I Became an Extra Who Died Instead of the Main Character

54 – Not remembering (2)

At first I thought it was another girl passing by near him.

From what he heard, it was a voice that he would have assumed was a woman’s body, but she was a different voice from the girl named Adele he had been hearing all along.

“Did you call me?”

“······Me? Did you just look at me and ask?”

“Yes.”

“I didn’t say anything?”

The girl passing by just looked at him as if it were really strange. There was no sign on her face that she had called him.

“······It’s strange, I heard it…”

‘Contractor? Can’t you hear me?’

Again.

I just heard it again.

A mysterious female voice full of voices that worried about him.

“Didn’t you really call me?”

I asked the female student once again at the voice I really heard.

“······What’s wrong. He said he had amnesia, so he must have gone crazy.”

“I’m going to be crazy for no reason. Let’s go eat.”

All that came back was cold whispers.

He couldn’t understand the girls passing by ignoring him.

‘······Contractor…Really can’t you hear?’

Are they saying they can’t hear this voice that they hear even now?

Now that he doesn’t respond, I can hear his slightly morose voice so clearly.

Why can’t those students listen?

And.

Why are those students looking at him with disgust?

He seems to be the most garbage human in the empire, he seems to be garbage that can’t even be sorted.

Why are you looking at him with the eyes of a human being?

It’s not like I didn’t think it was strange during class.

It is true that all eyes were on him as he was taking classes with the help of Adele.

He could understand this much.

He thought that if a student in his class had amnesia and was taking classes with the help of another student, his eyes would naturally turn to him.

However, the emotion in the eyes of the other students was not only curiosity.

Usually, when you look at someone in this situation, it’s normal to look at them as if you feel sorry for them.

I felt pity and exhilaration, which is the exact opposite emotion, from the gaze that was pierced by him.

As if he thought it was good that he had memory loss.

I wanted to think that couldn’t be the case, but the emotions sent by the eyes were so clear.

‘It’s an illusion… Is it?’

There was a possibility that this was his paranoia.

Actually, there was nothing in the eyes of the students, but it could be that he was making a wild guess.

Still, he couldn’t conclusively conclude that it was a persecution delusion.

‘I’m used to it.’

Because those gazes were oddly familiar.

As if this wasn’t the first time he’d received such gazes, it seemed like the emotions contained in those gazes came directly into him.

Is it just that his mind went crazy like those female students said?

Is he suffering from another mental illness besides the symptom he suffers from, the health teacher said, amnesia?

Even he thought, it was absolutely not normal for him to hear a voice that no one else could hear.

Hearing hallucinations were never a phenomenon that occurs in normal people. It was difficult to say that the delusion of persecution was also a normal phenomenon.

Stick-

He felt a headache from the countless thoughts running through his head.

“Ugh.”

“Ryan…Are you okay?”

As soon as he let out a small moan from his headache, Adele came to ask after him.

A warm word to ask if you’re okay.

But the headache did not subside, only the confusion grew.

Thinking that even Adele, who had been by his side the whole time, couldn’t hear this voice.

Unlike the other students, at the thought that only Adele looked at him with an expression of undisguised disgust.

Why is this girl different? What kind of existence is he to this girl?

Of course, there were still very few people he met after realizing that he had lost his memory.

The difference between the gaze of this beautiful girl at him and the gaze of the other students was stark.

“I hear strange hallucinations.”

“Hearing hallucinations?”

“Yeah. I keep hearing the voice of a woman calling me a contractor.”

“······That’s it.”

Adele puts on an expression that has realized something.

I had a hunch that the girl in front of him might know the cause of this auditory hallucination, so I asked at the point of grabbing at least a straw.

“Do you know why it sounds like this?”

“······I don’t think this is the topic to talk about here. Let’s move.”

Then Adele took his hand and started moving somewhere.

He had a feeling of déjà vu that this situation was oddly familiar. No matter how much I thought about it, I couldn’t think of a reason for this familiar feeling.

***

“Here.”

“······This is it.”

The place we arrived after following Adele was a cool building inside the academy.

“······This is the reading room of the academy.”

“Reading room…”

The reading room.

Is this a place where students study when they don’t go to the dormitory after class?

He was well aware of the dictionary meaning of the word reading room.

‘······Why are you used to it?’

The random thoughts that kept popping up in my head didn’t go away easily.

Why do I feel like I’ve been here before?

The fact that he had been to the reading room before he lost his memory was not a problem in itself.

Before he lost his memory, he must have been a student here, so what’s wrong with a student visiting the reading room at the academy?

However, it was a different reason to keep bothering him.

I am familiar with the atmosphere of this place and the cool cooling magic, but I am not familiar with the visual appearance of this place.

For some reason, Adele’s face was shadowed when she explained that it was the academy’s reading room.

These facts created a constant sense of incongruity in him. He made me feel uneasy.

“Didn’t you say you heard a strange voice?”

“······Yes. Even now, I keep hearing it in between.”

It wasn’t a lie.

As I walked from the classroom to the reading room, and even now while I was talking to Adele, I kept hearing voices.

“Perhaps… That’s the voice of your spirit.”

“A spirit?”

If it’s a spirit…

Is it some kind of unique magic?

A special magical power that awakens only a few out of countless people with magical power.

A mysterious magical power that cannot be known how or with what ability it awakens. Although most of them are characterized by higher utilization and more powerful than normal mana.

Instead, there is a penalty that prevents you from using magic that uses normal magical power.

For some reason, the contents of

Popped into his mind slowly.

As if he had studied related books in the past.

“If you don’t remember… Ryan, you could summon spirits just like me.”

“Me? Like you?”

“Yes. Undine. Can you come out?”

With a small scream, a small girl appeared on Adele’s shoulder.

“Did you call, master?”

The image of the girl asking why she called Jisin reminded me of clean water.

“Yes, Lian said he could hear the spirit’s voice.”

“…Wasn’t that human summoned well last time?”

The spirit of Adele asks back as if wondering.

He had to feel uncomfortable again from that simple question.

“I… Summoned a spirit?”

“Yes. You summoned it the other day and showed it to me and the owner.”

A simple sentence saying that he showed his spirit to Adele and Adele’s spirit.

However, there were so many things that were hard to understand in that sentence.

“Me?”

First of all, the fact that he summoned a spirit, a type of inherent magic, was questionable.

According to what he said, he is one of the few unique magic possessors in the empire.

Suddenly, with such a question, he chanted the simplest magic he could remember.

“······Light.”

Light is a simple magic that creates a small sphere that illuminates the surroundings.

If the spell he remembered was correct, it was normal for a small light to appear in his hand.

Far from creating a light, his mana did not even respond to the chant.

As if reacting itself is impossible.

As I was perplexed by his magical power that didn’t move at all, I heard Adele’s voice admonishing her spirit.

“······Undine, Lian is suffering from amnesia.”

“Eh, then you don’t even remember showing us your spirit?”

“······Anyway.”

“Huh.”

The voice of Undine, who regrets that he will never see his spirit again.

It was a voice that others would think of as a pretty cute child.

His head was filled with only this thought.

“What happened to me…?”

“····.”

What happened to him in the past?

What happened to a person named ‘Lian Kindred’ in the past that caused him to lose his memory?

The disgust when the other students look at him, the guilt when Adele looks at him.

‘······Contractor.’

And the voice of a self-proclaimed spirit still ringing in his head.

Why did all these things come into being?

“What kind of person was I?”

What kind of person he was in the past in the eyes of others.

I wonder what kind of person he was to receive attention filled with so many emotions.

Rian wanted to know that.

Even if that question completely shattered the spirit he was barely maintaining.