Lost

“Ah, ugh, ahhh, ughhh!”I was drooling with my mouth open like an idiot. Without knowing what sounds I was making, I just let out bizarre noises. At that moment, something dropped onto my face with a soft plop. As I gasped for breath, I saw Jung Woojin’s face right in front of me. Through my blurry vision, I could see his eyes filled with tears. Just like I was screaming and crying, Jung Woojin was also shedding tears.“What should I do, damn it. It feels so good. Ah, Sunbae, Sunbae…”“Ugh… Damn it, don’t move, ugh!”Jung Woojin started moving his hips slowly while still inside me. Even though he was just thrusting in and rotating his hips, it felt like my insides were tearing apart.“Ugh, ah! Ugh, ugh! Damn, it hurts, it hurts, ughhh!”Then Jung Woojin pulled his hips back, slowly withdrawing his cock. As I clenched my teeth and trembled, his cock plunged back inside me.“Aaahhhh!”“Here, here, is this it? Does it feel good here?”“Ah, ah, ugh! Ah, ah, ugh! It hurts, it hurts, damn it, ugh, ahhh!”“Hurts? Damn it, you’re leaking like crazy because it feels good. Ugh, damn it. It’s so wet inside, ugh, relax… Damn it, relax a bit, I’m gonna… ugh!”With a loud smack, Jung Woojin slapped my ass. It didn’t hurt, but the sudden impact made me clench my anus involuntarily. Jung Woojin gritted his teeth and paused for a moment.“Ah… Sunbae, damn it, please relax… Ugh, does my cock feel that good? Your insides are trembling like crazy.”“Damn, damn it, stop… Please stop, ugh, ahhh!”Jung Woojin licked his lips and thrust hard again. With a loud smack, my body started shaking uncontrollably again.“Damn it, leaking like that. Ugh! Do you like it? Hmm? Does it feel that good when I thrust into you?”“Ah, ah, ahhh…!”“Say something, damn it. You have to tell me, or how will I know? Ugh! Here, hmm? Here, here…! Do you like it when I thrust here? Hmm?”Thrust, thrust, thrust! The relentless thrusts left me completely disoriented. It felt like I was going to die from the pain, from the exhaustion, from the pleasure. As I gritted my teeth and trembled, I felt dizzy when Jung Woojin grabbed my cock firmly.“Ugh!”“Say something, Sunbae. Tell me, do you like it? Hmm?”“Ugh, ahhh! Ah, yes, it feels, ugh! Ahhh!”“Where? Here? Do you like it when I thrust here?”“There, there, ah, ah, ahhh! Ahh! No, it hurts, ugh! Damn it, it hurts, ugh!”Jung Woojin gripped my cock tightly and didn’t let go. When I thrashed and screamed, he stopped his thrusting and bit down hard. Trying to hold back, he clenched his teeth for a moment before exhaling and lowering his head.“You keep leaking, so I have to.”“Ugh, ughhh…!”“Look at this, damn it, ugh!”With a twist of his hips, he moved inside me again.“See? You’re leaking like crazy, like you spilled milk… Ugh!”Twist, twist, twist. The cock buried inside me began moving faster. It pulled out quickly, only to plunge back in. The loud slapping sound echoed in my ears. I couldn’t even make a sound as I threw my head back. Jung Woojin licked my open mouth, then gently bit my upper lip.I felt like I was going to die. It was like my entire body had turned into a cock. Every time his hot cock pulled out and thrust back in, flashes of light burst before my eyes. I wasn’t sure when he freed my arms, but I clung to his neck, shaking uncontrollably.“Should I cum inside you?”“Cum, ugh! Ah, ahhh! Do it, do it, ughhh!”“How much?”I didn’t even know what I was saying. Every time I tried to regain my senses, he would thrust faster. I could feel liquid leaking from where we were joined, and the sound of splashing never stopped. Every time I cried, Jung Woojin would lower his head, licking my tears, biting my lips, sucking and licking, driving me mad.“If I cum inside, Sunbae, if I… ugh! It’ll be so hot, you’ll cry, ugh!”“Ahhh, ah, ahh, ughhh!”“My name, ugh, Sunbae, say my name, ah, damn it, I’m about to…”Right in front of me, Jung Woojin was staring at me with tears streaming down his face. For some reason, I couldn’t close my eyes. His dark eyes, wet with tears, looked so pitiful it was almost infuriating. But honestly, I didn’t even have the capacity to think that right now. Watching Jung Woojin mutter “name, name,” I reflexively called out his name. My voice was muffled by my moans, but every time I said his name, Jung Woojin shed more tears.The relentless thrusting that felt like it would never end finally stopped. Something hot burst from the tip of the cock buried deep inside me. The strange sensation made me tremble and cry, but Jung Woojin started thrusting again while still ejaculating.“Hiii!”“Aren’t you going to say something? Should I start all over again?”“It’s hot, hot, hot, ugh! Ah, ugh! It’s hot, so hot!”“What is?”“The, the cum, the cum, ugh! Ah, ahh, ugh! Ugh, hic!”“Whose cum is it?”“Ugh, Woojin’s, ah! Ugh! Woojin’s, Woojin’s cum, ahh! Ah, ahhh…!”A soft voice whispered in my ear, “Good job.”After ejaculating twice more, Jung Woojin finally withdrew. When he came for the third time, he even gagged. The overwhelming pleasure made it feel like my entire body had become a cock, and my mind was in total disarray. As he gently touched my limp body, Jung Woojin grabbed my cock. I could barely understand what he was saying. Trembling, I could only plead, “Please…”“Sunbae.”Jung Woojin lightly tapped my cheek with his fingers, waking me from my semi-conscious state. I forced my heavy eyelids open, and he playfully bit my nose.“Should I milk you?”Please, stop. I’m going to die. Don’t do it, please… I muttered silent words as I closed my eyes again. Tears flowed from my eyes like a broken faucet. Jung Woojin licked the corners of my eyes and asked again.“Should I milk you?”“Please…”Please stop. My voice sounded unfamiliar. It was hoarse and broken, like a monster’s voice. As I trembled and trailed off, Jung Woojin smiled, seemingly interpreting it in his own way.“You wanted to cum that badly? You should’ve said so earlier.”Jung Woojin, who had been right in front of me, disappeared. When I blinked, I saw him with his mouth on my cock. I wanted to close my legs, but I had no strength left. Then, Jung Woojin slid his hands behind my knees, folding me in half. Placing my calves over his shoulders, he looked down between my legs and said,“Don’t spill it. If you do, I’ll start all over again.”“Ugh!”“What did I tell you to say when you cum?”Jung Woojin took my cock into his mouth. My body convulsed as an overwhelming sensation washed over me, whether it was pain, pleasure, or ticklishness—I couldn’t tell. Please stop. I’m going to die. I really feel like I’m going to die. Please, just stop…“Woojin, Woojin, I love you, I love you, Woojin, ugh!”My tongue felt stiff, and I couldn’t pronounce the words properly. I felt my cock throb violently inside the hot, wet mouth. I gripped the sheets tightly with both hands, writhing in agony. Without even a moment to say anything else, I ejaculated as soon as Jung Woojin sucked me in. I couldn’t stop it. My body had completely abandoned my will.“Huuunngh!”I came, crying like a child. It didn’t feel like I was cumming; it was more like I was peeing. The more I came, the deeper Jung Woojin took my cock. By the time I finished, my cock was buried in his throat. It wasn’t his mouth, but his throat that was sucking me in.I was leaking from every hole in my body—tears, saliva, cum, and even the cum that Jung Woojin had left inside my anus.Jung Woojin slowly pulled my cock out of his mouth. I covered my face with both hands and closed my eyes. I wasn’t even sure if I was breathing. I felt like I was going to die. I really felt like I was going to die. I wanted to die—out of exhaustion, embarrassment, anger, and despair.As I came down from the high, my senses started to return. If I had been out of my mind from start to finish, I wouldn’t have felt so utterly hopeless. My eyes felt like they were going to pop out from crying too much, and my eyelids were burning and sore, as if they’d been scorched. When I didn’t move, Jung Woojin removed my hands and looked at me.“Sunbae, are you okay?”“…”I stared at him blankly. Is he really the same kind of person as me? Is he really the same human being as I am? Slowly, I opened my mouth.“Jung Woojin.”His dark eyes flickered slightly when I called his name. I tried my best not to cry as I continued speaking.“You’re really a fucking asshole.”“…”“A fucking filthy, selfish, pathetic asshole.”I didn’t even know what I was saying. I just let the words spill out and irritably pulled the blanket over my face. As my vision was obscured, the tears I thought had stopped began to flow again. I bit down hard, trembling as I tried not to make a sound. I was tired of saying these things, but I truly couldn’t believe it. I couldn’t believe this reality, and I didn’t want to. Is this really happening? Is this really reality?“Sunbae.”At that moment, Jung Woojin pulled back the blanket. I screamed in panic.“Fuck! Stop, you bastard, ugh!”I started coughing after yelling. My throat felt raw. I kept coughing, and Jung Woojin gently stroked my head until the coughing subsided. When I finally stopped coughing, I tried to push his hand away, but Jung Woojin was much faster. He laid me back down on the bed, forcing me to face him directly.“Let go.”“I told you not to spill it.”“What?”“Or I’d start over from the beginning.”Hearing the seriousness in his voice, I genuinely wanted to die. I understood exactly what Jung Woojin was saying, and I twisted my wrist in desperation. But I didn’t have any strength left in my body. Jung Woojin tightened his grip on my wrist and spoke.“Am I a pathetic person?”Jung Woojin looked at me with a face that seemed on the verge of tears. His pale eyes quickly turned red.“Do I really seem pathetic to you?”“This…”“Sunbae, do I really seem pathetic to you?”“Let go, let go of me!”Jung Woojin buried his face in my chest. I could see the top of his dark hair trembling. I bit my lip and turned my head away. I could feel hot tears dropping onto my chest. This bastard was crying again. I frowned, feeling a sudden urge to vomit, and Jung Woojin lifted his head. I didn’t even get a chance to see his face before he flipped me over.“What…!”“If I seem so pathetic, then show me some pity. Even if a pathetic bastard does nothing but shitty and selfish things, pity me and comfort me.”“Hey, fuck! No, this, ugh!”Something hot forced its way into my still unhealed anus. Even after cumming three times, his cock was still as hard and hot as the first time. Desperate to survive, I crawled forward like an animal on all fours. But before I could even get anywhere, Jung Woojin wrapped an arm around my lower abdomen and pulled me back. Thud! His cock slammed in deep.“Ughhh!”“Do you know how hard I tried?”Thud, thud, thud! His hot cock pounded inside me from the start. I couldn’t even close my mouth, only letting out choking sounds.“Hngh, ah, ugh, ah! F-fast, wait, ugh!”“Do you know how much, how hard, with what feeling I…”As he pulled me in roughly again, my insides felt like they were being torn apart. I didn’t even realize I was leaking cum like I was pissing.“I feel pathetic too.”“Ah, ah, ugh…! Ah, hngh!”“If I could give up, I would’ve done anything to give up too.”“Ah, wait. Wait, no, I don’t want…”With a squelch, his cock fully withdrew. I gasped for breath and threw my head back. Expecting him to plunge back into my anus like before, I squeezed my eyes shut, but nothing happened. I turned my tear-stained face to look at Jung Woojin.“Ugh!”The moment I looked back, Jung Woojin started thrusting again. With my ass raised in the air, I buried my face in the bed as he moved me back and forth. My mind was slipping away, like I was about to faint. And that seemed like a good thing. If I fainted, I could escape this hell for at least a little while. As I cried and slowly closed my eyes, a searing pain shot through my entire body.“Ugh!”“You keep leaking.”“Ah, ugh! Ugh, stop! Ahh, please!”“Sunbae.”“Hngh, ugh! Ah…! Ahh, ah! Ugh!”“Sunbae, say you love me.”A large hand gripped my cock. No, it wasn’t just gripping it—it was pressing down on it. He squeezed my cock hard, rubbing his thumb over the tip. I screamed and shook my head as I felt stars explode in front of my eyes.“No, I don’t want to! Ugh! Stop, don’t! No, stop it, ugh! Ah, ugh!”“Even if you hate me, think I’m a bastard, and find me pathetic, try to care for me a little.”“Hngh, ugh! Ah! Ugh! Ah, stop, ugh!”“Now that I’m the only one you’ll see until the day you die, it’ll be hard for you if you keep hating me. So please, try to like me a little.”Jung Woojin kissed the back of my neck. Then, with the insertion still intact, he turned my body around. As he rotated me, the excruciating sensation scraping my anus made me open my eyes wide, unable to make a sound. Jung Woojin looked at my disheveled face, then lowered his head and stuck out his tongue, licking my lips.Jung Woojin, holding my waist, aggressively continued to penetrate my anus. My cock was still in his hand. It felt like it was going to fall off. The pain was so intense, it felt like it was going to be cut off or split apart. Overwhelmed by a mix of pleasure and fear, I muttered words on my own without Jung Woojin’s prompting.“Woojin, Woojin, ugh! Ah, I, love you, love, ugh! Stop, please, stop, ugh! Ughh!”“Do you want to cum?”“Ughh!”It felt like my insides were about to collapse. It was as if a heated skewer was probing inside me and a frozen awl was piercing my walls. Yet, when his cock filled me snugly, the heavy pleasure made my waist tremble uncontrollably. Jung Woojin wiped my tear-streaked face with his large hand and spoke while still thrusting.“Do you like it that much? Seeing you keep leaking while I’m stabbing inside, it looks like you really enjoy it.”“Ugh, ugh…! Ah, ah, ah!”“If I stop thrusting, Sunbae won’t be able to cum. Eventually, I’ll make you feel pleasure even without cumming.”“Ah! Oh, good, good, ugh…! Ugh! Woojin, ah, ah! Love…!”It felt like my cock was going to burst. I felt like I was going to die from the need to cum, but Jung Woojin wouldn’t let go. I begged and cried.“And after more time, just seeing my face will make you leak.”“Ughh!”Even though it felt like he couldn’t insert any more, Jung Woojin kept pushing. I even felt anxious that his testicles might end up inside my anus. Jung Woojin kept thrusting, as if clinging to me.“I should have done this sooner.”“Ugh, ah, ugh! Ah, ugh, I, I, will die…!”“I should have done this sooner.”“Ughh! I’m going to die, I think, ugh!”“If we had done this from the first time we met, we might have been closer by now.”“Ugh, ah! Ah, Woojin, Woojin, love, love you, love, ugh! Ughhh!”With a thud, his cock was buried deep inside me. Jung Woojin was cumming. Even though it was his fourth time, the hot and sticky substance still filled my insides. Unable to close my mouth or make a sound, I just waited and waited for him to finish cumming.Thud!“Ahhh!”As his orgasm was nearing its end, Jung Woojin dug into me again. With my anus tightening around his cock, more cum flowed out as he continued to thrust.“Maybe we could have been married.”“Ugh…!”“Maybe we could have loved each other like ordinary couples.”“Ughh!”“Say you love me.”Tears fell onto my face. Unable to open my eyes, I just repeated “I love you” like a parrot. The moment Jung Woojin removed his hand from my cock, I passed out without cumming. Or perhaps I had cum while unconscious; I couldn’t tell.