Chapter 97: Heart Reveal, Dark Inner Thoughts And Frustrated Sigh. 'I Can Handle You Just Fine.'
Speaking those words, Shao Cheng gently hugs the man's head to where his heart was, causing the other man to hear the nonstop fast beating of his heart, the frightening idea of killing him still remains no matter what.
"I already accept the fact that I can't go back to the way I was before… hurting people… even killing them… I will do it… but not you… never you… I don't want to hurt you, and to have even injured you… cause my heart to feel like it was being ruthlessly wrenched painfully out from my chest."
I don't know why I am reacting this way but it was so unpleasant that I was overwhelmed by these unknown emotions inside me. You can be hurt, injured because I am not confident enough to believe that I can absolutely protect you but it wouldn't be because of such an insignificant matter.
"Cheng…"
Ren Yuan that was finally able to get his mind back to the way it was before has awoken up by the hurtful sound in the young man's voice.
Trying to pulling himself away, Ren Yuan desired to see the expression on Cheng face right now, only to feel the arms around him tightening so strongly to the point that he felt a bit suffocated by how powerful it was.
"Don't leave… I don't want you to die…I don't want to kill you..." You can die in my hand only if there is no other choice, that you are just going to only live an absolutely hopeless and despairing one that I couldn't fix and do anything about with my power.
I will do it…if dying in my hands is the only remaining better choice, I'll kill you myself.
But it's won't be the way on what happened before, such a completely insignificant and absurd death like that, how can I accept that kind of end for the both of us?
"You have given me a chance of new life, you can't just disappear in mine just like that alright?"
Are you going to leave me all alone in this world once again? In this new life even though he wants to correct most of the mistakes in the previous life, however, Ren Yuan is going to be the sole focus of everything that he is doing.
Because if he is gone, then what is the point of living this new life? In this unforgiving world… Ren Yuan have become the absolute center of his life.
Letting out a soft sigh, Shao Cheng cheek press on top of the man head before slender finger gently running into the long silk-like black ink hair, his movement tender and soft like he was touching his most precious treasure in the whole wide world, and soon, his finger began caressing the smooth skin on the back of the man neck.
And when there isn't even a reaction against his actions, the man remaining adorably obedient on his arms, Shao Cheng eyes close with a worrying clarification of between the two of them while a small smile full of twisted humor grace his lip even though there was nothing funny about everything right now.
He wants this man's trust, and it seemed that he truly got it, but it is turning out a bit worrying and dangerous if the man doesn't have even an ounce of defense against him.
Shao Cheng doesn't even know how he did it, especially when he just acted with such a hidden motive that even another enemy can think of in doing.
Was it this easy? But when a flash of the previous life confession appear on his mind, Shao Cheng felt a bit disturbed, or is it turning into that certain direction once more?
Like always, he just truly doesn't get this man at all, especially the relationship between them that remains twisted and puzzling.
After a few minutes of them just basking in each other presence, Shao Cheng finally let Ren Yuan lean back from their comfortable embrace in order for their eyes to meet each other.
Right now, he needed the man to know this important part that he will be mention about, or else, the person before him will definitely perform similar actions once more that will endanger his life.
Shao Cheng couldn't allow what happened today to have another repeat once more, because he will not be lucky next time and Ren Yuan will surely have the chance of dying by his hands when that happens.
After all, Shao Cheng usually performs in a decisive manner and next time, he will not be able to stop his action that will lead Ren Yuan to death.
"Ren Yuan… please don't do that kind of action later on again alright? At least, don't do that to me. I am really begging you… or there is a chance that you will die on my hand."
"... I.. ok, Cheng. I know now. I will not do it anymore alright?"
Scrutinizing at the compliant man that is seriously listening to all of his words, Shao Cheng smiled, however, rather than the usual smile that causes Ren Yuan break to be taken away, it was raw, broken, and frail which has caused him to only feel remarkably anxious inside.
Damn, Ren Yuan didn't expect his performances to deeply affect the young man like this, if he knows, he would have not done it, however, he was unable to stop himself from feeling extremely horrified at the next sentence that escapes the young man lip.
"And if you do die… My Big Brother Yu Yu… I'll follow you after without any hesitation."
"...!"
Ren Yuan eyes constricting from the terrifying reveal of what he just heard while a chill has run down his spine because he can completely hear the sincerity and seriousness on Cheng's voice while his sapphire eyes were painfully dazzling with determination and resolution when he has spoken.
Why…? Why…? Why…? That one-word continuously repeats on his mind, Ren Yuan doesn't know about why does this young man was behaving this way, about why he was completely so attached.
Yes, that is the right word, attached, Cheng seemed to consider his existence so valuable to the point that it matters about life itself.
It seemed that Ren Yuan needed to seriously consider his existence meaning to this person before him.
Is saving Cheng life has caused him to become extremely significant and important to the young man's life now? Ren Yuan doesn't have any idea at all, causing his head to throb in pain about what is happening on everything right now.
Seeing as the other man remains silent and without giving any reply, Shao Cheng eyes flash with unknown emotion before weakly urging the man to answer him with certain fragility on his voice.
"Are you… scared of me now?" I am this kind of person… so... are you going to run away? If so, tell me now so I can think of a better plan, since I won't allow you to just ignore me.
Not knowing about the rather dark intent in the young man's mind right now, Ren Yuan releases a frustrated noise while roughly ruffling his hair in irritation of how everything is becoming depressing and dark.
"Alright listen here. I'm not easily frightened alright? Well a bit disturbed knowing that you can speak about dying just like that, which you are not allowed to do! Don't think such depressing stuff too ok? Frankly, you are troublesome, difficult, and doesn't even listen to my words, running away without care just so you could do whatever you wanted."
Shao Cheng couldn't help but blink his eyes in a stunned manner at the frank and truthful word that Ren Yuan is speaking at the moment, his brow wrinkling at the last sentence the man has spoken, however, when the familiar somehow cocky grin appear on Ren Yuan face, somehow he felt his heart skipping in an abnormal way.
Especially when that familiar expression that usually annoys him as always has somehow made the present Ren Yuan such a brilliant and dazzling existence.
"Nevertheless, Cheng, I can handle and manage your troublesome self. I'm stronger than you seemed to imagine me to be. Rather than worrying about me, I think you should take care of yourself more. Don't think that I didn't see that you seemed to have been injured once again?"
And with a raise of his eyebrows, Ren Yuan hands went over to the right shoulder of Whitey which is where he felt the thick wrapped clothes upon inside it while secretly sighing in relief when those dark emotions that brim deeply on the young man's eyes have disappeared, that has glance away in an awkward manner, appearing to be feeling slightly guilty.
"Really, what��s with you getting injured all the time? Are you maybe… a masochist?"
Shao Cheng couldn't help but shoot wide eye disbelief at the brazen word of the man, really for him to be thinking and mentioning such an unusual matter during this time.
If he were to choose a word, he prefers to be a sadist than a masochist, wait, no, he is perfectly normal and doesn't have a certain characteristic in that kind of subject, rather he is quite sure that one way or another Ren Yuan has a sadistic tendency, look at Purple, which somehow has disappeared once more.
Anyway, with his lip press in a straight line, Shao Cheng can only sigh at the change of topic of their discussion while the serious and heavy atmosphere has change into something softer.
"I didn't want to get injured. I was just protecting a person from getting killed."
"Is that the man from before?"
Somehow, Ren Yuan felt a flash of irritation when he found Cheng mentioning particular care to another person, especially when it was a man at that causing him to remember that certain person unusual concern and flustered manner from before, that was definitely the person Cheng was talking about.
Shao Cheng just nodded his head, while wanting to give a good impression to his older brother so that this person will behave more nicely later on.
"Urgh, don't speak about it anymore. Let's just check your injuries, it might have open up from the fight we just did before."
And once more, Shao Cheng wrinkles his brow when the same result happens when he was trying to brainwash his older brother for a better opinion to Ren Yuan, really, why can these two people don't let him have an easy way to introduce themselves later on.
"Come on. Let me take your robes off now."
"...!"
Somewhere, in the distance, Xixi that was watching the entire time let out a dreamy sigh, while Yu Qin eyes were wide open with complete utter disbelief while the poor man on the ground was wrapped up tightly with a rope along with his mouth being cover-up in order to remain silent and looking completely like a captured person.
"Umpphh….!"
Xixi that heard the soft noise of the person that she has woke up and dragged over to witness such an amazing and touching scene has placed her hand to one of her hips and cocking it sideways while speaking in a self-confidence manner at the person on her feet with a raised eyebrow.
"Cousin Yan! You withness that touching scene right? So, don't try on getting in the way of their love alright?"
"!!!"
With eyes bulging with anger, Shao Yan that was in a completely helpless situation can only try to make noise, hoping the people in the distance will be able to hear him and save him from this crazy cousin of his.
Only to feel great despair when he saw in the distance about how that man dares to touch his younger brother's clothes with his grabby hands.
Third Brother! Why are you being so obedient? Runaway!
Damn! Xixi I'll remember this! And Yu Qin! What kind of person did you call? My Third Brother Ah!!!