TS reincarnated in Harem text

Suiri was in the box of the school's restroom to adjust her emotions.

The bad memories of her helplessness, pressure, and betrayals in her previous life flew back into her mind. Her breath became short and unstable. A hole in her heart began to enlarge and force her to face the cruel scene. She felt that she was diving underwater and there was an invisible hand pressing her down not to give her a chance to breathe normally. 

Using both slender hands to hold down her chest, Suiri closed her watery eyes and struggled to regain the sudden loss of her oxygen. She couldn't know what was wrong with her body. Just the tragic history of a certain boy in another world made her have no idea what to do. Suiri yearned for help...

Someone, please...

Please...

Anybody...

Please, help me ease this suffocating feeling...

The figures of the Minazuki family, her past childhood friend distorted and became her inner demons. The emotions that Suiri always tried to avoid, hide, and seal deeply inside her heart wanted to mess up her mentality. Perhaps, she had always run away from it for a long time. When she unconsciously let it out today, she was caught off guard by them.

Another me, where were you?

Suiri could only seek help from the 'mask'.

Please, erase it.

Blow them away...

In her mindscape, another 'her' appeared but her expression didn't have any emotion and just looked back at her like a French doll.

The two observed each other. The 'mask' still kept her monotone expression while Suiri's face was shaped in pain.

Finally...The 'mask' said.

"You want me to disappear, don't you? Now, you need me again"

An icy cold tone echoed.

"Guh...What're...you...talking about?~"

Suiri groaned in pain while kneeling on her knees. She didn't know what she was talking about.

The 'mask' shook her head.

"You know deep down in your heart"

"You yearn for someone...An outsider but not me"

"It seems that after joining the club, you want to associate with them like your past self"

"Then, my existence is meaningless"

"After all, I'm you, Suiri"

Suiri was breathless as she didn't want to bear this agony anymore.

The 'mask' continued.

"Why do you have to seek after an outsider? Am I not enough for you?"

"Why?"

"Why?"

"Why?"

Another headache attacked her brain.

"Ahh~" 

"Stop! You are supposed to help me!!!!"

Suiri begged.

The 'mask' approached and held both sides of Suiri's cheeks, then directed Suiri's gaze into her eyes.

"Hmm...When you can open your heart again in the future, you will throw me away just like how your friends...your loved ones betrayed you!!"

"Tell me, what's the difference between you and them?"

Suiri was frozen and forgot to continue to struggle with the pain. Why did the 'mask' ask this? Under the cold stare from the 'mask', Suiri's heart which was suffering from suffocation throbbed painfully. Your existence was supposed to make me calm and at peace. 

Not like this.

The 'mask' felt disappointed in the main self. 

All she did was to protect her existence and Suiri, the main self. As long as Suiri opened her heart, and had friends, and families with others openly, she would be erased instead of those negative emotions that she helped her wash away in the past.

If she was erased due to Suiri returning to her old self, then, she was betrayed again, she couldn't be there to help her at all.

The 'mask' doubted that she was the person Suiri wished to have in the last moment of Suiri's past life with the Death God-like existence.

'I wish I would have someone, who is willing to love me wholeheartedly'

She could be described as a half-second personality of Suiri. Unlike the complete personality of those dissociative disordered patients, she was like a function to erase emotions for the main self. The 'mask' was born from the constant attempts of Suiri in which she tried to run away and hide herself instead of bravely facing problems. This was her true identity for her existence. She inherited and shared with all of Suiri's memories and talents including the plot of the 'Tsukiakari no shita ni Boku no Rhapsody". After all, she was also Suiri.

Because her existence was beyond common sense, the 'mask' couldn't come up with another reason for her born. Did the Death God-like being create her or Suiri herself?

Unfortunately, it was just her hypothesis and speculation. She didn't have any concrete evidence pointing at her that she was the wishful manifestation of Suiri with that being. The 'mask' had to protect herself; otherwise, there would be no one who could devotedly protect Suiri in the future except for her.

The condition to trigger her appearance, of course, was when this girl faced her real emotions which would give the disadvantaged feelings for the main self, she, the 'mask', would appear to do her job. She could only take over the body for a few seconds.

"I...I..., I don't, I'm not like them!!!"

Suiri denied and convinced herself to be on the righteous side.

The 'mask' thought that if she could go outside, she would live as the true Hoshiyuki Suiri instead of the pathetic girl kneeling in front of her. Until now, she could only be a tool to stabilize the main self's emotions. With the sudden arrival of the music club, she felt that her chance to approach the outside world had increased dramatically. Fortunately, she didn't want to lose the main self either, because she had always loved the main self, Haruto and Suiri, and her mission from the moment she was born was to protect this fragile, naive, and pathetic girl.

The 'mask' felt sorry for hurting her to prolong her existence. She wanted to live and continue to protect Suiri for the rest of her life.

"Then, embrace me"

"I will make yourself comfortable"

"Trust me, I never betray you"

"Um..."

Suiri once again snuggled in the arms of the 'mask'. The pain that she was suffering eased little by little. She felt comfortable because the suffocation had disappeared. Soon, she fell into a deep sleep due to being tired after struggling.

To the outside world, Suiri stopped her miserable state as the atmosphere was extremely cold like the North Pole. Her eyes were sharper than usual. 

And then, Suiri looked at her hands and gasped in shock.

She moved her body like she was a transmigrator from another world who just received a new body.

"This time..."

"I didn't come back after a few seconds?"

The 'mask' realized that she had taken over the body of Suiri completely. However, she had a hunch that when the main self woke up, Suiri would take back control of the body again. Perhaps this time was a huge blow for the main self so she would take charge of the body longer than usual. Nonetheless, she didn't have any intention to hijack the body.

The 'mask' thought so.

"I love you Suiri, you only need me"

The 'mask' knew that only she could match the description of the person that Suiri wished for in her past life.

She prepared and fixed the messy appearance of her main self.

After that, she came back to class as if nothing had happened.

---

Charlotte was listening to the physics teacher and taking notes from the blackboard.

But...

Her eyes were glued to the door while waiting for Suiri, her longest crush. After the flawless performance, she noticed something wrong with Suiri. Nevertheless, she wasn't an Esper who could read others' minds so she was clueless about what her goddess was thinking. 

Charlotte didn't think much but she recalled the image of Suiri today. The summer outfit, hehe~.

She could see the white lace pattern underwear under that thin shirt. Moreover, the thick white thighs were exposed outside completely instead of hiding under the cover of black socks. What if Suiri used them to strangle her neck?

'Ahh, I'm so wrong'

Charlotte lost herself in the illusion.

"Student Shinonawa-san, can you please answer this question?"

The physics teacher called out to Charlotte. His name was Nozaki Hotaru. He was an uncle in his 40s. He was a strict and serious teacher. When he noticed Charlotte leaving the planet, he felt frustrated when this top student ignored his lesson.

"Eh?"

Charlotte was stunned.

"Don't eh with me, now please answer the question on page 48"

Charlotte panicked and looked at the textbook to look at the question. Luckily, she had learned to the level of high school so the questions in physics were not a problem.

"31 cubic centimeters"

"Correct, but don't be distracted in the classroom in the future"

"Yes, Nozaki-sensei"

Charlotte sat down on her seat again as Nozaki-sensei resumed his teaching.

"Fuu~"

She sighed in relief.

She looked at the vacant seat in the front row where Suiri sat. Then, she clapped her cheeks and focused on studying again.

"Sorry for the trouble"

Suiri opened the door and returned to her seat without looking at anyone. Nozaki didn't mind because she had his permission to go to the restroom. She just came back so there was nothing to say.

The feelings of something wrong in Charlotte's heart rose again when she observed her goddess.

'That feeling'

Charlotte thought about this problem seriously.

'Do whatever you want'

That person appeared again?

Charlotte wasn't sure because she didn't know Suiri very much like her elder sister. Fortunately, she had a sensitive sense of feeling the emotions of the people around her whether they were malicious or not.

The atmosphere of Suiri...No doubt about it. Charlotte couldn't forget this icy cold atmosphere when she was rejected by her before her confession. 

According to Maria-senpai, this person should only appear for a short period but...

She was still here!

---

*Ding Ding Ding Ding*

The bells announced that it was time for the lunch break.

Charlotte could distinguish the two different Suiri. She would name another Suiri as the mask according to Maria-senpai's analysis.

Although Charlotte was a proud, and cool heroine with the silly, humorous attributes inside, she was not stupid. Her observation skills were always good.

The 'mask''s atmosphere was as cold as the absolute zero freezing point while the original Suiri just had only an ice wall to protect herself. The original lightness in the eyes was no longer in the beautiful blue vertical pupils. Instead, they became sharper and stronger like an Alpha. The way she spoke was poisonous and hurtful. As the experienced victim, Charlotte knew that.

The 'mask' looked at her like some kind of trash instead of a stranger like the original Suiri, which made her excite...ahem sad.

Perhaps the original one had met unexpected incident so the 'mask' took charge of the body? Charlotte thought.

"Sui-chan, let's have some food"

Charlotte wore herself a silly smile and invited Suiri like usual.

"Understood"

Here it goes again.

If she were the original Suiri, 'Um' had to be the correct one.

Her feelings were right at the beginning. Suiri had a second personality. Maria-senpai said that the mask only had the function of resetting emotion but she was skeptical about that. This time, the existence of the 'mask' in front of her proved her hunch right.

Everyone in the class wanted to talk with Suiri about this morning's performance.

"Oi, you hide your voice so deep. It's a pity that you aren't an Idol"

An enthusiastic voice came. With the personality 'everyone is friends', Aoi didn't care much about status or the annoying personality of others.

However, humans were somehow malicious to each other, so her personality was restrained by a little loli Moeni.

"Idiot, don't use 'oi', we're not that close with student Hoshiyuki-san"

Moeni dragged Aoi back and reminded her.

"Hmph~"

Suiri hummed.

In fact, Suiri was invited by many entertainment companies in the past due to her beauty alone but she refused them all because she was not suitable for being an Idol. They danced, sang on the stage, and sold their music by relying on some external factors like face, figure, and superficial personality to do business. The original Suiri devoted herself to music as she wanted them to enjoy her music by ears, not eyes.

"Yes, yes, I know"

Aoi replied perfunctorily.

At this time, Moeni also felt something off with Suiri. Her eyes made her scared unconsciously.

"Sorry, no comment"

"..."

The tone was colder than usual but the answer was polite and had enough info and intentions of the speaker. There was no trace of the melodious and emotional voice in this morning stage. As if there were two different persons.

The 'mask' couldn't answer for the original one instead so this was the best way to deal with it.

She didn't know how long the original one would return to the body again.

"..."

In just one sentence, she completely killed the conversation. Luckily, Aoi and Moeni had gotten used to it so they could only let her go to have lunch with Charlotte and President Maria.

"Oujo-sama, it's time to go"

Sasaki helped her Oujo-sama get out of the siege of these enthusiastic students.

Just like Charlotte, the 'mask' listed these heroines as the potential threats in her heart. How could she give the main self for those unstable factors? The list also included the family members of the Hoshiyuki family.

Sasaki frowned slightly.

Sasaki's strong intuition soared to the highest point of her vigilance when she looked at Suiri (The 'mask'). The way Suiri glared at her was somehow wrong. It was like a completely different person. Suiri, who Sasaki had known for 3 weeks, was a silly, and innocent little girl.

In front of Sasaki was still Suiri, but this Suiri gave her a sense of danger. She didn't have this feeling like in the past. What could change the whole person? Sasaki couldn't come up with any idea except for dissociative disorder.

For now, she knew that she had to be careful in front of this Suiri.

"Okay"

Suiri replied perfunctorily.

According to the inherited memories of the 'mask', this heroine's brain had a problem.

She was described as an extremely loyal follower but affected the protagonist's halo. She was ready to betray her master. The bullying stuff was just humiliating others by verbals and threatening their psychology. She never engaged in violent solutions. After all, the male protagonist stole her fiancee. She did every way to make this girl gain emotions but Sasaki didn't move.

From the god's point of view, Suiri in the original plot was a kind of pity. She was used by Mio, then it led her to a destructed path.

Since you chose to betray her after a few words from the protagonist, the 'mask' couldn't give the main self to this heroine. 

---

On the way to the Stardust Salon, Suiri was stunned for a moment. Her eyes regained the color and the sharp eyes disappeared. Her emotions were stable and she didn't feel any discomfort. It seemed that her emotions had been reset which made her heart not as heavy as before.

The feeling of danger disappeared while Sasaki was observing Suiri until now.

Charlotte was also aware that the cold atmosphere increased the temperature a little.

If it had been an absolute zero before, it would be 5 to 9 degrees Celsius for now.

The heroines knew that their Suiri had come back.

Her memories were still intact while the 'mask' took over her body. Perhaps she'd received a mental blow and gone to deep sleep. The 'mask' replaced her to do normal activities.

She was aware of the 'mask' when she was 4 years old.

When she just entered a mini-society of children, her emotions at that time were always in chaos. The 'mask' helped her clean many negative things.

"Fuu~"

She sighed a relief because the 'mask' didn't do anything abnormal.

Her family knew about the 'mask' existence but they just thought the 'mask' was some function to stabilize her emotions, not her second personality. What if they knew she was her second personality? After all, the other party could take over her body if she got her permission like this time.

'Be careful of what you wish'

Suiri thought her second personality was the wish of the Death God being. A person never betrayed her, always loved and stayed by her side. Instead of giving a random person in this world, he or she created a second personality inside her body. Until now, Suiri still didn't want to believe this guess.

The three of them had entered the personal box despite the siege of the students. They wanted to ask and establish a connection with her.

"Ah, Sui-chan, you're here"

The black-haired woman immediately took off her headphones and looked at Suiri enthusiastically.

"Onee-sama, have you waited for a long time?"

"No problem, because there is a soothing voice of you so I'm not bored"

Maria replied shamelessly.

She admitted that she was listening to the record of this morning. As for why she knew Suiri coming despite wearing headphones, she smelled her. Her Suiri radar was quite effective. After all, she smelled this girl every day. Her nose was more sensitive than a dog. It was a joke; actually, the strawberry pheromone was the exact answer. 

Sasaki had already stepped outside of the box and gone to the cafeteria for the attendants.

"That's embarrassing..."

Suiri covered her emotionless face but her ears were dripping blood.

"Hehehe~"

Maria giggled.

"What do you want to eat, my lovely sister?"

Then, she asked.

"Hmm...Curry rice with Omelette"

Suiri pondered for a while and said.

"And what's about you, my junior?"

Maria asked the twin drill blonde girl.

"Maria-senpai, please help me order Croque Monsieur and Steak Tartare"

"Got it"

Maria replied and called out to the waiter to order.

Although Suiri could taste the luxurious and delicious French dishes like Charlotte, she missed rice as the curry rice dish had accompanied her from her last life to this life.

The advantage of being a student of the Stardust Academy was that the menu had a wide range of dishes and various cuisines from many countries. 

Suiri felt lucky to attend this school and be a foodie.

"Ah, Onee-sama"

Suiri suddenly remembered.

"Hmm, what's it, Sui-chan?"

Maria was excited when her sister called her like that. If she could apply the tone when singing to daily life, it would dramatically increase the charm of her angel.

"Tomorrow, I'll have a cooking class. Can you help me find some boxes so I can bring the food back home"

"I want my family to taste my craftmanship"

Although Maria didn't show any expression, her face had cold sweats. Remembering myself stuck in the restroom for a whole night, Maria subconsciously covered her butt. It would be a fortune to taste her sister's dishes if only it didn't abuse her stomach.

'Or do you want to poison your family?'

Maria was still wearing a gentle expression outside.

"Okay, I'll help you tonight"

Maria spoke like a saint but, inside her, she was crying without tears.

Charlotte, who didn't know anything, asked.

"Sui-chan, can I taste as well?"

"..."

'Are you seeking death?'. Maria couldn't help but mourn for this naive junior.

Suiri was happy when there was a white mo...person looking forward to her dish.

"Yes"

Suiri nodded and let out a confident atmosphere.

"..."

Suiri was excited as she had a delusion that her cooking skills improved a lot from the last time. She would prove that her dish was not some poison that her mother Natasha scolded her for.

You asked why Suiri had her experience in her past life as a self-reliant man but her cooking skills were sucked? Of course, she didn't cook at all because Shouko covered all the work while she just played in the kitchen like washing the ingredients at most. Her part-time jobs were related to services in the convenience store and music. For example, the waiter and the piano tutor. No cooking skills were found. Her lunch was bought from the outside, not through cooking.

Maria thought it was her karma for pitting her sister previously or stealing Suiri's old underwear under the disguise 'let me dispose of them'.

Soon, the waiter brought the food inside the box.

The fragrant curry and the golden egg on top of the white rice let out an irresistible aroma.

Suiri gulped down a mouthful of saliva.

"Itadakimasu!!"

Everyone clapped their hand and had a meal.