Lost

“Are you very exhausted?”I wasn’t physically exhausted right now, but mentally. As I slowly regained my senses, I was overwhelmed by the realization of what I had just done. Jung Woojin said I wasn’t gay, that I just liked being stimulated from behind. I couldn’t even refute that. Unlike when I masturbated alone, actually being penetrated made my vision flash, and I drooled uncontrollably because it felt so good.“Ugh.”The tip of the finger that had been touching my anus pushed in a bit. I flinched and hunched my shoulders, and Jung Woojin kissed the corner of my eye again. I didn’t even realize it, but I must have been crying this whole time.“It’s a bit swollen.”“Stop it already…”“Sunbae.”“Don’t. Just stop…”“You’re hard again.”At those words, my eyes shot open. I couldn’t believe it. I had already cum twice, yet my penis was getting hard again. I was speechless as I looked down at my half-erect, reddened penis. Was I always this virile? I didn’t think so… At least, I didn’t think I was.“You must have had a lot built up. The semen earlier was so thick and sticky too…”“……”“Well, you haven’t done it at all since you were discharged from the hospital, right?”My strength left me. I had no desire to feel that sensation of being penetrated again. Earlier, it felt like I was possessed, but now my mind was completely clear… Then it suddenly hit me—I was doing this with Jung Woojin. What on earth was I…“If it’s too much, lean on me. I’ll do it.”“…Be honest with me.”“What?”Jung Woojin lightly bit my neck before letting go. I pushed him away by the shoulders.“Did we ever do this before I lost my memory?”“Do what? Have sex?”“You son of a bitch. Did you actually fuck me?”I was just asking if we had ever jerked each other off, but sex? Seeing the horrified look on my face, Jung Woojin nodded. My vision went white. I closed my eyes tightly, and I heard a clicking sound. When I opened my eyes, I saw Jung Woojin unbuckling his pants.“What the hell are you doing?”“Maybe having sex will bring your memory back.”“What the hell are you talking about… You’ve been going on about sex for a while now. Hey! Stop it!”“I’m going to die if I don’t.”“Stop it!”“Just once.”“You bastard!”After a long struggle, Jung Woojin pinned me to the tile floor. I twisted and turned to escape, but he wouldn’t let me go easily.“I won’t hurt you. Just once.”“What the hell are you talking about, you crazy bastard! I can’t, I won’t, I said no!”“You liked it earlier. Sunbae, just for a moment…”Jung Woojin was panting. He had me trapped under his arms and lowered one hand to take out his grotesquely large, fully erect penis, which was so big it seemed twice the size of mine. I was horrified. He’s going to put that in me? Where? Where does he plan to put that?“Jung Woojin… Are you really going to…”“Ah, fuck…”“…”Jung Woojin cursed under his breath like a beast. As I stared wide-eyed at him, he glared back at me with ferocious eyes, slowly shaking his penis. It was already so wet that it made a slick, squelching sound as he moved it. I watched in stunned silence as he began masturbating right on top of me, pinning me down.“This, this bastard, what the hell is he…”“Just stay still… I feel like I’m going to die right now, ah…”Then it happened. After just a few strokes, semen splattered onto my stomach and chest. But that was just the beginning. With each stroke of his hand, more semen leaked out, as if from some kind of pornographic scene. Even when it seemed like he had finished, his huge erection didn’t go down at all. If anything, it looked even more menacing than before.The thought crossed my mind that I might actually die like this.“Hey, Jung Woojin.”“Just call me Woojin… Why won’t you listen?”Jung Woojin frowned, his eyes dark with intensity. I was stunned by the rebuking tone in his voice.“I’m not kidding, I really can’t do this. Get off me.”“Why?”“Why? Because if that thing goes inside me, I really feel like I might die.”Jung Woojin gave a mischievous smile at my serious words.“You won’t die. I’ve done it a lot, so I know. You might not remember, but…”“I’m different now than I was back then.”“But your body is the same.”“Hey, seriously… Just, just back off a bit. I’m still struggling to accept that I might be gay.”“Sunbae, you’re not gay. You just like being stimulated from behind.”“That’s basically the same thing! If that’s not being gay, then what is it? Hey!”Jung Woojin lifted my legs. He lifted them high enough that my hips came off the ground, folding my body in half so I couldn’t move. He draped my legs over his shoulders and leaned in to bite my lips.“Even before you lost your memory, you’d cum uncontrollably whenever I penetrated you. Do you know how much you loved my dick?”“What? Dick… What the hell…?”It felt like a dream watching Jung Woojin, with his innocent face, casually say words like “dick.” Is that really the Jung Woojin I know? Why is he acting like this? Was he always like this? While I was reeling in confusion, Jung Woojin started gathering the semen on my body and rubbing it onto his hands. Then he brought his semen-coated hand between my buttocks.“I really can’t… I won’t do it!”“Do you really hate it that much?”“Yes, I—Ah!”With a face that seemed like he might say, “If you don’t want to, I won’t,” Jung Woojin suddenly slipped a finger inside. Unlike before, the finger went in smoothly and quickly became two fingers.“Ugh, you bastard…”“If you hate it that much, should I just have you suck me off?”“What? Ah, shi—Stop! Ah!”“But since you’ve lost your memory, you probably don’t remember how to do that either. Let’s do it just once, and I’ll teach you how to suck it properly afterward.”“What nonsense… Ugh! Ah, stop! I hate it… Ngh!”Since we were in the bathroom, the sound echoed. As the wet, squelching noises began, my mind started to go blank again. Jung Woojin exhaled as he watched me curl up and tremble.“Even with just two fingers, you’re enjoying it so much that you’re going crazy…”“Sob, Ah! Ngh, ugh!”“Sunbae, you’re already cumming. Don’t cum yet. Hold it until I’m inside.”“Stop, not there, I… Ngh, ugh…!”The two fingers became three. It felt like I was falling into a bottomless pit. The wet, echoing sounds in my ears continued for a long time. And then, without warning, the fingers slipped out. I inhaled sharply as Jung Woojin put his hands under my knees and folded me in half. My knees touched my chest.“What are you… Ngh!”Something hot and slippery touched the anus that had just been stretched open. It was a tongue. The wet, wriggling tongue licked and sucked my behind, and it slowly started to push inside, writhing like a living creature. Even without seeing it, I could feel it. My wet, stretched anus was trembling uncontrollably.“Ugh, Ah, Aah, huff… Ahh!”The slurping and sucking sounds were driving me crazy. Every time he sucked like he was going to swallow me whole, the hot flesh would touch the sensitive membranes inside. Just the slightest touch made my tailbone tingle, causing my anus to throb. All I could do was cover my face with my hands and cry.Panting like someone with a lung disease, the tongue that had been relentlessly probing my hole finally withdrew. Tears kept flowing, making my vision blur. I was frowning deeply when Jung Woojin reached out and pulled my hands away from my face. Through my blurry vision, I saw Jung Woojin, highly aroused. Even though I was the one being violated, he was panting harder than I was.“Ngh!”Then, two fingers suddenly entered my thoroughly loosened rear. As I flinched, Jung Woojin licked the tears off my face.“Why is it so tight?”His deep voice was barely audible. I couldn’t focus my eyes, so I squeezed them shut, and Jung Woojin licked the corners of my eyes. He pried my tightly shut eyes open and licked my eyeballs. As his hot, slippery tongue slid over my eyeballs, miraculously, my vision cleared.“Why is it so tight here?”“Fuck, just… Ah.”“If I fuck you for three or four days straight, it’ll stay open even if I leave it alone.”“Ah, ngh… Hic!”Another finger slipped inside. When I closed my eyes again, Jung Woojin whispered in my ear.“Open your eyes.”“When I put it in, relax. When I pull it out, tighten. Again. Sunbae, again. Yeah, just like that.”“Ngh, haa, ugh. Ahh! Ngh, no… Uwah!”“You’re doing great. Just keep doing it like this. Later, when you’re taking my dick instead of my fingers, do it just like this.”“W-wait. Wait, ugh, ah, wait…! Damn, too, ugh! Too fast, ah!”The speed kept increasing. Even when he was moving slowly, I could barely manage to clench and unclench. As the pace quickened, it became impossible to keep up.“What’s fast about this? Later on… Ah, Sunbae. I’ll just handle it, so when I’m thrusting, just call my name, okay?”“Sob, ah! Wait, ngh!”The fingers suddenly slipped out. My body trembled violently. Jung Woojin, who had kissed my limp lips, gripped my hips firmly. When I turned my head to look at him, he was smiling. Seeing that expression made something well up inside me. A flood of emotions, which I couldn’t quite identify, overwhelmed me to the point of suffocation.“I’ll go slowly. Don’t be scared… Wrap your arms around my neck.”“Ah, damn… It’s so hot…”The hot shaft pressed against the space between my buttocks. The heat from it rubbing against my crack sent chills through my body. How is that supposed to go inside? How is that supposed to fit? Damn it, this is impossible…!“Sob…”“Sunbae, what’s my name?”“Nngh!”The hole was gradually stretching wider. It was unbelievable; it felt like it couldn’t possibly stretch any more, yet it kept opening up. It felt like my body was about to split in half. Jung Woojin kept telling me to relax, but I couldn’t let go of the tension in my body. It might have only been a moment, but to me, it felt like an eternity. An eternity of endless pain, and tears streamed down my face. Jung Woojin, who was watching me cry with my mouth open, pushed his tongue into my open mouth. He slurped up all the saliva flowing like tears and licked every inch of my mouth and palate.“It’s all in.”“Huff!”Finally, I could breathe. Jung Woojin kissed my lips again, saying I did well.White light and a white ceiling filled my vision. And in the middle of it was the white and black figure of Jung Woojin. I could see my hands wrapped around his shoulders and neck. My fingers, curled like hooks, were digging into his back and drawing blood. The stark contrast between his pale skin and the bright red blood created a strange feeling within me. What snapped me back to reality from my dazed state was the droplet that fell onto my face.“Sunbae.”Another tear fell onto my cheek.“It feels so good, Sunbae. I love you, Sunbae. Ah, it feels so good…”Jung Woojin whispered into my shoulder, burying his face there.“Nngh! Ah, w-wait, just wait, d-don’t move, ugh!”I cried out belatedly as I came to my senses, but by then, Jung Woojin was already too far gone.＊＊＊The semen that had been flowing like urine had dried up. I didn’t know how many times I had ejaculated, but the fact that nothing came out even when squeezed meant that I was completely drained, both physically and sexually. However, unlike me, Jung Woojin seemed perfectly fine, as if he had just regained his senses after pulling out.“S-stop, huff! No, not there, ah, ugh! Ah, ah, ngh!”With each thrust, a squelching sound echoed. As my body shook violently, I finally realized that Jung Woojin had ejaculated inside me. It only dawned on me after he came twice. He kept whispering in my ear how good it felt. But I felt like I was about to die. This guy was definitely a crazy bastard with no sense of decency. How could he cum inside? And the guy who said he’d do it just once had already gone three rounds.“F-fuck, ugh, ah, ah, damn it, sob! No, stop, stop there, huff!”Thud, it drove in deep. It happened without warning. The semen that I thought had run dry suddenly spurted out. My stomach and chest were already a mess, covered in cum, and now more hot semen was flowing down. At the same time, Jung Woojin came again. The sensation of heat spreading inside made me lose my mind.“Sunbae, I love you.”“Ngh… Ah.”“I love you. I really love you so much.”“Huff, sob, ah… Hngh, hic!”The cock that had been stretching me to the limit was withdrawn. At the same time, something started dripping out from behind. I realized that it was the semen Jung Woojin had just pumped into me. All I had left was the instinct to survive. Forcing my unresponsive body to move, I flipped over. I had to get out of here. If I didn’t, I might actually die.As I crawled across the semen-stained floor, trembling, Jung Woojin grabbed my waist.“Ahh!”I was dragged back and penetrated again. My arms gave out, leaving me trembling with my hips raised as Jung Woojin kissed the nape of my neck and whispered. His voice was so tender it made me want to cry.“Just one more time.”“You… fuck… earlier, too… ugh!”“Just this one time. This is the last time, really.”“Stop. You bastard, I’m really… huff, ugh, I-I’m going to die…”“You won’t die.”Every time Jung Woojin moved his hips slowly, a squelching sound was heard. The slow motion, like rowing a boat, made the back tremble again. By now, I could barely feel anything. I thought that if this kept up, my anus might lose its function for real. With all my strength, I desperately pushed myself forward again.“N-no… stop… now, I don’t want… ugh!”“This is the last time.”“Ugh, ah, ah…! Hic, ah, ah, ahng! Ah, wait, sob! Hhhuu…”“Sunbae, say my name.”“Uhng… hic, ah! Sob, ugh… Woojin, stop, ahhh!”I was pulled back again, impaled as if on a skewer. There wasn’t a part of my body that wasn’t hurting—my buttocks, thighs, knees, everything. Even as I cried out, Jung Woojin continued thrusting, whispering gently as if he didn’t care. The squelching noise from the joining grew much louder than before. Now, it sounded like water splashing. I had never felt like I was going to die from exhaustion before in my life.“Stop, please, just stop, ahng! Ah, Woojin, Woojin, I’m… going to die, I’m going to die, ah!”“Sunbae, you’re crying…”“Haa, ugh…”The thrusting stopped. Jung Woojin, who was holding my hips, reached out and caressed my face, which was lying on the floor. His hand lifted my chin. When I opened my eyes, I saw my face reflected in the mirror. My eyes met Jung Woojin’s in the mirror as he licked his lips.“It sounds like I’m raping you.”“Ahh!”He slammed into me again with a thud. The image in the mirror was as explicit as in a porn video. I tried to turn my head, but his hand tightly gripping my chin kept me from moving. When I jerked my head to the side to avoid his touch, Jung Woojin exhaled hotly. I buried my face in the tiled floor and sobbed. His hot breath brushed the back of my neck.“Sob…”“Don’t cry. I’ll stop after just one more time.”“Hic, huhu…”“Sunbae.”“Uuuhh!”When I cried out loudly, Jung Woojin sighed against the back of my neck. Then he grabbed my shoulder and thigh, still in a prone position, and turned me around. There was a creaking sound at the point of connection. I couldn’t even breathe properly as my body was turned. Once I was fully turned, Jung Woojin lifted me and sat me on his lap. His member, which I thought couldn’t go any deeper, pushed even further inside with the added weight.“Don’t cry.”“Huff… ah!”“I’ll be gentle. Does it hurt a lot?”“Huuhhh!”My voice came out strange as I sobbed with a hoarse throat. But I didn’t have the luxury to care about that now. I really felt like I was going to die because of Jung Woojin. But the worst part was that, in this situation, the only person I could rely on was Jung Woojin. As I cried into his shoulder, Jung Woojin patted my head and back, comforting me.“Don’t cry. Call my name.”“Uuhh, uh, ugh! Wait, hic!”“I’ll finish soon.”He started moving again. I felt like I was going to suffocate, but Jung Woojin kept putting his tongue in my mouth. He sucked on my lips, my tongue, and even the drool that dripped down to my chin. I felt like I was going to lose my mind from the constant thrusting. It felt like my whole body had become a single nerve, and it seemed like a century had passed.“Do you want me to finish quickly?”“Sob, ah, ugh! Huh, ahh!”“Should I finish, Sunbae?”I was shaking uncontrollably and babbling incoherently.“Yes, fast, ugh! Ah, wait, faster, faster, ahhh! Huh, ugh, sob! Hurry, please, ah, I’m going to die, huuuh!”“You want me to finish quickly?”“Uuhhh, Woojin, Jung Woojin, fast, ugh! Finish, hurry, finish, hiiiick!”His member, thrust deep inside, erupted with a burst of semen. My vision turned white, then black, then sparkled like fireworks. As I trembled and raised my head, Jung Woojin kissed my lips, all while continuing to climax, moving his hips gently.“Sunbae.”“Huff…”“Did you come too, Sunbae?”“Uh… huh…”“Without even finishing?”The sound of his voice grew distant in my ears. I slowly lost consciousness, feeling like I was really going to die this time.＊＊＊At first, I really thought I was dead. I wasn’t sure if this was heaven or hell, but I was sure I had died. After all that, it would be surprising if I were still alive.“Hurk…”But as I slowly became aware of the pain creeping in, I realized I wasn’t dead. I didn’t even have the strength to open my eyes. There wasn’t a single part of me that didn’t hurt. I couldn’t pinpoint exactly where, but it hurt so much that I felt like I was going to die. Tears welled up as my nose stung. Even the act of tears squeezing out of my tear ducts felt like pain. I couldn’t move at all, couldn’t even twitch, and lay there frozen, barely able to breathe, when I heard the door click open. I didn’t have the strength to turn my head or open my eyes.“Sunbae.”But the sound of Jung Woojin’s voice, the source of my suffering, made me summon some superhuman strength and snap my eyes open. That bastard, I could never get enough of cursing him out…!“You… fuck… cough!”A scraping sound came out of my throat. My throat was so raw that I could barely speak. I started coughing involuntarily, and it felt like my flesh was tearing apart. It felt like every bone in my body was broken. As I coughed with a heart full of rage, Jung Woojin approached and patted my back.“You… bastard, you fucking… ugh! Cough, cough!”