Lost

Is this guy out of his mind? It’s scorching hot, and he’s talking about wearing a mask? What does he think I am, a thief? I stared in disbelief as I slammed the white mask onto the table.“Let’s just go.”“Sunbae.”“Why would I wear a mask in this heat?”“There’s dust there…”“Oh, come on. I said no.”When I snapped at him, Jung Woojin pursed his lips in discontent. As I was putting on my shoes by the front door, I noticed Jung Woojin still standing in the living room, staring at the mask I had thrown down. Then, to my surprise, he picked it up and put it in his pocket. I was completely dumbfounded.“I told you, I’m not wearing the mask.”“Just wear it when we get there.”“I said no!”“Then you can look around and head to the hotel…”“Hey!”At this point, I started wondering if he was ashamed of me. Why is he trying to cover me up so much? As if these clothes weren’t already making me sweat to death.Even as we got outside and I started the car, Jung Woojin’s nagging didn’t stop.“If someone talks to you, just ignore them. And stay by my side while I’m filming. If you’re tired or uncomfortable, let me know right away. Don’t wander around by yourself, and don’t eat just anything…”“Jung Woojin, if you say one more word, you’re getting hit.”“Sunbae, Woojin is just—”“Woojin, if you say one more word, I swear I’ll punch you.”Jung Woojin sighed as he watched me relax into my seat, settling into the smooth ride. Anyone would think I was being deployed to Iraq or something.“How long are you working today?”I asked while absentmindedly watching the scenery pass by outside the window. Jung Woojin responded with something strange.“It depends on you, Sunbae.”“What?”“Do you want to go on a trip after I’m done?”“What?”What on earth is he talking about? When I frowned, Jung Woojin continued calmly, staring ahead.“Do you want to go abroad? You said you wanted to visit Greece when you were in school. How about we go there?”“…”“Should I book the tickets while I’m working?”“Hey, do you really hate the idea of me tagging along that much?”I was speechless. How much must he hate me coming along that he’d rather not go to work at all? Going abroad? To Greece? Why would we go there? And how can someone who’s working just spontaneously decide to take an overseas trip? Not to Japan or China, but Greece!“Honestly, I do.”Then, as if making a huge confession, Jung Woojin said with a serious expression,“There will be a lot of people there.”“So what?”“What if someone…”The car stopped at a red light. Ahead, a little kid was crossing the street, holding the hand of what looked like their mother.“What if someone says they like you, Sunbae?”“What?”I had been staring blankly at the kid crossing the street, but then I turned back to look at Jung Woojin. He was dead serious.“What if someone falls for you?”“…”What kind of nonsense is this…“If someone keeps staring at you, I’m going to get really annoyed.”“…”I stared at him, dumbfounded, and asked, “Before I lost my memory, was I, by any chance, a player?”Jung Woojin didn’t answer, just restarted the car. That silence made me cover my face with my hand, letting out a sigh. First, I tell someone who likes me that I don’t like them but still want to have sex. Now, I’m a player too? What kind of person was I, really?In the heavy silence, we eventually reached our destination. Jung Woojin drove into the underground parking lot and parked the car. But he didn’t get out; instead, he slumped over the steering wheel, not moving. He looked uneasy, nervous even—whatever it was, he clearly wasn’t happy with this situation.“Why are you acting like this after coming all the way here?”Does he really hate the idea of me coming that much? Even if I was a total scumbag player before losing my memory, I don’t remember any of it now…Seeing Jung Woojin’s face go even paler, I scratched my head. Honestly, I didn’t really want to go to his workplace either. I was just curious if he was being exploited or if he was getting paid properly. But with how much he clearly didn’t want me to go, was it really necessary?I was about to click my tongue and tell him I’d just hang around nearby until he finished working, but then Jung Woojin turned his head slightly and looked at me, speaking up.“I really hate it when people look at you, Sunbae.”How much of a player was I? Did I flirt with someone at his workplace before? If that was the case, it must have been pretty awkward for him. After all, this was his job. If rumors had started spreading, it would have been embarrassing for him too. Otherwise, I couldn’t think of any other reason why he would be so against me coming here.“Alright.”“What?”“I’ll just stay nearby, so go ahead and work.”“…”Even though I sighed as I said it, his expression didn’t lighten up. In fact, it looked even worse than before. Seeing his twisted expression, I frowned as well.“What now?”Whether I go or not, he’s upset either way. So what does he want me to do?“I hate it when people look at you or talk to you, but you don’t feel that way, Sunbae. You hate being cooped up and know more people than just me, and you get along with everyone.”“What are you suddenly talking about?”“I don’t like it when you go out, but you want to go out. So even though I don’t want to let you, I end up doing what you want because otherwise, you’d get mad and hate me.”His mumbling made me furrow my brows again. Sometimes, Jung Woojin would say things I couldn’t understand, and recently, it’s been happening more often.“It drives me crazy every time.”“…”“I hate it when you get mad at me, Sunbae. So in the end, I can’t do anything.”“…Hey, speak clearly so I can understand. Why would I get mad?”Jung Woojin looked at me with a pitiful expression before burying his face in the steering wheel again. He kept muttering something, but I couldn’t make out what he was saying. I moved closer to him, trying to listen.“What?”“Sunbae…”“What about me?”“…”“Oh, come on! Hey! I can’t hear you!”When I shouted, Jung Woojin flinched. I was getting frustrated to the point of exhaustion. If he hated me coming to his workplace this much, he should’ve just said so from the beginning. Then I wouldn’t have insisted on coming. When I let out a big sigh, Jung Woojin shuddered again. He looked just like one of those innocent, delicate heroines from a comic book. I grabbed his collar and pulled him up from where he was slumped over.“Are you a newborn baby? Why are you mumbling like that?”His dark eyes were filled with anxiety. Is he going to cry again? I loosened my grip on his collar, worried. It would be a mess if this crybaby started tearing up here. Just as I was about to say something, Jung Woojin grabbed my hand. Then, he kissed my palm and said,“Kiss me.”“What?”“I’m feeling anxious.”“…What?”I couldn’t believe my ears. I blinked in confusion, unsure of what I had just heard. Then, with a tearful expression, Jung Woojin spoke again.“If you kiss me, I think I’ll feel better.”“…”“If you don’t, I’m going back home. I won’t work today.”“…Jung Woojin.”I finally started to gather my thoughts and opened my mouth, but Jung Woojin shot me a look.“Don’t call me that.”“Woojin, how old did you say you were again?”“Twenty-five.”“Not just five?”I asked, utterly dumbfounded, and Jung Woojin sighed as he started the car.“Let’s just go home.”“Hey!”Jung Woojin really looked like he was about to turn the car around and head back home. As the car started to move slowly, I couldn’t help but shout out. Jung Woojin stopped the car again and looked at me.“After coming all this way, you want to go back home?”“I changed my mind. When you get your memory back, you won’t even look at someone like me. So why should I bother working? You’re only staying at my place because I’m the only person you remember. Once you recall someone else or get close to someone else, you’ll go to them. So why should I…”“Hey, Jung Woojin. What are you…”“I’ve told you over and over to call me Woojin, but you won’t even do that. As if you’d listen to me if I told you not to go.”“…”I was at a loss for words, completely bewildered, as Jung Woojin, looking like he might burst into tears any moment, turned his head away. It seemed like the car would start moving any second now. Still in shock, I reached out and grabbed the steering wheel.“W-wait a second.”“Will you do it?”“…”Jung Woojin asked as if he had been waiting for this. As much as I wanted to punch him out of sheer frustration, his pitiful, almost pathetic expression made it impossible for me to even curse at him.This isn’t a playground; you can’t just go to work whenever you feel like it. But whether he thinks of his job as a playground or not, what does it have to do with me? It’s not like I lose anything if he skips work. He’s the one who’ll pay the price. Do whatever you want, I don’t care.But then again, when I think about it, Jung Woojin and I have already crossed every line. It was the same before I lost my memory and now too. Does a kiss really mean anything at this point? It’s not like my lips will rot off just because I kiss him once. Maybe it’s better to just get it over with and send him off to work.As these two conflicting thoughts wrestled like an angel and a devil in my mind, Jung Woojin’s phone started ringing loudly. The irritating sound reversed the tide of my internal debate.“Just answer the call first.”“No.”“Answer it!”“No.”“It’s loud, just pick it up…!”When I yelled, Jung Woojin, who had stubbornly glared at me, simply removed the phone’s battery. I stared at him, dumbfounded, as he threw the now powerless phone into the backseat and looked straight at me, like a rebellious teenager. I sighed and rubbed my forehead. I felt like I was being tricked, but I decided to give up on thinking too much. I needed to sort out this ridiculous situation first.“You’ll go if I do it?”“Yes. I’ll work hard and not get upset. I think I can do really well.”“…”Jung Woojin spoke smoothly, as if he had this planned out in advance. Seeing him look at me with such a tense expression, I let out a helpless sigh. This was beyond absurd. The only thought in my mind was how ridiculous the situation was. I turned my head to look out the window. There was no one around. After checking several times to make sure we were alone, I let out a big sigh and motioned with my fingers.“Come here.”Like an obedient puppy, Jung Woojin immediately leaned in close to me. Seeing him staring at me blankly, I clenched my fist.“Aren’t you going to close your eyes?”As I gritted my teeth, Jung Woojin quickly shut his eyes. I stared at his lips for a while before tightly closing my eyes and pressing my lips against his. It was more of a headbutt than a kiss. As soon as I pulled back, Jung Woojin pounced on me. Before I could even react, he was on top of me, pushing the seat back. Jung Woojin, now straddling me, didn’t give me a chance to protest as he clamped his lips onto mine. His hot tongue slipped into my open mouth.“Mmgh!”No matter how much I struggled, Jung Woojin didn’t budge. He bit down on my lips and tangled his tongue with mine, sucking it into his mouth. I couldn’t tell whose saliva it was, but it dripped down the sides of my mouth. Despite my frantic squirming, the car shook with my movements, but Jung Woojin was relentless and unyielding. Just when I thought I would suffocate, he finally pulled away.“Haah!”I gasped for air, taking in deep breaths as Jung Woojin lowered his head to bite my neck. I flinched at the sharp pain, but he licked the spot gently, as if to apologize. My body shuddered. Before I could push him away, Jung Woojin pulled back as if nothing had happened. Then, as if he hadn’t just done all of that, he wiped the saliva from the corner of my mouth and smiled.“Sorry for being stubborn.”“…”I wanted to curse him out, ask him if he wanted to die, but I was too flustered. The way he shyly smiled made the words stick in my throat. Is that the face of someone apologizing? While I was still in shock, Jung Woojin hesitated before speaking again.“Sunbae, can we do it one more time?”Jung Woojin let out a hot breath and pleaded. I snapped out of it, gritting my teeth. My lips hurt, my tongue hurt, and the spot on my neck where he bit hurt too.“You bastard… Get off of me, now.”“Just one more time…”“Hey!”“Okay, okay.”Jung Woojin sighed as if he was disappointed, but he didn’t seem to have any intention of getting off me. Suddenly, he reached down to undo his belt buckle, and I panicked.“What the hell are you doing…?”“Just a moment.”“No, why are you… Hey, wait…”“Sunbae, just a second…”His pale face was flushed red. With a strained expression, Jung Woojin looked at me, breathing heavily through half-closed eyes. I couldn’t believe what was happening. As I glanced down, I saw that his fully erect penis had already sprung out above the undone buckle.“You… what…”“Don’t move. If it gets on your clothes, ah…”Jung Woojin hunched his shoulders. I forgot to breathe as I quickly scanned the area around us. I couldn’t see outside from my reclined position, but I had to check anyway. With trembling hands, I pushed Jung Woojin away.“Stop, damn it…!”“Sunbae…”It was no use. Jung Woojin had already lost it. Pre-cum dripped down his long fingers. He cursed under his breath, grabbed a tissue to cover himself, and resumed his hand movements. His half-lidded eyes were fixed on me the entire time.“Please… say my name.”“…”“Sunbae, Sunbae…”“…”“Ugh, ah… I’m going to…!”This was insane. We were outside, in a car, and here he was, doing something I couldn’t even begin to understand. Jung Woojin, engaging in such an unimaginable act, seemed like he was from another planet. He leaned in to lick my cheek, then slid his tongue into my open mouth, licking inside. I should’ve pushed him away, but my body wouldn’t move. I couldn’t take my eyes off Jung Woojin, who was completely engrossed in pleasuring himself while staring at me.“Sunbae, say my name…”“…”“Hurry, ah… I’m going to… damn it… I’m going to…”Jung Woojin’s shoulders stiffened as his body trembled. I thought he had climaxed, but that wasn’t it. He was holding back, his body quaking as he looked up at me, growling like a beast.“Say my name.”It was more of a command than a request. Jung Woojin started moving his hand again. Wet, squelching sounds began to fill the car. My trembling hands gripped his shoulders tightly as I bit my lip. His hot breaths and erotic moans echoed in my ears.“Sunbae, say my name…”Jung Woojin’s voice was starting to quiver with emotion. I couldn’t think straight anymore. When I didn’t respond, as if reaching his limit, Jung Woojin gritted his teeth, looking like he was about to devour me.“Damn it, hurry!”“J-Jung Woojin.”The moment I uttered his name in a barely audible whisper, Jung Woojin climaxed. He exhaled deeply, his orgasm lasting long as he gazed down at me with an indecently satisfied expression.He looked like a lion that had just eaten its fill.＊＊＊Even after getting out of the car, I had to check several times to make sure there was no semen on me. While I kept fidgeting, fixing my clothes, Jung Woojin just stood there silently, waiting without a word. He even smiled, looking strangely refreshed, as if he found my cursing amusing. I wanted to punch him so badly.“There’s nothing on you.”As I hesitated to leave the parking lot, Jung Woojin finally grabbed my wrist. I shook off his hand and walked ahead.“Sunbae, it’s this way, not that way…”I clenched my teeth as I heard his voice behind me and turned around. Jung Woojin was still smiling. I suppressed my anger as I approached him and spoke seriously.“If you do this one more time, I’ll seriously kill you.”