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“……”

“I want to keep going until your belly sticks out like you’re pregnant.”

Jung Woojin whispered dirty words directly into my ear, his breath heavy but his tone calm, as if trying to seduce me.

“You liked it last time too, didn’t you? Do you even know how many times you came? You went crazy, begging for more, crying like a child, ‘Woojin, Woojin,’ as I fucked you senseless.”

“You really don’t know when to stop, do you? Hey, are you going to let go or not?”

I tried to keep my composure, but I couldn’t take any more of this. Jung Woojin, however, only became more insistent, like a spoiled child.

“Just one more time. I need it so bad, I feel like I’m going to die. I want to do it every day, but you always end up collapsing after just one time, and whenever I try to touch you, you get so mad…”

His whining left me absolutely speechless.

“You have no shame at all, do you? One time, and you think I’m done for? Do you even hear what you’re saying?”

I was so dumbfounded that I couldn’t even get angry. That encounter wasn’t something you could just call “sex.” It was a monumental event in my life, something that defied any simple description. I saw stars flashing before my eyes, and every time I closed them, I was at death’s door, with a grim reaper pulling me back from the brink more than once. If I went through that with Jung Woojin again, I’d probably end up disabled.

“You’re just worried I won’t let you do it often. Who knows when I’ll let you do it again after this? Look, it’s been a while since we last did it. That’s why I can’t help myself.”

“Shut up. Like you have any right to be proud of yourself… Damn it, just let me go!”

“Just once. Really, just one time. Please?”

“Let go of me!”

“I want to fuck you so bad, to push it inside and thrust until you feel it, and then cum inside you, Sunbae.”

Jung Woojin clung to me like a leech, casually spewing vulgarities as if he were asking about the weather.

“Just one time. Please, just let me do it once.”

He held me tightly, preventing me from moving, as he slid his hand inside my robe, his aroused member leaking pre-cum as he began to jerk himself off.

“Listen, I’m telling you nicely, let go now. If you keep this up, I’m really going to get mad…”

I was trying to stay calm, but then I suddenly felt something warm splatter behind me. I turned my head robotically, unable to close my gaping mouth. Sweat or something else had drenched his hair, sticking it to his forehead. With a flushed face, he licked his lips and then kissed mine. When his hot tongue entered my open mouth, I snapped back to reality and quickly pushed him away.

“Did you just…!”

“I’m hard again.”

“……”

“Sunbae, really, just one time. I swear it’ll be just once, okay?”

Jung Woojin whispered desperately as he unbuckled my pants with his cum-stained hand. He kissed my forehead, nose, lips, and neck in quick succession, pleading like a puppy as he did so. His pitiful, almost pure demeanor, coupled with the desperate look in his tearful eyes, made me swallow hard without realizing it. Jung Woojin, watching my throat bob, licked his lips seductively. His red tongue slithered across his lips like a snake before retreating back into his mouth.

“My dick hurts.”

His dark eyes, shiny as glass, looked at me with such sorrow that it was hard to breathe.

“Please, Sunbae, make it better.”

“……”

“It hurts.”

I can’t take it anymore, damn it.

I stopped thinking about the consequences and desperately lunged forward, crashing my lips against his. The force was almost enough to feel like a headbutt, and I could feel our teeth clashing, but neither of us cared. It wasn’t a kiss; it was like we were trying to suffocate each other with our tongues. Our teeth clattered, lips got cut, and it felt like the root of my tongue might tear. We were practically attacking each other until Jung Woojin regained his senses first.

“Sunbae, wait…”

He tried to push me away, but I quickly grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him closer. Following the direction of my pull, he leaned forward, his face flushed and his lips shiny with a mix of blood and saliva, slightly parted as he panted heavily. I couldn’t help but continue to press my lips against his, but he pushed me away again. Each time he did, his tongue, flailing wildly in his mouth, left trails of saliva in the air.

“Wait, Sunbae. Just a second, your lips…!”

His face, pale like dough, had turned a deep peach color. Seeing his blood-stained lips quiver made a shiver run down my spine.

“Your lips, they’re bleeding. Hold on, damn it, Sunbae! Your lips are bleeding!”

“Damn it, will you just stay still!”

“I’ll take care of it… Ugh!”

While we were tussling back and forth, we ended up on the floor with our legs tangled. Fortunately, whether by design or by accident, Jung Woojin fell underneath me, so neither of us was seriously hurt. However, he grimaced and reached out to cup my cheek as if he’d hit something on the way down.

“Are you okay?”

It wasn’t a question asked with any ulterior motive—he was simply asking if I was fine. But why was I so out of breath, and why did I keep swallowing nervously? As I remained frozen, Jung Woojin looked me over with concern before sighing in relief and grabbing my waist with both hands. I was sitting on his stomach.

“Bend down a bit. Your lip is injured.”

As if hypnotized, I leaned forward. Jung Woojin, who had been watching me closely from such a close distance that our noses almost touched, parted his lips and slowly extended his tongue. It felt like it was happening in slow motion. When his wet tongue touched my lip, a sharp pain shot through me. He licked my lips with determination, cleaning up the blood until it stopped flowing. Just as I thought my lips might melt under his attention, he whispered against them.

“Do it again.”

“……”

“Like before.”

But without making me bleed this time. He smiled at me with his lips curled upward. Remembering how he had licked my lips earlier, I hesitantly extended my tongue. My mind, which had been on the verge of exploding just moments ago, now felt foggy.

It was like our first kiss, so cautious and tender. Suddenly, I wondered what the hell I was doing. My face flushed with heat, and I couldn’t bring myself to pounce on him like some crazed animal as I had earlier. As I timidly licked his lips, Jung Woojin chuckled and muttered under his breath.

“Why so shy all of a sudden? You were sucking like your life depended on it just a moment ago.”

I hesitated, but when I tried to straighten my back, he pressed down on it, preventing me from doing so. I ended up awkwardly sprawled on top of him, turning my head to the side. What had I just done? Why did I do that? What’s wrong with me? As I berated myself, Jung Woojin slowly slid his hand into the waistband of my pants. When his fingertips brushed against my hip bone, I shivered.

“Sunbae, kiss me.”

His voice was so lazy and seductive that it sent shivers down my spine. I felt like I was being lured by the devil himself. Even though I knew I shouldn’t, I couldn’t say no. I even began to wonder if I actually disliked it. Was I being brainwashed? My lips trembled at the absurdity of it all. When I licked his swollen, reddened lips, Jung Woojin growled in pleasure like a satisfied beast. He half-opened his black eyes and parted his lips slightly as if he was doing me a favor. Before I knew it, I was already pushing my tongue into his open mouth.

Jung Woojin didn’t move. He simply slid his hand into my pants, lightly stroking my butt. When my tongue flicked over the ridges of his palate, his hand ventured inside my underwear. His hot fingers gripped my butt firmly.

“Ugh…”

“Spread your legs a bit. Don’t stop kissing.”

Even though my mouth was open, my saliva didn’t dry up; it only dripped down. I trembled as I slowly spread my legs and lifted my hips, allowing him to push his hand even deeper. Every time he lightly tapped the area between my butt cheeks as if knocking on a door, my hips twitched involuntarily. Just when I thought he would slip a finger inside, he withdrew his hand, gently ran it through my hair, and quietly asked me.

“You forgot how to suck cock, didn’t you?”

“What?”

Suck cock… What? Suck what? I was so flustered that I stared at him in confusion. Jung Woojin smiled sweetly, his eyes crinkling as he repeated in an angelic tone.

“I mean giving head. You forgot, didn’t you?”

As he helped me sit up, Jung Woojin caressed my cheek and lightly tapped my lips. When my mouth naturally parted, he slid a finger inside.

“Don’t bite down.”

His finger lightly brushed my gums and tongue, tickling me so much that I squirmed. When I tried to pull back, he hooked his finger and scratched the roof of my mouth. As I flinched, he used his other hand to rub my waist and butt, all the while smiling.

“Suck it. Hard enough to make your cheeks cave in.”

Following his instructions, I sucked on his finger like a popsicle, causing him to exhale through parted lips.

“I’ll add another finger, so keep sucking. Use your tongue, too. Lick it all the way inside.”

He slid a second finger into my mouth alongside the first. As I opened my mouth wider, saliva dripped down my chin. Jung Woojin gently stroked the middle of my tongue while pushing his fingers deeper. I obediently licked and sucked as instructed, but I shot him a glare when I felt like I was about to gag.

“Can’t take any more?”

Still frowning, I nodded, and Jung Woojin grabbed my chin and pulled his fingers out. Saliva dripped from my mouth and fell onto his stomach. He sat up, grabbed the back of my neck, and licked the trail of saliva from my chin before kissing the corner of my eye and asking softly.

We were struggling with each other, and eventually, our legs got tangled, and we fell to the ground. I don’t know if it was intentional, but fortunately, Jung Woojin fell underneath me, so I wasn’t seriously hurt. However, Jung Woojin must have hit something as he fell because he grimaced and reached out to cup my cheek.

“Are you hurt anywhere?”

It wasn’t a question with any particular intention. He was just genuinely asking if I was okay. But for some reason, I felt out of breath and kept swallowing nervously. As Jung Woojin, who had been checking me over while I stood frozen, sighed in relief, he gripped my waist firmly with both hands. I was sitting on top of his stomach.

“Lower your head. Your lip is injured.”

As he said that, I instinctively lowered my waist. Jung Woojin, who was watching me quietly from such a close distance that our noses could touch, parted his lips and stuck out his tongue. It felt like slow motion. When his moist tongue touched my lips, I felt a sharp pain. Jung Woojin persistently licked the blood off my lips and from the cut until it stopped bleeding. Just as I thought my lips might melt away, Jung Woojin spoke, still pressed against them.

“Do it again.”

“…”

“Like before.”

But don’t make it bleed this time. Jung Woojin smiled as he looked at me, his lips curling up. Remembering how he had licked my lips earlier, I stuck out my tongue. My mind, which had felt like it would burst just a moment ago, went numb.

I felt as cautious as if it were my first kiss. At the same time, I wondered, what the hell am I doing? Heat rushed to my face, and I couldn’t pounce on him like a dog in heat as I had before. As I hesitantly licked my lips like a cat, Jung Woojin raised a hand and pressed down on my tailbone. As my hips lowered, something thick caught between my legs. I didn’t need to look to know what it was.

“Why are you suddenly so shy? You were sucking like you were possessed earlier.”

As I hesitated, Jung Woojin chuckled and mumbled into my neck. I tried to straighten my back, but with him pressing down on me, I couldn’t fully extend. I collapsed awkwardly onto Jung Woojin, turning my head to the side. What the hell was I doing earlier? Why did I do that? What was the reason? Have I lost my mind? While I was berating myself, Jung Woojin slowly slipped his hand into my waistband. When his fingertips touched my hip bone, my body shuddered.

“Sunbae, kiss me.”

His voice, spreading lazily into my ear, gave me goosebumps. I felt like I understood what the devil’s temptation was. Even though I knew I shouldn’t, I couldn’t refuse. And then, I found myself thinking, well, it’s not that I don’t like it. Am I being brainwashed? I trembled as I licked my lips, thinking such ridiculous thoughts. As I timidly licked my swollen, red lips, Jung Woojin purred like a pleased beast. He stared at me with half-lidded, dark eyes and parted his lips slightly, as if granting me a favor. Before I realized it, I had already slipped my tongue inside his open mouth.

Jung Woojin didn’t move. He just kept stroking my butt inside my pants. When I licked the rough roof of his mouth, his hand slipped inside my underwear. His hot fingers tightly squeezed my butt.

“Uh…”

“Spread your legs a little. Don’t stop kissing.”

Even though I kept my mouth open, instead of drying out, it only got wetter, to the point where saliva was dripping down. I trembled as I slowly spread my legs and lifted my hips, allowing Jung Woojin to slip his hand deeper. Each time he lightly tapped between my butt cheeks, like knocking on a door, my hips jerked involuntarily. Just when it felt like he was about to slip his fingers in, Jung Woojin pulled his hand out, brushed my hair back, and quietly asked,

“You’ve forgotten how to suck cock, haven’t you?”

“What?”

Suck cock…? What? Suck what? As I made a confused face, Jung Woojin smiled sweetly and said again, with an angelic expression,

“Fellatio. You’ve forgotten how, haven’t you?”

Jung Woojin sat me up and stroked my cheek before tapping my lips. When my mouth naturally opened, he slipped a finger inside.

“Don’t let it slip out.”

As he gently rubbed my gums and tongue with his fingertips, the tickling sensation made my body twist. When I tried to pull away, Jung Woojin hooked his finger and scratched the roof of my mouth. When I flinched, he laughed, stroking my waist and butt with his other hand.

“Suck it. Until your cheeks hollow out.”

At his words, I began sucking his finger, just like I was eating a popsicle. Jung Woojin exhaled through parted lips.

“I’ll add another one, so keep sucking. Use your tongue and lick the inside…the inside.”

He slipped another finger into my mouth, alongside the first one. As I opened my mouth wider, saliva dripped down to my chin. Jung Woojin slowly rubbed my tongue as he pushed his fingers deeper into my mouth. Following his instructions, I licked and sucked diligently, but then I scowled at him. If he went any deeper, I felt like I would gag.

“Can’t you swallow it all?”

When I nodded, still frowning, Jung Woojin grabbed my chin and pulled his fingers out. Saliva dripped down onto his stomach. Jung Woojin sat up and, holding the back of my neck, licked all the saliva from my chin and cheeks before kissing the corner of my eyes.

“Ugh, puh! Cough, cough, cough!”

I desperately pushed Jung Woojin away and spat out his member while coughing. Something hot splattered across my face. Instinctively, I squeezed my eyes shut and clamped my mouth shut.

“……”

My ears were ringing. I couldn’t quite grasp what had just happened or how I ended up sucking Jung Woojin’s cock. My mind went blank, as if I’d suddenly lost my short-term memory. But as the hot liquid in my mouth trickled down my throat and settled in my stomach, I snapped back to reality. When I opened my eyes, I saw Jung Woojin staring down at me with a satisfied, beastly expression. Half-lidded and with a languid look, he licked his reddened lips before speaking.

“My bad.”

“……”

Even though I forced my eyelids open, my vision was still blurry. Something sticky and stringy was trailing down from my eyelashes, causing my sight to remain unclear. Jung Woojin, who was clearly not sorry at all despite his words, took his time admiring my face before reaching out. As his large hand swept across my face, I could feel it on the tip of my nose and tongue. It was semen.

“Did it get in your eyes?”

“……Do you have a death wish?”

“Sorry.”

Jung Woojin laughed quietly, pulling me onto his lap. He then began licking off the semen still clinging to the corners of my eyes—his own semen, without any hint of disgust or hesitation. His tongue softly stroked my eyes, even reaching my eyeball. Although I tried to close my eyes, his tongue squeezed through my eyelids, making it impossible to resist. In the end, I slightly opened my eyes, and his hot tongue gently grazed my eyeball.

“What if this is all just a dream?”

Jung Woojin lifted his face from mine and hugged me tightly. With no space between us, he pressed his forehead into the crook of my neck and murmured.

“I can’t believe it. I’ve never even dreamed of something like this.”

“I can’t breathe.”

My breathing became increasingly labored, and my shoulders and chest felt constricted. When I let out a quiet cough, Jung Woojin loosened his grip and lifted his head. His jet-black eyes, brimming with tears, were as clear as the sky after a heavy rain.

“I love you.”

“……”

“I’m so madly in love with you that the only way I can express it is by saying ‘I love you.'”

I had followed my sudden surge of desire to this point, but I still didn’t know exactly what I wanted. However, one thing was certain: right now, the only person I could trust completely, and who trusted me just as much, was Jung Woojin. Tears kept streaming down his face, as if he were overwhelmed with emotion.

“I really feel like I’m going to die……”

Jung Woojin held me tightly again and sobbed.

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Rather than a kiss, it was more like we were devouring each other, with no regard for each other’s comfort or pace. Our teeth and noses kept bumping into each other, and we had to constantly shift our heads to maintain the kiss, which was difficult to sustain for long. We were out of breath, uncomfortable, and above all, the vivid sensation from behind was making it worse.

“Mm, ugh, ahh, ugh, haa……!”

Jung Woojin relentlessly pressed on, not giving me even a moment’s pause to catch my breath. One hand firmly gripped my waist to prevent any escape, while the other mercilessly prodded behind me. Each time I tried to pull away, another finger was added to the intrusion.

“Ahh!”

When I mustered all my strength to push Jung Woojin’s shoulders, he responded by thrusting yet another finger inside. I could tolerate two, but when it became three, it felt unbearable. I couldn’t sit down, nor could I stand up and escape. All I could do was clutch his shoulders, trembling as I tried to keep my knees steady. Jung Woojin then extended his tongue toward me again. I turned my head to avoid him, almost slipping and falling backward in the process. Seizing the opportunity, Jung Woojin pulled me sharply by the waist.

“Mm, ha, aah… Wait…!”

In the end, instead of pulling away, I bent forward toward Jung Woojin. He hesitated for a moment, then exhaled a warm breath, lowered his head, and bit into my shoulder. Taking advantage of the moment, I inhaled sharply. As I filled my lungs with air, my compressed chest finally expanded, and I felt like I could breathe again. My foggy, overwhelmed mind began to clear, but just then, his fingers brushed against a certain spot inside me.

“Ahh!”

I saw stars. My fingers dug into his shoulders with all my strength, clawing at his skin. The constant friction between our bodies was making my head feel like it was going to explode.

“Ah, ah, ugh, wait, ahh, ha!”

“Your hips, Sunbae, lift your hips a little more……”

Jung Woojin, panting heavily, sped up the movement of his hand. I shuddered and raised my knees slightly, just as he had asked. Jung Woojin then bent down to bite my collarbone before moving down to my chest. His hot tongue touched my stiffened nipple.

“Gah!”

He pressed down with his tongue, then scraped it along my skin, before sinking his teeth in. I couldn’t tell if it was pain or pleasure—I was too overwhelmed to think clearly. The sensation was pushing me relentlessly toward the brink, where it felt like something inside me was about to explode.

“Ah, it hurts, it hurts, ugh, haa! Ah, wait, gah, ugh, ahh!”

“Lift your hips, faster, Sunbae, damn it, lift your hips!”

Jung Woojin pulled his mouth away from my chest and used the hand that had been probing behind me to roughly push my nipple upward. The cursing and commands that pierced my ears sent signals straight to my brain, causing my body to react as if shocked by electricity, before I could even process what was happening. As my hips shot upward, Jung Woojin aligned his member with my opening and pulled me down onto it. I was so tightly impaled that I couldn’t even make a sound, just trembling as I came, while Jung Woojin stuck out his tongue to lick my chin.

“Ugh, ahh… ahh, ahh… gah, haa!”

The slow, burning sensation of his tongue crawling along my chin brought me back to reality, and I let out a strange noise before a scream burst out.

“Sunbae, don’t clench up.”

“Ugh, ugh… ah, ahh! Haa…”

“What are you crying for? We haven’t even started yet.”

“Ah, it hurts, Woojin, it hurts, gah!”

“Don’t lie.”

Since I was straddling him with my knees on either side, there was no way for me to steady myself. All I could do was flail my arms helplessly, but eventually, I wrapped them tightly around his back, digging my nails in as I swayed along with his movements.

“Ahh, ugh, wait, haa!”

“Sunbae, does it feel good?”

“Ugh, gah! Ah, n-not there, ugh, no…! Not there, stop!”

“You don’t like it when I rub here with my dick? Here? You don’t like it here? Hmm?”

Even though I said I didn’t, he focused on that spot, making it impossible for me to think straight. It wasn’t like I couldn’t move, but it felt as if I were tightly bound, unable to even twitch a finger. All I could do was tremble, my mouth agape and my tongue hanging out, unable to do anything but moan.

“Haa!”

Then, just as Jung Woojin had been slowly rotating his hips, he suddenly thrust hard. His member, which had been deeply buried inside, quickly withdrew before slamming back in. It was so fast that I couldn’t even breathe, let alone moan. After a few more rapid thrusts, he slid his hands under my armpits and lifted me up. I could clearly feel his cock sliding out of me.

“Ahh! Wait, gah!”

As he released his grip and let me drop onto him again, his cock plunged deep inside me with a loud slap. Pressing down on my nipples with his thumb and licking up the saliva that dribbled from my open mouth, Jung Woojin continued to rock his hips relentlessly. At some point, I began to cum uncontrollably, as if I were wetting myself. Jung Woojin, who had been moving furiously, suddenly stopped and laid me down on the floor.

“Haa… haa, haa.”

I was panting heavily when he pulled out from behind. My limbs went limp as I collapsed, unable to support myself, and Jung Woojin grabbed my legs and pulled me closer to him, dragging me across the floor. With my legs raised, he thrust back inside.

“Aah!”

His movements were entirely different from before. While he had been content to simply rock his hips inside me, now he pounded away as if determined to bury even his balls inside me. Each time his cock slammed against my sensitive inner walls, forcibly digging in deeper, it became harder and harder to breathe. As he continued, my own cock began leaking again, even though he hadn’t touched it.

“Ugh, ah, gah! Wait, Woojin, wait, ah! Ahh, ugh, no, it hurts, it hurts, ugh…!”

He withdrew his cock until only the tip remained inside. I stared at him in shock, sucking in a breath. Before I could even make a sound, Jung Woojin exhaled sharply and rammed himself back in. Before I even heard the slap, my head jerked back on its own. Struggling to catch my breath, I choked and gagged as Jung Woojin thrust his hips forward, pressing up against me. He lowered his head to lick the corners of my eyes before pushing his tongue into my open mouth to lick at the insides.

“Ugh, ahh… mmph, ugh, I told you, it hurts, damn it, I’m telling you it hurts, ugh!”

Honestly, I wasn’t sure if it hurt or not. But it had to hurt. With how hard he was going, it would be strange if it didn’t hurt. Repeating to myself over and over again that it hurt, as if to convince myself, I finally heard Jung Woojin’s low, heavy voice as he licked my cheek.

“I thought it wouldn’t hurt since you’re so slippery back there. Sorry, ugh!”

Jung Woojin frowned as I bit down hard on his lips that had been pressed against mine.

“You damn…! Just because your mouth is open… ah! Gah!”

“Can you hear it? The sound of it squelching every time I shove it in. It’s not my cum, so it’s all coming from you, Sunbae.”

Jung Woojin grinned mischievously and hoisted my legs over his shoulders. Then he grabbed my hips and started thrusting again.

“Ugh, ah, wait, gah, ugh! Stop, no more, I…! Ahh!”