Chapter 19 - r18
Chapter 19
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Geum-bi Noona’s palm cupped my groin.
It wasn’t a tight grip, but her fingers weren’t fully spread either.
It was an ambiguous gesture, her slightly curled fingers stroking my groin.
“Ah, ugh.”
“Huh…!?”
I tried to stifle my moans, but unavoidable sounds escaped my lips.
Every time, Geum-bi Noona flinched, but even with the sound of her gulping, her hand didn’t stop.
It felt like my mouth would dry up from lack of moisture.
It seemed the same for Geum-bi Noona, as the sound of her swallowing was constantly audible from beneath her chin.
‘How… did this happen? Ugh.’
There were probably more than a few reasons, but
There had to be a decisive trigger for a brother and sister, siblings living under the same roof, to reach this point.
‘Does Geum-bi Noona still think she’s adopted? Or… do I?’
Otherwise, there was no way she would do this to her own younger brother.
The rest was probably the excuse of doing it for the family, the emotions left to the atmosphere and flow of the moment, and Noona’s inherent curiosity about a man’s body.
‘Her fingers are touching deeper and deeper. As if she really wants to touch it.’
At first, her touch was light, her palm barely grazing me,
But now, Geum-bi Noona’s hand was wrapped around my swollen groin, her fingers wriggling and rubbing.
‘If she just applied a little more pressure, she’d be able to grasp its shape… Is that still too much for her?’
She almost grasped the distinct pillar shape instead of the vaguely swollen form,
But Geum-bi Noona released the pressure at that point and resumed rubbing her hands together.
“Ji-gu.”
“Y-Yes.”
“Does it… feel good? Is this okay?”
“Yes. It feels… really good. Keep doing it.”
I was completely focused on Noona’s touch when she quietly spoke.
She still avoided my gaze, perhaps embarrassed by what we were doing on the bed,
But once she started talking, the awkwardness lessened.
“I’m glad you like it, Ji-gu. Tell me if it hurts.”
“It doesn’t hurt. It feels so good that it’s… a little dangerous.”
“Th-That much?”
“It’s the first time someone has touched me like this, over my clothes.”
Even between lovers, this kind of thing probably wasn’t common.
It was more likely they’d take their clothes off. Would a man and woman in bed have the patience to just rub each other over their pants?
So, this was an act possible only in a special relationship like ours.
Because of the line we shouldn’t cross, the line between siblings… this was a fated touch we could barely experience.
‘That sounds grandiose when I put it that way. Let’s not say it out loud. It’s embarrassing.’
Swallowing the strange and outrageous thoughts,
I gathered the courage to look down at Geum-bi Noona, and our eyes met as if she had been looking at me too.
“Ah, uh.”
“Uh, haa…!”
We couldn’t bring ourselves to call each other’s names.
With a shallow breath, Geum-bi Noona hid her flushed face, and I could feel her hot skin against my chest as she lowered her head.
“Why, why are you hiding your face….”
“B-But… it’s embarrassing.”
I managed to keep the conversation going, thinking it would become silent again if I backed down now.
Geum-bi Noona still couldn’t lift her head, but she didn’t avoid answering. We lay on the bed, our bodies overlapping, exchanging hushed voices.
“Doing… doing that with your own hand. And you say it’s embarrassing.”
“B-Because you’re doing something dangerous… I’m worried.”
“What did I do? I haven’t done anything yet.”
“You said ‘yet.’ If I had left you alone, Su-jeong Unnie… would have been in danger.”
“That was a slip of the tongue. I told you, I don’t have those thoughts about my family.”
“…Then what about me?”
Mid-sentence, Geum-bi Noona lifted her head again.
At that moment, I realized what a real slip of the tongue was, and I hurriedly corrected what could have been misinterpreted.
“I-I didn’t mean that Noona isn’t family.”
“…Then are you saying you’re different?”
“No, of course not. Ugh, so….”
“If it’s not either of those… what do you mean?”
While her suspicion towards herself was cleared, the arrow now pointed at me.
When I deflected that too, she dug deeper into my heart, asking what I truly meant.
‘This is crueler than a forced choice. If I’m going to be questioned no matter what I say… Damn it.’
I chose the option where no one would be suspected.
“It’s because I’m a pervert, like you said, Noona.”
“Huh, what? Ehh?”
“That’s why I feel this way even though it’s you, Noona. That’s it, end of discussion. Okay?”
“Well, mm, I see. You can… feel that way even with your own sister.”
“I said end of discussion, didn’t I? Why do you keep bringing it up, Noona?”
“S-Sorry. But it’s a bit of a shocking thing to hear….”
I understood.
After saying it,I thought, what kind of perverted nonsense was that?
‘To avoid Noona’s suspicion, I made myself out to be a pervert… I want to die. Is there anywhere I can jump from?’
Since we were on the second floor, I could just open the window and jump.
Hmm, was it too low? Should I go up to the roof later?
“Uh, kh. Noona?”
“Ah, sorry. I was so surprised… I’m sorry.”
Lost in my despair, I felt a strong pressure on my lower half.
It seemed Geum-bi Noona had unconsciously tightened her grip, and she quickly released it, startled.
But… hmm.
Honestly, it didn’t feel bad.
“Hey, Noona.”
“Mm, what, what is it? Ji-gu…?”
“Well, we can’t just stay like this forever. You have to go to work in the morning.”
“Ah, right. But… yours isn’t showing any signs of subsiding.”
“That’s what I’m saying. Could you squeeze it tight, like you did just now?”
“Huh, huh? Squeeze it… tight?”
“I think it’ll go away quickly if you do that… B-But it’s okay if you can’t! Sorry, I went too far.”
The desire to escape this situation and the pleasant sensation from just now combined to make me spout nonsense.
I quickly came to my senses and waved my hand, trying to correct myself, but….
“Ji-gu.”
“Mm, I’m really sorry. I just lost my mind for a second….”
“Do you think it’ll really… go away if I do that?”
“Huh?”
“Well… what you said makes sense. We can’t stay like this forever, and I need to… finish this soon if I want to go to work.”
Saying that, Geum-bi Noona glanced down at my lower half in her hand.
At the same time, her throat bobbed as she swallowed, making it clear what kind of “finish” she had in mind.
“…Can I… ask you to do it?”
“…Just for today.”
Perhaps seeing my flustered expression brought her back to her senses, as Geum-bi Noona belatedly added the condition “just for today.”
But that also meant she was going to go all the way, just for today.
Soon, Noona’s hand gripped my groin and… began a slow, sticky pumping motion.
“Ah, ugh.”
“Does it hurt? You have to tell me right away if it does.”
“Mm, it’s okay for now. It feels just right.”
“Ah, I see… This much is good….”
Geum-bi Noona murmured as if memorizing the strength and speed.
Unable to bear her words and actions, I twisted my hips.
“Ugh, Noona, Geum-bi Noona…!”
“Hah?! Ah, ah, uhh…!”
Since Geum-bi Noona was on top of me, my body couldn’t move much.
However, the pillar between my legs… swayed as if in an earthquake, soaking my underwear and pants.
“Haa, ha, haa… Haa.”
“Ah, d-did it… finish? So this is… it.”
Even after I finished, Geum-bi Noona didn’t remove her hand from my pants for a while.
Fortunately, my pants weren’t thin, so the fluid didn’t seep through, but the lukewarm warmth… she could definitely feel it, along with Noona’s trembling hand.
‘I really… came in Geum-bi Noona’s hand.’
My hazy mind fully returned to its place.
Geum-bi Noona seemed to feel the same, her eyes regaining their usual color.
We turned our faces away from each other again and stammered like children.
“Ah, w-well, Ji-gu… G-Good job. Thanks for going along with me.”
“No, w-well, you too, Noona. This must have been really awkward, thank you for helping me.”
“Ah, no. I also quite… No, it’s nothing.”
“Mm, okay. …Can I go wash up now?”
“Oh, of course…! G-Go ahead and wash up, Ji-gu.”
Awkward sentiments, the kind that could be expressed in words, both spoken and written, were exchanged between us.
Using the shower as an excuse, I escaped the suffocating space, and Geum-bi Noona hurriedly got off me, freeing my body.
It seemed like our nighttime escapade had ended, but-.
“Oh, but you know, Ji-gu?”
“Mm. What, what is it?”
“Are you going back to your room after you wash up?”
“Uh, yeah, shouldn’t I? Why?”
“No, it’s just. How should I put it… I’d rather you didn’t.”
“…Why?”
We had finished everything, the necessary conversation, the potential scolding, and even the release as a precaution.
Yet, Geum-bi Noona held me back, and I couldn’t quickly escape.
Perhaps I never had any intention of escaping in the first place.
“Just, just because. Today… I’d rather you not go back there while Unnie is there.”
“…Then where should I sleep?”
“…My bed is pretty big. And I happen to be… a little lonely tonight.”
With those words, Geum-bi Noona tucked her hair behind her ear and turned her head away.
But her eyes kept glancing at me, and I mumbled as I slowly turned the doorknob.
Finally, the locked door opened.
As I was about to go downstairs to shower,
“I’ll be back soon. You can go to sleep first if you’re tired.”
“Ah, uh, mm! I’ll wait for you…!”
“I said you can sleep first… Okay, then.”
*Thud.*
I closed the door softly so as not to make a loud noise at night.
After showering, changing my clothes, and confirming that Su-jeong Unnie was fast asleep, I headed back up the stairs to the second floor.
Had it been about ten minutes? I thought Geum-bi Noona might already be asleep, and if so, I’d quietly return to my room.
“Ah, y-you’re back? Will this… pillow be okay?”
Geum-bi Noona, leaning against the wall by the bed, hugged a pillow and greeted me.
Looking at Noona, who was waiting for me with wide-open eyes in the dark without even turning on the light-.
“This is just for today.”
“Mm, right. Just for… today, yes.”
I returned the words Geum-bi Noona had said.
Repeating my words, Noona lay down on the bed as if relieved and happy.
…I wondered why she suggested we sleep together in the first place.
But since Geum-bi Noona cherished Su-jeong Unnie so much, I assumed it was a precaution, just in case…
‘Come to think of it, why did Su-jeong Unnie drink when she doesn’t usually? Hmm….’
The thought of Su-jeong Unnie, left alone in my room, crossed my mind belatedly.
But since I had seen her sleeping soundly, I put aside my worries and closed my eyes.
Unlike with Su-jeong Noona, Geum-bi Noona and I turned our backs to each other, not facing one another.
Despite that… the loud sound of our hearts filled the room with warmth throughout the night.
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