You crazy bastard.”A foot in a white sock peeked out from under the coat. Chungrim grabbed it and pulled Sung-kyung out, still wrapped in the coat. He carefully concealed Sung-kyung’s bare legs before hurriedly walking away. Sung-kyung reached out and wrapped his arms around Chungrim’s neck. The panting breaths against his nape made Chungrim even more anxious.They entered the empty elevator. The process of pressing the button was rushed. Chungrim tapped his shoe against the floor while watching the numbers on the panel rise. As soon as the elevator door opened, he strode out.He wasn’t sure how he made it home. As soon as he got inside, he headed straight for the bedroom, placing Sung-kyung down and tossing the coat aside. Because Sung-kyung had ejaculated alone, his lower body was a mess. Licking his lips, Chungrim lifted one of his legs onto his shoulder. He stroked Sung-kyung’s wet cock, coating his fingers with the fluid before pushing them into Sung-kyung’s hole, scissoring them.“Ah, ah!”Sung-kyung, taking in two fingers immediately, threw his head back and let out a moan. The suppressed moan was hot and breathless. Holding the blanket, Sung-kyung had the box of condoms he’d had in his pocket.“When did you manage to grab that?”“Uh, uhh.”Jabbing and scraping the inside with his fingers, Chungrim made Sung-kyung arch his back with a piercing scream. His lower body tightened and his thighs closed in. Chungrim frowned and clenched his teeth. He slapped Sung-kyung’s thigh, making him drop his ecstatic gaze downward.“Stay still.”“Ugh…”Sung-kyung, with his eyes tightly closed, felt the fingers stimulating his insides. It itched down there. He wanted something hotter and harder to enter him. He wanted Kwon Chungrim to wear the condom he bought and thrust inside, filling him with cum. He had never had it before, but he wanted it. Instead of asking if he wanted to buy something, if Chungrim had asked if there was something he wanted, Sung-kyung would have said a condom stained with Chungrim’s cum. Sung-kyung bit his lower lip.“Use this,” he murmured impatiently. Chungrim let out a breathless laugh. Sung-kyung tightened around his fingers, as if asking for something more than just fingers. Chungrim withdrew his fingers, brushing the inside as he did so. Just like in the back seat earlier, he lowered only the buckle and zipper, pulling out his already wet cock and giving it a few strokes.“You bought something that doesn’t even fit.”Chungrim chuckled as he opened the box Sung-kyung handed him, pulling out the wrapper. He rolled the ill-fitting condom over his dark red, erect cock. It felt like it might slip off, but since Sung-kyung asked, there was no choice. He half-heartedly positioned the head at the entrance, grasping Sung-kyung’s thighs and pushing inside. Sung-kyung arched his back, chest heaving.“Doesn’t this just prove you’re not greedy? You get what you ask for.”Sung-kyung’s pale thighs spread wide, their connection merging as Chungrim’s pubic hair mingled with Sung-kyung’s dried semen. Chungrim watched the scene and roughly thrust his hips. The thin barrier inside slipped uneasily. He couldn’t push in deeply, fearing it might break.“Aah, aah.”Sung-kyung whimpered weakly, trembling. Chungrim unclasped the loosely worn watch from Sung-kyung’s left wrist and threw it somewhere on the bed, pulling the wrist to his mouth. He licked the scarred wrist, sucking and kissing the new pink skin, scattering hot breaths over it.“It doesn’t matter. I’m going to take care of you anyway. Just take what I give you. Understand?”“Yes, yes.”Sung-kyung nodded, not really comprehending. Chungrim grinned, biting into the thick flesh below Sung-kyung’s palm. Sung-kyung shivered, clenching his fist.“Harder. Do it harder.”Stupid bastard. Only liking the pain. Chungrim bit down hard on the palm, then licked it as if applying medicine. He pulled at the thin barrier inside, feeling unsatisfied. He wanted to thrust deeply into the inner recesses.“Ah. You bought something so useless it’s making this difficult.”“Ungh, I want it….”“What do you want with this thing, you crazy bastard?”Every time Chungrim laughed, vibrations ran inside Sung-kyung. Sung-kyung curled his toes inward.“I want to have it. Ah, I want it.”“Ha….”Before losing his memory, there had been a few times when Chungrim used condoms with Sung-kyung. Knowing how crazy he was, Chungrim thought he might crave them. When Chungrim told him he had thrown them away, Sung-kyung had looked very disappointed. Given his behavior even after losing his memory, it seemed he had meant it.Chungrim spread his index and middle fingers, brushing the half-inserted shaft. He rotated his hips slowly, building arousal. He needed to finish in this ridiculous condom and take it off quickly.“Ah, hyung.”Hot breath seeped out as Chungrim watched the thin barrier at the entrance. His back muscles tensed, his thighs bulged with firm muscles.“Ungh.”Chungrim groaned deeply, ejaculating. He continued to rub the shaft with his fingers. The condom had almost slipped off, barely hanging on the head. The remaining cloudy liquid made a mess.“Don’t, don’t throw it away.”“I won’t.”Chungrim laughed and pulled out. He grabbed the edge of the condom, awkwardly hanging from the entrance, making Sung-kyung flinch.“There, happy?”He dangled the limp condom in front of Sung-kyung’s face, letting some of the liquid drip onto his face. Sung-kyung’s shiny eyes followed the movement of the condom.Before Sung-kyung could reach out, Chungrim threw the limp item onto the bed and grabbed Sung-kyung’s cheeks, making eye contact.“I’ll give you another one later. Let’s just do this now.”Despite having ejaculated, Chungrim’s erection remained hard. He aligned himself with Sung-kyung’s entrance, pushing the head inside. Slowly, he leaned forward, Sung-kyung’s thin leg draped over his shoulder, their bodies closing in.The deeper penetration made Sung-kyung moan loudly. Chungrim lowered his body, bracing himself on his arms. The sound of wet slaps filled the room as he thrust. He licked the center of Sung-kyung’s wrist, as if to consume the pounding pulse.“Kim Sung-kyung.”“Yes, yes.”“I’ll keep giving you those. Stay with me. Always.”Stay by my side and keep breathing until you have something you want, until you can choose what you want for yourself. Chungrim’s intense gaze lingered on Sung-kyung’s parted lips.“Ungh, uh.”“Hmm?”Chungrim urged with a hard thrust. Sung-kyung tightened his legs around Chungrim, speaking through his moans.“Yes. Together, with you….”Sung-kyung smiled as he spoke. It was the most natural answer. More than anyone, he wanted to live this way.Sung-kyung felt his body shudder as Chungrim’s essence filled him, the presence he absorbed melting into his body and mind. It was dizzying, almost drug-like, distorting his vision.“Ah—.”Sometimes, his vision blurs like this, or the medication resurfaces, leaving his mouth dry and his mind hazy. At such times, Sung-kyung had to rely on Chungrim’s body warmth. It was more pleasurable and intensely fulfilling than any drug he had ever tried. He clung to that.Sung-kyung wrapped his arms around Chungrim’s neck and pulled him closer. Even as Chungrim was being pulled in, he didn’t stop teasing the sensitive spot below. Sung-kyung silently lifted the corners of his lips in a smile, his eyes gleaming with a peculiar light.“Should I do it more until it won’t close? You like that, don’t you?”Chungrim whispered softly, nibbling and sucking on Sung-kyung’s earlobe. His low voice seeped through the squelching sounds, sending shivers from Sung-kyung’s toes. Despite doing it daily, there were times when it felt like the area below wouldn’t close. It happened on days when Chungrim was so excited he lost his mind, or when they went at it for so long that it lasted until morning. When it reached that point, it would be sore and painful all day, but Sung-kyung welcomed it. It felt like Chungrim was craving and yearning for him.“Yes. I like it.”There was no reason to refuse. As Chungrim moved his member slowly, Sung-kyung felt the fluid inside trickling down. Watching Chungrim’s chest heaving as he roughly removed his shirt, Sung-kyung exhaled trembling breaths.He thought of the notebook under the bed. He knew Chungrim secretly read it, but he couldn’t stop writing. It was no longer an act to avoid losing his memories, but a process to inform Chungrim of things he hadn’t realized.Chungrim had asked him to live together for the rest of their lives. Forever. Perhaps it was the only way he knew how to say “I love you.”To make him realize that he loves me.