To Me, Who Doesn’t Love You

“Bed… ha, the bed is nice,”Suhan muttered playfully as he wrapped his arms around Yeonseo. His grip tightened as if he would never let go, and despite his delicate face, the veins in his arms bulged. He might look like a gentle scholar, but he wasn’t. Soon, Suhan was laid gently on the master bed, panting as he asked,“How much did you think about me here?”He had already seen that lovely face twisted in pleasure. Despite saying things like, “I can’t do this,” “Let’s get divorced,” “Please stop,” Suhan couldn’t help but feel a tingling curiosity about what Yeonseo had been doing behind the scenes.“…N-no…”As if! Suhan pushed against the inner wall, pulling out only to be met with an overwhelming pressure as his toes curled and he swallowed his breath. He liked the lewd sounds that came with each thrust of Yeonseo’s body colliding with his already slick thighs. Suhan shuddered at the sensation of Yeonseo slowly smoothing out every wrinkle, leaving his mark deep inside, and he grasped Yeonseo’s hand.Everything in his sight was Jo Yeonseo. The beautiful face, the disheveled hair with no trace of composure—it all felt like his. Yeonseo felt Suhan’s hand glide up from his wrist to his shoulder, pressing deep into his insides once more.“Aah…!”In that moment, Suhan’s body jerked, and his walls tightened instantly.“Hah, just… ease up a little…”Yeonseo begged with hazy eyes, and Suhan let out a scoff as if he found it ridiculous. Really? Was that even possible when it was already a tight fit just putting it in? Suhan was already doing his best to relax. Otherwise, the creeping pleasure would overwhelm him, leaving him unable to think of anything else.“Even now, it’s enough, I…”Suhan tried to pull back, but Yeonseo quickly grabbed his waist, thrusting in with a loud slap. My husband, my person, my hyung—no word could fully explain what Yeonseo felt Suhan was to him. As Yeonseo, on the verge of tears, gazed down at Suhan, Suhan smirked, loosening the arm that had wound around Yeonseo’s neck, and gently stroked Yeonseo’s cheeks.“Why are you crying? You’re making it look like I’m doing something bad.”Well, technically, seducing someone already in love with another might be considered bad. But, Lee Suhan… let’s just say both of us are equally to blame, and we came to a mutual agreement. Suhan chuckled at his own thoughts, and Yeonseo looked at him curiously, staring intently. Suhan liked the way Yeonseo’s gaze, full of desire, seemed to devour him whole. Why throw a useless tantrum? A wave of relief washed over him, knowing that Yeonseo finally accepted that he loved him.“I wasn’t… crying…”“You were crying.”Suhan wiped away the tears from the corners of Yeonseo’s eyes with his thumb. Underneath Yeonseo’s loosely hanging shirt, his firm chest rose and fell harshly with each breath. Yeonseo gently traced Suhan’s body as if he wanted to commit every sensation to memory.“What are you so afraid of?”Suhan already knew the answer. Yeonseo feared the moment Suhan’s memories would return. When that happened, would the Suhan of now disappear like foam? Or…? Worrying about something the doctors couldn’t even be sure of was ultimately pointless. Even if this Suhan disappeared, the fact that they were together and loved each other would remain unchanged.Suhan pried open Yeonseo’s lips and pushed his tongue inside. He wanted to overwhelm him, sucking in his soft, warm tongue until Yeonseo tried to escape. But this time, Yeonseo didn’t run. Instead of cutting ties and fleeing, he clung tightly to Suhan’s body, leaving his mark in the narrow space between them. The sensation of Yeonseo’s hard member twitching and releasing inside made Suhan shudder with pleasure. The fact that all this obscene, filthy activity was with his husband, Yeonseo, filled him with satisfaction.“Haa… ugh…”Suhan tilted his head back, feeling Yeonseo’s body trembling as he finished, and Yeonseo kissed Suhan’s dry feet. Whether it was an act of soothing or seduction, it felt more like worship. Yeonseo would have gladly licked not just his feet, but any part of Suhan’s body with reverence. When Yeonseo’s small tongue slid out of his lips and wrapped around Suhan’s toes, Suhan thought he looked like a puppy. But then again, puppies don’t fornicate with their owners… not that it’s entirely impossible. After all, the only puppy wagging his tail and desperately wanting to thrust into him was Jo Yeonseo.“Can I… do it again?”Yeonseo asked, looking down at Suhan with wet eyes. Suhan, holding back a laugh, reached out with his free leg to pull Yeonseo closer.“Hyung hasn’t finished yet. Were you planning to stop after just one round?”Of course not. The wide-open hole welcomed Yeonseo even deeper. It was as if they were born to be together like this, and the pleasure crashed over Suhan like a tidal wave.* * *A few days later, Yeonseo was assigned as the project leader. Then, Yeonseo received a unilateral notice from the director of another department.“Wow… this company’s dynamics are really something.”It was about the former head of the overseas division, who had been working abroad, being reassigned to work at the Korean branch. Essentially, it was a decision to fill Lee Suhan’s vacancy with someone else, causing a stir throughout the company.“So, is Director Lee Suhan stepping down from management for good?”Everyone speculated whether the former head could fill Suhan’s absence, and if he did, what the future would hold.“Could you explain the reason behind this decision?”Yeonseo, taken aback by the sudden notification, contacted someone he wouldn’t usually call first. The response was predictable.“Director Lee Suhan’s absence has been too long. It’s already been half a year. Sure, an owner can take a leave of absence for up to a year, but if an executive is gone that long, the shareholders are going to talk. The company comes first, Yeonseo.”“But you know how much hyung worked for this company. There’s no one who can replace him.”Yeonseo clenched his fists as he retorted, only to hear a long sigh on the other end of the line.“Yes, we know. That’s why we waited for half a year. But how do you expect us to convince the board and the shareholders when someone who’s already been discharged from the hospital for months can go about daily life but hasn’t returned to work? We’re not trying to replace him entirely. He was going to return to Korea anyway, so we just asked to temporarily cover the gap.”Yeonseo knew who the returning person was and felt deeply troubled by the decision.“When Suhan hyung comes back, what will happen to Juno hyung?”The chairman let out a deep sigh before responding again.“Well, Suhan didn’t particularly enjoy working with Juno… so we’ll have to think about it once Suhan gives us a clear timeline for his return. We’re only bringing Juno in to cover Suhan’s absence.”“…”Though the chairman and other executives agreed on this, holding voting rights, Yeonseo, still only a junior manager, had no power in the matter. Even if he somehow managed to push the issue to a shareholders’ meeting, there wouldn’t be any executives or shareholders willing to oppose the decision to bring in a replacement in such a situation. No matter how brilliant Lee Suhan was, he was useless if he disappeared. No company would hold onto the vacancy of someone who couldn’t contribute.“For now, I understand.”For now. Despite the layers of meaning packed into that phrase, the chairman didn’t seem to care and hung up. So that was why his mother had been calling so frequently. It was nothing short of a warning. If things continued this way, Suhan’s position could be in jeopardy.After the call, Yeonseo couldn’t return to the office right away and rubbed his face with his hands in frustration. He hoped Suhan’s memory wouldn’t return. But he also hated the idea of someone else taking his place. He couldn’t bear the thought of how betrayed Suhan would feel when his memories eventually came back.What should I do now…? A headache began to form. To protect Suhan, Yeonseo would have to become even more clever.Suhan was the type who naturally attracted enemies. There were many who hated him, and many he hated in return. A prime example of the latter was his cousin, Cho Juno.“…”As Yeonseo returned to his seat with a grim expression, fixing his gaze on the monitor, he overheard a new employee, who had been with the company for just under a year, asking a senior colleague, “Who is Chief Cho Juno? I’ve never heard of him since I joined when Director Lee Suhan was here.”The senior, seated next to him, glanced over at Yeonseo’s desk before whispering in a quieter voice, “You know, he’s Cho’s cousin. In terms of family, he’s the son of Mr. Cho’s uncle.”“So, there’s not much of an age gap? Is he young?”The senior hesitated briefly before responding, “Well, he’s not as young as Director Lee, but for an executive, he’s relatively young. He’s about forty now, I think.”“A cousin, but there’s that much of an age gap?”“You know, Mr. Cho is the youngest child…”At that point, they seemed to realize that continuing the conversation in such a manner was inappropriate, and their metallic whispers faded away.Suhan disliked Juno. He couldn’t like him. After all, Juno had to force his way into Suhan’s position and oust him. Suhan had faced several fierce competitions to rise to his director’s position, and Suhan was the victor. Yeonseo remembered the expression Suhan wore when Juno slinked away to the U.S. under the pretext of expanding into the overseas market. Normally, Suhan didn’t show much emotion other than displeasure, but that time, he smiled in satisfaction, celebrating his victory with his colleagues. Yeonseo, despite being on Suhan’s team at the time, couldn’t join in the celebration—perhaps it was more accurate to say he wasn’t allowed to.“Anyway, let’s make sure we’re well-prepared until Director Cho arrives. Once he’s here, we’ll be starting a new project right away. Mr. Cho, you should start preparing as well. Don’t dive too deep into selecting a specific item yet; just draft some rough ideas for now.”It didn’t matter what they prepared—nothing they did would be accepted. Juno hated Yeonseo even more than Suhan. And thinking about it, that was understandable. To grasp why, one had to look into the ownership structure of Seosang Group. Seosang Group had originally started as Seosang Trading.Yeonseo’s uncle, the eldest son, had clashed with their grandfather from a young age. As soon as he reached adulthood, he packed his things and left the house, finding a job at a factory in the countryside. He built his own family and didn’t contact home. Meanwhile, the small company, with only two employees aside from the family, was developed by Yeonseo’s father.His father was a skilled businessman, and his mother, whom he’d met in college, was sharp and had a knack for reading the trends. Both were fluent in foreign languages and had a natural talent for sales, so everything they imported sold like hotcakes. As the company grew, they were offered the chance to manufacture products domestically instead of importing them. Seizing the opportunity, they entered the manufacturing market. At just the right time, a mid-sized company known for food production went bankrupt and needed new ownership. The investment, risky as it was, turned out to be a jackpot. About ten years later, when their eldest son was around ten, Seosang Group had grown into one of the country’s leading conglomerates.Then, the expected problem arose. After their grandfather passed away, Yeonseo’s uncle reappeared, demanding his share of the inheritance. He wanted half of the shares their grandfather had owned. Legally, his inheritance portion wasn’t much different. He argued that, as the eldest son, he should have inherited everything, but out of respect for their efforts, he would only take what was legally due to him.‘Ha… Honestly, Hyung…Though he couldn’t participate in management, the shares he inherited were enough to influence major decisions with the help of investment funds. After much deliberation, Yeonseo’s father allowed Juno, his uncle’s son and Yeonseo’s cousin, to join the company. He thought that, with his son working as an executive, his brother wouldn’t make any decisions that would hurt the company.Without much effort, Yeonseo’s uncle’s family had secured a place within the conglomerate. They carried themselves with the confidence that Seosang Group, originally Seosang Trading, had always belonged to the eldest son, and that they were asking for far less than what they were entitled to.Yeonseo was too young to understand what was happening, but his older brother, Junseo, always felt chased by Juno. Being the same age only worsened the situation. I have to do better than Juno. I can’t let the family look down on us because of me. Though it wasn’t the only reason, Yeonseo felt that Juno had contributed to the loss of his brother. From the beginning, there was no way for them to get along.Suhan’s hatred for Juno was simple. Juno was incompetent, holding a high position despite contributing nothing. When Suhan worked under Juno, he constantly argued that Juno’s plans would lead to failure. Thanks to Suhan’s relentless interference, they avoided losses in the tens or hundreds of billions.So, it made sense that they were enemies. However, strangely enough, Juno didn’t hate Suhan. On the contrary, he kept trying to win him over, as if bringing Suhan to his side would give him control over all of Seosang Group. Whatever the reason, Yeonseo hated the idea of Suhan working with Juno. When Suhan finally became director, forcing Juno to leave for the overseas branch, things seemed to settle for a while. But now, Suhan’s absence was becoming a problem again. Yeonseo held his head in frustration at the troublesome situation.After work, Yeonseo dragged his heavy feet home, where Suhan, as always, was waiting for him.“You did well today?”The lighthearted question melted away Yeonseo’s rigid heart, despite its weight. With a bitter smile, Yeonseo wrapped Suhan in a tight hug.“…?”Suhan was taken aback by Yeonseo’s silent embrace. Did something difficult happen today? Did he get into a fight with a colleague? Was there really someone brave enough to challenge the son of the owner? Suhan, filled with questions, patted Yeonseo’s back.“Did you have a hard day?”Yeonseo couldn’t bring himself to say anything as he looked at Suhan’s puzzled face.“No, I just got tired from running around for meetings outside.”The Suhan before he lost his memory would have known that Yeonseo rarely had to leave the office for work. But the current Suhan had no idea. He simply nodded at the flimsy excuse.“Was it for meetings? Don’t they have good video conferencing systems these days? Why did you have to go back and forth?”Suhan’s warm hands, gently soothing Yeonseo’s back, were so comforting that Yeonseo didn’t want to lose that warmth. Fearing the day would end without accomplishing anything, Yeonseo quickly pushed Suhan toward the kitchen.“I’ll change quickly and be right back, so can you get the ingredients ready?”“Huh? Oh, sure.”Suhan, still puzzled, raised an eyebrow as he watched Yeonseo rush off. Something didn’t seem right.“It seems like something did happen…”He mumbled to himself, but by the time Yeonseo returned, his words had faded away. As always, the meal was delicious, and the intimate moment that followed was satisfying, as was Suhan’s body, which, though verbally reserved, was anything but once things heated up. Yet, despite everything, Suhan couldn’t shake the nagging sense of unease that filled his mind. The next day, as soon as Yeonseo left for work, Suhan searched for the office phone and checked the call log.[010-XXXX-XXXX]Yes, this was the number. After taking a short breath, Suhan dialed his mother-in-law’s number. It didn’t take long for a cheerful voice to greet him.— Oh, is that you, Suhan?Suhan responded in a calm voice.“Yes, it’s me. How have you been?”— Of course, I’ve been well! It hasn’t even been that long since I last called, but Yeonseo keeps scolding me not to bother you. He’s so strict I’m almost too scared to call!“Haha, please understand. He’s been worrying a lot because I’ve been having a hard time since the accident.”Suhan’s relaxed tone, though perhaps unfamiliar to the other person, didn’t raise any suspicions. The conversation flowed naturally, but Suhan knew that if it dragged on, something might seem off. So, he quickly shifted to the main point.“By the way, has anything happened at work lately? Yeonseo doesn’t show it, but he seems to be struggling a bit.”His voice was low and secretive, like a snake whispering.After the call ended, Suhan pressed his fingers to his brow, lost in thought. It was exactly as expected. A year had passed, but there were so many materials left behind. With so many plans just abandoned, the fallout was bound to be significant. A whole department had ground to a halt because their leader had disappeared, so complaints were inevitable. The fact that they had waited six months could be seen as remarkable patience—or perhaps it was simply that there were no immediate concerns about revenue.During Suhan’s leisurely leave, he had learned that the Seosang Group’s management style was generally aggressive. The company had originally grown rapidly through bold investments and innovative project selections. Just as Seosang was settling into its current position and starting to slacken, Suhan had joined, and it was no surprise that he was considered more than just the son-in-law—he was the real heir in waiting.For someone who should be leading Seosang’s sharp and smart challenges, disappearing without a word naturally stirred controversy. Suhan let out a low groan.“Ugh…”Even Suhan could see that returning to work was urgent, but in his current condition, that was impossible.— Juno is returning to Korea soon. He’ll probably manage things until you come back. Since he’s handled these tasks before, there’s really no one better suited.Suhan’s mother-in-law spoke with a subdued tone, as if she knew well the difficult position Suhan was in. Suhan understood that it was a decision the company had to make and that he wasn’t in a position to strongly object. Still, it was a decision that worked against him. If the replacement performed too well and stayed in his role, then what was to be done with someone already cast aside?In any case, the conclusion was simple: Suhan needed to make an appearance. Officially returning to work was out of the question, but he had to at least demonstrate that he wasn’t incapable or sidelined because of any severe personal issue. He needed to prove that he hadn’t been discarded as useless or suffering from a serious problem.Suhan clicked his tongue in frustration and walked back to his room. Stacks of documents that he had looked over countless times were piled high. There had to be something… something that could help jog his memory. He didn’t really want to end this lifestyle, but if there were a way to regain at least his work-related abilities, that would be good. His room, however, was filled with materials that had grown so familiar they were almost worn smooth from overuse.With a displeased expression, Suhan habitually ran his fingers through his hair. Then, he headed to the storage room and began digging through the boxes again. He had already seen everything once, but out of desperation, he started pulling out the contents again. Then suddenly, a photo hanging on the wall caught his eye. It was something he had seen shortly after being discharged. The photos showed a child who had clearly grown up loved by his parents.And then Suhan realized something. This island—hadn’t he seen it before? Suddenly, a splitting headache hit him. The scenes from his dream kept overlapping with his vision. He was sinking deeper and deeper into the sea, and someone smaller than him rushed toward him, blocking his way… But just like before, the child’s face remained obscured as if deliberately blurred.“Ugh…”The unexpected pain nearly caused Suhan to lose his footing. Grasping his forehead, Suhan confirmed that the island behind Yeonseo in his dreams was the same one. He quickly turned on his laptop. There was no time to hesitate. After checking the deed record for the address listed in the school records, Suhan let out a deep, exasperated sigh.“…Yeonseo.”[(Regarding Ownership)]Registration Purpose: Transfer of Ownership

Filed: XX, 199X, Filing No. XXXXXX

Registration Reason: Sale on XX, 199X

Owner and Other Information: Owner – Jo HwanjungThe name wasn’t common, so it had to be him. Yeonseo had received private tuition support from the Seosang Group’s madam and had lived in a mansion owned by the chairman of Seosang Group. The meaning was clear. And there was even an unexpected phone entry saved as “Suhan hyung.”‘So, to summarize: you first met as colleagues, and then, encouraged by your parents, you got married—something like that?’There couldn’t be anything wrong with that statement unless they hadn’t known each other before their work relationship. However, the background in the photo seemed to confirm that they had met by the sea long ago, leaving Suhan confused. Even if Yeonseo’s parents had only sponsored him and they hadn’t had any personal interactions until they started working together, Yeonseo should have at least told him the truth. That Suhan had received support from the Seosang Group for a long time.Suhan wasn’t sure how much Yeonseo had deceived him or hidden, but this uncertainty made everything seem even more dubious.The unnaturally distant behavior, the way Yeonseo had pushed him away—it all suddenly made sense. Had there been a reason behind Yeonseo’s coldness and the divorce papers he had handed over? The situation Suhan had tried to ignore was now hitting him hard.“Haha… ha…”Suhan laughed bitterly as he clutched his head. But what now, Yeonseo? It doesn’t matter to me whether you lied or sweet-talked me. I didn’t do all this just to keep you tied to me for nothing. Whenever he tried to escape, Suhan had been the one to chase after him. You need to stay by my side. That’s what matters to me.Suhan mumbled to himself and immediately dialed the number from his earlier call.“Yes, I was just thinking about what you mentioned earlier. Since Juno is coming back to Korea soon, it’s been a while since we all got together. We should have a family meal. We’re not strangers, after all.”If they weren’t going to say anything, he would have to force the issue. Even if Suhan’s memory was a blank slate, his stubbornness remained.After receiving an enthusiastic agreement and ending the call, the sound of waves faintly reached his ears.* * *Life by the seaside was uneventful and always the same. On weekdays, Yeonseo would secretly follow Suhan to school or work on the homework Suhan had given him, waiting for Suhan to return home. When Suhan came back, he would check Yeonseo’s homework, explain how to solve problems, or tell him what he needed to memorize before they had dinner. On days when the sun stayed up late, they would take a brief walk along the beach in front of the house before his parents returned.“…”Suhan didn’t speak much during these walks. Like a local resident walking their dog, Suhan would occasionally glance at Yeonseo, who trailed behind him, sneaking peeks at him as he led the way.“Don’t run. You’ll get sand in your shoes.”Aside from these occasional remarks, their conversations were sparse, but for Yeonseo, it was enough.“I-I, today, memorized, twenty, English words… I, got them, all, right on, the test…”When Yeonseo first came to Gangneung, he couldn’t say a single word, but now, with a noticeably brighter expression, he spoke to Suhan, who looked down at him with a disinterested expression.“C-Can’t you, praise, me, for that?”It was the kind of speech unique to young kids—seeking praise and attention by boasting about anything. Suhan couldn’t help but let out a small, incredulous laugh. If you want to brag to me, surely you have better things to show off than this. This big house, which is owned by your parents, or the fact that your older brother died, leaving you to inherit everything from Seosang Group, or… Suhan, without realizing it, turned his head away, overcome with a sense of inferiority. Then, he snapped back with a spiteful tone.“Why would I?”Yeonseo’s face quickly filled with despair. The fact that he could openly display his emotions like that was something Suhan envied. Suhan could never afford to do that. Even in moments when he could’ve escaped punishment, he had stubbornly shown his emotions on his face, only to be hit. This kid wouldn’t get that kind of treatment, though. No one would dare lay a hand on him, especially with parents who held such superior power and cherished him as if he were a precious jewel. Who would dare? As Suhan turned his head away with indifference, Yeonseo cried out in panic.“I-I’ll try harder!”“What does your effort have to do with me?”It had nothing to do with him. Whether Jo Yeonseo grew up to become a great adult and contributed to society or turned Saesang Group into a global company, it had no bearing on the miserable life of Lee Suhan. Their starting lines were completely different, and their futures would only diverge even more. But Yeonseo, who had no way of understanding Suhan’s thoughts, looked shocked and began to scratch his arm—though he was soon stopped.“What are you doing? Are you protesting?”Suhan grabbed Yeonseo’s wrist to prevent him from hurting himself. Realizing that bending down to accommodate the height difference was bothersome, Suhan sighed briefly.“Ha…”Then, out of nowhere, Suhan slid an arm under Yeonseo’s knees, wrapped the other around his back, and lifted him into his arms.“Stop being annoying and stay still.”Suhan’s intent was to prevent Yeonseo from getting scolded for causing trouble, but he didn’t realize that for Yeonseo, this was the ultimate reward. The warmth of Suhan’s embrace, holding him tightly, was a comfort Suhan would never acknowledge.