ALL NOVEL Chapter 87
69. The sick carve.
“Jill veil, Jill veil! Are you there?”
Albert’s voice was heard shortly after I made my vow to Lord Pride.
Moving the pride of bewilderment momentarily, he looked down at me and said, “Do you still want Arthur to leave?,” he asks quickly. Lord Arthur was only moving his mouth when he said something, but Albert must not notice him with his voice.
Perhaps you care about Maria’s body. I was wondering if she would be all right if I let the special abilities Lord Arthur go.
But I’m sure he’ll be fine. If you look at her, you’ll see. Above all, we cannot make Lord Arthur’s abilities public any more at our convenience.
When I said “no,” the next moment, Master Stayle was instantly moved with Lord Arthur without saying anything.
Albert’s voice approaches. Stand up on the spot and wait for him. I realize that I forgot to solve the age manipulation of the style, and solve the ability to hurry. It takes longer than touching it directly, but for a while, it must be getting back to its original age.
… footsteps come right up to it.
He’s coming.
He was my friend.
“Albert…
Conscious of himself being as light as a lie, he calls his name quietly.
I wonder how much I put into his kindness.
Sometimes, while bumping into feelings similar to hate.
Still, without setting us apart, he continued to support me, as my friend, to the contrary, who should support the King’s brotherhood until today.
Just thinking, the tears seeped in again.
The man who was my friend, knowing all that I was born into.
As soon as he confirmed my appearance, he rushed towards Maria. Yes, he’s worried about Maria again, and he’s heartbreaking.
Holding Maria apologizing, quietly he opens his mouth.
“… What is this about, Jill Bale?
Well, what’s the matter? If I joked back at the beginning, my anger came back. Well, naturally.
Answer his questions one by one.
Where Lord Pride and Mr. Stayle are, and… Maria’s disease.
But I can’t talk about Lord Arthur, nor about Lord Pride, nor about Lord Steele. Even in exchange for this neck, for example.
Still, Albert’s question continues.
“But you paid for something, didn’t you? to its special abilities or referrals! What the hell are you…”
“Nothing.
He was stunned by my words. And… naturally.
In words, it was clearly recalled earlier in my mind.
“That one… appeared suddenly before me”
Really, it was sudden.
He just rambled into Maria’s crisis and appeared before me, who could only ku. It even seems as if it is God’s use if I recall it like this now.
“Save Marianne… save me”
The special ability to heal illnesses that didn’t come true when I looked for them… brought Lord Arthur.
“I wanted nothing to pay for it, and… they left.
It’s not exactly a price to call it.
You can say you’ve been given.
To a great sinner like me. At the end of the day, he even turned his laugh to me.
Albert yells. That’s what I say when it’s a lie. Yes, you’re right.
Because I can’t possibly do something convenient like this.
But that’s the truth.
I will not distract myself from him and I assure him clearly that it is true.
If you look at your face like this, there’s a shadow of that one who saved us.
Who is that one who, like him, has peered straight into my eyes again and again?
“That one… eh.
As soon as I mouthed it that far, there was another outburst of enthusiasm as if I had cut a weir. I couldn’t get enough of it, and the tears overflowed.
The more I spoke, the more I understood how unlikely things could be right now… that it was only a miracle.
… that it’s over.
From all the pain, from despair, I was truly free.
As soon as I realized it, I knelt so that my legs would stop being powerful and collapse.
Various emotions mixed, facial muscles cramped and accidentally covered with both hands.
“Ah… you… really, all of a sudden… appeared before me…”
Why did you save me and others?
How much have I done to you?
Knowing my betrayal, what about you?
“Give me your hand… reach out… I’ve been searching for you for years now and I haven’t found you… with a special ability to heal the disease…”
It was like a hard, bitter, drowning day for years.
Like torture, I was so worried that it seemed easier to die.
“I saved Marianne…”
Saved.
Even though he predicted how much, tell me, where was it necessary for Maria to get that far?
You can pretend you don’t know.
You can laugh that it feels good.
Why did you save me, such a great sinner?
“What if… to me,… to someone like me,… mercy…! At the price of… take…………………”
It’s a blessing I can’t stand to call a price.
You have given me an unforgivable punishment for not being able to bear the weight of sin and redeeming it with death and wishing to make it easier.
to me who wanted to make no atonement to the people and to escape to death cheaply.
To me who defiled the name of the Chancellor and even changed that title to shame.
Without escaping to death forever.
Keep devoting yourself to the people forever.
He will forever hold the title of the Chancellor, whom he has defiled, and will continue to redeem him in his duties.
Heavier punishment than death and a way of life to keep making amends.
Give it to me.
How much easier it would have been if only death had been said.
If I could just keep living, I would have been unbearable and frenetic about my sins.
Albert asks me, squeezes my voice out, and at the end of the day, if I raise my voice, I think the reality in front of me is already a convenient dream for me.
“… eh… Albert.
I manage to utter words to a man who was a friend who accompanied me for a while without words and crying.
Anyway, now, I wanted to apologize to him.
I’m sorry, he speaks quietly to me only to clog up the words.
“… that’s good enough. I understand that I also have a responsibility for not being able to support you in the midst of a hard time.
No, that’s not true.
How much he stood by me.
He would have resigned from the Chancellor and been punished, such as me, had he not been here.
The fact that you protected Maria from a strange invasion in the castle, the fact that you hid every existence for her own safety, the fact that you gave her a maid or guard for nursing, it’s all a special treatment for me and Maria.
Yet instead of thanking them, I looked at them as if they were hateful, and all their beloved daughters, Lord Pride, were jealous of the special treatment… why have they done so much stupid things………
Yet Albert broke his knee to me and held my shoulder strong. Like that one. It still hurts me so much to be a parent and child.
“You, as Prime Minister… have done the right thing…. more, love yourself.
I appreciate it, but I can’t stop.
To him who worked disrespectfully, betrayed me, and still stayed with me to avoid making decisive mistakes beside me.
The only one who shared the fear of losing Maria and listened to me over and over again.
To him who gave life to that man in the world.
I’m not his friend anymore.
Five years before I betrayed him for my own perseverance.
So, from now on… if God will allow you to live again as Chancellor, please.
Again.
Again I want to be his friend.
As a friend… I want to support him, the King’s brother-in-law, now.
Never again will you betray him, that man, your country, your people for the rest of your life.
Yes, I carved it into my soul.
With the remorse that tears this self apart and the benevolence that overflows.