Speak of The Devil

The approaching guy was emitting a strong alcohol scent. Perhaps it was the smell emanating from my lips and nose. One thing was for sure—I was pleasantly intoxicated too.And intoxication always accompanies excitement, leading to desire.Before I knew it, I found myself sucking on the plump fleshiness that was touching my lips. I wrapped my arms around his waist, squeezing his buttocks. Park Heewon continuously bit and sucked my lips while teasing the front and back of my pants.I knew that the people in this gathering were light-hearted when it came to lower garments, but didn’t they say it was a gathering of Seo Jaeoh’s fan club? Why suddenly make a move on me?Did Park Heewon like me before? Does he still like me now? Then, isn’t it wrong for me to engage in intimacy with him?For a moment, I hesitated with these thoughts in my mind. However, when Park Heewon kissed my neck and firmly grasped between my legs, all those considerations evaporated. As I sucked on his lips, I thought.He never said he liked me, so why not just do it without understanding his feelings? If he confesses to me later, I can gently reject him at that time. It’s not like I have to act like a jerk. That was the kind of rationalization I had.Holding him in my arms, I turned and pressed him against the wall. When I untied my pants and pulled out my genitals from the underwear, Park Heewon also removed his pants. The guy took two condoms from his back pocket and placed his pants on the toilet lid.He grabbed my genitals. Although we had just relieved ourselves with Jaeho a while ago, Heewon’s hands diligently increased the volume of my genitals. Instead of sucking, Heewon continued to fondle my penis with his hand while his lips and tongue incessantly played with mine.“Just go for it.”Heewon said as he put a condom on my erect penis and then on his own. I looked at him puzzled. Then, the guy, whose voice was drowned by the excitement and alcohol, whispered in a moist voice.“I was planning to go to the club tonight, so I prepared in advance and came out.”In other words, it was a declaration that he intended to pick up a man and have a one-night stand. Heewon seemed unaware that this gathering would last so long. I chuckled and turned his body around.“Ugh…!”With the excited penis rubbing against the buttock crevice, Heewon let out a sweet moan. We were not in a gay club but a regular bar, and it seemed he was so intoxicated that he lost his senses. I wonder if we locked the door.“Be quiet.”I silenced myself and pressed the tip of my glans against his entrance. Despite his claims of being prepared, his entrance was already soft and slippery. I didn’t need to loosen it, and I was very grateful for that.“Uh…! Hng…!”With one hand on the wall and the other covering his mouth, Heewon suppressed his sounds. I, too, stifled my roughening breath and pushed my genitals into him. The mucous membrane enveloping my penis was warm. The sensation was so sweet it felt like my penis would melt. The pleasure amplified by the intoxication swirled around like a whirlwind.“Hu… hoo…”I pushed my genitals all the way into the quivering guy. Raising his shirt, I squeezed his chest. The nipples on his plump chest were already standing tall.“Uhng!”Turning his head, I bit and nibbled on his lips. Simultaneously, I began moving my hips. I gently thrust into him to avoid making too much noise in the bathroom. Instead of allowing any sounds, I softly moved within him.Heewon seemed to enjoy this level, as he kept moaning and whimpering. It seemed he couldn’t help but moan even though he tried to suppress it. At that moment, a sense of triumphant possession welled up within me. The breath of a man, excited and moaning, penetrated me through my penis, and it was thrilling. The sensation of my walls squeezing, unwilling to let go, was ecstatic. I suddenly realized there was something I had forgotten.After a while of continuing the thrusting, the climax approached. Heewon had already ejaculated several times. His face, soaked in red, trembling, was incredibly cute.I also knew I had to finish quickly. What was I doing in someone else’s business restroom? Even though we were trying to keep quiet, it was still a nuisance.So, I just needed to finish quickly. Heewon seemed satisfied at this point, so it was time to end it.“Huug…! Ah!”I pulled out my genitals and turned Heewon around. His eyes widened. Facing each other, I lifted him up by grabbing his buttocks. Understanding my intention, Heewon clung to me, wrapping his legs around my waist.“…!!”Of course, lifting and embracing a guy with a physique similar to mine was quite an impractical move. Nevertheless, pressing his body against the wall was not entirely impossible. Pushing him against the wall, redistributing the weight, I thrust my genitals back inside.“Ugh!”Heewon, his back against the restroom wall, suppressed his moans, biting his lips. It seemed he had ejaculated again as his inner walls clenched tightly around my penis.Ignoring his resistance, I continued to rough and vigorously stir within him in the challenging position. I covered Heewon’s lips with mine, silencing his rough breath and moans.Suppressing the harsh breath and moans, I moved toward the climax. Forcefully thrusting into Heewon’s hot and slippery opening, he couldn’t endure the pleasure and cuteness he emitted.“Ah… Aah….”At the moment of climax, pressing my penis into the deepest part of him, Heewon let out an exhausted moan, trembling all over. My body also tensed. The delightful sensation that had been boiling in my lower abdomen erupted suddenly. The electrifying pleasure of climax swept through my entire body.I planted a few kisses on Heewon’s sweaty neck. While our bodies still shivered from the afterglow, everything seemed fine.“….Ah….”Seeming satisfied, Heewon gently pushed my shoulder, signaling that he was okay. I withdrew my penis from him. I removed the condom from my now shrunken genitals, tossing it into the trash. Then, I quickly wiped myself with tissues. Heewon, too, followed similar procedures.“Are you okay?”“Don’t be annoying. That’s very irritating, you know?”The guy tapped my shoulder and gestured towards the door. Even though both of us still had flushed cheeks and the lingering aftermath of sex, his decisive attitude was sharp as a knife. As we finished, I inwardly felt relieved at Heewon’s demeanor.Exiting the restroom stall, we washed our hands side by side. Due to the rising heat, our faces were flushed, so we splashed cold water on them.“I’m heading home now. Let the others know.”“You’re leaving? What about your stuff? Your phone or something.”“I brought it with me. I’ll be on my way.”He was truly a cool guy. Not only was he already prepared when leaving home, but he even made arrangements to go straight home after having sex, targeting me as he went into the bathroom alone.“See you next time.”“Yeah, go ahead.”He left the restroom first. Although I also wanted to head home immediately, a sudden thought struck me when I remembered placing my phone on the table. Jaeoh was seated at that table, so I thought I should at least erase any traces of what had just happened. However, cooling down my flushed face was a problem as my cheek still felt hot.Then, the restroom door opened again. Initially, I didn’t pay any attention to who was coming in. I had no reason to be concerned since it wasn’t Heewon who entered during our intimate moment. However, the sense of presence lingering near me forced me to turn my head.“Here.”Standing next to me was Seo Jaeoh.“Your phone.”He held out my phone toward me with an expressionless face.“Uh…”I couldn’t even manage to say thank you. In my bewildered state, I quickly received the damp phone with my wet hands. Unconsciously, I wiped my moist face with my hands. Damn it, my face was still hot.Wait, what should I say in a situation like this?I couldn’t articulate anything due to my perplexity. Recalling a similar situation in the past was no help. Just like Heewon’s statement earlier, I was the one who intentionally brought someone else in front of the person who liked me to avoid troublesome situations.However, it was only natural that my actions would hurt the person who liked me. Moreover, the person right in front of me now was Seo Jaeoh. Just a few hours ago, I thought I didn’t want to hurt Jaeoh, despite what he had done.“What, acting like you’ve committed a crime?”When Jaeoh bluntly spoke, I stiffened. I could only stare at him, watching as he casually spoke as if nothing had happened.“It’s not like I don’t know what kind of person you are.”“No, I mean…”It was an awkward and embarrassing situation. However, as if not wanting to make it more awkward, Jaeoh remained composed. His face showed no sign of discomfort.“Let’s go. Found a place. Those who want to leave can go, the rest can go to a second round.”“Uh, well, I was planning to go home.”“Then do that.”Jaeoh replied, turned around, and I followed him.“…But I guess you really managed to forget that jerk.”His muttered words, almost inaudible, seemed like a compliment to me.I absentmindedly rubbed my face again. My cheeks were still hot. Perhaps, during Heewon’s moment with that guy, people didn’t enter because Jaeoh was blocking the door.I did something regrettable again.But, anyway, if I wouldn’t reciprocate his feelings, is it such a bad thing that I had sex with someone else? Even if I tell myself it’s nothing, Jaeoh probably knows everything and nonchalantly acknowledges it.…But you really know it can’t be that simple, Lee Nan.The voice in my head made me feel a pang of guilt. The word “sorry” almost slipped off my tongue.“…Jaeoh.”“Yeah?”I’m sorry.“I’ll go ahead.”However, the apology didn’t come out of my mouth. It’s better to let it be. No, honestly… it’s because Jaeoh’s feelings are burdensome to me.I pretended everything was fine, but in reality, knowing he was hurting, I turned a blind eye. And I walked away from Jaeoh, hailing a taxi on the street. I didn’t even think about saying goodbye to the others.Jaeoh must have been hurt for sure. But I don’t regret having sex with Heewon. There was no regret in the pleasure I experienced after a long time.…How am I any different from Jung Yiyeon in the end?Throughout the journey back home, I couldn’t erase self-deprecating questions from my mind. Eventually, I had to admit it, and admitting it made me perfectly understand Jung Yiyeon’s feelings as well.Jung Yiyeon and I, we were just the same bastards.***On Monday, I woke up early in the morning. Today was the day when I had to take a very difficult step.I hoped my heart would be calm, but there was some unavoidable tension. It was an emotion closer to uncomfortable uneasiness than a pleasant excitement.I shaved my head and took a shower. I tidied my hair a bit more neatly than usual. I initially wore a white round-neck T-shirt with jeans, then changed into slacks and a short-sleeved shirt. I briefly considered wearing a suit, but wearing just a blazer seemed formal enough.I didn’t need to wear a suit just because I was going to the company, not for an interview or to start working. I was satisfied with the casual look, not tying a tie and leaving a few buttons unbuttoned, making it appear somewhat casual.After dressing a bit more formally than usual, I also put on glasses.When I stepped outside, it wasn’t even noon yet, but the weather was hot. I felt like going home right away. Maybe I should just take it easy for the rest of August and go to the beach? I had wanted to learn surfing. Or maybe scuba diving. It seemed like a good idea to get an open water certification when I had time.Of course, that presupposed having money… I had my brother’s credit card. It was a very tempting solution. If I got a job later, I could pay it back. Or maybe I could break my savings right away.But what was the reason for me to wake up early today, set the alarm, and make up my mind?After being rejected in four consecutive interviews, my self-esteem dropped. Last week, I didn’t even receive a call from the place I submitted my resume. I applied only to places hiring experienced professionals, but it seemed my experience wasn’t enough to pass even the initial screening.If I kept failing to get a job, I worried that I would end up forever unemployed, maybe even resorting to finding part-time jobs.Waiting until my brother returned was one way, but I didn’t want to cause trouble for him. I didn’t want to become a younger brother who couldn’t support himself at this age. So, when my brother returned and saw the missed call, I didn’t say anything about the reason but expressed curiosity about how he was doing.In the end, I got on the bus. It was the same bus I used to take for commuting early in the morning.Yes, today was the day I was going to meet Jung Yiyeon.It took about 50 minutes to an hour from home to the company by public transportation. Since it was past the rush hour, there was no traffic congestion on the roads. The subway transfer was also quiet. Thanks to that, it only took about 45 minutes, the shortest time ever, to get to the company.Even on the way, my heart wasn’t at ease. Maybe Jung Yiyeon wouldn’t be at his desk, so it could be a futile trip. Although it wouldn’t have been difficult to contact someone in the company office to find out Jung Yiyeon’s schedule, I chose not to. I decided to leave the meeting to fate. If I happened to meet him, I would bring up the topic, and if not, I resolved not to visit him twice.As the company got closer by the minute, my feelings fluctuated with uncomfortable emotions. I began to regret what I might be doing for no reason.However, no matter how much I thought about it, I felt like my failure to get a job in this career was Jung Yiyeon’s fault.So, I arrived at the company just before 11 AM. However, I hesitated to go in. It seemed like someone might be embarrassed to see me, so I lingered at the entrance. I wandered around the entrance as if I were lost.Was there a reason to meet him? I had come this far boldly, but I couldn’t muster the courage to enter.“Lee Nan?”At that moment, someone called my name. When I turned around, Seo Jaeoh was approaching me.His eyes widened when he saw me. I was also surprised when I saw him, like catching a married man who was cheating. But when I looked at Jaeoh’s face, for some reason, my tense heart seemed to relax a bit.“What’s up? What brings you here?”“Um, I was actually thinking of meeting the President for real.”Since last Friday night, we had exchanged messages casually after Jaeoh found out that I had sex with Park Hee-won in the bathroom. Although we hadn’t avoided contact, meeting face-to-face was the first time. It wasn’t because we tried to avoid each other. Jaeoh was really busy, making it difficult to meet not only on weekdays but even on weekends. So, I thought he might be avoiding my contact from his side, but that wasn’t the case. Jaeoh’s face looked exhausted, as if he had really gone through a lot.“Why?”“Uh…”Jaeoh frowned. I agreed with that expression. Going to meet a sex partner whom I had parted with on bad terms just because I couldn’t get a job, could there be anything more pathetic than this?However, I had a strong sense of doubt bordering on certainty.“Do you believe that I haven’t received any interview offers now?” Despite submitting several resumes last week, there were no interview invitations, let alone any rejection notices. It seemed like I was just ignored. Even in one place where I had an acquaintance, I couldn’t get a response, making me suspicious that there might be a problem with my email account.Jaeoh, who had seen my resume before, also looked surprised. Logically, considering my qualifications and experience, it was strange that I couldn’t get a job.“Well, if there’s nothing else to do, I thought I’d check if they’re really blocking it. I just wanted to confirm.”“Are you willing to meet?”“If you go, we can meet. Otherwise, I won’t come again. It’s too disturbing, so I thought I’d leave it to fate.”When someone desperately wants a job and is being ignored after consecutive failures, it’s challenging to think rationally. Even if Jung Yiyeon wasn’t intentionally blocking me, considering that I left the company because of him, he had an obligation to help me find another job. Wasn’t that the condition on which our relationship began?“But now that I’m about to go in, I wonder if this is right. I’m nervous.”“Since you’ve come this far, you have to go in.”Unexpectedly, Jaeoh seemed more firm than me. Surprisingly, I became flustered. When he said I had to do it, I became even more nervous. I kept telling myself to do it lightly, but when it came time to ask Jung Yiyeon to change jobs, I felt extremely hesitant.“Or should I ask for you?”Oh, that was quite a tempting suggestion. Without realizing it, I almost nodded to accept that offer. However, why would Jaeoh be involved in this? Even if Jaeoh pretended to be indifferent, as someone who knew that was definitely not the case, I couldn’t ask him to do that.“No, I should do it.”Everything was solely my responsibility.I gathered my courage once again. Though my heart was pounding rapidly with anxiety and tension, it seemed slightly better than before. Facing Jung Yiyeon with Jaeoh’s support gave me a bit more strength.“All right. Let’s meet, and let me know afterward.”“Hey, go inside. I’ll contact you later.”I ushered Jaeoh inside first and headed toward the entrance leading to the office. From there, I could access the President’s office through the elevator.As I entered, I saw a few employees passing by. Since none of the familiar faces were around, I continued walking towards the elevator. The security guard gave me a brief glance, but he didn’t stop me from entering the employees’ elevator. I went up to the President’s office without any hindrance.Wearing casual clothes while heading to the President’s office was an unfamiliar experience, and it felt strange. I felt a slight queasiness in my stomach.As I stepped out of the elevator, a male employee was sitting at the secretary desk. His face looked familiar. It was Secretary Park, who used to occupy the seat where I usually sat. He was sitting there now. When our eyes met, he widened his eyes.“Oh, Secretary!”“How have you been? It’s been a while.”I smiled, pretending like everything was normal. He also stood up, expressing his delight.“You suddenly quit, changed your contact information, and disappeared. I was so surprised! Is everything all right?”“I had some personal reasons, so I couldn’t help it. I’m here to meet the President. Is he inside?”“Yes, he’s in. Is it something urgent? Talk about your recent situation for a bit before you go. Why did you change your phone number?”“I had some personal issues.”I chuckled vaguely, not giving him a proper answer. Secretary Park, who sensed that I had no intention of elaborating, smirked. However, he didn’t press further.“So, is Secretary Park going to be the President’s personal secretary now?”“No, I can’t handle the work like you do. Who would do that job? I’ll just guard the desk, answer calls, and guide guests.”Thanks to his honest response, I could deduce that Jung Yiyeon hadn’t found a replacement secretary to fulfill my role. Even though I felt my absence, someone was at least there to manage the desk. Secretary Park, who tactfully noticed that I had no intention of explaining further, grinned, but he didn’t push me any further.“Then, are you planning to return?”“No, it’s not like that.”“That’s a shame. Well, the job is quite demanding.”“Well, it’s a bit awkward, isn’t it? Please inform the President that I’m here.”Secretary Park understood and immediately contacted the President through the internal line. After a brief conversation that went like, “Lee Nan is here,” Secretary Park hung up and guided me into the President’s office. Though I wasn’t a guest requiring formal treatment, they allowed me to be treated as one.Entering the President’s office in casual attire and being guided instead of guiding others into the office felt unfamiliar. The tension seemed to intensify slightly. I moved my steps into the room, beyond the door that Secretary Park had opened.The office appeared almost unchanged from when I left.Inside, Jung Yiyeon was sitting at the familiar desk, flipping through documents. His haircut seemed neater than before, perhaps due to a recent trim. There was a slightly sharper aura about him, maybe because of his hairstyle.Suddenly, memories of our last encounter surfaced.Jung Yiyeon had visited my home, and without letting him inside, I had questioned him while standing outside. I recalled his face as he uttered nonsense like “Let’s date,” and how his face turned pale at my rejection.I had closed the door in front of him. Jung Yiyeon hadn’t pressed the doorbell again or contacted me afterward. He hadn’t clung to me. Therefore, I thought he had completely moved on from me.Maybe that was the truth. Perhaps my unemployment was entirely unrelated to Jung Yiyeon. If that were the case, I would be leaving today with a bunch of embarrassing memories.“So, what’s going on?”Amidst the tension, Jung Yiyeon was the first to speak. His gaze finally turned towards me. Without uttering a word, he gestured for me to enter without giving me any instructions to sit. He was still maintaining the same arrangement as when he was the President, and I was his secretary.“Secretary Lee?”In the midst of my nervousness, what jolted me back to reality was the way he addressed me. When did I quit being his secretary, and why was he calling me ‘Secretary Lee’ now?“Secretary Lee. I’m not that idle.”His cold, cutting voice made me feel inexplicably irritated when he referred to me as ‘Secretary Lee.’ However, what was clear at that moment was that I felt terribly uncomfortable, enough to overshadow the tension.“Are you blocking my job offers, by any chance?”Impulsively, amid my tenseness, I was moved to speak, and my vocal cords made words come out.