To Me, Who Doesn’t Love You

The dinner Yeonseo prepared was, as always, delicious. The noodles were perfectly cooked, blending well with a salty yet savory sauce that filled Suhan’s mouth with a nutty yet refreshing taste. The vegetables were fresh, and the pork, which had been boiled separately and sliced into bite-sized pieces, was warm and glossy. With a sauce made with various nuts to enhance the flavor, it was a meal that, while simple, couldn’t be topped.“……”As Suhan emptied his bowl in one swift motion, he hesitated for a moment, wondering whether to ask for more. Noticing this, Yeonseo promptly served the remaining portion in a fresh bowl, making Suhan feel as though his thoughts had been read, leading him to clear his throat awkwardly.“If it’s too much, feel free to leave it. I’ll clean up.”Worried Suhan might feel embarrassed, Yeonseo added this as a gentle reassurance. The attentiveness in each gesture made Suhan feel mildly irritated, almost like he was a child being coddled. Not wanting to take out his frustrations on Yeonseo, he kept quiet and picked up his chopsticks again.After the brief meal ended, Suhan stood up with his plate and moved toward the sink. The dishes had piled up, so he planned to load them into the dishwasher rather than washing them by hand. As Suhan turned on the water for a quick rinse, Yeonseo quickly approached him.“I’ll handle it; please just have a seat.”The overly formal speech grated on Suhan’s nerves, causing his eyebrows to furrow for a moment before a subtle, sweet scent reached his nose.“……? I said I’d do it.”As he idly debated with Yeonseo, Suhan realized that the sweet smell wasn’t coming from a fruit basket or the fridge; it was Yeonseo’s scent. It seemed almost floral, similar to a fabric softener or room freshener. Now that he focused on it, it was a slightly fruity fragrance. Since when did a guy’s pheromones smell this sweet? The thought crossed Suhan’s mind, sparking an odd sense of déjà vu. Had he thought something like this before?However, this was the first time Suhan had truly caught Yeonseo’s pheromone scent. Although he only faintly smelled it in passing, it was odd because Yeonseo typically took suppressants at doses high enough to prevent any noticeable scent, likely due to the risk of side effects. Suhan hadn’t known Yeonseo’s pheromones had such a sweet scent until today.“……”As Suhan lingered, lost in thought about the pheromone scent, Yeonseo took the initiative, swiftly gathering the dishes from the table and placing them in the sink. Left with nothing to do, Suhan retreated to his room. And from that point, he couldn’t stop thinking about it. Why was Yeonseo suddenly emitting a pheromone scent he hadn’t before?Suhan was familiar with general pheromone knowledge: pheromone cycles typically synchronized with close companions, such as an omega partner who is pregnant and whose heat cycle has temporarily halted. Unless someone intentionally releases their pheromones, there shouldn’t be detectable levels.Surely, Yeonseo wasn’t doing it on purpose. If he was unknowingly emitting pheromones, then… Suhan quickly grew irritated at the possibility that Yeonseo’s system no longer recognized him as close enough to sync their cycles.Annoyance aside, it wasn’t entirely unexpected. It had been weeks since Suhan’s memories had returned, and there had been no real physical interaction or pheromone exchanges, so naturally, their cycles might start to misalign. But this fact grated on him. He disliked the thought that others might detect the sweet scent Yeonseo was giving off unknowingly.Maybe Yeonseo didn’t realize he was emitting pheromones, but thinking of him inadvertently releasing it around others made Suhan feel sick. Even if Yeonseo wouldn’t resist if someone else pressured him, he was seething inside, despite knowing he could do nothing about it.Suhan took a lukewarm shower, trying to cool off. Pouring cool water over his head only slightly eased his annoyance, which clung to him like the humid heat.Perhaps because he was already attuned to it, the warmth rising within him seemed to intensify, though it wasn’t in a good way. Just as he resolved to cool off with a glass of cold water, he walked into the living room and caught a stronger whiff of that sweet scent emanating from the bedroom, where Yeonseo seemed to be rummaging through a drawer.Not long after, Yeonseo emerged, wearing a casual outfit, complete with a mask and a hat pulled low over his face.“Huh.”The moment their eyes met, Yeonseo blushed and quickly looked away.“I-I’ll be back. Just stepping out for a bit.”Did he not have any suppressants at home? Was he planning to find a 24-hour pharmacy or even head to the emergency room? Suhan couldn’t help but laugh at how completely bundled up Yeonseo was.“And where exactly are you going dressed like that?”Suhan’s cold gaze swept Yeonseo from head to toe, prompting him to answer in a barely steady voice.“Just to the convenience store nearby…”Who goes to the convenience store looking like that? Are you a celebrity or something? I couldn’t help but scoff.“And you expect me to believe that?”“……”Not that it mattered whether Suhan believed him or not. Yeonseo seemed intent on getting out to find some suppressants, trying to keep Suhan from catching a whiff of his pheromones. When Suhan had lost his memory, he’d often teased Yeonseo, saying his pheromones were sweeter than anything he’d smelled. But the Suhan Yeonseo had known all this time was an alpha who despised even incidental contact with others’ pheromones.“…Please move aside.”Time was running out, and Yeonseo gave up on reasoning with Suhan, trying to escape before being told that his scent was revolting. It wasn’t easy for Yeonseo, who’d grown used to Suhan’s affection, to endure the sudden coldness now that his memory had returned. He wanted to get rid of the scent from his body that he couldn’t control.Suhan’s expression was unreadable as he blocked Yeonseo’s path, much to his bewilderment. Suhan was equally unsettled. He didn’t understand why he felt so aggravated or why Yeonseo’s scent was so compelling.“…Please.”At last, Yeonseo looked down, nearly on the verge of tears, pleading softly. Suhan couldn’t hold back any longer. He grabbed Yeonseo’s wrist, pulling him closer and removing his mask. Pressing his lips against Yeonseo’s, he tasted the sweetness he’d only faintly sensed before, the overly sweet flavor filling his mouth, and he had no desire to pull away.Yeonseo, struggling to break free, raised his hands as if to push Suhan away, but Suhan was quicker, pinning his arms and pressing him against the wall. Finally, Yeonseo gasped and broke the kiss, pleading breathlessly.“Please… don’t…”Don’t? Why? We used to be so close, almost inseparable. I still remember those intimate moments so vividly that it’s infuriating. So why is it okay for that other person and not me? All my attempts to ignore this division between my past self and the person I am now had been shattered, and I felt an anger that was irrational but undeniable, as if I was questioning a cheating spouse.“Why? You don’t want to do it with me?”Yeonseo flinched and avoided eye contact in response to Suhan’s growling words. He then lowered his head, looking as if he might cry, and replied resignedly.“If I… touch you, it’s a violation of the contract…”Suhan, who expected Yeonseo to say that their relationship was inappropriate or that he shouldn’t act this way since he didn’t even like him, felt as though he’d been hit over the head. So, it wasn’t because he didn’t want to—it was because Suhan had told him not to? Looking up at Yeonseo, who was now cornered against the wall, Suhan noticed tears pooling in his eyes as he gritted his teeth, as if trying hard to restrain his own impulses.Once he became aware of Yeonseo’s proximity, he couldn’t ignore it. Though his face showed a reluctant, almost crying expression, the presence of his inner thigh muscles was clearly noticeable.“Jo Yeonseo, you rebellious brat…”Suhan was at a loss for words. He hadn’t even used pheromones or anything to entice him, but just one kiss had him reacting so easily. Yet here he was, tightly closing his eyes and holding back as if determined to stay celibate. Suhan couldn’t help but let out an exasperated chuckle.“Stay right there.”Yeonseo’s submissive attitude, as if he’d obediently step into fire if told to, left Suhan at a loss for words. It was as if he had an excessively stubborn side. However, Suhan knew that Yeonseo didn’t act so steadfastly and foolishly around others—only with him.Since it wasn’t a sealed agreement, just a single page signed beside their names, it was obvious what he had to do.Leaving Yeonseo, who was now frozen stiff, Suhan strode into the master bedroom and opened a drawer where he kept important documents. As expected, the contract, the most recently written important document, was lying in a file holder on the right side of the top drawer. Without hesitation, Suhan pulled it out and returned to Yeonseo. Then, right before Yeonseo’s eyes, he tore the thin, handwritten sheet in half lengthwise. Yeonseo’s eyes widened in shock like a startled rabbit.“There, now there’s no issue, right?”Yeonseo was too stunned by Suhan’s assertive attitude to respond. As Yeonseo hesitated, Suhan closed the gap between them. The sweetness filling his mouth made it hard to hold on to his rationality. If he didn’t do something about that maddening sweetness, he didn’t know how he could keep his wits about him.“Shit, why’s it so sweet?”Unconsciously swearing under his breath, Suhan began pulling off Yeonseo’s tightly wrapped clothes. Once he was down to just loungewear, Yeonseo put his arms around Suhan’s waist and pulled him into the master bedroom. The desires Suhan had been suppressing broke free all at once like a dam bursting. He could no longer ignore the feeling of Yeonseo rubbing against the inside of his thigh. He couldn’t hold back anymore.“Haa… huh…”Before he knew it, their long legs were tangled, and by the time Suhan realized where he was, he was already on the bed.“I told you… we shouldn’t…”As he panted, Yeonseo whispered in a low, groaning voice. And so what? Are you not going to do it? Suhan twisted his lips in a smile as he looked down at Yeonseo’s tear-stained lips. When Yeonseo provocatively wrapped his legs around Suhan’s waist, he placed his hands on Suhan’s shoulders, holding him close.“…That’s not how you do it.”“What?”Suhan tilted his head, not understanding what Yeonseo meant. Just then, Yeonseo silenced Suhan’s breath with his lips, deftly unfastening Suhan’s pants buckle with one hand and pulling down his pants. He’d done this countless times before, so it seemed natural. After all, for what they were about to do, it made sense that they would be undressed at least from the waist down. When Suhan flinched, Yeonseo exhaled warm breath over his face.“You liked doing it with clothes on, but since it’s tight here, I thought it’d be better to take them off.”Then, Yeonseo’s hand caressed none other than Suhan’s rounded lower belly. Caught off guard by this sudden turn of events, Suhan didn’t know how to react, frozen as Yeonseo pulled down his underwear, leaving Suhan’s lower half entirely bare. But Yeonseo didn’t stop there.“Because you’re so… wet.”As Yeonseo spread his legs and entered between them, Suhan felt the intense heat. The tight entrance, hidden between his muscular thighs, was already glistening with slick. Slowly, long fingers pried open the folds and plunged inside, sliding out coated with fluid. Suhan couldn’t take his eyes off Yeonseo’s fingers, dripping with thick, transparent liquid.“Just from my scent… you’re dripping.”How could that sweet mouth utter such crude words? Suhan blushed as memories of countless dirty jokes drifted through his mind.“I’m in a hurry too, so, ugh… I’ll be quick.”Before Suhan could even process the situation, Yeonseo’s fingers spread the sensitive, pleated skin open. This time, it wasn’t just one finger but two. His body seemed to accept them smoothly, as if it remembered Yeonseo’s touch.“Ah…!”Finally, when Yeonseo pressed down on a certain spot inside him, Suhan’s waist arched, as if he hadn’t anticipated the sensation. It wasn’t unpleasant. It was just… difficult to bear…“Just from smelling my scent… you’re already dripping.”Could such crude words really come from those gentle lips? Suhan’s face flushed as he remembered all the dirty jokes and fantasies that had been scattered through his mind.“I’m just as impatient, so… ngh… I’ll be quick about it.”Before Suhan could even process what was happening, Yeonseo’s fingers slipped back inside, now with two instead of one. Without much preparation, they entered smoothly, as though his body was already accustomed to this. As the fingers skillfully pressed into sensitive areas, Suhan instinctively tried to bring his legs together. Noticing his tense expression, Yeonseo leaned in and gently kissed the corner of his eye.“Relax. If you’re already this tight on my fingers, there’s no way you’ll take the rest of me.”This side of Yeonseo was unfamiliar to Suhan. The confidence in these actions and the addictive pull of his pheromones were experiences Suhan had never encountered before. Though he felt a hint of fear, the way Yeonseo’s fingers coaxed his body into relaxing felt oddly familiar, as though his body remembered everything they’d done together.“Ah…!”When Yeonseo’s fingers finally pressed against a particular sensitive spot inside, Suhan’s hips jerked reflexively, caught off guard by the intensity of the sensation.It wasn’t unpleasant, but something about it felt… unbearable. As Suhan’s face contorted with confusion, Yeonseo pressed on that same sensitive spot again, and by now, Suhan’s arousal had reached a point where drops of pre-cum were beginning to form.“Ugh…”Suhan had had some experiences before, but for him, these encounters had always felt like an unavoidable burden, tied to his unique biological traits. Since becoming an adult, he’d relied heavily on suppressants to control his urges, but there had been times when circumstances didn’t allow it.Just like everyone else, he’d occasionally allowed himself to engage in these acts—perhaps to prove to himself that he wasn’t the only one overly sensitive or unique. But each encounter only brought deep regret and discomfort. Some people claimed it was a waste to let a few unpleasant experiences color all future relationships, but Suhan had no interest in exploring physical pleasure with numerous partners.Most alphas Suhan had encountered were brute types, trying to dominate him with strength and pheromones. Many were arrogant idiots who acted like they were Casanovas, oblivious to the fact that he found the experience nauseating and degrading. This time, he thought it would be the same; the only difference was that he was with someone familiar. Maybe he’d just watch Yeonseo struggle, unable to handle things. But now, just from Yeonseo’s fingers, Suhan was hard, with his member standing stiffly, much to his embarrassment.It seemed Yeonseo noticed Suhan’s self-consciousness. Blinking his long-lashed eyes, Yeonseo unexpectedly lowered himself, lifting Suhan’s legs so that his knees rested on Yeonseo’s shoulders. What on earth was he planning? Before Suhan could even comprehend, Yeonseo’s soft, full lips wrapped around the tip of Suhan’s length, slowly taking him in.“Wait, wh-what are you…!”Suhan tried to push Yeonseo away, grabbing his shoulders, but Yeonseo had already taken in the entirety of his head, swallowing Suhan’s pre-cum with practiced ease. The skillful motion of his tongue caressed Suhan’s sensitive skin, sending waves of pleasure he hadn’t anticipated. With the rich pheromones he tasted, a blissful satisfaction filled Yeonseo’s half-lidded eyes.“Ah… ngh!”Overwhelmed, Suhan found himself struggling even more to keep his composure. Behind him, Yeonseo’s fingers had now increased to three, continuously pressing and stimulating him from within. Meanwhile, Yeonseo’s lips moved in perfect rhythm, swallowing and releasing, expertly bringing Suhan to a level of pleasure that was hard to endure. Yeonseo savored Suhan’s arousal as though it were the most delicious thing. Suhan’s well-shaped, sizable member appeared and disappeared between Yeonseo’s red lips, heightening his senses even further.The sensation was far more intense than anything Suhan had ever experienced alone, making his inner thighs tremble uncontrollably. Yeonseo, familiar with the way Suhan’s body tensed up just before release, prepared himself, opening his throat and pushing Suhan’s length in deeper until it reached the base. The tightness of Yeonseo’s throat around him pushed Suhan over the edge, and he gasped, pleading.“Please, w-wait… I’m going to…!”Without blinking, Yeonseo pressed down on Suhan’s prostate with his fingertips, locking eyes with him. In that dazed moment, Suhan saw his own confused reflection in Yeonseo’s gentle face.“Ah… ngh!”Suhan let out a shaky breath and came into Yeonseo’s mouth.Yeonseo let out a rough breath as the semen reached deep into his throat, briefly coughing to steady himself. Why even try that? As Suhan pulled back in surprise, gripping Yeonseo’s shoulders to do so, his softened length slipped out, mixed with saliva and other fluids, leaving Yeonseo’s flushed face with teary eyes from the heat gathered there. His cheeks were red, his breathing labored.Coughing softly, Yeonseo managed to regain control, wiping the fluid trailing down his chin with the back of his hand. Without hesitation, he leaned back down, taking Suhan into his mouth once more, slowly gliding from the base to the tip, his throat bobbing slightly as he swallowed every trace left behind.“This is… disgusting…” Suhan muttered, shocked.Yeonseo, unfazed, gave Suhan a reverent look, eyes hazy, and smiled up at him. “Not disgusting at all.”What part of this wasn’t disgusting? Suhan tried to pull away, lifting his legs, but Yeonseo’s grip tightened on his inner thigh, holding him firmly in place.“This spot right here, it’s sensitive, isn’t it?” Yeonseo murmured, gently prying the tightened entrance open with his fingers again, making Suhan squirm as a fresh wave of sensation washed over him.“Ah…!”It was still strange to him — being here, doing this with Yeonseo, and catching hints of that intoxicating scent that kept him from looking away. There were so many unusual things, but the hardest to accept was how his body craved the pleasure Yeonseo was giving. If just fingers could feel this good, he couldn’t even imagine how it would feel to have Yeonseo’s aroused, pheromone-laden length filling him. For someone like Suhan, who’d always thought of sex as revolting, the thought was unimaginable.“If I could, I’d really want to kiss you here too…” Yeonseo whispered with a soft laugh as Suhan, chest heaving, tensed at the suggestion. While Suhan tried to catch his breath, Yeonseo gently removed his fingers, which had been spreading him open from the inside, leaving him feeling empty.Soon, the soft head of Yeonseo’s firm length pressed against him.“Ah…”So this was really happening. Suhan, already accustomed to the feeling of Yeonseo’s fingers, felt a mix of emptiness and anticipation, and he turned his head, suddenly feeling self-conscious. The whole situation felt surreal; he’d known Yeonseo since childhood, and it felt almost unreal to be doing this with him. Of course, given they’d officially bonded, others would assume they’d done even more. Yet for the current Suhan, who’d lost all memories, this was a first. He’d watched Yeonseo grow from a kid barely reaching his waist.And now, this kid — the one who’d once nervously glanced around and hidden behind him — had not only grown taller than him but was down here, moving confidently. The sudden shift felt surreal.“Wait…”When had he gone from tearing up contracts and flirting to… this? Suhan now wanted to run and hide, which felt absurd even to him. Still, seeing the once-familiar, now surprisingly grown-up Yeonseo like this was both comforting and embarrassingly unfamiliar, making his face burn.“There’s no stopping now. You can’t run away.”When Suhan finally regained his senses, he found both his hands pinned above his head, firmly held by Yeonseo. An unsettling voice seemed to scratch at his ears, and he couldn’t bring himself to look down out of embarrassment, despite feeling the slow, deliberate pressure against the entrance. He had a vague idea of the size, but this was almost absurd. Suhan drew a sharp breath, feeling the tense, teasing pressure against his skin, as if daring him to open up.“Wait, it’s… too…”“Too what?”Yeonseo quickly cut in before Suhan could stumble through an answer, noticing his surprised expression, as if ready to flee. His face reddened deeply, and he finally managed to push out a response.“It’s… too big…”The words were mortifying, and he could feel the steady, intense warmth beneath him stirring, trickling down in translucent drops along his skin. Yeonseo gave a slight laugh, his eyes curving with amusement.“It’s fine. You’ve had me here often enough; it won’t hurt.”“What?”At the sound of such shameless words, Suhan’s eyes widened in shock.“Ugh…”The steady, teasing pressure he’d felt at the entrance finally gave way, and it began to stretch and fill him.“Ah, ngh…”This was a strange sensation, completely different from when he’d been sucking him earlier. What started as a faint, tingling ache soon shifted into an overwhelming pleasure flooding through his body. Although this was entirely new, Suhan’s body seemed to naturally crave it, almost as if it was instinctively urging Yeonseo deeper.“See? You’re enjoying it.”Even though only halfway in, the firm spot inside him was being pressed so fully that Suhan’s own arousal was twitching upward, as if on the brink of release. Could something have broken inside? It made no sense that he could feel anything other than pain from this, and yet, the pleasure was undeniable. As he tried to adjust to the deep sensation, Yeonseo pressed his hips firmly forward, filling him almost to the hilt.“Ah…!”The tip pressed against a spot low in his belly, which had shifted down more than usual, thanks to the increased fullness of his abdomen. A sensation of being touched so deeply sent a shiver through Suhan, making his back arch instinctively. Sensing his tension, Yeonseo leaned in to wrap his arms around Suhan’s waist, capturing his lips.“Hah… mm…”Yeonseo’s taste filling his mouth made it even harder for Suhan to stay grounded. Taking another man inside, carrying his child, and yet wanting to be filled even deeper — it was almost too much to process. His body, however, had already adjusted, wanting more. And Yeonseo, who knew Suhan’s body better than anyone, hadn’t missed a single signal.Following Suhan’s desires, Yeonseo drew back and then thrust in forcefully, parting him with each thrust. The intense movement made Suhan’s head spin as he gasped.“Ah, nngh, haah…”Worried that Suhan might feel pain, Yeonseo pulled back slightly, but Suhan’s body responded with a twitch, urging him to press in deeper. He pushed forward, sliding halfway back in, and Suhan’s hips jerked, filling the room with the slick sounds of their joining. The fluid that had already leaked out had practically created a small river below them. As Yeonseo thrust firmly, a wet sound filled the air.“Suhan… hyung… Suhan, hyung…”Yeonseo’s low, rhythmic voice made Suhan’s eyes squint in response. He didn’t have the capacity to answer; the only thing he could manage was to shake his head, overwhelmed by the intense pleasure building from below. Every touch, every movement felt electrifying, as though his entire body had become hypersensitive, his arousal trembling intensely.“Ah! Ngh… ah, hn…”Low moans escaped from between Suhan’s lips as Yeonseo pulled back, the sudden withdrawal dragging roughly across the sensitive inner walls, only to press back in with a slow, soothing rhythm that left Suhan reeling, overwhelmed by waves of intense pleasure. He had never felt anything close to this before; even when he’d touched himself, it had never come close to the way Yeonseo’s touch made his entire body feel as if it would melt.“Hah… ngh…”His body responded instinctively to Yeonseo’s every movement, his arousal so heightened that he could reach his peak at any moment. Yeonseo leaned close, exhaling softly against Suhan’s tightly closed lips as he gently stroked Suhan’s rounded stomach. This body, carrying their child, was precious to him. He remembered when he first met Suhan, how towering he’d seemed, almost impossible to imagine being close to. Now, he couldn’t imagine Suhan ever being anything less than exactly where he was meant to be.Watching him in his arms, unable to contain his pleasure as he eagerly took him in, filled Yeonseo with an overwhelming sense of satisfaction.