To Me, Who Doesn’t Love You

There are times in life when you are suddenly gripped by a strong sense of déjà vu, an unsettling feeling that you’ve seen, heard, or been somewhere before. For several days now, Suhan had been waking up hypersensitive to a sound that echoed in his ears.“What is that sound…?”The noise of something hard but small falling and bouncing on the floor had been stuck in his mind for days.“During early pregnancy, it’s common to be more sensitive and easily excited, so try to stay as relaxed as possible,” the basic advice he had received at the hospital suddenly felt meaningless. As if that were something he could control. If he had ever been able to manage his sensitivity, he wouldn’t have been so infamous for his bad temper in the first place. Frustrated, he got up and checked the time. Of course, Yeonseo had already gone to work, and the clock showed that it had been hours since.The storm that followed the conclusion of the presentation had also entered a temporary lull. Thanks to the reporters at the event who immediately rushed back to headquarters to flood the media with articles about the pregnancy, his name had been trending everywhere—from real-time trends to the top YouTube videos.[Scandal-Plagued Lee Suhan: The Real Reason He Left Kitchen Play?][Kitchen Play Star Lee Suhan Announces Private News with Chaebol Heiress][Lee Suhan to Become a Father Next Spring]He supposed he should be relieved that the controversy was not about something negative. And thank goodness the comments section on the entertainment pages had been removed. But it only took a moment before he saw the flood of articles on other platforms like YouTube, filled with infuriating stories. Most of the opinions expressed pity for the child.No matter how much someone might come off as rude publicly, who would behave like that in their own home? Although he couldn’t completely dismiss the idea that the pre-amnesia version of himself might have acted that way, it was something he didn’t really know for sure. Letting out a light sigh, he turned off his phone. His eyes then landed on the laptop he had pushed to the side of the table. That, too, had been on his mind.“Ha…”Two days after the presentation, the file he had received from the data recovery company had been shocking. Despite recovering many of the corrupted files, most were just unusable audio files—recorded automatically, with neither clear images nor sound. The only file large enough to be recoverable had no visuals, only sound.Why had the housekeeper handed it over with such a grave expression? Was it possible that the relatives had intentionally set this up to create confusion? With these thoughts swirling in his mind, he had played the file, and what came through the speakers had been startling.— Crackle… Entering XX tollgate, turn right towards ○○… Crackle… Uh, I’m driving right now. I’ll call back after I get out, just hang up for now. Crackle… I said there’s nothing more to say! Crackle… Just hang up already! Ugh… damn stalker, as if making everyone’s life miserable wasn’t enough… Crackle… What the hell is this now? Crackle… The brakes… Crackle…It was his voice, cutting someone off mid-conversation and cursing angrily as he seemed to realize something was wrong with the car. Then, there was a loud crash, a scraping noise as the wheels spun out, and the sound of the car’s underside dragging against the ground, followed by what sounded like it falling off a cliff. Even though it was just audio, the chilling screech was enough to make his skin crawl and his breath catch in his throat, a grim reminder that he had narrowly survived a brush with death.Immediately after the recording of the accident, the audio shifted to what sounded like ambient kitchen noises: dishes clinking in the sink and the motor of an appliance whirring in the background.— —-! —–!Though it was impossible to discern what was being said, the tone and rhythm of the voice suggested it was a middle-aged woman calling someone.“What could this be…?”He could only make one assumption. The audio seemed to be recorded from the kitchen, as if someone had pretended to be working there while secretly recording the sounds from the living room. To fully understand what had happened, he needed to speak with the person who had given him the file.In a hurry, he called the house and, using a recipe as an excuse, asked for the housekeeper’s contact information, claiming that he wanted to ask about a dish she had made because it was so delicious. But the response was that she no longer worked there and had no contact information. He managed to at least get the name of the staffing agency and called their headquarters, only to be told that they couldn’t provide contact information for former employees.Even though he risked being caught in a lie, he pushed further, saying the food had been so exceptional that he wanted to offer her a TV appearance. Yet, there was still no lead.“Oh, well, we actually tried calling to let her know, but it seems she changed her number. It’s been disconnected.”To prove they weren’t just making excuses, the agency even gave him the number they had, but when he dialed, the automated message told him it was no longer in service. She had disappeared without a trace, and there was nothing more he could do.“Hmm…”He had finally caught a lead, but now, having lost his direction, Suhan’s thoughts were in turmoil. Did the “big house” have some leverage over him? Or… if his accident was orchestrated by the “big house,” it didn’t make sense for them to cut ties and erase all traces like this.The car had been scrapped long ago, and the black box had disappeared, leaving only the navigation voice on the recording as a clue. Why was he heading toward the XX tollgate that day? As Suhan searched the route on his navigation app, he uncovered another shocking detail.[Popular Restaurants Near XX Tollgate – A Lucky Find on the Way to Gangneung]



[First Trip with My Fiancé! We Were So Excited for the Drive, but It Rained Nonstop ㅠㅠ The original route was closed, so we had to take a detour…]Many reviews and posts related to the XX tollgate mentioned the same thing: when traveling from Seoul to the vacation home, the route changed in bad weather. If Suhan searched for the route under normal weather conditions, it wouldn’t lead him anywhere near the XX tollgate. However, when he set the app for heavy traffic and bad weather, the route adjusted to a detour that cut 15 minutes off the travel time. Apparently, one of the roads normally included in the route became completely gridlocked in the rain, making it impassable.So, on that rainy day, Suhan had been heading to the vacation home. He couldn’t be sure without confirming the final destination, but it seemed likely.His head throbbed as if it were going to split, and the sound he had been hearing in his dreams for what felt like an eternity echoed once again in his mind. A thunk… a rolling sound… then a clatter as if something bounced and hit an obstruction. Just then, startled by a ringing sound from outside, Suhan accidentally knocked over a mug of warm water he had set aside, sending it crashing to the floor.“Who’s there?”Shocked by the sight of water spilled across the floor, Suhan shouted before even checking the intercom. A woman’s voice responded from outside.“Hello, we’re from the local church. If you don’t mind….”“If I mind?” Suhan let out a deep sigh and shouted back.“There’s no adult at home!”It was a laughable excuse, especially with his voice sounding so much like that of a grown man, but it was the only thing he could think of.“Alright, I understand~,” the woman said, backing off without a fuss.Only then did Suhan feel as if he had finally woken from a deep sleep. As he stared at the shattered mug on the floor, he suddenly realized where the sound that had haunted him had come from.It was the sound from the day he was attacked by an intruder. The sound of him grabbing a shard of pottery and throwing it as he tried to escape. Some of the shards had flown into a crevice so deep that they could only be retrieved by breaking the built-in furniture. If the shards were still there, maybe there were also traces of blood spatter he had caused while defending himself. The thought pushed Suhan into action—he couldn’t sit still any longer.Suhan stood up, ready to hail a taxi and head to the villa immediately. However, a sudden sense of unease made him pause. He had been told that, due to the lack of space in a male omega’s body for a baby, there would occasionally be pain, especially in the early stages. But the sudden, sharp ache he felt now seemed like a clear sign to take it easy. Moving alone would be difficult anyway with all the anxiety… Suhan took a deep breath and lay down on the sofa.Maybe he could ask Yeonseo to go with him over the weekend if he had time. If nothing had been cleaned up by now, it wouldn’t suddenly disappear in a few days. Even if someone tried to destroy the evidence in the meantime, there were security cameras that could confirm if anyone had been there. They might not be able to catch exactly what had been done, but they wouldn’t be able to erase the visit.‘I’ll think it over first.’Charging ahead without any clear memories of what had happened could have unforeseen consequences. It was important not to let the other side know what Suhan was thinking or what he knew. Trying to shake off his uneasy thoughts, Suhan turned on the TV to distract himself. The documentary he’d paused last night began playing—a special on the North Pacific marine ecosystem.From whales leaping out of the water to seabirds hovering in hopes of snatching fish, and even swordfish with their sleek, agile snouts—it was a dazzling scene. The shimmering silver bodies of the fish reflected the sunlight like a sea of stars.‘Just because I had a dream about an ocean doesn’t mean I have to name our baby Bada.’Of course, there was no need. But dismissing the list Yeonseo had carefully chosen for him didn’t sit well either. As he kept watching, he started to doze off. He knew there wasn’t time to relax like this, but when he woke up again, Yeonseo had already come home from work.“Oh, you were sleeping so soundly I didn’t want to wake you. I’m making dinner, so you can rest a little more if you want…”When Suhan sleepily opened his eyes, Yeonseo was busy in the kitchen, surrounded by ingredients. The savory smell of something that seemed to involve ground pork filled the room. As Suhan, still groggy, tried to get up, Yeonseo quickly waved his hands.“I’m almost done, so just sit back and relax!”But if Suhan were the type to listen to a single request, they wouldn’t be in this situation to begin with. Ignoring the plea, Suhan quickly moved to the kitchen and peeked over at what Yeonseo was cooking—stir-fried minced meat with vegetables in a soy sauce base.“What’s this?”Next to the pan, a cast-iron pot was releasing steam. Suhan tilted his head at the rather elaborate setup, prompting a shy response from Yeonseo.“It’s sotbap. We’ve been eating a lot of Western food lately, so I thought it’d be nice to have rice for a change…”Only Yeonseo could announce sotbap like it was some grand confession. Amused, Suhan felt a mischievous urge to suddenly hug Yeonseo from behind, but he resisted. He knew if he started now, there’d be no stopping. They’d been advised to abstain from sexual activity for two to three months to ensure the baby settled safely.‘But…’The advice had been to avoid intercourse, not excitement, right? Suhan, with this convenient rationalization in mind, quietly approached Yeonseo from behind and wrapped his arms around his sturdy frame.“Wait… just let me take off these gloves first…”Thinking it was just a friendly hug, Yeonseo smiled happily. But as Suhan’s hands began to slide under his shirt, Yeonseo quickly turned red and started to protest.“S-Suhan, wait… your hands…”Yeonseo’s face flushed as he squirmed like someone caught in an awkward situation. Suhan, full of mischief, couldn’t help but keep going.“What’s wrong? I told you to call me ‘hyung,’ but you always act like you don’t hear me.”Suhan teased as his fingers slid lower, tickling Yeonseo’s abs. He could feel the muscles tensing up, and he wasn’t naive enough to miss what that tension signified. Despite pretending to resist, Yeonseo clearly responded every time. Suhan stifled a grin.“It’s just… out of habit…”As Yeonseo mumbled a half-hearted excuse, Suhan’s hand crept even lower.“Did you call me ‘Suhan’ even before my accident?”“That’s…”His response was a vague murmur, but it was clear enough. Annoyed, Suhan swiftly undid Yeonseo’s pants buckle and boldly grabbed him.“Ah… but the doctor said we should abstain for three months…”If Yeonseo really wanted to push him away, he’d at least take off the gloves first. Maybe he didn’t think that far, or maybe he didn’t really want to resist. Either way, Suhan continued teasing, running his hands over Yeonseo’s trembling body.“When did I say we were going that far?”Yeonseo’s eyes widened in surprise at Suhan’s blunt words. His expression was so innocent and confused that Suhan nearly burst out laughing. Instead, he gripped tighter, feeling Yeonseo’s arousal through the layers of clothing.As Suhan began to slowly stroke, Yeonseo gasped, his breath hitching as he closed his eyes. His long eyelashes fluttered like butterfly wings, adding to the delicate beauty of his face. Suhan couldn’t help but think how ridiculous it was that he always fell for this innocent act. But he knew better—Yeonseo’s body was already betraying his thoughts, his veins bulging under Suhan’s touch.“I’ll just pull it out, just pull it out.”As Suhan quickly ran his hand over the center of Yeonseo, he could feel his own lower abdomen tightening with excitement. Being a male omega has its perks in moments like this. Suhan lightly tapped Yeonseo’s waist with his other hand, prompting him to turn around. When Yeonseo, with his flushed face, stood facing him, Suhan hurriedly untied his waistband and pulled down his pants. Then, he pulled out his fully erect member, using his large hand to grab both of their genitals together. Since holding just one was difficult enough with one hand due to their size, he had to use both hands to firmly grasp them together.“Haa…”As Suhan let out a long sigh and pressed his hips forward, their shafts rubbed and pressed against each other, clear fluid oozing from the tips, causing low moans to escape involuntarily.“Mm… Ugh…”It was a different sensation than when he was thrusting inside. Even though they were both men with fully functional genitals, and that fact was impossible to ignore after countless times of their hard bodies colliding, this was the first time they had rubbed against each other like this, as if they were masturbating together. The strange pleasure surged from his toes.“Huff… Ugh… Disappointed it’s not inside?”Suhan teased as he pressed the tip of his shaft up against Yeonseo’s lower abdomen, causing him to shake his head immediately. Then, as if asking for a kiss, Yeonseo licked the side of Suhan’s lips and gently sucked on them. If he really wanted it, he could just go for it. It was obvious now that Yeonseo wasn’t just trying to take control, but wanted Suhan to take the lead. Suhan could clearly read his intentions, but he didn’t mind; instead, he smiled and devoured Yeonseo’s lips, sucking and biting them.By the time their somewhat restrained activities had ended, it was a little late for dinner. In their haste to turn off the stove and get closer, they had left the rice cooker unattended for far too long, causing the bottom of the pot to burn. When Suhan scraped the bottom with a spoon, instead of the appetizing golden brown color he expected, blackened, burnt bits flaked off. Though it was charred and dark like charcoal, the upper part of the rice was still perfectly cooked, making it tempting enough for Suhan to scoop up the best part, full of vegetables like seasoned greens and lotus roots, and eat it.“Wait a minute. You’re eating just plain rice.”As Suhan was savoring the fragrant mix of vegetables before stirring in the sauce, he noticed Yeonseo’s bowl and couldn’t help but chuckle. Yeonseo had only taken the plain rice near the slightly burnt parts, where there was still a faint burnt smell, leaving everything else behind.“Mix it up a little.”Knowing exactly why Yeonseo had done that but still speaking as if scolding a picky child, Suhan scooped some of the deliciously seasoned ingredients from his bowl and placed them on top of Yeonseo’s. Yeonseo mumbled quietly.“I’m fine…”“But I’m not fine with that.”Watching Yeonseo chew and swallow, his ears turning slightly red, was utterly endearing. He’s turning thirty soon, but how can he still be this cute? Suhan couldn’t help but smile to himself, imagining how adorable a child who took after Yeonseo would be. He envisioned a newborn who didn’t look much like himself, and the thought made the corners of his lips curl up.After finishing their late dinner and getting ready for bed, Suhan naturally headed to the bedroom. It had become a routine for them to sleep together in the master bedroom. Lying down first, Suhan pulled back the covers slightly and patted the bed. Yeonseo shivered a little at the gesture.“What’s that supposed to mean?”“Aren’t you coming to bed? My arm’s hurting.”“Okay, I’ll lie down soon…”But instead of coming straight to bed, Yeonseo grabbed a tablet and a stack of documents from the wall-mounted rack where his bag hung. Suhan clicked on the bedside lamp and asked.“Do you need to look at something before sleeping?”Wasn’t the urgent stuff already taken care of? Suhan tilted his head in curiosity, and Yeonseo, settling into bed with his legs under the blanket and propping up a pillow, replied.“Oh, it’s about the presentation we gave to the external guests last time. The internal feedback was good, so we’ve decided to expand on it at our company-wide seminar.”“Oh?”Seeing Suhan’s eyes light up in the dimly lit room, Yeonseo continued in a soft voice.“So… it’s called a seminar, but it’s really more of a meeting to share the current projects or key initiatives from each business unit. All the executives from other divisions, not just the food and beverage unit, will be attending, so there’s a lot to prepare.”It sounded more important than he had initially let on. And you didn’t tell me about it? Suhan raised an eyebrow, and Yeonseo flinched before quickly adding.“Ah, it was only finalized today. I was going to tell you tonight…”“Ahhh~.”Seeing Suhan’s expression relax again, Yeonseo breathed a small sigh of relief. Suhan had certainly softened a lot compared to when they first started working in the same division, but his standards were still just as high.What that meant was, though Suhan might not show it outwardly, the level he expected was always quite demanding.In other words, it was hard to tell from his facial expression whether the result was satisfactory or lacking.“Good job” on the surface didn’t mean much. Even if he praised the effort upfront, Yeonseo knew that Suhan would likely go and completely overhaul everything later. So, there was no choice but to prepare everything meticulously to the point where nothing could possibly fall short.“Do you need me to take a look through the materials?”At Suhan’s casual suggestion, Yeonseo immediately shook his head. Although Suhan’s help would guarantee a perfect outcome, he couldn’t bring himself to ask a pregnant Suhan, whose body was already unstable in the early stages, for help.“No, I want to try handling this presentation by myself. I’ve already got the general direction figured out….”Yeonseo trailed off, and Suhan looked at him curiously. After taking a short breath, Yeonseo exhaled slowly and spoke again.“I can’t keep relying on you, Suhan hyung… I want to be someone who can help you too.”In other words, he was uncomfortable with always depending on Suhan and wanted to prove he could stand on his own. While he might not match Suhan’s natural business and presentation skills, it didn’t mean he could lean on Suhan for every event. Yeonseo didn’t want to be seen as a needy, dependent person but rather as a partner Suhan could trust. And Suhan wasn’t heartless enough to respond harshly to such sincere intentions.“When I’ve prepared everything, would it be okay if I showed it to you?”Though the request reverted back to something like an employee asking their boss to review their work, Suhan found Yeonseo’s determination both admirable and cute. He nodded readily.“Sure, give it your best shot.”He wasn’t some parent bird watching all its fledglings leave an empty nest, but still, Suhan felt a slight twinge of melancholy. However, his desire to support Yeonseo’s effort was stronger.The soft rustling of paper and the light scratching of the electronic pen across the screen filled the room as Suhan dozed off, leaning against Yeonseo’s side.Who knows how much time had passed? When Suhan stirred awake, the room was pitch dark. He had missed the moment to bring it up. He should have said something as soon as he arrived, but instead, he’d dozed off in his seat after spending time fooling around with Yeonseo. It was frustrating, but at least there were no regrets—some moments can only be enjoyed in the moment. He decided he would talk to Yeonseo first thing in the morning, either by phone or text, about visiting the villa.From what Yeonseo had said before bed, the seminar was fast approaching, and Yeonseo’s presentation had been added on short notice, leaving little time to prepare. He even mentioned he might have to work over the weekend.There wasn’t enough time to wait until next weekend. Although it wouldn’t make a big difference if he visited a few weeks later, the thought of delaying and neglecting it any longer was getting on his nerves.If syncing schedules with Yeonseo became too difficult, he’d just take a taxi or maybe start practicing driving again. Given the massive accident he’d been in, he hadn’t wanted to touch a steering wheel for a long time, but it wasn’t practical for a grown man not to drive. If they were planning to raise a child, he couldn’t avoid driving forever. He figured that with a few lessons, he could get the hang of it again, but the idea of driving long distances, especially through the area where the accident occurred, still seemed reckless.So, driving was off the table for now. As Suhan sorted through these thoughts, his phone on the bedside table lit up.“…?”A call at this hour? Curious, Suhan picked up his phone and unlocked the screen.“Hmm…?”It was a photo sent from a suspiciously long number, likely from overseas. Was it spam? Suhan was about to delete it but was suddenly struck by a bad feeling. He couldn’t just ignore it. This was his new number, known only to close family and a few select people, including PD Jo Eun-ah. Out of caution, he checked the file size before downloading the photo. The moment the image appeared on his screen, Suhan felt his heart turn cold.“…”The photo was taken in a dimly lit interior, likely at a high-end bar given the crystal glass with brown liquid on the high table. In the photo were two people sitting close together. One of them was unmistakably Suhan. He was gripping the rim of a glass with one hand, looking annoyed as he glared at the man with his arm draped over Suhan’s shoulder.