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Chapter 111: Jinjiang Literature City exclusively published 89

Lexi’s head buzzed, and the throbbing sensation from her heart had completely occupied her mind. She felt that she couldn’t think, and she didn’t know where the way forward was.

Chi Chuji sighed, and proactively stretched out his hand? Embracing her in her arms, she asked softly in her ear: “Last time you left home, in your heart? You actually hated me, right?”

Lexi reflexively retorted: “I don’t have one.”

“No, you do.” Chi Chuji stroked her long black hair, and finally enlightened her like an elderly person, “From love to worry, from love to fear…When you always feel that you are After asking for my love and lowering my posture again and again, it will inevitably lead to an imbalance of mentality.”

“You are a child who values feelings too much. If you are not satisfied, the love will be distorted into hate in the end. Then let yourself be in the bitter sea of love? You will sink for a lifetime.”

“You will repeat this process over and over again until you get bored…”

Lexi wanted to look up, and said, “I won’t, I won’t do things like last time…”

Chi Chuji just held her head, not letting her look up, and said coldly, “Don’t refute me in a hurry, just listen to me.”

“You said you love me, but? Can you accept that you can be with me for a lifetime if you love me?”

“Do you have a deep understanding of my needs? Do you clearly know what you can get from me?”

“If you don’t understand, then I will tell you clearly.”

Chi Chuji closed his eyes, stroked the person who had been with her for more than ten years, and said softly: “I am for you…I am on you, and I don’t need to ask for emotion. You can be with me, I am very happy. You leave When I go, I will also bless you.”

“But? You can’t.”

“You want marriage, you want children, and you want my love. When I can’t give it to you, where do you go?”

Chi Chuji stepped back a little, and looked at Le Xi’s face in the dark, as if he had used up all the tenderness in this life, softly coaxing her: “Can you accept such an unfair thing? Are you willing to always Is it like this?”

“Now that you are by my side, you will only be tortured over and over again.”

Le Xi raised her head and looked at her with tears in her eyes: “You said so much?…but it’s just…but it’s because…”

“You do not love me……”

“You don’t care about me…”

Le Xi endured it for a long time, but finally gave this sentence out.

Chi Chuji looked at her in silence, and then said: “Yes, it is indeed like this. At first, I thought it didn’t matter whether you loved me or not, it didn’t matter how deeply you loved me.”

“You can’t stand it anyway, you will always leave.”

In fact, Chi Chu Jida can be indifferent to all of Le Xi’s emotions as before. Anyway, Le Xi Nao is also making trouble, and will come back eventually. Just like the last time, she would never leave herself.

But now, Chi Chuji found that he couldn’t remain indifferent.

Chi Chuji sighed, raised his hand and touched Lexi’s hair, with some inexplicable emotions in his voice: “But? It’s Lexi, I can’t do this.”

She will care.

This is not a question of love or not, but there is a huge disparity between them. She is such a person, no matter if she likes or loves, or cares, she can only give to each other a little bit.

Kolaxi will indeed cut open his chest in Love and offer everything he has.

When a person always takes out all of himself, but only gets a little in return, will he always keep his original intention? When a person feels that he is giving in a humble manner, can he keep his balance?

Lexi is still too young to understand this kind of truth and this foreseeable future.

For this situation, Chi Chuji could no longer stand on the sidelines.

Le Xi looked up and stared at her blankly. In the darkness, she couldn’t see Chi Chuji’s expression, but she could feel Chi Chuji’s softness at this time.

Chi Chuji held up her face, leaned over and put a kiss on her forehead: “Le Xi, leave home, leave me, go talk about a normal relationship, get married, start your own family…”

“You are… not my inhibitor anymore.”

Le Xi grabbed the clothing beside Chi Chuji, and tears rolled down like a river bursting a bank. She was nestled in Chi Chuji’s arms, crying like a child.

Chi Chuji hugged her thin body, like a qualified mother, holding her in his arms?, wrapped up all her sad tears.

After the Mid-Autumn Festival, it rained for several days and the weather became cooler.

When Chi Chuji came out of the operating room, the weather was very gloomy.

Layers of dark clouds were low and low pressure, and gray clouds shrouded the lush trees outside the window. The bleak autumn breeze passed over the dense trees, making a clattering noise, and poured straight in from the window.

Fearing that Chi Chuji, who was lying on the hospital bed, would catch the cold, Le Xi hurried to close the open window.

With a loud crash, after closing the windows, the originally gloomy ward looked even more gloomy.

Le Xi glanced outside the gray window, turned and walked along the dim light to Chi Chuji beside the bed.

She sat down by the bed and looked at Chi Chuji’s fragile expression, and her heart felt a lot of pain, “Does it still hurt?”

Chi Chuji glanced at her sideways and shook his head: “It doesn’t hurt.”

The effect of the anesthesia is still there, and she doesn’t actually have that pain.

Le Xi pursed her lips, not knowing what to say. She wanted to hug Chi Chuji, but Chi Chuji no longer let her hug.

She wanted to say that she would ligate in the future, but Chi Chuji no longer needed her.

She is no longer Chi Chuji’s inhibitor.

Le Xi looked down at her, her eyes were red, and her tone was self-blame: “I’m sorry…”

Chi Chuji faintly replied: “It’s none of your business, it’s just an accident.” In fact, Le Xi is already a particularly good object, and has never crossed over, but it is in the AO relationship? It is inevitable that this will happen. Kind of accident.

Le Xi rubbed the ground and said for a long time: “You take a break, I’m here? With you, wait? You are asleep, I’ll go back and make you a good meal.”

“At least…at least this time, you must let me take care of you.”

Chi Chuji knew that it would be difficult for Le Xi to accept this process. She didn’t have the energy at this time, and she was happy with this kind of problem.

Chi Chuji nodded, and said softly to Le Xi: “Okay.”

Chi Chuji closed her eyes, and Le Xi carefully reached out and held her hand, waiting for her to fall asleep.

She stood on the side motionless like a robot, for fear that she might noisy Chi Chuji. It wasn’t until Chi Chuji’s breathing slowed down and she fell asleep that she leaned down and landed the kiss on the back of Chi Chuji’s hand.

Le Xi kissed for a long time, then straightened up and walked out.

When I got home, the weather was very dark. Lexi turned on the light at home and went to the kitchen to prepare the ingredients, and then began to cook for Chi Chuji.

Last time she was absent, Chi Chuji probably stayed alone in the hospital alone, and took so many days off…

Le Xi vaguely remembered that Chi Chuji lied to her that she was on a business trip and it took seven or eight days to leave. After coming back, I have been very busy, and I haven’t had a good rest…

Chi Chuji would not share anything with her, always like this. She swallowed her own affairs and never shared them with others.

Since childhood, Lexi has been thinking about her own affairs. Chi Chuji occasionally listened to a few words and gave some irrelevant opinions, and didn’t care about her life.

Obviously Lexi knows her schedule well, knowing what she likes to eat and what she does.

Le Xi felt more aggrieved as she thought about it, and she became aggressive when she made the soup.

Put the soup in the pot? After boiling, Le Xi walked out of the kitchen. At this time, the sky was getting darker, and after the gusts of wind passed, the cool autumn rain dripped down.

The rain curtain covering the sky and the sun shrouded the window, blocking all sight. Lexi heard the sound of rain and quickly got up to close the window. After closing all the windows in the house, she sat on the sofa alone, collapsed her shoulders sullenly, holding her head to think about what Chi Chuji said at night that day.

She thought for a long time, but couldn’t understand what Chi Chuji meant. I just feel that Chi Chuji doesn’t love her…

Because I don’t love her, I won’t give birth to that child like Le Yang and Gu Mingzhuo.

Because I don’t love her, I have to drive her out of the house.

The more Lexi thought this way, the more she couldn’t control herself. Just when she wanted to be enchanted, a faint voice in her heart told her: It’s not like this, it’s not like this…Chi Chuji, Chi Chuji actually cares about her too.

But since you care about her, stay with her.

It doesn’t matter if you don’t get married, or if you don’t have children, it’s okay to just live with her like this…

Why must she be driven away?

Le Xi held his head and fell into a daze once again.

It seemed that after a long time, the rain outside the window gradually stopped. Lexi’s mobile phone rang on the table.

When Lexi heard the phone ringing, she seemed to regain her senses. After turning off the alarm clock, she picked up the phone and walked towards the kitchen.

Le Xi got up and went to the kitchen to turn down the fire. Only then did she play with the hands boringly? The machine came out of the kitchen.

At this moment, WeChat sent a message belonging to Kong Mingque. Lexi clicked on the mobile phone and took a look, only to find that it was a video.

In the video? A wrinkled baby lying in a cradle, and a voice-over that belongs to Kong Mingque heard: “Ah! My wife gave birth! It’s a daughter! There are five catties!”

“Congratulations, I am a mother…”

Le Xi was stunned for a moment, and the mobile phone slid down from the hand, with a clatter, the screen shattered.

Lexi slowly bends down, in the blurred vision, looking at the small ruddy face belonging to the baby in the broken screen, slowly kneeling on the ground.

Trembling, she picked up the mobile phone and clicked on the video again, and a thought grew crazily in her mind: they would have had something… and they would have…

It’s because of Chi Chuji…

It’s Chi Chuji, don’t want her.

When this thought came up, Le Xi’s body was cold and her back stiffened. She raised her hand, wiped her tearful face, and stared in surprise.

What is she thinking? What was she thinking about?

Is it just because Chi Chuji doesn’t want the child she can decide whether or not, does he start resenting her?

Is this still love?

The author has something to say: Miss Chu Ji: You are no longer…not an inhibitor. In my eyes, he is a veritable person.

The comment broke two hundred or one deep water night and one more.

Seeing how loud you are, I’ll be better sooner.