Speak of The Devil

Should I just shout at him and leave as I please? However, the warning not to test him was squeezing my heart.“Ha.”“Will you accept it?”In a situation where I used to threaten people without hesitation, now the tone was cautious. Therefore, it was even more repulsive.It would be easy to leave this place depending on my emotions. However, could I handle the aftermath? It was inevitable that my heart would become timid.In my mind, my brother’s face flashed. Even if Jaeoh was someone else, my brother was a different story. I didn’t expect that mentioning my brother to Jung Yiyeon would come back to haunt me like this. The threat related to my brother echoed in my ears.At the same time, I was worried about the opposite case as well. What if my brother found out that I had been threatened like this by Jung Yiyeon? I couldn’t predict how my brother would react. It was frightening to think that my brother might end up doing something unbearable. That was even scarier than the threat Jung Yiyeon had made.So, should I really go through with what Jung Yiyeon said, ten times?In the renewed sense of humiliation, my clenched fist trembled. The feeling of contempt for him grew significantly inside me. I had liked him, and then I had stopped, just finding him repulsive. But I never expected to feel such deep contempt for him.“…Crazy bastard.”In the end, curses spilled from my mouth. There was a time when I thought both Jung Yiyeon and I were the same bastards. But I was wrong. Jung Yiyeon was a filthy and dangerous piece of trash that couldn’t be compared to me.“Son of a bitch.”Jung Yiyeon made a strange expression at the unfiltered curse that came out of my mouth. While he seemed surprised by my swearing, there was something like a smile on his lips. It was as if he found joy in my anger and curses.“…Three times.”“As many times as you contacted me?”Good grief. It was definitely more than ten times. At that time, I was really desperate for him.However, now it felt as if there were thorns stuck in my throat, making it hard to force down the curses that were about to burst out. Swallowing the urge to unleash my anger took effort. Would I feel relieved if I let out my anger without restraint and slapped him in the face? However, I knew that even this anger would be consuming.Ultimately, since I entered this room, my choices had long been predetermined. Inside my head, the rationalization circuit started working hard. After all, I was someone who could have sex with anyone if they matched my preferences. When desires piled up, I wasn’t very selective about my partners. So, having sex with Jung Yiyeon wasn’t an impossible act.It was just an act of excretion—setting it up, doing it, and fighting. Thinking of it as a release of desires, I made up my mind. I thought it was the best option.“Is it true that it ends after ten times?”“Is my credibility that low?”“Answer me clearly.”“Promise. Do I need to write a contract for you to feel secure?”Jung Yiyeon, who noticed that I had given in, smiled maliciously. It was a picturesque smile on a handsome face, but now, with my emotions gone cold, it was an unpleasant face to look at.“Then get up.”Suddenly getting up and putting on his jacket, he looked at me with a sarcastic expression. I must have hesitated and taken a step back without realizing it. Looking at me like that, Jung Yiyeon spoke smoothly.“Do you want to do it here? I don’t mind setting the mood on the first day, but it might be inconvenient with employees here.”Only then did I realize that this bastard was demanding one of the ten times right now.Ah, damn it… Curses flowed out without reservation as a deep sigh poured out. It was so annoying and unpleasant that I felt like I might vomit any moment.However, once the decision was made, I had to do it no matter what. I didn’t want to talk or mix words with Jung Yiyeon anymore.“Shall we go to the apartment?”“No. It feels good to be at my place after a long time.”Why? When he wanted to use me as a tool for sexual relief, he asked me to come to the apartment because he didn’t want to let me into his house. But now, when he wanted to tease me, he thought it would be nice to go to his house? In any case, the place had no meaning to me when the emotions had already passed.Sex. Yes, the madness-inducing act of sex. It wasn’t something I had tried once or twice, nor was it with just one or two people. Just as Jung Yiyeon treated me as a convenient sex toy, I also considered him as merely a dildo.“Then let’s go separately.”“Ride in my car. It’s not necessary to make it complicated.”“I wouldn’t want the employees to notice us going together.”I no longer cared about how Jung Yiyeon would interpret or react to my words. Instead, I felt a small sense of satisfaction seeing the slightly annoyed expression on his face.Liking me? Proposing a romantic relationship? Ten times of sex. That was probably his way of seducing me somehow, but he got it all wrong. There was no way affection would develop from a situation where he demanded a relationship through coercion. Instead, I would become more indifferent.“Especially keep it a secret from Jaeoh. I don’t want to hurt him. Of course, I will continue to meet him in the future.”While I had no plans to engage in a sexual relationship with Jaeoh anymore, and I could meet someone else if I wished, Jung Yiyeon wouldn’t misunderstand or speak carelessly about my relationship with Jaeoh. I stated it plainly.Upon hearing this, Jung Yiyeon stared at me with a hardened face. After a moment, he spoke as if chewing on his words.“Hanging on to me, I’ll tolerate that to some extent, even a hundred times, but you have to do it properly, ten times. I won’t settle for just the quantity if you lie there like a log.”His tone was as rigid as his stern expression.Once again, I found myself speechless at his words. His shameless lack of conscience left me at a loss for words. Jung Yiyeon. This guy was truly more of a bastard than I had imagined. Displaying jealousy towards Jaeoh and showing his hurt face, it was disgusting beyond words.So, I have to have sex with this bastard I don’t even like, just because he said so in this situation? I wanted to hit him really hard.Same polite language. Come to think of it, I belatedly realized that at some point, Jung Yiyeon had started calling me “You” instead of “Lee Nan” That annoyed me as well. Although I’m a few years younger, and not his employee, it’s not the situation for informal language. But what’s annoying about polite language?My chest alternated between chilling with contempt for Jung Yiyeon and boiling with anger. Throughout the taxi ride to Jung Yiyeon’s house, I pondered over my decision and regretted it. However, it seemed like there was no other option.Did I give up too easily? Would it have been better to decide after seeing what other tricks Jung Yiyeon had up his sleeve, besides blocking my job opportunity? In fact, it could have been a bluff.Suddenly, I felt a strong urge to smoke. Damn it, what the hell was Jung Yiyeon thinking, asking me not to smoke? Despite this feeling, I couldn’t resist, so I got off the taxi, entered a convenience store, and smoked a few cigarettes.At that moment, Jaeoh’s message arrived. It felt like a weight had been placed on my chest when I read his message asking if everything was going well. Describing this situation seemed burdensome and overwhelming.This situation would be different from the previous sexual encounter with Baek Heewon in the bathroom, which was not too different for me, but Jaeoh would likely react sensitively. No, it was different for me as well. It was a fucking terrible situation.So, I hastily crafted a response, saying that the talk went well, and I offered to help with the job change. Fortunately, Jaeoh didn’t read it, and there was no response.After sending the message after careful consideration, while waiting for a reply that never came, I lit another cigarette. It was already the third one. However, no matter how much I smoked, I couldn’t shake off the feeling of emptiness. Instead, my mouth felt dry, and my throat became parched.It was just sex, nothing more. Just satisfying desires. Since the encounter with Baek Heewon, I hadn’t been with anyone else, so my desires were at their peak.“Ah, damn it…”After tossing the almost burnt cigarette near the filter into the trash bin in front of the convenience store, I lit another one. I couldn’t put my foot down.Why did Jung Yiyeon change his mind now? It would have been better if he hadn’t changed at all. At least, he should have changed before my feelings did. If that had happened, I wouldn’t have ended up in this situation. If I still harbored feelings for him, I could have accepted Jung Yiyeon’s confession and celebrated his happiness with regret.But it was too late for that now. Too much had changed.I no longer fluttered with excitement or found happiness through Jung Yiyeon. What remained was an unwanted, superficial pleasure in ten pitiful acts of intercourse.I wished Jung Yiyeon had never liked me in the first place.